It’s not who আপনি think it is

I was only 12 when I first saw him; I was walking to school under the rain, wearing nothing but my uniform স্কার্ট and a white blouse, it was so windy, the only thing I remember was loosing my umbrella and being all wet on the street. I tried to run after it, but the wind blew it off too quickly; I was covering myself with my arms and running, fighting the wind and trying to get to school as fast as I could, but I tripped and fell on the sidewalk – that’s when I saw him. He was the most beautiful boy I had ever seen in my entire life, his piercing blue eyes, his messy golden hair and his hard as a rock body, even then, made me forget how my bleeding knee was hurting.

He saw me fall from the corner and came running to help me, without saying a thing he grabbed both of my arms and pulled me up, so he could lift me to his arms and take me to a dry place. My eyes were hooked on his, the raindrops almost covering my sight. “Here… you’re safe” he said, putting me on a bench and sitting পরবর্তি to me; his smile was the most beautiful thing in the world, I just kept quiet, words not coming out from my mouth, only stuck in my head. After taking off his কোট and rapping it around me he noticed my open knee “It’s a bad cut, maybe we should get it checked.” I nodded agreeing, but actually not hearing a thing he was saying, I was too stuck on the fact that Nate Archibald, ‘the Nate Archibald’ was talking to me. “Should I take to the hospital then? অথবা drop আপনি home?” his প্রশ্ন woke me up.

“Oh, um, it’s okay… আপনি see, I was walking to school, so…” I was so nervous and embarrassed. The first time we actually meet and I had to be all messed up, with a busted knee and a see trough when wet blouse.

“You can’t go to school like this, why don’t আপনি tell me your name and I can drop আপনি প্রথমপাতা then” he insisted. God, I was in heaven there, rapped in his কোট and with his arms caressing my knee.

“I’m… I’m Blair Waldorf” I could see that he didn’t know my name, and made a surprised face, like he had never seen me before. “I go to Constance… It’s right পরবর্তি to St. Jude’s”. I have to say that that awkward moment did not make things easier for me; it only made me feel আরো crappie than before.

“I’m Nate Archibald. I just saw আপনি there helpless and I had to help, আপনি looked pretty bad” he was smiling at me, maybe thinking I was just a clumsy girl, who couldn’t even walk straight on a rainy day; I mean he didn’t even knew who I was.

“I know… My… my umbrella slipped off, but I’m okay now, thanks”, I was holding on to his জ্যাকেট like a crazy person, I just wanted to feel it, smell it, and maybe, just maybe I’d get his scent… his feel. “And আপনি don’t have to take me home… আপনি can just drop me at school, Serena must be pissed I didn’t meet her today”.

“You know Serena অগ্রদূত der Woodsen?” he asked in disbelief, almost like he was excited for me knowing her; I have to admit that made me feel angry above all other feelings, of course he knew who Serena was, what boy didn’t… and of course he was interested, just my luck.

I was reluctant to respond, but the words came out of my mouth anyway. “Yes, she’s my best friend”, yes and she also outshines me in every way… আপনি must be asking yourself what does the magnificent Serena অগ্রদূত der Woodsen do with a small and 1 বছর younger brunette who goes unseen like Blair Waldorf – that’s what I felt like saying, because I knew that’s what he was thinking.

“That’s funny, I know her but I’ve never notice you… No offense”, of course he meant no offense, no one ever did, because it was so ‘common’.

“Non taken, look… this has been… fun… but I should really get going home, I don’t feel that good” I know that was weird, I just ব্যক্ত I had fun falling and busting my knee, but what else could I say; after Serena came into the conversation the attention went all to her, even though she wasn’t even there, I really wanted out of there. I got up, still with his jacket, gave him small smile, and went my way, without sharing another word, not even a simple goodbye. From the corner of my eye, I could see him get up and leaving, he didn’t even bothered to look back; he just went his away, leaving me to pursue mine.

That was the first and last time we have ever spoken alone. Long story short, Nate went to school that দিন and asked Serena out while I was at প্রথমপাতা being bashed দ্বারা my mother for being clumsy and from falling, because my knee could get a scar. Serena ব্যক্ত yes, but only as a friend, and we started hanging out, the three of us, Nate always pursuing Serena and Serena and I always together… Sometimes I could swear he forgot I was there. Only a few months later the bad news came, I knew he was only my friend because of Serena, but seeing him leave the UES made my whole body weaken… I loved this boy, and I’d miss him terribly.

“Hey S, come here” Nate called Serena, while our parent’s were saying goodbye to each other. Serena went to him and I followed her. “I’m going to miss আপনি so much” he hugged her. “I hope we’ll be বন্ধু forever”. I swear for the first time I saw Nate অভিনয় like the boy he still was, he was tried to act so adult like, but now I could see how much he believed in what he was saying, sure my হৃদয় broke hearing him say those beautiful things to Serena, but they were exactly what I was feeling towards him.

