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Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Being alone and being lonely are two entirely different things. আপনি may be surrounded দ্বারা others, but do আপনি truly consider any of those people your friend?  পোষ্ট হয়েছে এক মাস 1 আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
I am honestly glad to be a mental health guru and wizard for a lot of people and it makes me happy to be able to help as many people as I do. It makes me really happy and honestly its one of the things that helps keep me grounded to the world and thus I almost actively seek it out at this point.

But honestly, sometimes I wish I had someone who could be a mental health guru / wizard for me at times. Often times I know if I were to talk about my problems, they'd either go ignored পোষ্ট হয়েছে এক মাস 1 আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
অথবা few would be able to say anything to help অথবা assist অথবা comfort me. I've kinda grown painfully aware that for a lot of this, I am kind of out here on my own figuring out how to make things work, and even within therapists and psychiatrists, few do much help as much as discussion and mutual planning at this point. এক মাস 1 আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
I am not upset দ্বারা any means that the amount I put out to people to help them and what I receive back are not equal, to be honest thats just the way it is with rare and kinda severe mental health issues and I've grown used to and accept it. To be honest, if anything, it is one of the reasons I want to reach out and help people as much as I can এক মাস 1 আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
I figure if I have to go through all the work of figuring out how to maneuver therapy, recovery, mental health, and all that with little people to guide me অথবা help me, I can at least use my struggle and the knowledge I got from it to leave a রুটি crumb for others to follow এক মাস 1 আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Admittedly, I really don't know half of what I am doing অথবা if I am doing it right when it comes to my mental health, and I just go off of what seems best with the infomration I have at hand and its done me well, but if I could one দিন figure a way to a good life and if I could leave that রুটি crumb trail I took to get there for people to follow, then I suppose at least in a way that my struggle was actually worth it এক মাস 1 আগে
LuceOfTheLight ব্যক্ত …
I would like to say that I am দ্বারা no means planning to hide the fact that I am an alter of Riku's as much as I would prefer to be treated and respected as an individual.

With that being said, Riku and myself have a stern policy that anything that one alter does reflects on the whole system. If Riku causes problems, then it is both her and my responsibility to handle it. Likewise, if I upset you, it is both our responsibilities to handle it. পোষ্ট হয়েছে এক মাস 1 আগে
LuceOfTheLight মতামত প্রদত্ত…
While we do identify separately, we are a single unit possessing a single body and a single brain and thus are responsible for everything done as a system. I do apologize if issues to arise regarding myself অথবা Aderis অথবা even Riku, and we take full responsibility. So if anything regarding this becomes a problem, please be patient while Riku and I (hopefully eventually Aderis as well) figure it out এক মাস 1 আগে
LuceOfTheLight মতামত প্রদত্ত…
I figured that it would be beneficial for me to interact outside of the system আরো often and the only reason I am currently being as active as I am is because I do not know the পরবর্তি time I will be out. এক মাস 1 আগে
LuceOfTheLight ব্যক্ত …
Per request I am now having a Sakamoto icon. পোষ্ট হয়েছে এক মাস 1 আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Anyone ever sit there and realize আপনি are so fucked up and fucked over that আপনি probably shouldn't even be alive দ্বারা any logical standard? পোষ্ট হয়েছে এক মাস 1 আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
I'm proud to be alive despite it all, but really... I am so fucked up its hard to imagine. এক মাস 1 আগে
Lusamine মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Pain is beauty. If anything, this makes আপনি a stronger and wiser person, আরো suitable to thrive than any other. Take it as a compliment. এক মাস 1 আগে
LuceOfTheLight মতামত প্রদত্ত…
It is how things are for some like us. All আপনি can do is as Lusamine alluded to. Let the pain and suffering make আপনি a stronger wiser person. Nothing can really change the past and all আপনি can do is সরানো অগ্রবর্তী making the best of the hand আপনি were dealt. এক মাস 1 আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
>tfw আপনি are being a #sadboi over something DID related that is so deep into it that it sounds ridiculous if আপনি were to share it

It not that bad, Im just being kind of down and frustrated and mopey but its just a me problem tbh. >.> পোষ্ট হয়েছে এক মাস 1 আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
It is almost funny how clear cut and obvious it is that my Trichotillomania picks up 40x when I am at প্রথমপাতা and around my family a lot.

