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***New Life

Jacob:

The house construction moved so fast at this point. Sam led the guys through the whole process. Week two came to an end and the new রান্নাঘর was finished. Week three the upstairs floor and bare walls went up. Week four…the stairs, new roof, siding for the house, upstairs bathroom, and sheetrock walls came together. দ্বারা week five the new electric and paint. Sam had been right. The whole renovation had taken just over a মাস to complete. Alice had been funded দ্বারা Edward and bought all new furniture for the house. Sam and I stood পরবর্তি to each other now and marveled at our handy work. The guys stood beside us. Paul and Jared on Sam’s side and Quil, Embry দ্বারা mine. We all stared at the completed masterpiece.
“Well Guys…WERE DONE!” Sam yelled out. The guys howled loudly as high fives went around between us. I couldn’t stop thanking them. I walked away from the guys long enough to call Bella and ask her and Edward to bring Nessie. Sam and the guys began to head over to Emily’s place to continue the celebration while I was on my cell phone. Bella told me she had decided to blindfold Nessie at her house. When I hung up my cell phone I pulled a huge bow out of the ট্রাঙ্ক of the আমেরিকার বন্য ঘোড়াবিশেষ and hung it on the front door as waited anxiously. When Edward, Bella and Nessie arrived in the Volvo. I ran down to take Nessie দ্বারা her hand and lead her to the front of the house so she could get the best view.
“Are আপনি ready Nessie?” I whispered in her ear as I placed her right where I wanted her to stand for the unveiling.
“Yes, Jacob!
I untied the blindfold and let her open her eyes. Her gasp was all I needed to hear. She staggered অগ্রবর্তী towards the marvel in front of her as I followed her smiling.
“Jacob…this isn’t your dad’s house!” she laughed
“No…It’s our house.” I ব্যক্ত with a chuckle and ran over to her to give her the tour.
I opened the door for her as she entered her new প্রথমপাতা for the first time. She remembered exactly where everything used to be as she slowly investigated every crevice and corner. Then I led her upstairs to our bedroom first, then showed her the two bedrooms towards the back of the house. I saved the one closest to our bedroom for last. Alice had decorated it herself. I had the door closed especially for this moment. When I placed Nessie in front of the door, I allowed her to open the door for herself. As she turned the doorknob and let the door দোল inward she cried out with amazement at the nursery. Alice had specifically done it in a warm yellow and there were figurines and plush toys and দেওয়াল décor all coordinated in a রামধনু of country gingham. Nessie ran her hands along the ডাবা as I came behind her and caressed her belly.
“Do আপনি like it?” I whispered in her ear.
“It’s perfect” she whispered as she placed her hand over mine.
Edward and Bella had been behind us the whole time. Edward’s voice broke through the silence.
“You’ve done well, Jacob. I’m actually relieved.” He ব্যক্ত as I turned to him.
Edward stepped অগ্রবর্তী with his arms wide and gave me a hug. But instead of feeling awkward, it felt good as I hugged him back for the first time ever. We laughed as Bella came over and hugged Nessie.
When Edward and Bella left to return প্রথমপাতা they allowed Nessie to stay with me for the evening. At this point the only thing separating us from beginning our lives together was a single legal document and a wedding affair. Beyond that, we she was already my wife. She was carrying my child. The wedding was only weeks away. Nessie and I spent our first night together in our bed. She wanted me…but I told her I wasn’t going to jeopardize our child’s health and she accepted the idea. She snuggled পরবর্তি to me as I caressed her tummy. My family was here with me and that’s all that mattered at this point. We slept peacefully in each other’s arms.
In the morning after breakfast I took Nessie back to Bella’s house. I needed to get back to work at the ভান্দার and now that Nessie was pregnant, I didn’t want her to be দ্বারা herself. This routine continued for the পরবর্তি few weeks. I would drop Nessie off at Bella’s and pick her up again after work to take her home. The wedding was fast approaching. When Nessie and I had spent our last night together, the wedding was thirty-six hours away. Bella and I decided she should stay with Bella and Edward from that point on until the দিন of the wedding. I didn’t mind too much. I knew Alice was completing the final preparations. She dropped off the monkey স্যুইটস্‌ at my place for the guys to wear on the big day. Emily was entrusted দ্বারা Alice to make sure we all were prepared. Every শার্ট tucked in, ties straight, hair perfect, smiles present.
The big দিন arrived and Emily had her hands full. Sam kept order amongst the guys to give Emily a much help as possible. When everyone was ready Emily took couple of candid photographs of all the guys standing with me before we left the house and headed to the beach. On arrival I was spellbound as Alice and Sue Clearwater had transformed the সৈকত for the ceremony. Edward led Nessie to me and I got my first glimpse of my blushing beauty. I practically fainted when I saw Nessie. Alice had picked out an elegant costume and had it tailored to hide her growing baby bump. When Edward greeted me with Nessie, he shook my hand before he passed his only daughter to me. Nessie and I held hands as Old Quil Ateara conducted our Quileute wedding ceremony. He had to stop a couple of times though because I was so immersed in Nessie’s beauty, I wasn’t paying attention to him. The snickers of our large gathering of বন্ধু and family made it hard for Nessie not to giggle. When the ritual was completed a roar of fanfare erupted as Nessie and I were kissing. The reception at the Carlisle’s প্রথমপাতা brought back the memories of Bella and Edward’s wedding day. It was also their anniversary and Alice spared no absolutely detail on the dual celebration. The huge party went on long into the evening. Nessie and I had agreed we did not need to have a honeymoon. Hawaii had been the honeymoon we would have wanted anyway. Now as we returned to our home, we were so tired দ্বারা the দিন of events all we want to do was be alone, together, in our bed. Sleeping পরবর্তি to Nessie was pure heaven to me. But when we woke up tomorrow, there was no longer a need to bring her anywhere. She was home.
