Disclaimer: I do not own House অথবা the characters, however the story is mine.
Sooooooo sorry for the late update, but my life has been pretty hectic lately. Sorry if it seems যেভাবে খুশী at points. So since all of আপনি voted for a confrontation thats what I'm gonna do. Let me know what আপনি think :)
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Cuddy walked back to her office with tears in her eyes. She told Lucas she wanted to be alone tonight and he had accepted that. She packed up her ব্রিফকেস and drove home.
When she got প্রথমপাতা she made quick work of checking on Rachel and then going to bed. As soon as her head hit the বালিশ thoughts of House flooded her mind.
Why does he think he isn't my problem? Of course he is I care about him. Who am I kidding I আরো than care about him. I'm gonna have to have a talk with him tomorrow.
And with that thought she fell asleep.
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House sat playing his পিয়ানো at his and Wilson's new apartment. He couldn't understand what he was thinking saying that to Cuddy. He knew she'd end up wanting to talk to him and the fact she didn't follow him surprised him. He just figured he had to get a good nights sleep and he'd be able to deal with her confrontation tomorrow.
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The পরবর্তি Day
Cuddy walked into the hospital on time the পরবর্তি দিন with her game face. She knew in order to talk to House she'd have to sort of corner him অথবা he'd run away অথবা make up an excuse. She figured she'd wait until after work to talk to him so he couldn't say he was busy with something. She gathered her morning messages and went to her office.
House on the other hand walked into the hospital late as usual. He didn't even stop to check for messages as he didn't want to have to deal with Cuddy. He looked towards the clinic and saw her signing files so he quickly went to the elevators and up to his office.
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5:00 p.m.
House was gathering up his things ready to leave. He was surprised Cuddy hadn't come up to confront him yet, but he wasn't নিরাপদ yet as he hadn't actually left the hospital.
"House," Cuddy said.
Speak of the devil, House thought.
"Yes," House ব্যক্ত as he turned around.
"Why would আপনি say what আপনি did yesterday," Cuddy asked as she walked up to him.
"I'm not sure what your referring to," House played dumb.
"You know what I'm talking about. Don't play dumb. Why would আপনি say something like that," Cuddy tried again.
"Because..." House trailed off as he looked down.
"Because," Cuddy encouraged.
"Because it's what I believe to be true. I'm not anyone's problem," House ব্যক্ত as he looked Cuddy in the eye.
"House," Cuddy began with a sigh. "I'm your friend. Of course your my "problem" as আপনি say it. I care about you."
"That's just the thing. আপনি shouldn't care about me. All I'm gonna end up doing is hurting আপনি and it's not like I treat আপনি like the greatest friend," House ব্যক্ত as he broke eye contact.
"I will admit আপনি have ব্যক্ত things hurtful to me before, but it's not like আপনি actually meant it."
"But I have still ব্যক্ত things hurtful. I'm just gonna end up doing it again. Your better off just letting this go and me," House ব্যক্ত as he began to walk away.
Cuddy stuck her arm out before House could make it past her. She grabbed his arm and turned him around. She looked him straight in the eye with a confused look.
"Why do আপনি refuse to believe anyone cares about আপনি and is there for you," Cuddy asked.
"Because....anyone who I thought would always be there has left," House ব্যক্ত as he looked away.
"What do আপনি mean? I'm right here. Wilson and আপনি live together so your friendship is obviously strong. Sure Stacy left, but who else left to convince আপনি no one cares," Cuddy asked with confusion.
"Your here physically Cuddy, but your not here emotionally. Your just trying to rest your guilt complex দ্বারা convincing me someone cares. Stacy left and I accepted that cause I thought I had you. Wilson has left in the past and he came back. At some point everyone is gonna leave and I've accepted that," House ব্যক্ত with honesty.
"House I'm not here to rest my guilt complex. Sure I feel bad that আপনি think no one cares, but that's not why I'm here. I came here to let আপনি know that I do care and that আপনি have people who care for you," Cuddy said. She chose to ignore the part where he thought he had her.
House knew she would avoid talking about it so he figured this was a good time to get away. "Ok then. Can I go now," House asked as he pointed at the door.
"No. Not until I'm convinced আপনি understand me," Cuddy ব্যক্ত sternly.
"What are আপনি hoping to accomplish here Cuddy. I'm not gonna change. I'm always gonna be distant in some ways. I'm still gonna think people are idiots. I mean what is the purpose and don't give me the 'I want আপনি to know I care' line either," House asked as he looked at her.
"I just...I....," Cuddy trailed off.
"You just what Cuddy," House asked.
"I just want আপনি to understand আপনি have people there for you," Cuddy ব্যক্ত unconvincingly.
