Ari & Rachel ♥ Article: ☾happy anniversary, my moon☽

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posted by fairfarren

what i felt when i first met you

'sup girl. i don't even know how to start this অথবা what to say but i'm a writer so imma wing it. there's like a galaxy worth of stuff i could say but then again it's like i can only grasp a constellation worth when i'm grasping. it's strange, sitting down and pouring out your হৃদয় and soul. it makes আপনি vulnerable and open to the world in a weird way, but আপনি know everything about me anyway so it's not like it matters. anyway. so. when we met. hmm. that nostalgia man. i've already told আপনি like a million times how i sat in my laundry room trying to get wifi to talk to you. it's a special memory for me, how there was always something in me that reached out to আপনি even though আপনি were no আরো than a stranger to me, no আরো than a passing wanderer in life. and yet, something drew me to you, something i still can't pinpoint even to this day. but as we talked, we got closer and i tried to treasure every second. there have been times where i have been a horrible person, a horrible friend and i have mistreated আপনি and taken advantage of you. and there have been some horrible falling outs between us, in which i do not look upon often, but when i do, it's with a sorrowful countenance (excuse your resident literature buff lmao). but the point is, আপনি have always accepted me. accepted all sides of me. without question. and i appreciate that আরো than আপনি know. that kind of loyalty and understanding cannot be earned অথবা gained অথবা bought. somehow i was lucky enough to meet you, to meet such a kind, honest person. and i have tried to accept each side of আপনি as well and i hope i have done a good job. if i achieve nothing else in life, i will have wanted to be a good friend. if, before আপনি die, i am that to আপনি then my life will have been worth living.
i প্রণয় you. i প্রণয় the angry rachel, the passionate rachel, the procrastinating rachel, the sweet rachel, the clingy rachel, the hilarious rachel, the deep rachel, the sad rachel. i প্রণয় them all. দ্বারা now you're probably tired of পাঠ করা your name haha sorry. but i just want আপনি to know that. i প্রণয় the sides i can't fathom, the sides i've forgotten, the sides i've not mentioned. i even প্রণয় the sides that irritate me, that annoy me. i even প্রণয় the sides i hate. don't ask me how অথবা why but i just do. and i always will. if আপনি ever need me for anything, i am দ্বারা your side. আপনি are eternally stuck with me. thank আপনি for blessing me with your life, your presence, your soul. thank আপনি for giving me this connection i can never replace, return, অথবা trade.
we've been together four years. for years. that's crazy. years. touching someone's life so much they want to talk to আপনি everyday, they're interested in every aspect of your life, they are your best friend. it feels like a century. it feels like a moment. i wouldn't have believed someone if they told me i would be this close to you, that আপনি would mean this much to me. but now i can't imagine a world without you. fate অথবা god অথবা whatever, they were fucking smart to pull us together. we need each other. we build each other up when we're torn down. we wouldn't be here without each other. it's so weird to look upon. as an outsider, i don't think i could understand our friendship. it is a singular one. it is one in a hundred million. it's special. it's special to me, it's special in general. damn. how. i প্রণয় our crazy (THREE HOUR?!?!) conversations, how we can go from ডিজনি princesses to the crevices of our soul, how we can tell each other everything, how we can talk about everything. not everyone can do that. not everyone can have that. i am so fucking lucky, i swear to god. thank you.
i প্রণয় you. those three words are so simple and yet hold so much. আপনি are everything to me. i প্রণয় you, my moon. and i will always be your sun.

"what do আপনি see, when আপনি look at me?
don't cover my scars, let them bleed
tell me, is this how it's supposed to be?
well then, i'm so, i'm so happy.
we don't need rehab."

lmao i got one স্বর্ণ for this aMaZiNg article? i do প্রণয় you, নিড়ানি, hoe :p

you've always seen the best x

maybe i'll have to get this if আপনি don't want one gAh #firstworldproblems

maybe i'll have to get this if you don't want one gAh #firstworldproblems

ma gunna lova (idek tryna be a rapper)

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