In the weeks that followed, Emily and Bella came to our প্রথমপাতা to stay with Nessie while I was working at the garage. It was very important to keep monitoring Nessie progress during the pregnancy. Carlisle did weekly follow up with Nessie. It was comforting to have a doctor in the family. It made everything easier. I was at the গ্যারেজ under a customer’s car when Leah called out and ran over to me.
“Jacob! Carlisle just called; আপনি have to get to his house now! It’s about Nessie.” Leah huffed
“Nessie?” I shouted as I dropped my wrench and sprinted to the আমেরিকার বন্য ঘোড়াবিশেষ roaring the engine as I took off with speed. I was in panic mode as I weaved through traffic desperately. When I finally got to the house, Edward was waiting for me. He could see the distress in my eyes and his expression made me frantic as I ran up to him.
“Edward! What’s wrong with Nessie?” I panted
“Jacob, there is a problem...Carlisle wasn’t able to do a traditional ultrasound on Nessie because her skin is too hard. The ultrasound won’t work. Carlisle brought Nessie to the hospital today for an MRI “He sighed.
“What? What’s wrong?”
“Nessie is having a multiple pregnancy. There are four fetuses.”
“Four! What’s so wrong with that?” I smiled. But his expression was sullen.
“I wish it was good news, Jacob. But…two of the fetuses are not developing properly. They are not going to make it. Carlisle wants to stop their development now.”
“Why are they not developing, Edward?”
“Carlisle had discovered that আপনি son is developing faster than normal. Not as fast as Nessie was with Bella, but still he progressing. Carlisle believes that his higher rate of development is what is causing the two smaller fetuses to fail in development.”
“And the third? আপনি ব্যক্ত there are four, Edward?”
“Your daughter appears to be fine. She is progressing at the same development rate as a human fetus.”
“Okay…so that’s good, right?”
“Not exactly, Jacob. Since your son is developing faster that your daughter, Carlisle is concerned Adam will be fully developed and Eva will most likely be premature. There is another problem though, Nessie is part vampire. Her skin has some of my qualities regarding strength. It’s thankfully not completely stone like mine is. To make it simple Jacob; on the outside Nessie’s skin best resembles human bone. Like human bone it can grow and heal. On the inside Nessie is আরো human than we all originally thought but like my kind she can heal as quickly as I can.”
“Wait! Wait…did আপনি say Adam and Eva?” I questioned.
“Yes, I did. Nessie just named them in her mind. I swear, it just happened.” He smiled.
“Adam and Eva!” I repeated
“Nessie feels the children are a miracle. It’s quite poetic actually” He chuckled but then became serious again. “Jacob, Carlisle needs to reduce the number of fetuses in order to give Adam and Eva the best possible chance of survival. He, of course, needs your final approval though.”
I stood there for a while with my mouth hanging open. I didn’t know what to do. I was shaking my head as the information overload hit me like a ton of bricks.
“Does Nessie know what’s going on? Because I can’t be the one to tell her all of this, Edward. I’m just a dumb kid remember.”
“Yes, she is aware of the circumstances, Jacob. She is waiting for আপনি inside.” He sighed
I blew past Edward and ran into the house taking the steps up to Carlisle’s lab four at a time. I skid to a stop as I entered the room to find Nessie on an operating table. Carlisle was দ্বারা her side. I slowly walked to Nessie. She had a confusing expression on her face. Sort of half happy and half nervous.
“Hey Ness…how are you?” I asked
“I’m scared, Jake-“
“Don’t worry honey. Carlisle knows what’s best. I trust him.”
“Jake…I’m sorry.”
“Don’t be…I’m not. Adam and Eva, huh?” I chuckled to cheer her up. She blushed and smiled.
“You know already? Do আপনি mind? Does it sound silly?”
“No the names are perfect.”
“Adam J. Black and Eva B. Black?”
“Well what are the J and B for?”
“Jacob and Bella”
”I প্রণয় আপনি Nessie. Whatever আপনি want to call our children is fine with me” I laughed.
“Do I have your final approval then, Jacob?” Carlisle asked.
Nessie was very tense. She knew it was the best chance to bring our children into the world healthy. I nodded to Carlisle. I kissed Nessie quickly and allowed the operation to go forward. I sat with Bella and Edward দ্বারা my side as we waited. Bella was holding my hand. It took a couple of hours before Carlisle came back to us.
“The operation was a success. Nessie is fine. I have her sedated. The two fetuses will be naturally reabsorbed দ্বারা Nessie’s body. However we are not out of the woods just yet. Unfortunately I couldn’t use a scalpel because her skin was too strong. It will take her some time to heal and there is something else আপনি need to know, Jacob.”
My stomach churned at the idea of how Carlisle has performed the operation. A bone saw perhaps? I felt like I was going to be sick.
“What is it doc?” I choked
“You remember the story of Nahuel and Huilen? The Amazonians who helped save Nessie’s life?” Carlisle asked
“Yes, doc? I remember. What’s that got to do with Nessie?”
“I’m confident that Nessie is strong enough to get through the pregnancy. Nessie being a half breed is playing in her favor for now. It’s Adam that I’m concerned with. I ran some additional tests, but I have no solid evidence to present to you. Adam may be আরো like Nahuel than we think. If he is like Nahuel, then he will be venomous. This poses a particularly difficult problem in the sense that আপনি and Nessie will be unable to care for him after he is born.”