"Uh huh sure আপনি do. আপনি can't even tell me the truth right now and আপনি want me to understand people are there for me. আপনি ignore my statement of me saying I thought I had you. So আপনি obviously don't want to go down that road which makes me curious. It's almost like it's a sore spot. Regretting not being there for me when I came back from Mayfield," House asked as he scrutinized her.
Cuddy looked away. "I don't regret my relationship with Lucas if that's what your implying."
"That's not what I was implying," House said.
"Sure আপনি weren't. আপনি haven't liked my relationship with him from দিন one. So আপনি sit here and try to use it against me for not being there for you," Cuddy angrily replied. She had gotten walked closer to House in the process when she had started yelling at him.
"Yeah well I thought I would get back and আপনি would be there for me, but just like everyone else আপনি left. But what confuses me is why your here trying to convince me otherwise. Trouble in paradise?"
"No. Lucas and I aren't having any problems. I just wanted আপনি to understand people actually care, but I can see it got me no where."
"Guess not," House replied with a shrug.
"I care about আপনি House. I want আপনি to know I'm here for আপনি and আপনি are my "problem," as আপনি so lovingly put it, whether আপনি like it অথবা not."
"Ok then. Can I go," House asked again.
"What will it take to convince you?! Why won't আপনি believe me," Cuddy asked with frustration.
"Because আপনি already left. Your not here for me now Cuddy. It's kinda hard to believe আপনি care when আপনি aren't even here," House ব্যক্ত as he looked her in the eyes to read her emotions.
Cuddy's breath left her in an instant. She couldn't believe he could say something like that! She had always been there for him. Through tritter, at his bedside after the accident, when Wilson left, and so much more! Yet he could stand here and say that she wasn't there for him.
"What are আপনি talking about! I've been there for আপনি after all the crazy stunts you've pulled. I sat at your bedside! How can আপনি sit here and say I'm not here for you," Cuddy yelled in his face.
House looked away. He just wanted to get away from here before he ব্যক্ত something he didn't yet want to. It seemed that would be the only way to get her to believe him and leave him alone.
"You don't get it! I প্রণয় আপনি Cuddy! There I ব্যক্ত it! I প্রণয় আপনি and when I got back after Mayfield and I was finally ready to have a relationship আপনি just pushed me away! Then I found out about your "secret" boyfriend and আপনি started to act like a complete stranger to me! It was almost like I didn't exist and আপনি just wanted me to go away! So what did I learn to accept? That আপনি had left just like everyone else. The person I thought of and trusted the most had left me just like everyone else did," House finally finished.
Cuddy sat there with tears in her eyes. She couldn't believe what she had just heard. Their timing was always off it seemed. She wanted him and he'd push her away and now he had finally admitted to loving her and wanting a relationship and she was with someone else. It was like they couldn't catch a break.
"House....," Cuddy began, but House cut her off.
"Don't Cuddy. I don't want to hear আপনি say আপনি প্রণয় me অথবা how we can't be together. I accepted that আপনি don't feel about me how I feel for আপনি and that we obviously won't have anything together. I've learned to let it go so আপনি don't need to worry," House said. He gave her one last look and walked out of his office and went home.
Cuddy just watched him leave and began to cry harder. She couldn't believe what was happening. After all this time House finally admitted to feeling something for her and she couldn't say it back. All because she seemed to "need" to have the perfect family instead of getting what she really wanted. A happy dysfunctional crazy spontaneous life with House and Rachel. Instead she had chose to settle for the "American dream."
Cuddy wiped the tears from her eyes and turned and walked out of House's office just wanting to go home. Thinking that maybe she should just accept that he was gone and that they would never be together, but the thought of not having him there hurt. She didn't want to hurt anymore. Maybe I can still fix this, she thought as she quickly walked to her office, grabbed her stuff, hurried out to her car, and headed towards House's apartment.
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Yay অথবা nay? Let me know if I should continue! :)
Sooooooo sorry for the late update, but my life has been pretty hectic lately. Sorry if it seems যেভাবে খুশী at points. So since all of আপনি voted for a confrontation thats what I'm gonna do. Let me know what আপনি think :)
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Cuddy walked back to her office with tears in her eyes. She told Lucas she wanted to be alone tonight and he had accepted that. She packed up her ব্রিফকেস and drove home.
When she got প্রথমপাতা she made quick work of checking on Rachel and then going to bed. As soon as her head hit the বালিশ thoughts of House flooded her mind.
Why does he think he isn't my problem? Of course he is I care about him. Who am I kidding I আরো than care about him. I'm gonna have to have a talk with him tomorrow.
And with that thought she fell asleep.
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House sat playing his পিয়ানো at his and Wilson's new apartment. He couldn't understand what he was thinking saying that to Cuddy. He knew she'd end up wanting to talk to him and the fact she didn't follow him surprised him. He just figured he had to get a good nights sleep and he'd be able to deal with her confrontation tomorrow.
