After losing my best friend, Barry, I slipped into a depression. My grandparents refused to see me. My less consistent বন্ধু turned their backs on me. The only ones there for me were my aunt and uncle, my brother, Daniel, and my cousin, Barbara Ann. I had very little, if any, self-confidence. I didn't even try to confront Grandpa again, fearing he would beat me again. The only thing that brought me any happiness was music. I still enjoyed the Beatles above all others, but I liked to explore different bands as well. I overheard someone talking about a metal band called System of a Down, so I decided to check them out. I never listened to metal before. I picked up a CD titled, "Steal This Album!" I listened to it, and I fell in প্রণয় with it. I felt a connection with some of the lyrics in the song, "Ego Brain".
"You see my pain is real
Watch my world dissolve
And pretend that none of us see the fall."
What I took from that lyric is this. The songwriter is experiencing a lot of emotional pain, and he's pretending that he's all right. It made me feel better knowing that somebody out there knew how I was feeling. I still wished I had some friends, but I was getting nothing but bullied. In life science, I learned that I was ugly, a loser, and a freak. In English, I learned that I don't belong. In mathematics, I learned that I was lame. Should I go on? No, I think I covered it well. One thing I didn't learn was why no one helped me. I went প্রথমপাতা crying one day. Daniel said, "Hey, little sis. Are আপনি okay?" I said, "No." He asked, "What's wrong?" I said, "It's nothing. Forget I ব্যক্ত anything." He said, "No, it's okay. আপনি can tell me." I said, "I'm a freak." He said, "Erin, আপনি are not a freak." I then said, "And I'm a loser." He said, "No, Erin!" I said, "And I don't belong." He said, "Oh, my God! Where on Earth did আপনি get ideas like that?" I said, "That's all I ever get told in school. No one ever helps me. Nobody cares." He said, "Erin, I had no idea all this was going on." I said, "Nobody loves me." He said, "That's bullshit, and আপনি know it!" He told my aunt and uncle. My aunt said, "Erin, we all প্রণয় আপনি very much." My uncle said, "That's right. Don't ever think আপনি are not loved. If someone's picking on you, please tell us. We'll try to fix it." My aunt paid a visit to the school. The bullying slowed down, but I still wished I had friends. Everybody needs a least one friend.
"You see my pain is real
Watch my world dissolve
And pretend that none of us see the fall."
What I took from that lyric is this. The songwriter is experiencing a lot of emotional pain, and he's pretending that he's all right. It made me feel better knowing that somebody out there knew how I was feeling. I still wished I had some friends, but I was getting nothing but bullied. In life science, I learned that I was ugly, a loser, and a freak. In English, I learned that I don't belong. In mathematics, I learned that I was lame. Should I go on? No, I think I covered it well. One thing I didn't learn was why no one helped me. I went প্রথমপাতা crying one day. Daniel said, "Hey, little sis. Are আপনি okay?" I said, "No." He asked, "What's wrong?" I said, "It's nothing. Forget I ব্যক্ত anything." He said, "No, it's okay. আপনি can tell me." I said, "I'm a freak." He said, "Erin, আপনি are not a freak." I then said, "And I'm a loser." He said, "No, Erin!" I said, "And I don't belong." He said, "Oh, my God! Where on Earth did আপনি get ideas like that?" I said, "That's all I ever get told in school. No one ever helps me. Nobody cares." He said, "Erin, I had no idea all this was going on." I said, "Nobody loves me." He said, "That's bullshit, and আপনি know it!" He told my aunt and uncle. My aunt said, "Erin, we all প্রণয় আপনি very much." My uncle said, "That's right. Don't ever think আপনি are not loved. If someone's picking on you, please tell us. We'll try to fix it." My aunt paid a visit to the school. The bullying slowed down, but I still wished I had friends. Everybody needs a least one friend.
A few hours later, Una and Everett were comfortably snuggled up together on the couch, sharing the last of Una's chocolates which lay in the open box between them, as the credits rolled on the movie.
"That was so good," murmured Una, her head resting on Everett's shoulder. "You know - I was looking অগ্রবর্তী to your plans, whatever they were going to be, but I was really hoping we'd be able to watch this."
Everett gave a small laugh and shook his head. "I wish I'd known. I could have saved myself all this trouble."
Una grinned. "This year, our Valentine's দিন plans were on me," she said. "Next বছর I expect it to be your turn."
Everett felt a warm rush at the thought of পরবর্তি year, that Una was so certain they would be celebrating Valentine's দিন together পরবর্তি year. But then... of course, Everett though. He wouldn't have considered anything different.
"I প্রণয় you, Una," he said.
"I প্রণয় আপনি too, Everett," she said.
"That was so good," murmured Una, her head resting on Everett's shoulder. "You know - I was looking অগ্রবর্তী to your plans, whatever they were going to be, but I was really hoping we'd be able to watch this."
Everett gave a small laugh and shook his head. "I wish I'd known. I could have saved myself all this trouble."
Una grinned. "This year, our Valentine's দিন plans were on me," she said. "Next বছর I expect it to be your turn."
Everett felt a warm rush at the thought of পরবর্তি year, that Una was so certain they would be celebrating Valentine's দিন together পরবর্তি year. But then... of course, Everett though. He wouldn't have considered anything different.
"I প্রণয় you, Una," he said.
"I প্রণয় আপনি too, Everett," she said.