When I'm at college, Ill typically only pluck in small amounts that are negligible and have maybe one large session of plucking every couple weeks অথবা so. It lets them grow decently before being plucked and thats actually pretty good compared to the past

I come back প্রথমপাতা and every দিন that I'm around them I pretty much start blank. পোষ্ট হয়েছে এক মাস 1 আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Its really really bad to be honest. When I'm দ্বারা myself I barely pluck, when I am with Kendall I near to never pluck, when I am প্রথমপাতা and around my parents, I pluck daily even if I don't want to এক মাস 1 আগে
J_E_T মতামত প্রদত্ত…
If your parents are around just look at them and say to yourself my beautiful hair is too damn sexy to give a shit about this. এক মাস 1 আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
XD I know but I wish it was like that. My amygdala just responds regardless XD এক মাস 1 আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Yooo guys back from my trip XD পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·2 মাস আগে
J_E_T মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Miss your company...did আপনি had fun? xD ·2 মাস আগে
TheLefteris24 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Welcome back! Hope আপনি had a great time !!!! ·2 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Yeah it was XD ·2 মাস আগে
_Aderis_ ব্যক্ত …
I am the Roast Queen. To add to that I am also the Sass কুইন but I prefer the Roast কুইন thank আপনি very much. পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·2 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Happy Fathers দিন to everyone and for those who don't have a father figure in their life অথবা a good one, I'll adopt আপনি :v পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·2 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Man I need a new প্রতীকী but I havent been super attached to anything as I've been focusing on my finals and getting the fuck প্রথমপাতা that I really haven't had enough stable free time to just like... chill and read my mangaor anything XD পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·2 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
I guess Ill settle with this handsome boy for now ·2 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Trauma resurfacing from thin dissociaitve walls and bubbling back up in a PTSD sense sucks. Its probably my lightest unprocessed trauma and it fucking sucks.

I can literally be having a good দিন then one word অথবা one image and flick there goes my brain trying to give me a flashback and crap

Kms, not really but still. পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·2 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
ONE FINAL DOWN THREE TO GO পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·2 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
I honestly cant wait to be প্রথমপাতা in a little over a week man. পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·2 মাস আগে
LuceOfTheLight ব্যক্ত …
Riku says I have to make my প্রতীকী Sakamoto. পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·2 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
FFF Dont call me out :v I didn't even notice this was here :vvv ·2 মাস আগে
TheLefteris24 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
আপনি really should !!!! ·2 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Honestly a lot of the times my detachment from a lot from the world and what not serves me alright and sometimes well to reaching my goal and not getting bothered দ্বারা the small things in life, but sometimes, often times, it can get to the worse either when it feels like the world is too far separate from me অথবা when I feel like this is a secondary world and like I've been detached and disconnect from the world I actually belong in. পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·2 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Sometimes its a weird feeling. Its like being homesick from a sense of reality / world that আপনি don't even really know. ·2 মাস আগে
_Aderis_ ব্যক্ত …
Also I added my responses to some of the DID Alter Q and A পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·2 মাস আগে
_Aderis_ ব্যক্ত …
I'm going to compromise and post here just saying that sometimes I feel like I want to use my own account. It's a fine line to walk though, between freaking Riku out and between holding myself back from saying something 'mean' অথবা 'rude' অথবা 'improper' that might soil some of Riku's image.

Out of respect for her I try to stay out of the picture but আপনি know~

I like to have my fun as well.

Besides, if Lucille can post a thing অথবা two I sure don't see why I can't post an innocent post. পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·2 মাস আগে
_Aderis_ মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Also hi Riku. Bet this is spookin ya but I want some fun as well. I'm behaving, don't worry about it. Buh bye, that is all. ·2 মাস আগে
_Aderis_ মতামত প্রদত্ত…
For those that aren't Riku feel free to friend me and message me অথবা whatever. I don't particularly care and I'll reply like.. whenever I front and feel like it. Maybe that'd be a week, maybe a month, who knows. Not my problem tbh. ·2 মাস আগে
_Aderis_ মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Buh bye bitches and hoes. (I am mandated to state that I do not actually think আপনি are bitches অথবা hoes since apparently I am 'accidentally mean' a lot.) ·2 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
I am thoroughly attacked. I started watching Sakamoto Desu Ga and this is such a direct parody of myself and my social experience in highschool that it hurts.

I have been parodized পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·2 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
"DID pathologizes one of the coolest and amazing ways of exploring your mind"

Yeah, its so cool to have a personality that regularly gets in the way of your interpersonal relationships, one that is actively suicidal and distorted horribly with depression and trauma, and one that literally does nothing but belittle আপনি and poke at your largest insecurities.

Its very cool and very fun and very amazing. পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·2 মাস আগে
Lusamine মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Anybody who romanticizes mental illness is an absolute tool. ·2 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Pfft right? ·2 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Imma stream at about 2 PM PST (1.5 hours from this point) if আপনি guys are interested. পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·2 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Ya know I honestly sometimes get a bit blown away when I think about the people that have claimed that I've helped them both online and offline. Often I don't really consider myself all that great and like... just kind of a pain in the গাধা of burden with how much baggage I can carry with me as someone to get to know, but then I have to double take and I realize I've really helped a good few people and it just sometimes doesn't sound real to be honest পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·2 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Like if there was an alternate reality where I never existed, so many lives could have been different and worse and I really don't like to toot my own horn and I really don't mean to since I'm just kind of shocked and find it a bit hard to digest ·2 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
I dunno, its just hard for me to মোড়ানো my head around the idea that I am ACTUALLY a good person আরো than anything. ·2 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Like... I'm not a BAD person, but the idea that I am "not a good person" has been a bit of a well known "fact" of my identity for a while that its just kind of hard for me to like be like??? I've helped people??? And I'm kind of caring??? Even when all the evidence shows that I do care about people and have done a lot আরো than I am required to do ·2 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
And its like???? Wow??? ·2 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Media depiction of DID