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The পরবর্তি Day
Cuddy walked into the hospital on time the পরবর্তি দিন with her game face. She knew in order to talk to House she'd have to sort of corner him অথবা he'd run away অথবা make up an excuse. She figured she'd wait until after work to talk to him so he couldn't say he was busy with something. She gathered her morning messages and went to her office.
House on the other hand walked into the hospital late as usual. He didn't even stop to check for messages as he didn't want to have to deal with Cuddy. He looked towards the clinic and saw her signing files so he quickly went to the elevators and up to his office.
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5:00 p.m.
House was gathering up his things ready to leave. He was surprised Cuddy hadn't come up to confront him yet, but he wasn't নিরাপদ yet as he hadn't actually left the hospital.
"House," Cuddy said.
Speak of the devil, House thought.
"Yes," House ব্যক্ত as he turned around.
"Why would আপনি say what আপনি did yesterday," Cuddy asked as she walked up to him.
"I'm not sure what your referring to," House played dumb.
"You know what I'm talking about. Don't play dumb. Why would আপনি say something like that," Cuddy tried again.
"Because..." House trailed off as he looked down.
"Because," Cuddy encouraged.
"Because it's what I believe to be true. I'm not anyone's problem," House ব্যক্ত as he looked Cuddy in the eye.
"House," Cuddy began with a sigh. "I'm your friend. Of course your my "problem" as আপনি say it. I care about you."
"That's just the thing. আপনি shouldn't care about me. All I'm gonna end up doing is hurting আপনি and it's not like I treat আপনি like the greatest friend," House ব্যক্ত as he broke eye contact.
"I will admit আপনি have ব্যক্ত things hurtful to me before, but it's not like আপনি actually meant it."
"But I have still ব্যক্ত things hurtful. I'm just gonna end up doing it again. Your better off just letting this go and me," House ব্যক্ত as he began to walk away.
Cuddy stuck her arm out before House could make it past her. She grabbed his arm and turned him around. She looked him straight in the eye with a confused look.
"Why do আপনি refuse to believe anyone cares about আপনি and is there for you," Cuddy asked.
"Because....anyone who I thought would always be there has left," House ব্যক্ত as he looked away.
"What do আপনি mean? I'm right here. Wilson and আপনি live together so your friendship is obviously strong. Sure Stacy left, but who else left to convince আপনি no one cares," Cuddy asked with confusion.
"Your here physically Cuddy, but your not here emotionally. Your just trying to rest your guilt complex দ্বারা convincing me someone cares. Stacy left and I accepted that cause I thought I had you. Wilson has left in the past and he came back. At some point everyone is gonna leave and I've accepted that," House ব্যক্ত with honesty.
"House I'm not here to rest my guilt complex. Sure I feel bad that আপনি think no one cares, but that's not why I'm here. I came here to let আপনি know that I do care and that আপনি have people who care for you," Cuddy said. She chose to ignore the part where he thought he had her.
House knew she would avoid talking about it so he figured this was a good time to get away. "Ok then. Can I go now," House asked as he pointed at the door.
"No. Not until I'm convinced আপনি understand me," Cuddy ব্যক্ত sternly.
"What are আপনি hoping to accomplish here Cuddy. I'm not gonna change. I'm always gonna be distant in some ways. I'm still gonna think people are idiots. I mean what is the purpose and don't give me the 'I want আপনি to know I care' line either," House asked as he looked at her.
"I just...I....," Cuddy trailed off.
"You just what Cuddy," House asked.
"I just want আপনি to understand আপনি have people there for you," Cuddy ব্যক্ত unconvincingly.
"Uh huh sure আপনি do. আপনি can't even tell me the truth right now and আপনি want me to understand people are there for me. আপনি ignore my statement of me saying I thought I had you. So আপনি obviously don't want to go down that road which makes me curious. It's almost like it's a sore spot. Regretting not being there for me when I came back from Mayfield," House asked as he scrutinized her.
Cuddy looked away. "I don't regret my relationship with Lucas if that's what your implying."
"That's not what I was implying," House said.
"Sure আপনি weren't. আপনি haven't liked my relationship with him from দিন one. So আপনি sit here and try to use it against me for not being there for you," Cuddy angrily replied. She had gotten walked closer to House in the process when she had started yelling at him.
"Yeah well I thought I would get back and আপনি would be there for me, but just like everyone else আপনি left. But what confuses me is why your here trying to convince me otherwise. Trouble in paradise?"
"No. Lucas and I aren't having any problems. I just wanted আপনি to understand people actually care, but I can see it got me no where."
"Guess not," House replied with a shrug.
"I care about আপনি House. I want আপনি to know I'm here for আপনি and আপনি are my "problem," as আপনি so lovingly put it, whether আপনি like it অথবা not."
"Ok then. Can I go," House asked again.
