Chapter 8
After I চুম্বন Josh, he gives me a quizzical look and says, “I’m not convinced.”
So I চুম্বন him again. Then he says, “I’m still not convinced.” I start to get a little annoyed and then I notice that he has a smirk on his face so I decide to play along.
“So…what’s it going to take to convince you?” He leans back in the couch, puts his hand on his chin, and says, “Well, if আপনি put it that way…” Before he can finish his sentence, I fling a throw বালিশ at his head.
“Hey,” he exclaims in mock offense. Then he throws the বালিশ right back at me. I am about to throw it at him again when grabs my arm and pulls me toward him. He gently places his right hand on my face and wraps his left arm around my waist. I catch my breath the moment our eyes meet. Then he kisses me. I can feel my হৃদয় pounding inside my chest as the মিনিট pass. I feel him pulling me even closer as his kisses become আরো insistent. My body wants to respond in kind but my mind tells me that we need to slow things down…for now.
“Josh, could we take things a little slower.” He reluctantly loosens his grip, kisses my forehead, gives me a half-smile and then nods in agreement.
“I’m sorry I just…” He cuts me off দ্বারা saying, “Don’t be sorry. There’s no need to rush things.”
“It’s not that I don’t want to,“ I blurt out. I am about to say আরো when he puts his fingers on my lips and says, “Shhh.”
“Maybe I should go,” I say half-heartedly. He shakes his head in response.
I feel like an idiot and I tell him so. “I’m such a dork.” He laughs then says, “But you’re my dork. And I’m hopelessly in প্রণয় with you.”
“Really,” I say. “When did that happen?”
“When আপনি kicked me in the head and gave me a concussion.”
“Oh Josh, please, “ I sarcastically reply.
“No really. I saw how upset আপনি were to see me hurt and I began to think that maybe there was something there.”
“Why didn’t আপনি say something before?” I ask.
He replies, “And ruin our friendship? Not worth the risk.”
“And now?” I ask. He replies, “Now I’ll do whatever it takes to keep you.”
I don’t know what to say. I look up at the clock on the দেওয়াল and see that it’s past midnight. Suddenly, a feeling of exhaustion overtakes me and so I say, “It’s pretty late and it’s been a long day. You’re probably pretty worn out too so I better get going.”
“Don’t go,” he softly replies. “You can sleep in my room. I’ll take the couch. Just don’t go. Not now.”
I feel a lump in my throat and tears beginning to well up in my eyes. I say, “I’m hurting you, aren’t I?” I’m doing this all wrong.” He shakes his head but I add, “Here আপনি are saying these wonderful things to me and doing your best to be understanding and all I’m giving আপনি are mixed messages.”
“That’s not true. That’s not what I’m thinking,” he replies.
At this point, I’m too tired to argue and am in desperate need of a hug. “Can আপনি just hold me?” In response, he holds out his arms to me. I bury my face in his shoulder and we just stand there for the longest time locked in an embrace. Eventually, he leads me to his room, puts a warm blanket over me and then lies down পরবর্তি to me. I turn my head toward him and say good night. He responds with a চুম্বন and then wraps his arms around me as we drift off to sleep.
After I চুম্বন Josh, he gives me a quizzical look and says, “I’m not convinced.”
So I চুম্বন him again. Then he says, “I’m still not convinced.” I start to get a little annoyed and then I notice that he has a smirk on his face so I decide to play along.
“So…what’s it going to take to convince you?” He leans back in the couch, puts his hand on his chin, and says, “Well, if আপনি put it that way…” Before he can finish his sentence, I fling a throw বালিশ at his head.
“Hey,” he exclaims in mock offense. Then he throws the বালিশ right back at me. I am about to throw it at him again when grabs my arm and pulls me toward him. He gently places his right hand on my face and wraps his left arm around my waist. I catch my breath the moment our eyes meet. Then he kisses me. I can feel my হৃদয় pounding inside my chest as the মিনিট pass. I feel him pulling me even closer as his kisses become আরো insistent. My body wants to respond in kind but my mind tells me that we need to slow things down…for now.
“Josh, could we take things a little slower.” He reluctantly loosens his grip, kisses my forehead, gives me a half-smile and then nods in agreement.
“I’m sorry I just…” He cuts me off দ্বারা saying, “Don’t be sorry. There’s no need to rush things.”
“It’s not that I don’t want to,“ I blurt out. I am about to say আরো when he puts his fingers on my lips and says, “Shhh.”
“Maybe I should go,” I say half-heartedly. He shakes his head in response.
I feel like an idiot and I tell him so. “I’m such a dork.” He laughs then says, “But you’re my dork. And I’m hopelessly in প্রণয় with you.”
“Really,” I say. “When did that happen?”
“When আপনি kicked me in the head and gave me a concussion.”
“Oh Josh, please, “ I sarcastically reply.
“No really. I saw how upset আপনি were to see me hurt and I began to think that maybe there was something there.”
“Why didn’t আপনি say something before?” I ask.
He replies, “And ruin our friendship? Not worth the risk.”
“And now?” I ask. He replies, “Now I’ll do whatever it takes to keep you.”
I don’t know what to say. I look up at the clock on the দেওয়াল and see that it’s past midnight. Suddenly, a feeling of exhaustion overtakes me and so I say, “It’s pretty late and it’s been a long day. You’re probably pretty worn out too so I better get going.”
“Don’t go,” he softly replies. “You can sleep in my room. I’ll take the couch. Just don’t go. Not now.”
I feel a lump in my throat and tears beginning to well up in my eyes. I say, “I’m hurting you, aren’t I?” I’m doing this all wrong.” He shakes his head but I add, “Here আপনি are saying these wonderful things to me and doing your best to be understanding and all I’m giving আপনি are mixed messages.”
“That’s not true. That’s not what I’m thinking,” he replies.
At this point, I’m too tired to argue and am in desperate need of a hug. “Can আপনি just hold me?” In response, he holds out his arms to me. I bury my face in his shoulder and we just stand there for the longest time locked in an embrace. Eventually, he leads me to his room, puts a warm blanket over me and then lies down পরবর্তি to me. I turn my head toward him and say good night. He responds with a চুম্বন and then wraps his arms around me as we drift off to sleep.