“What are আপনি getting at doc?”
“If Adam is born venomous…you, Nessie and Eva are at serious risk of being bitten. I know আপনি have always held a strong distaste for my species, Jacob.”
“So now you’re telling me my son could very well bite me, Nessie অথবা Eva and we would become vampires, right?”
“Not exactly, Jacob. To someone like you, your species…vampire venom may is toxic. If Eva is born like আপনি she is also at serious risk of death from a bite. Nessie may just simply lose her human qualities altogether.”
I had almost forgotten the time Rosalie handed me a doggie bowl of food. If she had spit in the খাবার it may have killed me. Edward nodded but did not look at me.
“What’s the solution?”
“You already know that Nessie bit Bella at birth. Since Nessie was not venomous, it didn’t cause a problem. But Adam can be trained. He can be taught restraint. But he must be taught দ্বারা a vampire, someone who will not be affected দ্বারা a sudden, unexpected bite.”
“Okay, doc…are আপনি offering your services অথবা something?”
“Edward, will আপনি take over?” Carlisle asked.
“Bella and I agreed that for a while at least, Adam should be in our care. We can take care of his needs and provide the support that he requires. It would be temporarily of course. But we need আপনি to make the final decision.” Edward ব্যক্ত to me.
“It’s for the best, Jacob. আপনি know how much আপনি mean to us. I would hate to think আপনি might become like me. আপনি have always hated the idea of me being a bloodsucking leech.” Bella added as she took my hand in hers and tried to reassure me.
“Is there any way at all to tell for sure Carlisle?” I asked
“Unfortunately no. My tests lead me to believe Eva will either be born one hundred percent human, অথবা she will develop আপনি shape shifting ability later in life as Leah Clearwater did. Adam is a mystery though. Even the best Nobel Prize winning scientist can be completely stumped দ্বারা the evolution of nature. We will have to wait till Adam and Eva are born. Then I can get a better idea of what their future will be like. Nessie should stay here with me for the duration of her pregnancy. The fact that I also can’t perform an ultrasound is also posing a huge problem. Nessie and I will be making frequent trips to the hospital. It’s also not so নিরাপদ for a pregnant woman to have multiple MRI’s but it’s the only way to track her pregnancy.
I hung my head as Carlisle finished his statement to me. Edward and Bella were doing their best to comfort me, but my emotional state was all over the place. Could Nessie have been that wrong? I believed Nessie when she told me we were a perfect genetic match. Nature however, just had to throw in a curve ball. On one hand I was happy to hear that Eva might be purely human, and on the other I was crushed that Adam might be born a blood lusting killer. Would Nessie and I be able to have our happy family?
I just wanted to be with Nessie at this point. I got up from my chair and headed back into the room where Nessie was still sleeping. I sat দ্বারা her side and watched the gently rise and fall of her chest as she slept. I listened to the monitors in the room. I heard the sound of the হৃদয় monitor recording the steady beeping of her হৃদয় rate as I watched. I took her hand in mine. It was cool to my touch as I was holding it gently, caressing it trying to bring the warmth back to her. I watched her and waited. I wanted to be there when she woke up. I wanted to be the first person she saw when she opened her eyes. My curiosity made me check under the sheet as I witnessed the damage that her body had already been inflicted with from the operation. Nessie was bandaged across her belly. My হৃদয় sank as I choked back my tears. I had done this to her. I had been the one who gave her this burden. If I had been completely human, none of this would have happened. I began to feel exactly like Edward had been when he discovered the pain he himself had brought on Bella with Bella’s pregnancy. She didn’t deserve this pain. And I was powerless to stop it. All I wanted in life was to protect Nessie. I wanted to give her a normal life. Now that was a complete impossibility. I felt my হৃদয় breaking with each passing সেকেন্ড as grief consumed me. The hours ticked দ্বারা slowly as I waited for Nessie to awaken. Each মিনিট felt like an eternity. I mourned the loss of my other children during this time. Tears fell from my face as the reality of their loss came to my mind. Nessie and I should have had four beautiful children, but that experience was short lived. It started to become a distant memory. When the light of morning began to fill the room Nessie began to সরানো from her slumber. She groaned lightly and then her eyes fluttered trying to open. I gripped her hand and brought it to my chest.
“Nessie. Ness…can আপনি hear me. I’m here honey. Wake up for me.” I asked
“Jacob?” she whispered
“Ness…I’m here. I’m here sweetie.”
Nessie’s eyes finally opened to my relief. She turned her head now to look at me with a questioning look. I knew what she was going to ask me.
“Nessie, the operation was successful. You’re going to be okay. Adam and Eva are fine, honey. আপনি did great. I’m proud of you.” I reassured her.
“Jacob? Are আপনি okay? আপনি look tired. Have আপনি been here the whole time?”
“I never left your side, honey. I promised আপনি that. Are আপনি in pain?”
“I don’t feel so good. It hurts a bit.”
“Honey, hang in there I’m going to get Carlisle.” But just as I ব্যক্ত his name he entered the room.
“Hey Nessie, I know আপনি are uncomfortable right now. আপনি have been through a lot. I really can’t give আপনি too much for your pain. Everything I give আপনি will be absorbed দ্বারা the শিশুরা too. I can’t take the risk that something might cause them distress. How is your pain on a scale of one to ten?