Alter: We gotta kidnap and kill them. I want to kill everyone. Stab them - Imma take over and kill them

Reality

Me: Maybe I should have a bit of soda with this popcorn

Lucille: I want tea.

Me: I am not walking out in the rain again to get tea. আপনি can come out and make চা if আপনি really want it পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·3 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Admittedly, this is like XD There is a lot of work and shit that goes into it, but like XD Its just a meme I had like three সেকেন্ড পূর্বে :v ·3 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
FYI Lucille is a চা addict ·3 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Randomly being able to hear your suicidal alter having some sort of an episode is hard shit. Like, its not emotions and feelings and thoughts that I myself feel like are my own and it is fine, but just constantly hearing "I am so tired of being alive. I am so tired of this existence." and so on and so forth is just... its not easy.

I'd get like "Oh I think shes done and I managed to relax" and then another line will whisper out of no where and itd be square one again. পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·3 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
I'm just kind of waiting for it to pass and for her to go back to being silent. It kind of sucks because I really can't communicate back so I'm just kind of sitting here listening to it randomly appear ·3 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
নমস্কার dudes, for Mental Health Awareness মাস I might try to post a few versions of DID প্রশ্ন and answer them myself and IF any of my alters come out and are willing to add their thoughts Ill let them :v পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·3 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Public Service Announcement Kiddos

Take your medication. পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·3 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
GUYS ITS ALMOST MAY

MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS MONTH

Maybe Ill do something XD পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·4 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
It is a good feeling when your old friend আপনি had a bit of a really problematic friendship with messages back giving proper closure to the friendship's end and apologizing for some of the behavior in the time and ya know.

As someone who had a lot of codependent বন্ধু left hanging, its a good feeling man. :feelsgoodman: পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·4 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Imma ramble about some just যেভাবে খুশী DID stuff I've been thinking about lately and its nothing important so dont bother too much with this unless আপনি are reaaaaallly bored but anyways here I go পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·4 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
So like, there is this thing that apparently a lot of people with DID have that I know I KINDA have and that I USED To have back when I thought I just had an overactive imagination and what not called "inner worlds" where the alters can manifest and occasionally interact and what not and sometimes they are actually kinda like big environments and what not ·4 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Also since I KNOW at least one of them checks my ফ্যানপপ when he is out sometimes, yes this is at আপনি :v :v :v Fight me and don't use my account to redact অথবা revise what I am saying here :v this is completely valid for me to post on here :v ·4 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
inb4 he doesnt front anytime soon and this post just gets হারিয়ে গেছে in time ·4 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Oh নমস্কার dude! I have a শীর্ষ Contributor thing now on my club's প্রথমপাতা page! Thats actually pretty cool XD পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·4 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Its kind of nice being প্রথমপাতা and what not. I get some good time with my fiance and I can kind of relax and pull the breaks a bit. Its pretty good - প্রদত্ত my middle sister isnt also প্রথমপাতা পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·4 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
আপনি know a lot of আপনি guys are actually like a genuine family to me আরো than yall probably think আপনি all probably think XD

Cause "Riku" is actually a personality that is of a system that didn't exist - অথবা at least didn't firmly বিভক্ত করা / solidify - before ফ্যানপপ existed. I'm really an existence that was 'born' here and figured herself out on here so a lot of me quickly kind of 'grew up' and 'developed' around আপনি guys like one would with family পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·5 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Google: Did I really recover from my depression অথবা did I just dissociate from it? পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·5 মাস আগে
2ntyOnePilots মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Ohhhh man. Relatable ·4 মাস আগে
2ntyOnePilots ব্যক্ত …
Ok so... I hav3 a প্রশ্ন that may seem ignorant, but truth is I just can’t remember most o& the distinguished details. What ways are Borderline Personality Disorder and Dissociative Identity Disorder different? পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·5 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
As someone who technically has both (one of my alters is BPD where as I myself is debatable on it) I can explain XD ·5 মাস আগে
2ntyOnePilots মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Ok thx sm. That’s so interestin. (Sounding like my mum but fuck it lol) a Definitely clears it up ·5 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Aye drop দ্বারা any প্রশ্ন XD ·5 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
;-; Headache and fatigue for two days in a row ;-; পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·5 মাস আগে
2ntyOnePilots মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Awe man, I feel that. Get some rest + take care. ❤️ ·5 মাস আগে
GDragon612 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
all the best for আপনি ma Rikubun, take care and get well soon!! ·5 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
I lowkey প্রণয় that the দিন I go to screening with Neurology to make sure there is no physiological reasons I have memory and identity issues is Dissociative Identity Disorder Awareness Day