“I guess I’ll miss আপনি too” Serena pulled away, she actually thought that was the end this friendship we shared for 6 months, and she didn’t really care. Things come and things go, that was her motto.

“Our friendship will never end” I interrupted. I actually believed what I was saying, I wanted this to last, and I couldn’t let Serena’s bad mood ruin the only good thing she ever brought me… Nate.

“I’ll যন্ত্রপত্র you” he looked at Serena. “Okay? And you’ll respond, right?”

“Sure… sure I will Nate.” She nodded disinterested. I just wanted to তীক্ষ্নভাবে her… of course we’ll যন্ত্রপত্র আপনি back.

“Serena’s computer doesn’t have internet. She’s grounded, but she can use mine” I wanted to be noticed দ্বারা him, and if that meant letting Serena come to my house and পাঠ করা the e-mails which I dreamt would be for me, so be it.

“You’re so sweet Blair!” He smiled at me, but at the same time his parent’s called him, they had to leave. He noticed it and without another reaction he kissed Serena’s cheek and ran shyly towards his parents… and just like that he left me.

A week later Serena received his first e-mail, she went to my house because I made her read it against her will, Serena had already forgotten about our friend, she had her eye on this new guy in school: Charles অথবা something.

“Hey S, it’s Nate here. Let me just start দ্বারা saying England is so much different from NY, it’s darker and no fun to be in. The only thing that comes to my mind here is আপনি and our playful times back in your house; gosh I miss it so much… Things here are just boring without you! My school had no uniforms and there’s this guy that keeps wanting to be my friend, but yours is the only friendship that matters… Blah blah blah. Blair I’m bored, can’t we do something else?” Serena asked me, leaving the computer and lying on my bed. I couldn’t believe Nate wrote her and not be, and she wasn’t even interested, she took things for granted, always… I hated that she could just snap her fingers and things happened. I told her I was tired and she left. Alone and sad I decided to finish পাঠ করা what he wrote her… It was so sweet and he finished it দ্বারা saying ‘Miss you, Love, Natie’.

Bored with everything I decided to write him an e-mail, I told him how much he was being missed, and how boring this were here too without him, I told him how school was going and in the end I wrote the exact same thing but with my name on it; but before hitting send, I realized he didn’t wrote me, he wrote her, so probably he wouldn’t want to be hearing from me, so I deleted my name and replaced it with Serena’s figuring she was the one he’d respond with exciting and not the boring me.

Not to my surprise he responded only 78 মিনিট later, saying how happy he was that ‘she’ hasn’t forgotten about him, and stuff like that… I loved talking to him so much, I kept লেখা him and sharing details of our lived was all we did… We were both শীর্ষ on our class and he was happy because he entered the ফুটবল team.

Serena VdW: ফুটবল team huh… That must be exciting for you, you’ve always been a maniac about that sport.

NateA: Yeah it’s great. I’ve been here 5 years and only now they decided to accept me. What’s new with you? Not that we haven0t spoken yesterday, and the দিন before, and the দিন before, and the দিন before…

Serena VdW: Actually I just got another A, not that that’s new. LOL. What can I say, talking to আপনি brings a smile to my face. :P

NateA: আপনি know what I just found? A ছবি of you, me and this other girl… Blair.

Serena VdW: That’s so sweet. I miss those times.

NateA: Me too. Although I have been wondering why আপনি don’t send pictures of you, and I keep sending আপনি mine… I have news actually…

Serena VdW: I don’t like sending pictures, আপনি know how I am… I’m shy... What news?

NateA: Well I’m coming home…

Serena VdW: What? Are আপনি serious?

NateA: Yeah… I just thought I could come back now that my parent’s are sick of England.

Serena VdW: That’s why আপনি wanted my picture? To recognize me??? Sneaky Nate!

NateA: I don’t need a picture to recognize you… My হৃদয় will tell me who আপনি are. He knows আপনি better than anyone… We talk every day, and I feel like I could recognize আপনি on a রাস্তা with a thousand other people.

Serena VsW: Really? Okay, I think we’ll see about that… I gotta get to school. Goodbye Nate. ILY 3

NateA: Goodbye Serena. ILY 2.


That was our last conversation- it was earlier today. We were in love; I loved him and he loved me… I mean he loved someone he thought was Serena, but was really me. I don’t know how I let it get to this point, but it did… and now, I don’t know what to do, I can’t tell him, but I can hope what he ব্যক্ত was true, his হৃদয় would recognize the one he really loved.

TBC...

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