“A two, maybe a three?” she whispered.
“Here take these pills, it will take the edge off” Carlisle handed her two pills, probably aspirin, then left the room.
Nessie noticed my expression and could see the struggle in my eyes. I was doing my best to hide my feelings from her, but I was never very good at it. I couldn’t hide from Bella any better than I could from Nessie.
“Jake, I’m sorry”
“Nessie, what are আপনি sorry about?”
“The…babies. The other two babies”
“Nessie, stop it right now. We still have Adam and Eva. That’s what really counts, doesn’t it?”
“Yes, I guess?”
“Besides…we could always try again later. If আপনি want to?” I ব্যক্ত in a reassuring voice, not letting her know anything about what I had been told about Adam.
“Maybe.”
“Then don’t worry, okay. I প্রণয় you. Adam and Eva will be fine. We’ll pull through this. Together.”
“Okay, Jake. I প্রণয় আপনি too.”
“Good. নমস্কার your parents are here too. Why don’t I just let আপনি see them. I want to talk with Carlisle for a little anyway. Then I’ll come back, okay?”
I kissed Nessie quick as Bella and Edward came into the room to be with Nessie. When I went to look for Carlisle, I found him in Edward’s old bedroom with Esme.
“Oh, Jacob. I figured it would be better for আপনি and Nessie if I moved her later into Edward’s room. She would be much আরো comfortable in a real bed. It would also allow আপনি both to sleep together. It would keep Nessie stress level lower if আপনি were not separated so much. Esme has bought brand new bedding to make it আরো comfortable for you. I know your sense of smell doesn’t agree with our scent.”
“Thanks Esme. But I’ve gotten pretty used to your scents at this point. I appreciate the gesture though.”
“Anything I can do for আপনি and Nessie would be my pleasure” she said
“When are আপনি going to সরানো her, doc?”
“As soon as the pills kick in.”
I was really in awe of how much support Nessie and I were receiving. Between Sam, Emily and the guys down in La Push and the Cullen’s, I had almost no concerns. I knew the Cullen family would care for Adam. Give Adam everything he needed when he was born. All we had to do is make sure Nessie’s pregnancy went smoothly. Carlisle had Bella’s pregnancy as a reference point to go back to and I felt he knew what he had to plan for. Carlisle took great care in moving Nessie into Edward’s room so we could be together every night. Over the পরবর্তি few weeks I fell into a routine of going to work during the দিন and sleeping with Nessie each night. I always fell asleep with my hand resting on her belly. It seemed natural to me as an expecting father until one night I felt a hard snap like a twig had broken in my hand. Nessie and I shot upright in বিছানা as the same time as I jerked my hand away from her and she gasped and cringed in pain. I was in total panic. I thought I had hurt her.
“Jacob, its okay the শিশুরা are just kicking.”
“What the hell was that sound! What happened?”
“It’s fine, don’t worry. Just give me a sec” she ব্যক্ত as she held her stomach and took a deep breath.
“Nessie what happened!” I shouted to her as Bella and Edward came into the bedroom. Bella immediately sat with Nessie rubbing her back and holding her hand as I was still sitting there waiting for Nessie to say something. Bella and Nessie refused to look at me.
“Jacob, I need to speak with you, right now!” Edward warned me.
I got up from the বিছানা and followed Edward out of the room. He kept walking as we reached the front door. He didn’t stop as he opened the door and I followed him outside. Every time Edward had something important to tell me, he always brought me outside. I could never understand why. Edward always made sure I was far away for everyone whenever he had something to say; he never did trust that I wouldn’t phase. He finally stopped and turned to me.
“Edward what the hell happened. What was that snapping sound I heard? It sounded like-“I begged
“Bones breaking…yes actually you’re not too far off. It just started today when আপনি were at work.” He answered as he dropped his gaze.
“Did she break a rib…like Bella?” I whispered
“No Jacob…that’s Nessie’s skin আপনি hear breaking.” He sighed
“Her skin!” I choked.
“Yes. Her skin. Every time the শিশুরা kick অথবা সরানো it causes hairline fractures in her skin. আপনি better start getting used to that sound, Jacob. As Nessie’s pregnancy moves further along আপনি will hear it আরো and more. Remember what I told আপনি before. Nessie’s skin is like bone, it can grow with the pregnancy, but not with causing her pain. I know আপনি have firsthand knowledge of what I’m speaking of.”
I most certainly did as I remember how I felt after my battle with the newborns. My whole right side was crushed. My অস্থি from my মণ্ডল all the way to my hip had been broken in multiple places. I could feel my knees giving out as I crumpled to the ground with this memory. Edward crouched down পরবর্তি to me. He stared at me intensely as I could feel myself taking on his role as the painfully anguished burning man he was when Bella was pregnant.
“Jacob, it’s not actually that bad. The pain is only momentary. Her skin repairs quickly as her body changes with the expansion of the pregnancy. Less than ten seconds, okay. This isn’t a big deal. আপনি need to stop leaving your emotions painted on your face.”
“Edward…you know I’ve never been able to do that!”
“Learn to Jacob! Nessie is very upset right now. She didn’t even want to tell আপনি about this because আপনি always fly off the handle. She was hoping for a moment আপনি might not find out because আপনি work all day. I told her she wouldn’t be able to hide this for long. Jacob, আপনি have to control your outward emotions, like I did with Bella. If আপনি can’t then I won’t allow আপনি to be with Nessie for the rest of the pregnancy. Your inability to control yourself causes her stress. Do আপনি understand?”
“How? I could never figure out how আপনি were able to do that. I have to admit I was always jealous of আপনি for that.”
