I'm in a প্রণয় triangle. Both guys are aware of each other.
I still প্রণয় my ex..

About my ex:
His name is Sean and lives in New Jersey, but was adopted from South Korea. When I was getting bullied at school, he was always there for me. I was being called a lot of names and believed them. I used to cut myself and he had me stop along with my best friend who is like a sister to me. (Laura) Sean is super sweet and has a few flaws.
1. He has a foot fetish. I had heel-cord surgery and my feet are my sensitive. I also have a 3rd degree burn on my right ankle. So if he ever gave me a foot massage, I would be tense and make him worried that I didn't like him anymore.
2. He loves making our rps (sexting অথবা rping anthros) into something sexual. Right now, my life consists on my mom having an affair and talking about sex is hard for me. I know a lot and আরো than I should though I'm 14(still young and yeah..) and a virgin. (proud to be) Though Sean is a virgin, he goes from sweet to sexual. Like "you are the প্রণয় of my life" to "I would fuck আপনি so hard". Many times, I talked to Laura about this, and the last straw came. We broke up with each other over his mom who didn't like him in long distance relationships and everything sexual. I cried that night, not sure what to do.

My bf now:
His name is Christopher. He lives in Alabama. He works part time and is raising money to see me. When we do talk about that, he always talks about how he would hold me close.
The only sexual talk was when we were still friends.
Me- আপনি a virgin?
Him- yes and proud :D
Me- me too!!
And after that it was যেভাবে খুশী talk. After a couple weeks, I did the oddest things. I told him one night, "I প্রণয় you." he ব্যক্ত the same thing. Ever since, we barely ever sext, our conversations go for like 2 hours of laughing, talking, and smiling. The only arguments we have are
"I প্রণয় আপনি most"
"I missed আপনি more"
"Why would আপনি shun me?"
And its all for play.
Chris is sweet as Sean, not as sexual. Chris is a wonderful guy though he has a rough past. We barely talk about our pasts. He has never made me cry and Sean only has when we broke up.

I care and প্রণয় for both guys, yet it's hard. Yes, Chris will make some things sexual but doesn't ask for anything. He doesn't like too. Sean asks but I'm afraid his mom might catch him.
Please help.
I know I'm only 14 but both make me feel as beautiful as any girl out there. They make me feel like a কুইন when I feel as if I don't need to feel like that. My therpist tried helping me on the Sean thing and told me what Laura told me. Set the rules, which I did and he didn't listen. I want to give him another chance but I'm with Chris. Yet both are far away. All three of us have trust issues, so makes the relationship stronger with the long distanced.
Being 14 and being young, I know. But there are 8 বছর olds dating. I'm going to be a freshman, my older brother told me to তারিখ guys in my school, which I'm afraid of. They would never ask me out, I'm not rich অথবা popular. I go to a private school only because my old school picked on me a lot.
Thank আপনি all and if আপনি want, message me your advice, otherwise আপনি may post here.
Thank আপনি again! Have a nice year! School বছর অথবা work whatever works :p