( this takes place the morning after the dream and the nightmare)
Opening my eyes was such a chore after last nights horrible nightmares;: the hellish fires, the rape and death of my beloved and the vision of the evil scar wolf. as difficult as it was to open my eyes the world made sure i did; the gleaming sun shine bursting through my window and onto my face, the birds গান গাওয়া there beautiful songs outside in the trees and a beautiful নেকড়ে lying in my বিছানা and in my arms right পরবর্তি to me; her পশম tickling my face in a way that made me shiver.
i looked around after struggling to open my weary eyes to see my mother looking right at me, with a fiery look in her eyes at me and crystal snuggled up in বিছানা together. Mother did not say a word as crystal was still asleep. seeing the white stuff dried on the বিছানা clothes mother got even angrier.
Me:(whispering) "mum i can explain........."
Mum:(whispering) "CAN YOU!!!"
My silence only made the moment আরো awkward as I struggled to find the right words to tame my mothers fury.
I finally managed to find the right words. I would try to tell her why this is ok, why I প্রণয় Crystal and how a man and নেকড়ে relationship could work.
me: "yes i can, Crystal isn't like other wolves...she has...human qualities, she can talk, she is super intelligent and she can প্রণয় a human which is something most other
নেকড়ে cannot do!!
she can cook and laugh and she is....beautiful and I প্রণয় her too!!!"
Mum: "And who is this human that this human-wolf-thing loves then HMM!!!"
Me: "ME!! she loves me and i প্রণয় her and she will tell আপনি herself when she wakes up!!"
a short silence fell over the room as my mum walked out of the room with a look that cut through me like a hot ছুরি
through soft butter. As i looked over Crystal peacefully
sleeping i couldn't help but look up to god and hope that the nightmare i had the night before didn't become a grim possibility; i would do all i could so that Crystal would be নিরাপদ forever more.
Walking downstairs i was dreading my mothers পরবর্তি words as i looked her again in the face but nothing could have prepared me for what happened next. As my foot hit the bottom step with a thud i heard my mums voice bellow out from the kitchen.
Mum: "sorry son" she ব্যক্ত in a sad tone.
Me: "it is ok mum it is just....you need to stop অভিনয় before আপনি know the situation! Ok!"
The rest of the morning went off with out a hitch, peaceful
and quiet just like the moment I woke up. Crystal awoke remembering what she had seen the night before; me in a cold sweat screaming her name as I awoke suddenly from
that awful nightmare; she chose not to say anything because
she feared my reaction. She knew that there was a time and a place for everything and now was not the time to talk about nightmares as Crystal had a bigger problem. Crystal had ti appease and persuade my mohr that this relationship would work.Mother kept giving Crystal some very fiery looks as she walked down the stairs. Ignoring this crystal walked into the
front room to greet me on this sunny morning.
Crystal: "Morning lover how was your night, দ্বারা night I mean what happened before we went to sleep hehe"!
Me: "it was magical my love". I ব্যক্ত looking her in the eyes.
I did not utter a word about the nightmares for fears of making Crystal worry about my phsycological state. The moment was still amazing though, staring deep into her eyes. They say that the eyes are the windows to the soul; hers were a 12 inch thick, double bolted rieforced rareatanium security door with a combination I had to crack.
The rest of the morning consisted of a bit of tele, a lot of মেটালিকা and finally a delishiois full ENGLISH breakfast consisting of: four rashers of bacon, two sausages, 3 কাটা brown and a few hundred mushrooms before going on ফ্যানপপ to chat with my pack. Alphawolfcurt seemed to be the only one on at that time so I chatted to my Australian bro.
Curt: "hey metal my budd"
Me: "hey pal how are ya?"
Curt: "ok, how is crystal?"
Me: "she is thoroughly satisfied XD"
Curt: "nice one."
Me: "how is Sarah and your child?"
Curt: "they are fine, Sarah has morning sickness and has a craving for chicken, apart from that the lump is getting bigger, won't be long now and I will have myself a child :D"
Me: "I am so pleased for আপনি pal! :)"
The conversation was a fun one but as the hours passed I had to leave the conversation and come off the I-mac. I looked at Crystal taking a peaceful nap on the পালঙ্ক and contemplated telling her about the nightmare and my worries...maybe she can put my mind at rest. Just as I felt the courage to tell her my metaphorical paranoia pops up right
infront of me: an ugly looking fellow about my size with the same মেটালিকা শার্ট on as I. He started to tell me why I shouldn't tell her about my worries; taunting and insulting me in the process.