“I don’t think আপনি should go back to Nessie tonight. She’s upset and আপনি apparently need my help. Get up…we are going to the meadow.”
I rose to my feet as Edward and I ran swiftly through the woods to the open meadow. The same meadow Bella and I had searched for. The one where my pack and I killed the blood sucker Laurant. When Edward and I reached the meadow Edward grabbed my arm and pulled me to the center of the meadow. He placed me facing him and then backed up about twenty paces from me.
“Okay Jacob, we are going to play a game of sorts. আপনি need to know how to control your emotions. I’m going to teach আপনি how. I already know most of your painful memories. I’m going to give a thought and আপনি are going to do your best not to let me rouse any emotions from inside you, okay?”
“Okay?”
“This will not be fun, but আপনি must ভালুক with me. There is no easy way to teach আপনি all that I know. I’ve had a hundred years to gain this knowledge. Are আপনি ready?”
“Yes!”
“I want আপনি to remember… to go back to the night আপনি read your father’s letter. I want আপনি to remember how that letter made আপনি feel. Close your eyes and remember.”
I followed Edward’s instructions and closed my eyes. I remember my father’s words, the pain, the anger, the anguish. I could feel the memory racing through me. I felt the heat inside me begin to boil. I felt it rising to my skin as the shaking in my hands and rippling in my body was matching the memory.
“Focus Jacob! Remember the pain!”
I let the pain consume me, take over my self control. I was focused! I felt my body losing the battle not to phase. Then I was hit! I felt a new sudden pain as I was knocked hard off my feet and landed on my back completely phased into my wolf. How was this going to help? I snarled at Edward and came to my four paws. Edward looked pleased with himself.
“I knew আপনি would phase. Now…change back! Find it in yourself to change back.”
What are আপনি getting at Edward, আপনি just had me dredge up a really terrible memory!
“Jacob, the same center of peace আপনি find to phase from নেকড়ে back to human, is the same ability to hide emotions. আপনি already can do this. আপনি just have to expand it, now phase back.”
Edward’s words slapped me hard, but I knew what he meant. Phasing back was easy for me. I changed practically without thinking as I came to my feet in human form. I looked at him with a sheepish smile. Could it really be that easy?
“Not that easy Jacob, but this is the same kind of principle. It works both ways. আপনি never liked phasing into a নেকড়ে in front of Bella. আপনি always held an enormous amount of self control. I admit it took a lot effort for me to provoke আপনি years ago. আপনি are stronger than আপনি think. Now I want আপনি to close your eyes again and think of Nessie. Focus on the snapping sound আপনি heard, repeat again and again. The image of Nessie and the sound, nothing else.”
As I closed my eyes the image came back to me. Jeez, that sound was disgusting, painful to hear. I could feel my emotions, the memory of my own অস্থি breaking and how that must feel to Nessie. I felt tears trying to surface to my eyes as my throat became dry and a lump caught in my throat that I couldn’t choke back down. Then I was hit again! Knocked off my feet again. The impact broke my entire train of thought before my body hit the ground. My eyes flew open, but I hadn’t phased this time. I glared at Edward as I got the meaning of his game now. An evil grin struck my face as I came to my feet.
“Yes, আপনি got it Jacob! I told আপনি it’s all about control. I can see আপনি like my challenge. It’s that simple. Every time আপনি hear that sound I want আপনি to picture me knocking আপনি down. I want আপনি to remember this triumph আপনি feel right now, because it’s painted all over your face. This is the face Nessie needs to see from now on. Want to try again?”
“Hell yeah!” I sneered
Edward and I went through this training. Over and over Edward had me remember something that would drag out the very worst of my emotions. Whenever I got too focused, he’d knock me off my feet again. The আরো we played his game, the better I began to feel. I always liked a challenge, and he didn’t hold back. It just got to a point after six আরো times when I couldn’t even focus hard enough. I couldn’t provoke him to hit me. When I realized he couldn’t hit me I cackled loudly when I opened my eyes. Edward laughed with me when we knew it had sunk in enough. I could do this. I could keep my emotions in check. Edward and I returned to Carlisle’s house. When we started walking up to the porch I felt my emotions waver slightly as Edward punched me in my shoulder. He glared at me for a moment as I straightened out my face to a smile.
“Jacob, what আপনি feel emotionally is completely normal. আপনি are still human. I’m not expecting আপনি to hold it together when আপনি are not with Nessie, but when আপনি are…keep that smile on at all times.”
“I’ve got it. Thanks, Edward. This was a huge help.”
“I didn’t exactly do it for your benefit…but, you’re welcome. Go back to bed. Nessie is sleeping.”
As Edward and I entered the quiet house, I immediately went to Edward’s room. As I entered my eyes locked on Nessie quietly sleeping away. I stood for a while and watched her sleep. I watched the gentle rise and fall of her chest. Her beautiful face was so serene. I knew I was tired, but I almost didn’t want to try to climb into বিছানা for fear of waking her. Eventually I gave in and slid as softly as I could into বিছানা পরবর্তি to her. I didn’t touch her as I began to fall asleep. My dreams were nothing short of nightmares as I remembered all my worst fears about Bella’s birth, her pain, her death as a mortal. Sleep was virtually impossible as I couldn’t try any longer and gave up. I sat up in বিছানা and just watched Nessie sleep. I couldn’t touch her anymore. I was too afraid I might hurt her at this point. When dawn came, she woke up to me staring at her. As Nessie woke, I remember what Edward ব্যক্ত to me about my smile.
