*The Whole Outsiders Gang*
i stood on the corner of Wallace and Kurf at 2 in the afternoon with Ponyboy, Dallas, and Johnny and waited for Sodapop and Darry Curtis, Two-Bit Mathews, and Steve Randle, a little pissed. আপনি wanna know why i have to wait on a রাস্তা corner for fictional boys while mad? i'll tell you:
four hours earlier--
"oh, yeah," Ponyboy said. "i should probably tell আপনি that Johnny and Dally and i have to go meet the gang." we were eating breakfast. i gagged and almost choked on my toast. i didnt think i heard him right.
"what?" i asked.
"we have to go meet my brothers Soda and Darry and our বন্ধু Two-Bit and Steve. theyre comin today."
"wait, wait, wait," i said, holding up my hand to stop him. "you never told me that Darry, Two-Bit, Soda, and Steve were comin too! golly, Ponyboy! আপনি didnt think it wouldve been smart to tell me this SOONER?" টাট্টু looked hurt, then a little angry.
"well, gee, Amber, আপনি dont have to go yellin at me for forgetting to tell আপনি something!" he abruptly stood up from my রান্নাঘর টেবিল and walked into my family room. i followed him.
"then dont forget!" i shouted.
"i cant!" he shouted back. "and dont আপনি dare call me dumb."
i walked over to him. we were about two feet apart now. i looked up at him, confused and angry. "i never ব্যক্ত আপনি were dumb, Pony!"
he quoted me. "'you didnt think it wouldve been smart to tell me this SOONER?' i AM smart. i just didnt remember!"
"i know youre smart," i said. "but আপনি NEED to remember stuff like this. its pretty important, dont ya think?"
"why are আপনি getting on my back about this, anyway?" he asked, clearly annoyed. i grunted.
"do আপনি know how hard it is to keep track of three 'foreign' boys, from another dimention. আপনি guys dont know what the hell is going on! i have to mentor you, hold your hands the whole way. and now theres four আরো UNEXPECTED ones coming! am i supposed to not be angry about this?! i think i am allowed to get on your back about not remembering to tell me that your বন্ধু are coming."
"ya know," he said, glaring at me. "we ARE 'big boys,' we can handle this ourselves. i dont know why আপনি think its your responsibility to help us, and help ME the most. i dont need your help, so আপনি can just bud out!" i stepped back. my eyes rounded, and so did Ponyboy's. he stepped a little closer to me when he realized what he had just said. i turned away from him and ran into my kitchen. i bent over my sink, tears streaming outta my eyes.
"i did it cause i wanted to help you, Ponyboy," i said, keeping my voice steady. i didnt look at him. i refused to let him see me cry. "i wanted to be a nice person. other people, well, they arent so nice. they dont let people talk. they judge before they get to know them. did আপনি see me do that?! and i thought আপনি were different. i know youre different."
Ponyboy was still being inconsiderate. "why do আপনি care if im different? and why do আপনি wanna help me SO bad? is it cause...c-cause আপনি like me?"
i abruptly turned to him. he saw my tears and his angry face turned to one full of shame. he looked at me with pleading eyes. "no, আপনি idiot! and i dont like you," i lied. that made me cry even more. "gosh, আপনি are so retarted!"
he walked over to me and held his arms out. "dont touch me," i said.
"Amber," he ব্যক্ত pleadingly. "im sorry. im sorry i made আপনি cry. please"--
i turned away from him. "just get outta my house."
"what?"
i turned back. "i ব্যক্ত get out of my house!" টাট্টু stepped back. he turned away and walked over to my front door. he tried to open it but failed. it was locked. i grabbed my keys and mumbled to myself, "stupid."
"Amber"--
"i got it. i got it," i said. i hurried to the door and unlocked it. he opened the door but before stepping out into the morning sunlight, he turned to look at me one last time. then he walked out and slammed the door. আরো tears came.