"What will it take to convince you?! Why won't আপনি believe me," Cuddy asked with frustration.
"Because আপনি already left. Your not here for me now Cuddy. It's kinda hard to believe আপনি care when আপনি aren't even here," House ব্যক্ত as he looked her in the eyes to read her emotions.
Cuddy's breath left her in an instant. She couldn't believe he could say something like that! She had always been there for him. Through tritter, at his bedside after the accident, when Wilson left, and so much more! Yet he could stand here and say that she wasn't there for him.
"What are আপনি talking about! I've been there for আপনি after all the crazy stunts you've pulled. I sat at your bedside! How can আপনি sit here and say I'm not here for you," Cuddy yelled in his face.
House looked away. He just wanted to get away from here before he ব্যক্ত something he didn't yet want to. It seemed that would be the only way to get her to believe him and leave him alone.
"You don't get it! I প্রণয় আপনি Cuddy! There I ব্যক্ত it! I প্রণয় আপনি and when I got back after Mayfield and I was finally ready to have a relationship আপনি just pushed me away! Then I found out about your "secret" boyfriend and আপনি started to act like a complete stranger to me! It was almost like I didn't exist and আপনি just wanted me to go away! So what did I learn to accept? That আপনি had left just like everyone else. The person I thought of and trusted the most had left me just like everyone else did," House finally finished.
Cuddy sat there with tears in her eyes. She couldn't believe what she had just heard. Their timing was always off it seemed. She wanted him and he'd push her away and now he had finally admitted to loving her and wanting a relationship and she was with someone else. It was like they couldn't catch a break.
"House....," Cuddy began, but House cut her off.
"Don't Cuddy. I don't want to hear আপনি say আপনি প্রণয় me অথবা how we can't be together. I accepted that আপনি don't feel about me how I feel for আপনি and that we obviously won't have anything together. I've learned to let it go so আপনি don't need to worry," House said. He gave her one last look and walked out of his office and went home.
Cuddy just watched him leave and began to cry harder. She couldn't believe what was happening. After all this time House finally admitted to feeling something for her and she couldn't say it back. All because she seemed to "need" to have the perfect family instead of getting what she really wanted. A happy dysfunctional crazy spontaneous life with House and Rachel. Instead she had chose to settle for the "American dream."
Cuddy wiped the tears from her eyes and turned and walked out of House's office just wanting to go home. Thinking that maybe she should just accept that he was gone and that they would never be together, but the thought of not having him there hurt. She didn't want to hurt anymore. Maybe I can still fix this, she thought as she quickly walked to her office, grabbed her stuff, hurried out to her car, and headed towards House's apartment.
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Yay অথবা nay? Let me know if I should continue! :)
I got this info off the house boards over on the house website. this person has পোষ্ট হয়েছে spoilers before and they always turn out to be true most of the time so i trust this person.
There is after all a light of hope at the end of the tunnel:
S
P
O
I
L
E
R
Just in: this person has inside info on House and is VERYreliable-
seems that the purpose of this arc(C/L) is to further C feelings for H...
(for what this person perceives).
..that Cuddy finds out that House doesnt take her relationship with Lucas lightly.
Have a nice night!!
There is after all a light of hope at the end of the tunnel:
S
P
O
I
L
E
R
Just in: this person has inside info on House and is VERYreliable-
seems that the purpose of this arc(C/L) is to further C feelings for H...
(for what this person perceives).
..that Cuddy finds out that House doesnt take her relationship with Lucas lightly.
Have a nice night!!
I was পাঠ করা up on opiate withdrawal and apparently আপনি can go through withdrawal not just to stop taking the drug, Vicodin in House’s case, but to reduce the amount you’re taking.
So in House’s case, like Wilson said; his Vicodin levels where way to high and so the only option was to let his body recover and reduce it’s need for that amount it got everyday.
Therefore, the পরবর্তি morning when he was seemingly better; it was because of the extreme cold-turkeyness that House used to reduce his levels of Vicodin in order for his hallucination of Amber to go away. So I don’t think it was a hallucination, because he hasn’t quit Vicodin, he has only reduced the amount he takes within the মহাকাশ of a horrible 24 ঘন্টা detox. His body no longer craves the Vicodin every ঘন্টা অথবা so like before.
Short and simple :)
So in House’s case, like Wilson said; his Vicodin levels where way to high and so the only option was to let his body recover and reduce it’s need for that amount it got everyday.
Therefore, the পরবর্তি morning when he was seemingly better; it was because of the extreme cold-turkeyness that House used to reduce his levels of Vicodin in order for his hallucination of Amber to go away. So I don’t think it was a hallucination, because he hasn’t quit Vicodin, he has only reduced the amount he takes within the মহাকাশ of a horrible 24 ঘন্টা detox. His body no longer craves the Vicodin every ঘন্টা অথবা so like before.
Short and simple :)