“Jacob, what wrong?” she ব্যক্ত with a yawn.
“Nothing sweetie, just like watching আপনি sleep. How do আপনি feel?”
“I’m perfectly fine, and you?”
“Nessie, don’t worry about me…I’m fine. I’m just always thinking of you. আপনি know that.”
“Jacob, are আপনি sure, I know আপনি must be worried about me.”
“Sure, I was worried, but as long as আপনি aren’t I’m okay. How’s are babies?”
“Guess they are still asleep, আপনি should get to work.”
“Okay, I know you’re in the best of hands.”
“Jake, I’m okay, trust me.”
“I have never stopped trusting you, Nessie”
“So just go to work, I’ll be fine, okay?”
“Sure, sure”
I did have one hundred percent faith in Nessie so I did go to work. I just found it really hard to work. Even Seth caught me daydreaming. I did trust Nessie, but even দ্বারা best trust brought up my worst fears. I heard Carlisle’s words echo in my head as Seth tried to catch my attention.
“Dude, আপনি alright? You’ve been working on this oil change for আরো than an hour. The customer is waiting.” Seth called to me as he leaned under the car I was working on.
“Sorry Seth, I’m almost done.” I sighed
“Hey are আপনি sure আপনি are okay? আপনি have been অভিনয় weird all day. Is Nessie okay?”
“Not exactly…I’m sorry Seth, I can’t talk much about it with you”
“Sam is worried about আপনি too. He says আপনি to stop দ্বারা at Emily’s place after work. Maybe আপনি should just go ahead now. I can take care of thing. আপনি look like আপনি need a break.”
“Okay Seth, I know আপনি got this. Thanks, I think I do need some time to talk to someone.”
“No problem Jake. Just take off, I got everything under control.”
“I now আপনি do. Thanks, Seth”
“Go on Jake!”
I gave Seth my wrench and headed for the Mustang. I figured it would be easier than phasing to get to Sam. I knew I would have to still phase to find Sam if he wasn’t with Emily. I flew to La Push in the Mustang. Thank goodness I built this car, it was becoming pretty handy. When I walked into Emily’s house, she was already making dinner.
“Hey Emily, is Sam around?”
“He should be back soon Jacob. নমস্কার are আপনি okay?”
“No Emily, I really wish I was.”
“Well, tell me what’s wrong”
“It’s really a long story Emily. I think I should just wait for Sam.”
“I’m not chopped liver, Jake”
“Emily, Nessie is having a difficult pregnancy. It’s causing her pain I’m having a bit of a hard time dealing with it.”
“You know Jake; most women have some trouble with being pregnant. It’s a natural thing. I’m sure whatever Nessie is dealing with is not too far off.”
“Actually Emily… it’s way off. If I was human and so was she…well maybe her pregnancy would be normal. It’s just so abnormal though.”
“Jake, are আপনি happy Nessie is your wife?”
“Of course?”
“Are আপনি really happy that she is pregnant?”
“Yes, at least I was until…”
“Then stop fighting Jake…Nessie is happy right?”
“She really is-“
“So that’s all that matters right?”
“I guess so…but it’s just that-“
“There are no “Buts” Jake when it comes to pregnancy.”
“I guess আপনি are right, Emily”
As I ব্যক্ত these words I heard Sam come into the house behind me.
“Hey Jacob, good to see you”
“Good to see আপনি Sam, do আপনি have a minute?”
Sure Jacob, take a walk with me?”
Sam and I began to walk out of Emily’s house and Sam could see the turmoil on my face. He headed towards the woods with me following. When we had gone far enough into the woods he began to shed his clothes with me following his lead.
When we both had phased to our নেকড়ে I simply brought all my new emotions and প্রতিমূর্তি into my mind for Sam to read for himself. When Sam and I phased back I could see his own concern on his face. Sam would know better than anyone how I felt. I could see his own struggle.
“Jacob, I’m sorry for you. I really am. I don’t know how to council আপনি at this point. This is really a terrible situation. I can’t even begin to imagine how আপনি must feel. Maybe আপনি should stay away from Nessie for a while.”
“Jeez Sam, I wish I could. I really am at my wits end. আপনি know I can’t stay away from Nessie thought.”
“Well at least Edward tried to help you. আপনি know your family is always here for you. Maybe আপনি should lead the patrol tonight. Like old time, it will help get your mind off this অথবা a while.”
“Maybe আপনি are right Sam. I guess it couldn’t hurt.”
“Okay, tonight আপনি take point with Embry and Quil.”
“Thanks Sam, I really appreciate this.”
“No problem, Jacob…I’ll keep your mind busy for a while.”
That evening I went out on patrol with Embry and Quil as Sam had suggested. It felt good to run in my নেকড়ে form. Quil and Embry were instructed to keep me moving with no mention of Nessie at all. We were running the usual circuit of our boundary line. I was fully focused on this task Sam had প্রদত্ত to me. Embry and Quil just kept their thoughts focused on simply updating me on events down in La Push. We were out on the edge of the perimeter when I caught a scent that stopped us all short.
Whoo…Jake what the hell is that smell? Quil asked
I have no idea…we better follow it though.
Jake, check the prints. What the heck made these? Embry asked
Again আপনি got me! Let’s just follow and see where it leads
I buckled down and headed off with Quil and Embry on my flanks. Whatever it was it was heading away from Forks and that’s what bothered me the most. The smell was awful. The tracks were so unfamiliar. The trail stopped দ্বারা the side of the highway. The scent just seemed to disappear as I could see fresh tire prints. We have to double back. I need to know where this thing came from. I didn’t need to say it as I turned and followed the trail back with Embry and Quil. We crossed through Forks. I couldn’t believe where this trail was heading…could it really be to the Cullen’s house. I was sure of it as I pushed harder now. When we were about to break through the trees the scent stopped short at the বৃক্ষ line right দ্বারা Edward’s window. I could hear Nessie’s voice upstairs.