The দিন my diagnosis will be pretty solid XD পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·5 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Inb4 "Oh looks like আপনি just have a brain tumor" ·5 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Update: Yeah I am physiologically solid so its probably just dissociation. Big shock XD ·5 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Honestly if any of আপনি guys have any প্রশ্ন on DID I am good for answering. XD I appreciate প্রশ্ন পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·5 মাস আগে
2ntyOnePilots মতামত প্রদত্ত…
I have a question. Did আপনি ever finish the প্রবন্ধ আপনি wrote, and where might I find it? হাঃ হাঃ হাঃ ·5 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
I got it MOST ways done but got distracted XD I need to finish it its still on my তালিকা of things to do but man my mental health has been taking up a lot of time XD ·5 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
I am actually getting into the nit and gritty stuff of DID and its quite interesting and very tiresome XD ·5 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
One of these I should work on explaining just how important and why Akashi is such a big thing for all of us. পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·6 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Also still happy I get to train Lefteris in the way of Kuroko no Basket. Soon there will be someone caught up enough to understand my lord and savior Akashi Seijurrou পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·6 মাস আগে
Economnomnomics মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Glad to see someone joining the cult. How could আপনি forget about me, Riku. ·5 মাস আগে
Economnomnomics মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Just because I'm inactive doesn’t mean I'm dead 😵💀 ·5 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Man I had a four দিন weekend but dude I still have a lot of stuff to get done পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·6 মাস আগে
2ntyOnePilots মতামত প্রদত্ত…
^ ·6 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
There are pretty much like three ways to know when Im MAJORLY dissociating and possibly switching personalities

1) A LOT of face touching. If Im rubbing my face a lot and/or blinking heavily, Im probably dissociating and its habitual touching in attempt to like "clear my eyes" and focus in

2) I মহাকাশ out into absolutely no where

3) I lower my head into my hands অথবা arms অথবা away from sight and towards the ground and take irregular breaths. পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·6 মাস আগে
TheLefteris24 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
I see. That is pretty interesting to know. Have been curious about the signs !!!! ·6 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Holy shit I just realized Ive been worshipping Akashi for like four অথবা five years now পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·6 মাস আগে
TheLefteris24 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Happy 4th-5th Anniversary of Worshipping then !!!! ·6 মাস আগে
simrananime ব্যক্ত …
Joined^^ পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·6 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Aye sweet ·6 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
My little boy bird is a big boy now ;-; I raised him since he was a chick and my mom caught him fucking one of the females XD Shes the one Im taking to college and have shipped him with for ages so like... Im not upset and its rather normal for birds especially during this season XD

But man hes a grown boy now. I remember when he was like... a centimeter big and just a little baby chick. পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·6 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
That feeling when আপনি were so dissociated for two to three months and constantly AT BEST half present that আপনি THOUGHT আপনি were fully present for some parts cause আপনি forgot what it was like to be alone in your head / got used to it

Like for the first time probably since Ive come to college, its been just me - no Lucille অথবা Aderis - and HONESTLY it feels GOOD baby. পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·6 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Like.... when আপনি have আরো than one present up in the front and are dissociated, আপনি cant really get into life and do exactly what আপনি want to do regularly. আপনি cant REALLY perceive all your emotions অথবা your needs অথবা the world around আপনি cause even if আপনি are semi-present, its like there is an overload and আপনি only get half of whats being picked up. আপনি are kind of stuck at a skin deep level ·6 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Its so peaceful to just have a few days to myself for once and actually feel the world again and oh man. #FeelsGoodMan ·6 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Imma kick back and enjoy this weekend ·6 মাস আগে
TheLefteris24 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Once again, I'm really happy to see আপনি like this. As I said, make the most of this feeling, Rikubun !!!! ·6 মাস আগে
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GDragon612 ব্যক্ত …
Party finally Rikubun got the 100
btw thanks to Nomy yeah!!!
opens a huge bottle of champaigne and Juice
throwe confetti
drunk now xD
Party hard =D

congrats ma Rikubun💗 পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·6 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Thanks XD ·6 মাস আগে
GDragon612 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
ya welcome XD ·6 মাস আগে
GDragon612 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
throws ·6 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
"I honestly just see myself আরো of a character than anything else. To be honest, I learned most of my actions and who I am from জীবন্ত characters that I liked." ~ Me like.... three অথবা four years ago

