Chapter One- My First Death দিন (Oh The Joy)
Let me put this into words আপনি living, breathing, humans can understand. I'm dead. আপনি won't understand a thing if আপনি keep on believing that I'm alive. I'm not alive and I will never come back from the dead. This isn't some crappy horror novel আপনি picked up. This is real life. And in real life, once you're dead, you're dead, for good. There are no সেকেন্ড chances and no undos. If আপনি continue on this delusional journey that I'm alive and well, then you're better off putting this book down and going back to that lousy crap about the princess who received everything.
Okay, now that I have that out of the way, lets begin. It is somewhere around November, when I realized I was dead. আপনি would think I would have noticed it দ্বারা the tear stains on my mother's face অথবা how she completely ignored me. আপনি would think I would have caught on when I couldn't seem to get a good grip on my clothes অথবা anything for that matter. মাখন fingers. That was my excuse for not being able to grip anything. I didn't have a mirror in my room and the bathroom mirror shattered a couple of days ago. I was clueless to my appearance. I was clueless to everything. I couldn't remember what had happened the night before but I woke up with a migraine which is unusual for me since I'm almost never sick.
There I was, roaming the halls of my school without a clue. I I went to every class just as I usually would. I sat দ্বারা my partner Sally Greyson in পাঠ করা who looked a bit freaked out as I pulled the chair out. She ended up going to the nurse a few মিনিট later mumbling something about seeing things.
দ্বারা this point, it was just ridiculous how dumb I was being. I looked back on this and actually laughed. It couldn't process the stares I was receiving. The staring part wasn't surprising since the whole school knew me as the outsider. They knew I didn't talk and now thanks to Haleigh Tompkins no one talks to me. I am an awkward শুঁয়াপোকা who hasn't yet been through metamorphosis like the other caterpillars now.
This was just প্রথমপাতা room. My teacher hasn't ব্যক্ত a word besides, "shut up আপনি bags of air!" Yeah, Mr. অস্থি was the type of teacher who insulted kids and butt kissed parents. Mr. অস্থি stood in front of the entire class with a slight grin on his face. He was holding the newspaper. "Good morning, class." We ব্যক্ত good morning back but he wasn't satisfied so we ব্যক্ত it louder and ten times harsher. "I have some splendid news today. It is the most blessed thing that has happened since Edgar Allan Poe wrote the 'Tell-Tale Heart'."
"How did আপনি know my iguana laid her eggs today?!" Madison, a short brown-haired girl who sits in the back, nearly shouted as she frantically waved her hands on the air doing a mini dance.
"Sit down আপনি insolent girl!" There were some giggles from the other kids who sat with Madison. I call them Nerd Squad #41 অথবা N.S for short. They always interrupt class to do weird and awkward things like that. Apparently, to them, it was considered cool. "I was speaking about the death of a fellow student." I didn't hear anything about a death. I immediately thought of Anna Bells. She was missing a lot from class but I assumed she moved after a month.
"You mean Andrea Manson?" Seth Liberty with his dark grey eyes always appeared gloomy to me. We never actually spoke but I had to assume. Actually, I never spoke to any of these kids. I have been usually in the background observing their behavior. It was something I liked to do as time passed. "Why would আপনি make a mockery of her death? Her spirit could come back and haunt you."
"Yeah, Mr. Bones," squeaked Nina. "Andrea was a dearest friend of mine. How dare আপনি mock this?" Nina Talon and I were NEVER friends. She was a cheerleader and I was an outsider. Our kind never socialize with each other.
I wanted to scream at all of them and declare I wasn't dead but something stopped me. It was a gut feeling that told me to shut up and listen. So I did.
Mr. অস্থি flipped the newspaper over to প্রদর্শনী the exploited picture of me in my casket. My makeup was done horridly and my eyes were shut tight. I almost looked at rest but how could I be since I'm not dead! "This, my students, it আপনি so called beloved classmate."
I think I took a good look at myself that day. I was pale as in see through. I had a but of a shimmer to me and I was wreaking the clothes that was shown on me in my casket. Yep, I will officially call this দিন my Death Day. The দিন I realized I was dead is today.
Let me put this into words আপনি living, breathing, humans can understand. I'm dead. আপনি won't understand a thing if আপনি keep on believing that I'm alive. I'm not alive and I will never come back from the dead. This isn't some crappy horror novel আপনি picked up. This is real life. And in real life, once you're dead, you're dead, for good. There are no সেকেন্ড chances and no undos. If আপনি continue on this delusional journey that I'm alive and well, then you're better off putting this book down and going back to that lousy crap about the princess who received everything.
Okay, now that I have that out of the way, lets begin. It is somewhere around November, when I realized I was dead. আপনি would think I would have noticed it দ্বারা the tear stains on my mother's face অথবা how she completely ignored me. আপনি would think I would have caught on when I couldn't seem to get a good grip on my clothes অথবা anything for that matter. মাখন fingers. That was my excuse for not being able to grip anything. I didn't have a mirror in my room and the bathroom mirror shattered a couple of days ago. I was clueless to my appearance. I was clueless to everything. I couldn't remember what had happened the night before but I woke up with a migraine which is unusual for me since I'm almost never sick.
