Is this usual?

So I have a crush on two guys. One for like five অথবা six years and another for about two. And I know they both return my feelings. But for some reason whenever I think about my two-year crush asking me out, I have a feeling of dread. Yet thinking about the same thing about my 5-6 বছর crush makes me happy. :/

So yeah, I'm confused right here.

Do I not actually have a crush on my two বছর crush?