Still honestly not inaccurate, but the degree I saw myself a vessel to write and create a story in rather than to live in was interesting. I wouldn't go and say I dont view it that way anymore, but its much less severe if আপনি were to ask me. পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·6 মাস আগে
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GDragon612 ব্যক্ত …
just one আরো অনুরাগী then আপনি got 100 fans
then I open a champaigne yeah(for non alcoholics রস =3) পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·6 মাস আগে
GDragon612 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
hwaiting*-*<3 ·6 মাস আগে
GDragon612 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
will open<<< ·6 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
NOMY MADE THE 100! HALELLUJAH ·6 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
MY FIANCE ব্যক্ত I CAN MAKE HIM WATCH KNB WHEN WE ARE LIVING TOGETHER YAS পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·6 মাস আগে
TheLefteris24 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Yeee! One আরো person has been added to the KnB Gang !!!! ·6 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Me: Man I never write প্রবন্ধ anymore. I still have like three অথবা four half completed প্রবন্ধ to do. Im so lazy man. Why am I always so tired and not in the mood for লেখা and explaining things when I remind myself of my articles?

Me: *working on a website to build and explain an entire fictional world with races and classes and cities and functions* *writes easily over a thousand অথবা two on the website whenever shes bored enough to do it*

Me: Man I never write. পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·6 মাস আগে
Lusamine ব্যক্ত …
Joined! পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·6 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Welcome! ·6 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Im still upset Ill never be able to be someones gay boyfriend পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·6 মাস আগে
Lusamine মতামত প্রদত্ত…
I know, I was sad too. ·6 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
;-; ·6 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Sometimes I wish I had someone to look up to tbh. Someone to take guidance off of. Someone who I am impressed so thoroughly দ্বারা that they serve as an inspiration. But alas, it turns out I am stuck দ্বারা myself. I have to generate goals and admiration from myself within myself. I have to generate the drive and inspiration and will entirely on my own.

Its not horrible. It makes me independent

But sometimes having the safety net so আপনি can take a break once and a while would be great পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·6 মাস আগে
TheLefteris24 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Isn't there though? At least those who have contributed their fair share of inspiration over the years. Maybe not a complete Role Model through Life (A lot really have a hard time finding something like this and might also be not be the best option depending on one's selection) but the experiences taught through them and the examples আপনি have taken can be valuable nonetheless. Regardless of being Family অথবা Friends, irl People অথবা Fictional, etc. I have noticed that they could have an impact in a person's jouney. Something that I can relate with myself !!!! ·6 মাস আগে
TheLefteris24 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
That being said, it is apparent that your progress so far is mainly because of yourself. No one else could define it. Your very own driving force that pushed আপনি towards Improvement. It is something to be truly admired and a reason why many others look up to আপনি and seek for your guidance themselves. Something to take great Pride in !!!! ·6 মাস আগে
TheLefteris24 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
^ As excessively Optimistic I might be coming across, that is my Hope. A pure one and I find it to be worthy holding on to it in your case. Just letting that be known !!!! ·6 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
“I wonder since when, I started yawning as I left my প্রথমপাতা for a match. I wonder since when I stopped feeling anything even when we won. The person who can win against me is me alone. But all I wanted was an opponent that I could go all out against. I've always wished for a tight game in which আপনি couldn't tell if you'd win অথবা lose...I am grateful to আপনি Tetsu." ~ Daiki Aomine পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·6 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
" *in meh mood* .... lets eat ভুট্টার খই and soda"

"You know we literally just agreed and decided wed lean back towards চা and ফলমূল since drinking things that do not excite the brain and fuels the body with HEALTHY stuff will actually almost factually pick up our mood right? Get some ফলমূল and tea"

".....popcorn and soda" পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·6 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Im not living am I? পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Man I havent পোষ্ট হয়েছে on here in a while. Its... been a week. XD Chaos man. Tiresome. পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
TheLefteris24 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Relatable XD !!!! ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Im in প্রণয় পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
GDragon612 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
with your boyfriend অথবা your birds Rikubun <3 ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Birds, boyfriend (fiance), and Akashi XDD ·7 মাস আগে
TheLefteris24 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
#TripleLove !!!! ·7 মাস আগে
TheLefteris24 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
The Holy Trinity of Riku's Obsessions !!!! ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
...... can someone tell my lungs how to breathe? পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
TheLefteris24 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
link ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
MY LUNGS DONT WORK পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Personally, I identify আরো masculine than feminine and typically want to be and identify with আরো male / masculine things. I actually never wanted to be a girlfriend when I was younger. I hated the idea of being a GIRLfriend. I was 100% alright with being a boyfriend but the term girlfriend just grossed me out and Im still not a HUGE অনুরাগী of it but Im used to it so I dont mind XD পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Theres the whole thing about wanting to be a prince and my style and all. There was even a point in my life / time when I wanted to look as masculine as possible and a bit of dysphoria but that all went away when I really stopped bothering with gender. ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
I got overwhelmed and tired with all the gender culture and decided I was just going to be me and not do anything to my body that could harm it including binding my boobs cause once আপনি get past 38D its really not নিরাপদ to bind ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Plus I like my tits and my fiance likes my tits so... ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
“I wish we met before they convinced আপনি life is war.” পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
TheLefteris24 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Relatable !!!! ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Ah man. I was not ready to go back to college to be honest. Ill probably be better once I get back into academia and get fed the drug of constant work but ugh. পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
I have a cheese addiction tbh পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
Zeppie মতামত প্রদত্ত…
As I'm munching through a handful of grated মজারেলা I find this relatable v: ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
^^ ·7 মাস আগে
JetBlack__ ব্যক্ত …
Riku didn’t post in 24 hours !!
call 911 পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
XD Im alright man XD ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Me: I didnt take my meds yet. Dont forget. Yeah just after I find some good সঙ্গীত to listen to.