Paranoia: "what do আপনি think আপনি are doing! Your not going to tell her are you!? What are আপনি gonna tell her-oh i found out i am a perv crystal, i had a dream আপনি got raped and killed- আপনি moron, আপনি call yourself a Metalwolf, your hearts not made of gold; it is made of tinfoil. she will start worrying about your mental health, she will start worrying about what আপনি have in mind to do to her and then in the end, just to rub salt into your wound she will leave you!"
My paranoia was a bastard, he would never leave me alone and the আরো he appeared the less choice i had except to listen to him. But-like always-i had a counter against my paranoia and his name was confidence: a good looking chap
about my size with a মেটালিকা t-shirt on. he started to tell me why i should tell crystal whilst building up what paranoia had knocked down.
Confidence: নমস্কার KING!!! how are ya, আপনি look great, is that a new hair cut? isn't he great everyone, isn't he fantastic, নেকড়ে with a হৃদয় of স্বর্ণ and a look of steel. King, don't listen to this jerk, tell your beautiful wolf, she will understand how worried আপনি are about her and that other wolf. she will প্রণয় আপনি regardless just like i do king-hehe!!
both of them then disappeared as i got up to sit on the sofa with Crystal. Balancing what they told me tortured my mind; what was i to do? how can i tell Crystal without worrying her.
i finally decided to go with my confidence because i liked him better.
I walked slowly and nervously over to the sofa to where my
প্রণয় layed and decided to tell her out straight about the insidious nightmare.
Me: "Crystal my love? Can I tell আপনি something?"
Crystal: "what is it darling?"
Me: "remember last night?"
Crystal: "oh yeah, how can I forget? Poor baby." She ব্যক্ত
holding my face with both paws. "what happened baby"!
Me: "I had a very.....frightening nightmare about....you."
She looked at me strangely, as if to say "it is ok and it was only a dream but why about me?"
Me: "you weren't the bad thing about the nightmare sweety.......it was what happened to you." I ব্যক্ত wondering how she would react.
Crystal: "metal. I want আপনি to know that I am here for আপনি no matter what. I প্রণয় আপনি and nothing will change that. আপনি shouldn't worry about telling me one silly nightmare!"
Those few words were just what my confidence was talking about. She would প্রণয় me no matter what and I প্রণয় her in the same way.
So I told her about the nightmare and why I woke up in a cold sweat screaming her name. I told her about the nice part first, cuddling in the hey, the little চুম্বন that created fireworks in my pants. I then began to tell her about the transformation from dream into nightmare; the burning fires licking at my feet and Crystals disappearance into the dark craggy cave and lastly I told her about the bit that I was dreading the most; the end of the nightmare; Crystal dead and raped on the floor underneath that scarred monster with her eyes staring me down and then the final bite that sent me back to reality.
Crystal stared at me bewildered and slightly scared.
Crystal: "why are আপনি dreaming of him baby?"
Me: "I don't know, I just worry about you, what is the possibilty that he escapes and comes looking for you!? I will not let anything happen to you; remember that...ok!" I ব্যক্ত clutching her left paw.
Crystal: "listen Daniel, the chances of him escaping are minuscule. He couldn't get out if he wanted to."
Me: "I am just so scared that if he does he will try and find আপনি and finish what he started. How can i protect আপনি from the scum of the earth?"
Crystal: "Even if he did escape how will he find where we live? It is a grim but small possibilty. even if he did find where we lived i know that if we worked together it wouldn't be me that was dead on the floor; but him dead in reality and in our minds. Now if আপনি will excuse me I am being called back to sleepy land hehe."
Me: "ok love. See ya when আপনি wake up."
As confident as Crystal was I wish I could have ব্যক্ত the same for myself. The thoughts still ravaged my head. What if he did find her? What if he did escape? How would I protect her from the scum of the world? As real as they were I partly believed in crystals confidence just to reassure my self. These worries were small and incignificant possibilities. But small as they were they were still very much real and very grim possibilities indeed.