----
i had ran over to Janes's at 1:30 so i could go with the ficyional boys to meet the other fictional boys. when i saw Ponyboy i kinda glared at him and didnt look at him again. we didnt even stand পরবর্তি to each other when all four of us walked to Wallace and Kurf. i stood পরবর্তি to Johnny, on the end, Dally stood in the middle, and টাট্টু stood on the other end.
so here i am, standing on the corner where two streets meet, while the cool summer breeze whisks my hair around. i looked impatiently around on the streets, looking left and right, for an old-lookin car, like a Ford অথবা somethin. it would be Two-Bit's. except i didnt know what his car looked like. then i saw Johnny eyeing my wrist. i looked down at it too.
he was looking at my bracelet. i held up my wrist so he could get a better look. "do আপনি like it?" i asked him. Johnny looked at me nervously, then he smiled.
"yeah," he said. "its really tuff...i mean"--
"its okay, i know what tuff means," i said. "im glad আপনি like it."
"where'd আপনি get it?"
"my friend made it for me. she has one that looks exaclty like mine, except with different রঙ and a different charm. theyre kinda like friendship bracelets, ya know?"
Johnny nodded. i looked down at my bracelet again and noticed how the sunlight glinted off the shiny chains that were braided together and the one charm that hung. it was a water sign, like the one from the প্রদর্শনী Avatar: The Last Airbender. me and my friend Juliette, who i call Julie, had gotten the idea from the show. so she had made the bracelets, me water, her earth.
the chains were different shades of blue: sky blue, teal, and dark blue. if আপনি could see the bracelet, id know youd প্রণয় it. Julie is very talented at making jewelry.
i felt Johnny pick up my wrist and examine the bracelet আরো closely. i looked at him and smiled. he smiled shyly back. "its very pretty," he said. "and very blue."
"blues my পছন্দ color," i said. "and water is my পছন্দ element."
Johnny looked at me, peering into my eyes with his dark, fearful ones. "and so are your eyes. i mean, the blue part." i smiled again.
then i noticed Ponyboy staring at us. he was eyeing Johnny still holding my wrist. then he looked up at my face and saw me watching him. he quickly turned away. for some reason the look on his face was one of...jealousy. hes jealous? i thought. why?
Dally walked over to me. "how much do আপনি know about the rest of us?" he asked.
"oh," i said. "enough."
"a lot? a little? what?"
"it depends on who youre asking about."
"alright. so আপনি know a lot?"
i thought about it. "i guess so. there was a lot of info in the book. in the beginning আপনি all were each প্রদত্ত a paragraph to describe you. except আপনি got two, Dally. feel special yet?"
"i do," he ব্যক্ত jokingly. i laughed and kept searching the streets. then i saw an old-looking car come driving down the street. it stopped in front of us. four good-lookin guys stepped out of it, all of them dressed funny; like greasers.
a blonde boy who looked about 17, tall and slim, came out first. he was VERY good-looking, "moviestar handsom." he had dark brown eyes that looked reckless at the moment and a wide, gleaming smile. his blonde hair was a shining wheat স্বর্ণ that imagined to be a dark-gold in any other season but summer. it was combed back, long and straight, and molded together with hair grease. that boy was, i was guesssing, Sodapop Curtis.
the পরবর্তি boy was tall and lean. his hair was thick and combed back in complicated swirls. he looked about 19. he was pretty good-looking. i was geussin he was Steve Randle.
the পরবর্তি boy, অথবা should i say MAN, was very muscular and handsom. he was also tall too, about 6 foot 2. he looked 22. he had dark-brown hair that kicked out in the front, and a slight cowlick in the back. his eyes were hazel, the type of hazel that is just blue and green. his eyes were like two pieces of pale blue-green ice. they looked determind too. he must be Darry, i thought. Darrel "Darry" Curtis.
the last boy was tall, maybe 6 foot, and stocky in build. he looked 19. he had long, rusty-colored sideburns and lively grey eyes. also a wide grin that spread across his face. he must be Keith "Two-Bit" Mathews.
the whole gang was here. the whole gang. im gonna meet he whole outsiders gang, i thought. the whole fictional gang. i must be dreaming. either that অথবা i must be going crazy.
i stood on the corner of Wallace and Kurf at 2 in the afternoon with Ponyboy, Dallas, and Johnny and waited for Sodapop and Darry Curtis, Two-Bit Mathews, and Steve Randle, a little pissed. আপনি wanna know why i have to wait on a রাস্তা corner for fictional boys while mad? i'll tell you:
four hours earlier--
"oh, yeah," Ponyboy said. "i should probably tell আপনি that Johnny and Dally and i have to go meet the gang." we were eating breakfast. i gagged and almost choked on my toast. i didnt think i heard him right.