"Honestly sometimes don't আপনি think it would be easier to play the roll of broken, edgy, depressed, and unhealthy drug lord অথবা something than this high standing skilled academic and mental health caring scholar? It would be so easy to maintain that and we'd just have to stop trying with everything. Wouldn't that be fu-"

Me: Okay time to take medication. পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
2ntyOnePilots মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ·6 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
i cant sleep cos i cant stop imagining things and scenarios :vv ;-; পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
JetBlack__ মতামত প্রদত্ত…
It's alright Riku it is all temporary,it's over now.you okay.. back to awesome Riku kicking life shit. ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
XD Its fine XD Its just lowkey nostalgic ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Me: I am not that bad of a maladaptive daydreamer

Me: *organizes a DnD group*

Me: *literally can not stop knocking out into obsessive character planning and background forming and দিবাস্বপ্ন up different potential characters legit for the পরবর্তি 12 hours straight including while go kart racing to which Im shocked I didnt crash* পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Stream might be delayed due to DMV stuff পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
BlueDopamine মতামত প্রদত্ত…
ok, Anna ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
:vv Dont call me দ্বারা my first name ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
It makes me uncomfortable XD Not cause its online but for other reasons I dont wanna go into XD ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
অথবা well real name I suppose XD ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
ANYWAYS. I finally get to take my drivers test after annoying delays twice and a যেভাবে খুশী appointment cancellation that the DMV didnt tell us about XD All the delays pretty much have me at the end of my learners permit though XD So I need to pass this অথবা Ill have to start from square one again XD

But I think Ill do fine probably. I mean I am not the best driver and personally I wouldn't drive if I didn't have to cause of my dissociation, but Im somehow better than পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
my older sister according to my mom and she has a license so... I think Ill do fine. XD ·7 মাস আগে
Rihanna312 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Welp, this is the third বছর when I`m postponing getting a license. Mostly because I don`t feel the need for it. But if আপনি have the reason and need it, I`m sure you`ll do good on the test! ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
But yeah I would have passed since my driving was stellar but not noticing it was a yield left was an instant fail ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Ah man its bird fucking season it seems XD My birds keep trying to fuck পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
JetBlack__ মতামত প্রদত্ত…
That’s disturbing yet cute xD ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
.... on another note I just realized I am 18 and have been living for the past few months with the self pressure as if I was like 21-24 পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Like my mom reminded my dad I was turning 19 and I was like "HOLY SHIT WAIT IM 18 WHAT THE HECK IM DOING JUST FINE. WHY AM I TREATING MYSELF LIKE IM WAY BEHIND?!?!" XD ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
With that being said, I am not going to change the working speed and rate I am working at :v I want to get everything done as fast as possible but man I shoulda cut myself some slack XD ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
"There is no victory for the passive" পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
I wanted to do something when I got back but now House is hallucinating a person and it reminds me too much of personal shit so Im hooked XD পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Fresh Owari no Seraph পরিলেখ পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
Shukuya মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Looks cool! ·7 মাস আগে
TheLefteris24 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Noice. Looks pretty neat !!!! ·7 মাস আগে
JetBlack__ মতামত প্রদত্ত…
It’s perfect. ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Me: *gets into the car and sees fiance's জ্যাকেট in the backseat and put it on*

Him: You? Cold? Who are you?

Me: Nah, I just miss your jacket

*twenty মিনিট later*

Me: Actually I was a bit chilly but I did really mainly want it cos I missed it.

Him: I know, আপনি just have to be big strong girl that doesnt get cold

Me: >.> Shut up. পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
TheLefteris24 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
After all these, anyone who still can't see আপনি being a Tsundere simply knows nothing XD !!!! ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
YES I AM STILL THE কুইন OF MEDIATING AND ARGUMENT CLEAN UP!

