A new chapter! Things are getting intense.
Once again, do not read if আপনি don't like swears, ESPECIALLY don't read if আপনি have a problem with sex. অথবা if আপনি have a problem with two guys being together.
Enjoy my friends! :D
The পরবর্তি few days were seriously like hell. I couldn’t even look at Francis without feeling bad for hurting him and without drowning in the অবিশ্বাস্য desire I felt towards him, and I couldn’t talk to Nicole without feeling bad that I cheated on her. The only people I found comfort in were Riley and Miranda.
I sat at a lunch table, reading. I was so zoned out, not even the dramatic plotline of the book could make me snap back into reality. I couldn’t help but think of Francis… it was the first time I ever liked someone that way, the first time I ever admitted to myself I had feelings for a guy.
Riley sat beside me, trying to distract me from my own thoughts. I had told her that Francis and I had slept together, but I didn’t dare tell her that I thought I might actually be attracted to him. Not yet, at least. Not until I knew for sure.
I turned to face Francis’ table, he sat with Jayden and Robyn, as attractive as ever. He laughed to himself and stopped when he noticed me staring, our eyes connected and I think for a সেকেন্ড we had a telepathic conversation. “We need to talk;” was all that was said.
Francis placed his hands on the girls’ shoulders as he went to stand up.
Riley gestured to Francis, who was walking over this way. “Should I stop him?”
I sighed and looked up from my book, “I need to talk to him, Riley. I haven’t talked to him since that night at “The Wave.”
Riley nodded slightly and got up to walk away.
I tried to look away from him, but honestly… it wasn’t like anything I ever felt before. I wanted him, I knew I wanted him… the প্রশ্ন was though, was it enough to risk everything?
Francis sat down in front of me. “Babe, we need to talk.”
“I know,” I replied, ignoring his use of the word “babe.”
Francis placed his hand on my shoulder, “I know you’re with Nicole and all, but I know it’s fake.”
I nodded, “I figured আপনি would.” I quickly nudged out of his grip, making sure no person saw the contact.
“But… although আপনি probably won’t admit to yourself, I can tell just দ্বারা looking at আপনি that আপনি want me.”
I knew it was true, I wanted him so bad it hurt. I wanted to be with him, no one else. But there was so much risk… what if my parents found out?
Francis glanced at me, his eyes ablaze with I don’t even know what emotion.
“And আপনি know how much I want you…” Francis smirked, placing his hand on my thigh below the table. “And I feel that we can make this a good thing between us…”
What did he mean দ্বারা that? Did he really want me even after he got what he wanted?
Francis placed a small piece of paper on the table, written on it was an address. “Meet me here, tonight. We’ll discuss the details then.”
I was too stunned to even speak. What the hell had just happened? Did he just…? Were we gonna…? Did he want…?
My head buzzed with thoughts as I unfolded the paper, it revealed an address with a small note written underneath. “Hope to see আপনি there, sexy.” It read.
What the hell did this boy want from me? I already slept with him, and everyone who knows Francis Weber knows he’s not one to sleep with the same person twice.
The rest of the দিন buzzed দ্বারা like a blur, I stood দ্বারা my locker, putting away my books, still deciding whether I should follow the address.
I felt a pair of arms মোড়ানো around me, “Hey!” Nicole exclaimed.
“Oh!” I turned around and looked at her, “Hey, what’s up?”
“I was wondering something…” Nicole said, smiling at me, making me feel even worse for what I’ve done, and making me feel absolutely awful for what I was considering doing.
“Yeah, what is it?” I tried to ignore the feeling eating away at me. It’s like that voice in the back of your head telling আপনি how stupid something is, but আপনি just do it anyways.
“Wanna come over tonight?”
And this is where I feel like absolute shit. I am officially the worst boyfriend of all time.
Nicole’s eyebrow rose, “Why not?”
“I have plans,”
Why didn’t I just lie and ব্যক্ত I have a lot of homework অথবা something? Why did I have to say I have plans?
“Oh…” Nicole said, disappointed. “Well… um… that’s okay… I guess…” She waved to me. “See আপনি later then.”
Nicole ran off, obviously hurt as I called after her, “Wait! Nicole!”
I hit my head against my locker door and buried my head in my hands. “Idiot,” I ব্যক্ত to myself.
Well… I suppose I just admitted it, didn’t I? I could’ve gone to Nicole’s house and avoided Francis, but instead, I wasn’t even thinking and just ব্যক্ত I had plans. The decision was obvious now.
Later that night was the moment of truth; I followed the address to a large house. I knocked on the door and waited for an answer.
The door opened to reveal Francis, শার্ট off, pajama pants on, hair even আরো messy than usual. I’m not going to lie; it was the most attractive look I’d ever seen.
“Noah,” Francis grinned to himself. “Come inside,”
মিনিট later I’m sitting inside Francis’ house, the house is empty besides me and him. He hands me what seems to be tea, and I take it from his hands. “Thank you,”
“I’m surprised আপনি actually showed up,”
“To be honest, so am I.”
Francis took a sip of his চা and glanced at me, “What made আপনি come?”
I bit my lip, he knew the answer. He just wanted to hear me admit it. “Look, maybe I do feel something towards you! But that doesn’t change the fact that what happened that night was a mistake, আপনি had just sang an amazing song, and quite frankly I was kinda turned on দ্বারা your voice, but আপনি were super drunk, and came on to me, and that entire thing was a mistake that I feel awful about-”
“You talk too much.” Francis cut me off.
I chuckled slightly, “I just don’t understand how I could hate আপনি so much, but like আপনি so much at the same time.”
Francis shrugged, “Sex does crazy things to a person.”
“Why am I even here?” I questioned.
Francis put his চা aside and stood up to sit beside me on the couch. “I want to offer you… a relationship of a lifetime.”
I backed away when his face edged closer to mine. “What do আপনি mean?”
“I mean… আপনি and me, upstairs, my room, doing the same thing we did that night we hooked up. No emotions, no attachments, just sex.”
My face grows hot and I feel as if I’m going to die right then and there. Was he seriously asking me to have a “friends with benefits” relationship with him?
My head scrambled for words to describe what I was feeling; “And no one will ever find out?” I mumbled weakly.
“No one but আপনি and I,”
“And we won’t make any signs of this happening?”
Was I actually considering this?! It’s as if my mouth was talking on its own! I don’t want this…! Do I?
“No bugging আপনি at school. Just আপনি and I, at my place, every night আপনি want.”
This feeling was absolutely eating me alive; I couldn’t stand to not talk to him let alone not be with him.
I bit my lip, I knew I’d regret the decision, but I needed to be with him, it was killing me otherwise. “I’m in,”
He placed a hand on my cheek, and I placed my arms around him, and we kissed. But unlike the last kiss… this one actually felt real.