There I was, roaming the halls of my school without a clue. I I went to every class just as I usually would. I sat দ্বারা my partner Sally Greyson in পাঠ করা who looked a bit freaked out as I pulled the chair out. She ended up going to the nurse a few মিনিট later mumbling something about seeing things.
দ্বারা this point, it was just ridiculous how dumb I was being. I looked back on this and actually laughed. It couldn't process the stares I was receiving. The staring part wasn't surprising since the whole school knew me as the outsider. They knew I didn't talk and now thanks to Haleigh Tompkins no one talks to me. I am an awkward শুঁয়াপোকা who hasn't yet been through metamorphosis like the other caterpillars now.
This was just প্রথমপাতা room. My teacher hasn't ব্যক্ত a word besides, "shut up আপনি bags of air!" Yeah, Mr. অস্থি was the type of teacher who insulted kids and butt kissed parents. Mr. অস্থি stood in front of the entire class with a slight grin on his face. He was holding the newspaper. "Good morning, class." We ব্যক্ত good morning back but he wasn't satisfied so we ব্যক্ত it louder and ten times harsher. "I have some splendid news today. It is the most blessed thing that has happened since Edgar Allan Poe wrote the 'Tell-Tale Heart'."
"How did আপনি know my iguana laid her eggs today?!" Madison, a short brown-haired girl who sits in the back, nearly shouted as she frantically waved her hands on the air doing a mini dance.
"Sit down আপনি insolent girl!" There were some giggles from the other kids who sat with Madison. I call them Nerd Squad #41 অথবা N.S for short. They always interrupt class to do weird and awkward things like that. Apparently, to them, it was considered cool. "I was speaking about the death of a fellow student." I didn't hear anything about a death. I immediately thought of Anna Bells. She was missing a lot from class but I assumed she moved after a month.
"You mean Andrea Manson?" Seth Liberty with his dark grey eyes always appeared gloomy to me. We never actually spoke but I had to assume. Actually, I never spoke to any of these kids. I have been usually in the background observing their behavior. It was something I liked to do as time passed. "Why would আপনি make a mockery of her death? Her spirit could come back and haunt you."
"Yeah, Mr. Bones," squeaked Nina. "Andrea was a dearest friend of mine. How dare আপনি mock this?" Nina Talon and I were NEVER friends. She was a cheerleader and I was an outsider. Our kind never socialize with each other.
I wanted to scream at all of them and declare I wasn't dead but something stopped me. It was a gut feeling that told me to shut up and listen. So I did.
Mr. অস্থি flipped the newspaper over to প্রদর্শনী the exploited picture of me in my casket. My makeup was done horridly and my eyes were shut tight. I almost looked at rest but how could I be since I'm not dead! "This, my students, it আপনি so called beloved classmate."
I think I took a good look at myself that day. I was pale as in see through. I had a but of a shimmer to me and I was wreaking the clothes that was shown on me in my casket. Yep, I will officially call this দিন my Death Day. The দিন I realized I was dead is today.
নমস্কার peeps, I'm back, how've আপনি been doing? If no one's told আপনি let I'm glad your alive right now, and I smile knowing that your still breathing. Darling, আপনি are worth it, don't let them bring আপনি down, take a breather and stand up. Because the best way to fight your enemy is letting them know there not getting to you. Laugh, smile, love, run, scream, do whatever makes আপনি happy, do the right thing. And most importantly, live and dream, because nothing, NOTHING, is impossible. It can be done. I own nothing, and if I did I would totally make mention, but right now, nothing is mine, hope আপনি enjoy, and don't worry, আরো will be পোষ্ট হয়েছে soon. I don't own anything, enjoy!
“Misery is optional, pain is an illusion, but প্রণয় is eternal” - Bam Margera
These tears of mine
bleed through me
creating an invisble ling
that only i can see
seperating me from us
get a key
unlock me thus
making it easy
trees grow tall
people grow apart
the world will fall
so does your heart
soliders die
their families left behind
people cry
over what's left behind
how would আপনি feel
if it happend to you
instead of sitting there
what would আপনি do
i know how আপনি think
আপনি thinking that
it isnt important
so how about that
time goes by
nothing change yet
thats how i think
dont worry of fret
these tears of mine
they dry up fast
but the scars left behind
are there to last
bleed through me
creating an invisble ling
that only i can see
seperating me from us
get a key
unlock me thus
making it easy
trees grow tall
people grow apart
the world will fall
so does your heart
soliders die
their families left behind
people cry
over what's left behind
how would আপনি feel
if it happend to you
instead of sitting there
what would আপনি do
i know how আপনি think
আপনি thinking that
it isnt important
so how about that
time goes by
nothing change yet
thats how i think
dont worry of fret
these tears of mine
they dry up fast
but the scars left behind
are there to last