Managed to simultaneously

-Keep my sisters fiance from having to deal with my family's bs arguments
-Made sure my sister was alright the দিন before leaving
-Made sure my mom understood where my sister was coming from
-Made sure my mom was alright with how she left my sister
-Made sure everyone was at least neutral
-Ended the drama
-Explained my 'disowning' of my middle sister
-Everyone is alright পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Oh on that note, my middle sister I blantantly let it be known Im done trying with her and I am going to need to see her change and get her act together before I start trying again cos I got tired being let down on us getting along and her being nice and respectful to my existence ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
I honestly cant hate her, but its not good for me to keep trying to be nice and get along cause Ill be sucked dry and left used if I keep trying when she isnt. ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
A bit of appreciation, but I honestly প্রণয় my fiance. The আরো I think about it, the আরো of a rare human that probably has like a 0.01% chance of existing that fits my tastes in people, quirky interests, patient, capable, and understanding enough of my mental health bullshit, and everything to somehow find me and care / like me enough to make me give them a chance even after I tore them apart. পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Like... being in my tastes and being someone Im willing to spend time around IRL is like.... a one in a millionth shot (not really but its pretty rare) ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Then just multiplying the rarity of everything else... ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Im just lucky to have him ·7 মাস আগে
Zeppie মতামত প্রদত্ত…
So sweet ❤ ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
I swear Ill get back to Hakuoki eventually XD

Im currently bouncing around a few other games though since there are some good sales on thigns I want

Currently doing Jurassic World: Evolution and then Devil May Cry 1 after. If I like Devil May Cry 1 I might get আরো of the series in the future but I dunno পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Dude, I found a clear definitive hole in my memory. My sister's fiance's sister apparently was like... best বন্ধু with me in elementary school and APPARENTLY I was teased a lot অথবা something like that and she asked about me when my sister met her and I honest to god dont recognize her much at all if at all.

I was a biiit skeptical that it was overexaggerating but legit found pictures of me hugging her as a kid so??? পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
And I was in the same school as her for three years at the very least and she is somehow entirely absent from all my memories? I mean thats not shocking because I dont remember much from elementary school but I did make a hell of a hard job remembering the general story including বন্ধু of mine at the time. ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
I remember some of my other বন্ধু at the time Im pretty sure...??? So its weird but the photographs dont lie... .-. ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Legit my first PROOF backed হারিয়ে গেছে memory and its kinda..... odd?? ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Bruh solid বড়দিন this year. পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
>.> Starting to get to that "hating break" mood cause Im running out of things to keep my mind stimulated পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
I honestly hate wasting time ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
I hate being stressed out about wasting time especially on vacations because I know its irrational but I cant. ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Im honestly kind of jealous of people who can comfortably do nothing with their time may it be on vacations অথবা not ·7 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
নমস্কার guys I'm not dead I swear পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Aye guess who is officially engaged now? পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Might stream tomorrow at 12 PM PST Kingdom Hearts 1 with my boyfriend. Might not, still considering it পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Nah decided against streaming btw XD Figured itd be আরো fun just to chill with my boi ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Since I dont really have the ability to remember my moods for আরো than two weeks and it screws up a lot of my psychiatry ফোরাম and all, I am going to now keep a mood log to keep track of how I feel so I can আরো accurately প্রতিবেদন it পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·8 মাস আগে
TheLefteris24 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
^ That is a really nice idea !!!! ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
I might be kind of between fragments অথবা something because I am feeling two extremely polar emotions at the same time that shouldn't be able to coexist at the extent that they are and because I can't respond to really interesting ফ্যানপপ যেভাবে খুশী প্রশ্ন because I cant come up with any consistent ideas so my sense of identity is probably obscure and messed up even though I dont notice it. পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·8 মাস আগে
TheLefteris24 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
^ Relatable in a way. Have been similarly felt confused about some of them myself !!!! ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
SAIX DESERVES আরো প্রণয় পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Its a bit shocking that I am still a good bit affected / bothered দ্বারা my first major codependent break up. I've mostly moved on and I dont have breakdowns over it every other week like I did two years পূর্বে and I don't compulsively stalk unless "triggered" and thus there is like a REALLY small one in comparison to before

