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Louis tucked a strand of your hair behind your ear,”I missed you”
আপনি nodded,”I-I missed আপনি too,Lou”
“What’s wrong?” Louis reached out towards you
আপনি no longer felt his touch as soon as আপনি opened your eyes,”Louis?”
Perrie took a আসন besides you,engulfing আপনি in her warm arms. She pat your back softly. Harry surprisingly walked in,his eyes full of sorrow. আপনি studied each of their eyes,wanting to hit them for not just telling আপনি right then and there. They made it আরো difficult just looking away from you. আপনি shut your eyes again,feeling Louis পরবর্তি to you,holding your hand tightly.
-“I did it for you,babe” Louis whispered
“Did what?” আপনি questioned,wanting to just snog him right then and there
Louis sighed,”I commit suicide. The hate got to me. I don’t want আপনি to be like me. I don’t want আপনি to let the hate get to you. Being with আপনি was amazing. I hope one দিন we can meet each other again. I প্রণয় you,just know that. Tell the boys to continue singing. To not let my death ‘cause them to break up. Don’t let them. Tell Perrie that her and the girls should keep it up no matter how hurt Zayn is. Tell Harry to not be so depressed about me going away. I know we’re best friends,but I need him to be okay. Please.”
“LOUIS! Why’d আপনি do it?!” আপনি practically screamed,squeezing his hand that seemed transparent
“I did it for the sake of our love” Louis muttered,leaning in towards you-
আপনি opened your eyes,”H-he’s gone,isn’t he?”
Perrie bit her bottom lip,”I’m sorry,baba. He loved you.”
Harry handed আপনি a letter,shutting his eyes and giving আপনি a ভালুক hug. He tried to release আপনি from the hug but আপনি still had him in your arms.
“H-harry..I..I প্রণয় you,okay?” আপনি whispered
Harry smiled slightly,trying,”T-thank you”
আপনি opened the letter~
To my beautiful girlfriend<3
I’m guessing you’re wondering where I am. Why I’m not with আপনি in the bed. Why I’m not engulfing আপনি in hugs. You’re wondering why am I so dumb. Well,babe,it was for the best. The hate was getting worse AND worse for me and you. I’m the one that let it get to me. I hope আপনি don’t either. I just want আপনি to know,I প্রণয় আপনি আরো than I should. Keep living. We’ll meet again someday. Tell Haz,Zayn,Nialler,and Li to continue being a band. Don’t let them break up because of me. I প্রণয় you. Don’t go into depression. Just know I miss আপনি and প্রণয় you. Tell Perrie to not let Zayn go into depression. Tell Dani the same,but for Liam. I miss you,babe. I’m sorry that I did this. I did it for the sake of us. I couldn’t take people hating on us together. I প্রণয় আপনি all. xxx
“No. No,this isn’t the end! THIS ISN’T THE END OF HIM!” আপনি screamed,clutching onto Harry’s shirt.
Harry sighed,”I know that you’re not going to believe this,but it was possibly for the best of him. He had started cutting and taking pills. I knew আপনি didn’t notice. That’s why he always wore longsleeves. “
আপনি groaned,”I could’ve saved him,but no. I was so concieded and all I cared about was ME getting hate from fans. Those অনুরাগী are the reason Louis isn’t here. He could’ve came প্রথমপাতা and I would’ve ran into his arms..and..and” আপনি burst into tears,”I need him.”
Harry and Perrie both stood up from the bed,heading out the door. আপনি could tell they knew আপনি wanted privacy right now. আপনি shut the door,locking it. আপনি knocked on the door to see if anyone was passing by. No one tried opening the door,you ran to the cabinets in the white restroom sink. আপনি grabbed a razor,quietly slamming the cabinet door. আপনি never wanted to go back to the old days,but আপনি were doing it for Louis. আপনি dug the razor into your skin,pressing it deeply. আপনি pulled it away to see your red blood stain the white tiles of the floor. A small smile appeared on your face. আপনি pressed the razor to your skin once again,digging it in your skin. আপনি threw the razor to the ground as আরো blood started flowing onto the floor. A pill bottle labelled DO NOT TAKE IF আপনি HAVE DEPRESSION were obviously the ones Louis took. They were tightly closed on the sink rim. আপনি snatched them from the sink rim and threw the top,taking most of them into your mouth. Only 5 of them were left. আপনি took 2 আরো and felt your eyes getting heavy. আপনি started swaying from left to right,your vision getting blurry. আপনি sat down on the cold hard ground,noticing your blood once again. আপনি smiled up at the ceiling.
“I did it for all of you” আপনি whispered as your death reached you
Your eyes closed,sending আপনি away from this place. আপনি and Louis watched over the boys and the girls in heaven. আপনি were their guardian angels.
“I প্রণয় you,Louis”
