What should I do...?

Alright I know when a parent passes away it hurts like a bitch! The first thing আপনি gotta do is accept they will not be around anyway. আপনি will never get passed this if u keep holding onto that tiny feeling inside আপনি that thinks she is coming back. Unfortunatly its not going to happen. পরবর্তি start thinking positivley. Try and look অগ্রবর্তী and stop thinking আপনি will never সরানো past this. Finaly find someone আপনি can talk to and go to when আপনি are having panic attacks like this, never bottle things up always try and get your feelings out somehow <3
hope this helped somewhat (:

Well I can not even start to understand what আপনি are feeling as both my parents are alive however my nan died when I was 3. For many years I never thought about it but then a few years পূর্বে I found myself feeling sad she had gone so now on the anniversary of her death the 15 February each বছর I go into a church and light a candle whisper to her tell her my problems tell her I am thinking about her as if she is there with me. For me this is enough that I can then go another 365 days without thinking about her too much. May be আপনি could do something similar. I do hope your feelings get better but it will take time and আপনি must remember it is only a বছর পূর্বে which really is not much time at all.

I can't pretend to understand your pain, since both my parents are alive and no one close to me has died since I was too young to remember it, but I'll try and help.

It sounds like you're struggling to সরানো on and accept what's happened. I think if আপনি accept that she's gone, and focus on what you're going to do in the future. I doubt your mum would have wanted আপনি to spend your time grieving- she'd have wanted আপনি to go and live your life to the full and enjoy your life without her. As in the উত্তর before this, আপনি could do something to remember her- perhaps আপনি could make a scrapbook of pictures of আপনি together that আপনি could look through on her birthday, and think about her then- you're allowed to grieve and be sad. But then focus on what আপনি want to do with the future. Look at what আপনি still have in your life- friends, the rest of your family, your hobbies and talents- focus on these rather than your grief, but give yourself that time to be sad and think abotu her.

Hope this is at all helpful.
All the best <3