"what?" i asked.
"we have to go meet my brothers Soda and Darry and our বন্ধু Two-Bit and Steve. theyre comin today."
"wait, wait, wait," i said, holding up my hand to stop him. "you never told me that Darry, Two-Bit, Soda, and Steve were comin too! golly, Ponyboy! আপনি didnt think it wouldve been smart to tell me this SOONER?" টাট্টু looked hurt, then a little angry.
"well, gee, Amber, আপনি dont have to go yellin at me for forgetting to tell আপনি something!" he abruptly stood up from my রান্নাঘর টেবিল and walked into my family room. i followed him.
"then dont forget!" i shouted.
"i cant!" he shouted back. "and dont আপনি dare call me dumb."
i walked over to him. we were about two feet apart now. i looked up at him, confused and angry. "i never ব্যক্ত আপনি were dumb, Pony!"
he quoted me. "'you didnt think it wouldve been smart to tell me this SOONER?' i AM smart. i just didnt remember!"
"i know youre smart," i said. "but আপনি NEED to remember stuff like this. its pretty important, dont ya think?"
"why are আপনি getting on my back about this, anyway?" he asked, clearly annoyed. i grunted.
"do আপনি know how hard it is to keep track of three 'foreign' boys, from another dimention. আপনি guys dont know what the hell is going on! i have to mentor you, hold your hands the whole way. and now theres four আরো UNEXPECTED ones coming! am i supposed to not be angry about this?! i think i am allowed to get on your back about not remembering to tell me that your বন্ধু are coming."
"ya know," he said, glaring at me. "we ARE 'big boys,' we can handle this ourselves. i dont know why আপনি think its your responsibility to help us, and help ME the most. i dont need your help, so আপনি can just bud out!" i stepped back. my eyes rounded, and so did Ponyboy's. he stepped a little closer to me when he realized what he had just said. i turned away from him and ran into my kitchen. i bent over my sink, tears streaming outta my eyes.
"i did it cause i wanted to help you, Ponyboy," i said, keeping my voice steady. i didnt look at him. i refused to let him see me cry. "i wanted to be a nice person. other people, well, they arent so nice. they dont let people talk. they judge before they get to know them. did আপনি see me do that?! and i thought আপনি were different. i know youre different."
Ponyboy was still being inconsiderate. "why do আপনি care if im different? and why do আপনি wanna help me SO bad? is it cause...c-cause আপনি like me?"
i abruptly turned to him. he saw my tears and his angry face turned to one full of shame. he looked at me with pleading eyes. "no, আপনি idiot! and i dont like you," i lied. that made me cry even more. "gosh, আপনি are so retarted!"
he walked over to me and held his arms out. "dont touch me," i said.
"Amber," he ব্যক্ত pleadingly. "im sorry. im sorry i made আপনি cry. please"--
i turned away from him. "just get outta my house."
"what?"
i turned back. "i ব্যক্ত get out of my house!" টাট্টু stepped back. he turned away and walked over to my front door. he tried to open it but failed. it was locked. i grabbed my keys and mumbled to myself, "stupid."
"Amber"--
"i got it. i got it," i said. i hurried to the door and unlocked it. he opened the door but before stepping out into the morning sunlight, he turned to look at me one last time. then he walked out and slammed the door. আরো tears came.
----
i had ran over to Janes's at 1:30 so i could go with the ficyional boys to meet the other fictional boys. when i saw Ponyboy i kinda glared at him and didnt look at him again. we didnt even stand পরবর্তি to each other when all four of us walked to Wallace and Kurf. i stood পরবর্তি to Johnny, on the end, Dally stood in the middle, and টাট্টু stood on the other end.
so here i am, standing on the corner where two streets meet, while the cool summer breeze whisks my hair around. i looked impatiently around on the streets, looking left and right, for an old-lookin car, like a Ford অথবা somethin. it would be Two-Bit's. except i didnt know what his car looked like. then i saw Johnny eyeing my wrist. i looked down at it too.
he was looking at my bracelet. i held up my wrist so he could get a better look. "do আপনি like it?" i asked him. Johnny looked at me nervously, then he smiled.