BUT Id be lying if I ব্যক্ত I wasn't still held back and occasionally bothered দ্বারা it. There are some things that can "trigger" small little moments to which পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
I recover from rather fast ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Its almost four years passed at this point I believe ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
দ্বারা the way stream this week is canceled due to my schedule combined with other people's schedules পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
*sigh* Its hard to convince myself to sleep cause my brains oddly on edge over the session earlier today and the fact I gotta ride Uber to the airport which Ive always been paranoid about পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Not like horrifically but enough that Im resistant to sleep out of discomfort ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Tfw আপনি have to talk with your therapist over why something আপনি know is irrational is irrational because your brain doesnt always listen to ration and আপনি just sit there like "Fuck man, now we look dramatic because আপনি were freaking out over something I told আপনি was irrational and pointless and potentially unhealthy." পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
And then him pointing out the fact I over prepare and over plan for the worst to the point its kinda bad with how it takes a lot of the fun and excitement out of life and then Im like ":vvvv Dont bring me into this :vv Im just trying to protect us :v We might get caught off guard if we dont know whats going on :vv" ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
.... I really clearly dissociate myself in therapy dont I? ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
I dont really mean dissociate in like... the experience of dissociation, but the way I talk about myself and my issues in therapy REALLY sounds like Im REALLY বিভক্ত করা and like "pfft thats not me" when it fucking is ya hoe. Like its not THAT apparently until I talk about my emotions and way of doing things ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Also I gotta stop talking in first person plural so much. XD অথবা maybe not, cause it might be something I should stop restricting myself on. I dunno. Im curious what psychiatry will say when I go to it on the topic. And after I get MRI scans and shit on my brain so I can make sure its not like some tumor অথবা anything that might be causing the memory issues and stuff just so they can go through the procedure of diagnosing shit ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
TFW আপনি lazily and casually take the ECON practice exam that is 20 প্রশ্ন longer than the one আপনি will take today and get an 96% on it with a little over 40 মিনিট to spare when আপনি really didnt do anything other than Chem and a little bit of Animal Science for about a week পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Honestly I kind of doubt when I say I have extremely fragmented personalities because a good 90% of the time I currently feel really like... single. I dont mean dating wise, but like... I feel like Im the only one up in my head and Im like "Nah I must have faked it before" but I vaguely remember having way too indepth discussions with "thoughts" that had extremely different opinions and voices in my head and my boyfriend claims hes seen it in my eyes / body when I claimed to be Aderis so.. পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Lately its only when Im really stressed / threatened that I hear anything in my mental মহাকাশ - either that অথবা briefly when something 'stimulates' one of them I guess ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
I think I got Chem down XD I mean I learned the majority of it in the last two days cause I was on a good track for the first half of the quarter then the fires came and ruined my momentum XD

But its still pretty good. I hear the teacher curves the class two letter grades and I only need a 30% I think then? Which I know I can pull off. Plus I feel like I might know it better than a good chunk of people? পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Yo hearing your oldest sister be like "Yeah, I didn't really care that আপনি were আরো attached to him than me, I was just glad there was someone else helping out because I could barely keep আপনি alive since there is only so much a sister could do."

Well geee.

I mean I remember being bad but not that bad :v পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
But then again I dont really remember XD At least people being really up front with how close I seemed to be to offing myself gives me validation that I really was depressed at some point like my sparknotes of my own life says :v ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Lowkey kinda wanna go back and experience again just to see how bad I really was but I think Id regret that five সেকেন্ড in ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
I don't really have a good sense of when Im pushing myself too hard to be entirely honest. Usually I end up pushing myself and pushing myself unaware of the toll its having অথবা only minimal awareness of it to the point I feel like I can do a lot আরো then I just suddenly snap / break / crack and am forced to stop

Its something I am working on and I only really stopped studying (out of boredom) cause I took a short rbeak to call my boyfriend and he told me to take a break পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Turns out Im kinda feeling how exhausted I was after taking about an ঘন্টা break XD ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
Same kinda goes with most internal feelings, may it be hunger, exhaustion, and sometimes even just flat out pain. Im really bad at recognizing it until Im barely functioning and at that point it tends to be too late :v But Im working on it and try to listen when someone I know that can read me and that I trust tells me to take a break cos I know some people are better at telling when Im worn down than I am XD ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
Man going through your tumblr (a place আপনি only ranted on when REALLY bad and not really wanting people to know) and specifically go back to the rants cause আপনি know আপনি had a tag for them

"I WANT TO DISSOCIATE. I WANT ADERIS. I DON’T WANT TO FEEL অথবা BE HERE." পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
[Hashtags so I could find the post if need be] #I Hate That Ive Been Stopping With My Dissociation #I Want It Back #I Dont Want To Be Here #I Dont Want To Feel For Now #If I Had To Give The Personality To Her #I Would #I Want Someone Else To Protect Me #I Want Someone Else To Handle The Stress #I Dont Want To Be The One To Take This Bullcrap #I Want Someone Who Doesnt Judge Herself #I Want Someone Who Can Say 'Fuck আপনি And Fuck It' #I Want Someone Narcissistic And Egotistical #Just Not Me ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 মতামত প্রদত্ত…
April 4th 2018 apparently. I wish I knew what happened that দিন XD ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
tfw আপনি went to the nearby campus market to get আরো Icebreakers, forget, buy a soda and Ramune for the stream, then half an ঘন্টা after আপনি come back আপনি just go "shit I dont have any icebreakers" পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·8 মাস আগে
Riku114 ব্যক্ত …
"Yeah, youre probably right. [...] Were probably all insane.. broken. But whose fault is that!? The adults are the ones who broke us! আপনি want to hear the truth? .. We're scared" ~Nagisa Shingetsu (DRAE) পোষ্ট হয়েছে ·8 মাস আগে