Do আপনি feel the same way??

im starting to hate/love anime! Heres why:
The Hate is not really hate its আরো like envy and jealously, cuz in জীবন্ত shows the guy always protects the girl and is such a hero to her and makes me really jealous!! ( Example Misa and Usui from Maid Sama ) and i know that nobody wiil ever be like that to me and i get mad at জীবন্ত for being so unrealistic and making me mad so ya, so i quit for a while then i go like: NO I প্রণয় ANIME!!!!!! জীবন্ত ROCKS I CANT GO WITHOUT IT!!!!!!!! IT IS MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!! so ya, but the good news is that প্রণয় is winning over hate! and ill never hate জীবন্ত im just annoyed! so my প্রশ্ন is: do আপনি guys feel the same way??