"yeah," he said. "its really tuff...i mean"--
"its okay, i know what tuff means," i said. "im glad আপনি like it."
"where'd আপনি get it?"
"my friend made it for me. she has one that looks exaclty like mine, except with different রঙ and a different charm. theyre kinda like friendship bracelets, ya know?"
Johnny nodded. i looked down at my bracelet again and noticed how the sunlight glinted off the shiny chains that were braided together and the one charm that hung. it was a water sign, like the one from the প্রদর্শনী Avatar: The Last Airbender. me and my friend Juliette, who i call Julie, had gotten the idea from the show. so she had made the bracelets, me water, her earth.
the chains were different shades of blue: sky blue, teal, and dark blue. if আপনি could see the bracelet, id know youd প্রণয় it. Julie is very talented at making jewelry.
i felt Johnny pick up my wrist and examine the bracelet আরো closely. i looked at him and smiled. he smiled shyly back. "its very pretty," he said. "and very blue."
"blues my পছন্দ color," i said. "and water is my পছন্দ element."
Johnny looked at me, peering into my eyes with his dark, fearful ones. "and so are your eyes. i mean, the blue part." i smiled again.
then i noticed Ponyboy staring at us. he was eyeing Johnny still holding my wrist. then he looked up at my face and saw me watching him. he quickly turned away. for some reason the look on his face was one of...jealousy. hes jealous? i thought. why?
Dally walked over to me. "how much do আপনি know about the rest of us?" he asked.
"oh," i said. "enough."
"a lot? a little? what?"
"it depends on who youre asking about."
"alright. so আপনি know a lot?"
i thought about it. "i guess so. there was a lot of info in the book. in the beginning আপনি all were each প্রদত্ত a paragraph to describe you. except আপনি got two, Dally. feel special yet?"
"i do," he ব্যক্ত jokingly. i laughed and kept searching the streets. then i saw an old-looking car come driving down the street. it stopped in front of us. four good-lookin guys stepped out of it, all of them dressed funny; like greasers.
a blonde boy who looked about 17, tall and slim, came out first. he was VERY good-looking, "moviestar handsom." he had dark brown eyes that looked reckless at the moment and a wide, gleaming smile. his blonde hair was a shining wheat স্বর্ণ that imagined to be a dark-gold in any other season but summer. it was combed back, long and straight, and molded together with hair grease. that boy was, i was guesssing, Sodapop Curtis.
the পরবর্তি boy was tall and lean. his hair was thick and combed back in complicated swirls. he looked about 19. he was pretty good-looking. i was geussin he was Steve Randle.
the পরবর্তি boy, অথবা should i say MAN, was very muscular and handsom. he was also tall too, about 6 foot 2. he looked 22. he had dark-brown hair that kicked out in the front, and a slight cowlick in the back. his eyes were hazel, the type of hazel that is just blue and green. his eyes were like two pieces of pale blue-green ice. they looked determind too. he must be Darry, i thought. Darrel "Darry" Curtis.
the last boy was tall, maybe 6 foot, and stocky in build. he looked 19. he had long, rusty-colored sideburns and lively grey eyes. also a wide grin that spread across his face. he must be Keith "Two-Bit" Mathews.
the whole gang was here. the whole gang. im gonna meet he whole outsiders gang, i thought. the whole fictional gang. i must be dreaming. either that অথবা i must be going crazy.
আপনি were actually close to Soda. Danny played with Grace and Logan all the time. আপনি couldn’t even begin to imagine how they felt.
আপনি hear the front door open. Darry was প্রথমপাতা now. আপনি take another deep breath, and sit at the রান্নাঘর table.
Just breathe.
He walks into the kitchen. “Hey babe, what’s wrong?” He asks, setting down his wallet and keys.
আপনি swallow. “I got a call.” Is all আপনি manage to say.
“About?” He asks, eyebrows raised.
“Soda’s dead.” আপনি blurt out.
The look on Darry’s face would haunt your memory for the rest of your life.
He just sat down on the floor in pure shock, mouth open, eyes wide.