As I write this, I feel deep disgust, sadness, and anger churning in the pit of my stomach. What had set off these emotions is what I saw: a gang rape scene.

It was on a TV show, so I know that it was just acting, but still, to see such a filthy act was so upsetting. I mean there she was, held down against her will as a group of men just attacked her, laughing with contempt as the victim screamed for help (how could filthy জন্তু জানোয়ার enjoy making an innocent person suffer like that so much?) I felt so disturbed at seeing that because even though it was acting, I still wanted to scream, cry, and rescue her. I actually felt the pain she was feeling as they hurt her repeatedly for their pleasure. That scene had brought up so much in my mind: how this sin and sins like this happen every মিনিট of the day, how just দ্বারা being an African American woman, I am আরো prone to being a victim of sexual violence than anyone else (and have actually suffered it a couple times of my life), how someone I প্রণয় was raped দ্বারা her relative (whom she let go simply because he had a sick mother to care for, even though she doesn't know if he's actually caring for her), how so shitty the government's rape laws are-or maybe it's the government officials that shitty- that the blame of the rape is often put আরো on the victim than the rapist as they interrogate HER আরো often as the rapist is able to slink away almost spot-free (and according to non-corrupt studies and statistics, this is আরো definitely the case if the rapist is a rich, white male), and how even innocent little children who don't even know the meaning of the words "sex" and "virginity" suffer this type of abuse as well.
How disgusting and cruel can this world be, that people are sinned against in such a way? And how can any predator think this is okay? I just absolutely feel so SICK দ্বারা this!