Sometimes it feels like I truly am alone in the world. It also feels like nothing I do is of value and that even when I work hard for something there is no reward.

I want to feel some kind of accomplishment. Success.. I want to feel that not every thing I do is meaningless.

I feel I have no power. I am told that power comes from within, but within where? How can there be power inside of me when I feel so empty?

I believe we all have a right to complain and feel bad about things in our lives we can’t অথবা struggle to change. I know it’s আরো frustrating when you’ve tried years to change things.

I do believe in fate and that some things are meant to be. I also believe that some if not all fates can be changed depending on which path we go down. I am starting to believe though that my fate to fail is the outcome to every path.

Life is too short to not try so I won’t give in. I will keep trying even if I don’t achieve the things I want to achieve. The biggest failure would be to give up অথবা to not try at all and I’ve been fighting my whole life for some acknowledgement, trust me.

I’d like someone to say “hey you’re trying really hard and I can see that”. Although, knowing me, I would probably brush that off.

I am difficult I suppose. It’s hard to win with me. It’s hard to know what I’m thinking অথবা feeling. I can be very over dramatic অথবা have no reaction at all.

Maybe if you’re still পাঠ করা this আপনি understand how I feel. আপনি don’t want to complain about things and do nothing to change them so আপনি keep trying and still nothing changes.

I hope that if আপনি feel the way I do that আপনি can overcome it. Hopefully one দিন we can say “I made it”.