Guys, double back to La push! We need Sam and the others. I’ll be there when I can. I want to check on Nessie first.

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the view was amazing the sun set & sand jacob warm body make me so sleepy i am so relaxed " ok sleeping beauty " jacob ব্যক্ত in low voice he চুম্বন my cheek " lets go প্রথমপাতা "he ব্যক্ত " pls " i ব্যক্ত in sleepy voice i was so tired to সরানো jacob carry me in his big warm arms we both were silent all the way to his house he put me in side on my feet he go & back with my cloth from the car " নমস্কার kids " billy ব্যক্ত " casy will stay with us tonight " jacob ব্যক্ত the reason why i am here billy smile " yes i know charlie calls " he ব্যক্ত " she is always welcome " billy ব্যক্ত " thank আপনি " i ব্যক্ত " i am...
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in the morning i wake up dad was in the রান্নাঘর so i get up stairs i feel much much better i brush my teeth i take a ঝরনা i think about jacob i want to know him আরো i will go to him know i bella told me about his নেকড়ে pack running around to keep the town নিরাপদ i hope he is at প্রথমপাতা now
i get dress jeans & wight ব্লাউজ i get down stair i was so hungry i saw jacob set on the chair his eyes look up at me " আপনি came " i ব্যক্ত " i came " he ব্যক্ত open his arms for me a nearly irresistible invitation i run to his big arms ignoring my dad he make himself busy too ,,,,
jacob laugh "i want to go to...
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in the night i feel sick i feel so exhausted i think i got flu অথবা something i take ashow i get to my coach sleepy i hope i would be better in the morning i want to see jacob i really like him
i wake up on the ring the phone was ringing oh damn " নমস্কার ' i answer but my voice was হারিয়ে গেছে " নমস্কার casy " dad ব্যক্ত " are আপনি ok " he ask i didn't use to be taking care of " i am fine just sleepy
" i ব্যক্ত try to make my voice louder unsuccessfully,
" is there any thing that i can do " i ask " no don't do anything আপনি look tired just tell bella that the blacks will have ডিনার with us tonight there is agame...
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Homeward Bound
Nessie:     

Noah and I cleaned up the lab. Every time we made eye contact we laughed again. I burned the blood samples and Noah gave me the test results to take প্রথমপাতা to Jacob. We hailed a taxi together and arrived at the airport. Gratefully the delays were over. But we missed our flights. I called my mom to give her my flight number and arrival time. Noah tried to get a direct flight home, but none were available. The only way he was getting প্রথমপাতা was to take the flight with me to Seattle and then pick up a connecting flight back to Oregon. I didn’t mind though....
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নমস্কার guys I'm going to put this chapter in two parts because I'm using my touch to type this up so excuse the poor grammar.

BPOV
I almost ran a red light, but put my foot harder on the pedal, i was almost to the airport i could see the large building.

I was waiting in line looking at the flight board seeing where i could go but none of these places made me excited অথবা interested me...
"Blair!" i head my name getting called out so i turned around looking at people who i might notice.
"Blair!" i heard again, then in the line of people i saw Stefan towering over them pushing and shoving to get to...
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1. Surely it was a good way to die, in the place of someone else, someone I loved. Noble, even. That ought to count for something. (Bella)

3. When life offers আপনি a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it’s not reasonable
to grieve when it comes to an end. (Bella)

4. Sometimes I wondered if I was seeing the same things through my eyes that the rest of the
world was seeing through theirs. Maybe there was a glitch in my brain. (Bella)

5. So did আপনি stab Edward Cullen with a pencil অথবা what? I’ve never seen him act like that. (Mike)

6. Forks was literally my personal hell on earth. (Bella)...
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chapter two
sorry, it took sooo long. i was buisy. hope আপনি like it :)!

i heard a knock at my door that afternoon. i ran to go open it,
"hey Jake!" i couldn't hide the fact that i was excited.
"hi heavenly!" he ব্যক্ত almost as excited as me.
"we should go before my mom ca-"
"HEAVENLY! WHO'S YOUR FRIEND?" i was red with embarrasment.
"uh... ma, this is Jake, Jake, this is my ma." i introduced them.
"HEY SWEETY!" my mom ব্যক্ত super loud even though he was standing right there.
"hi, mrs. Paulmero, it's a pleasure to meet you!" Jake was really polite.
"you know you're very handsome-"
"MOM! WE'RE...
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posted by Hellohoudini
FIRST PUBLISHED: April 28, 2009 4:59 PM EDT
LAST UPDATED: April 28, 2009 5:15 PM EDT
LOS ANGELES, Calif. --
Taylor Lautner’s hard work in the gym bulking up to play a werewolf in “New Moon” appears to have paid off – he’s scaring his co-stars.


Access Hollywood caught up with “New Moon” তারকা Peter Facinelli, who plays vampire Dr. Cullen, at the “Ghosts of Girlfriends Past” premiere in LA Monday night where he admitted his newfound fear of Taylor.


“He scares me now!” Peter joked with Access. “He’s gotten really big and if I saw him in a back alley, I’d probably run!”...
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First of all this is an opinion. If আপনি think i'm making your দিন bad because of this article, don't read it. It's just a matter of opinion.

Recently, I পোষ্ট হয়েছে a প্রশ্ন here in the Jacob Black ফ্যানপপ site. It was entitled 'Give me 5 reasons why Jacob is better than Edward.' I পোষ্ট হয়েছে the প্রশ্ন because I knew that this spot was visited দ্বারা Jake's fans. I received a lot of good উত্তর but there was one leech who ruined everyone's answers.

I won't name the leech who gave nasty comments. All i can say is she really HATES Jacob because she thinks Edward is hot.

Now, to Jacob's defense...I'll give...
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I got bored so I found these! It's pretty long but that's OK right? =D

Basics
Full Name: Taylor Daniel Lautner
Birthday: February 11, 1992 (that's coming up soon!)
Birthplace: Grand Rapids, Michigan
Parents: Deborah and Dan Lautner
Siblings: little sister Makena

Fun-Facts!
-Started karate @ age 6
-He got his start in অভিনয় when his martial arts instructor persuaded him to audition for a Burger King commercial, which he didn't make, but he enjoyed the experiance so much that he decided to persue an অভিনয় career.
-He's done voice অভিনয় as well as on-screen অভিনয় (In 2004 he voiced 'Youngblood' on...
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