My Love,
How are you?
Not the best way to start. How should I start? Should I – start? Do this? I knew the answer, of course. Nevertheless…
I miss আপনি so.
Not good either. Not enough…
আপনি have taken away with আপনি every reason for my existence.
Definitely bad. She didn’t take it away. I did. I removed myself away from the very meaning of my life – অথবা should I say, wretched, despicable, tormented existence?
Torment. Yes, How I knew it well.
Her eyes. Her lips…. As I’ve said, torment – in its purest form.
I remembered how it wasn’t like this before – when I was still with her. HER. Bella, my life, my love. MY (?) I should stop thinking of her this way. She is no longer mine. She could never be mine. She would never be mine.
Pain. Anguish. Agony.
They ripped, tore my insides.
I প্রণয় you.
Still and will always.
For all eternity.
That part, I want her to know, to believe. Could she still believe me after all I did to her?
Her eyes filled with tears – a too vivid memory.
I gasped. I choked. Regret washed over me.
I wish to see you., hear your voice., feel your warmth.
Aaah…this too much.
Away from you, it is unbearable.
Should I allow myself just a glimpse of her? Has she moved on?
NO! No, please….
Selfish…Always so selfish.
I tried to see the beauty আপনি always saw in the night sky but the stars refused to shine for me tonight, my love. Is it because I am without you?
All I could see is her face.
All I could hear is her voice.
All I could smell is her scent.
How I long to be with her.
She haunts me now.
I smiled wryly - the roles are now reversed.
I sighed.
I wish আপনি happiness.
However she may find it.
Without me…, in the arms of another…
Do I really wish that?
Yes, I thought fiercely. As long as she’s happy…
Hypocrite.
I fervently hope I ক্রুশ your mind once in a while.
I winced.
Idiot! Selfish Idiot!
Does she? Does she still think about me? Does she remember how much I প্রণয় her? How much I tried to be right for her? To be আরো human and less of a monster for her?
Bella, my love, please be safe.
That’s all I ask of her. নিরাপদ – without me.
Pain engulfed me once again.
Is that all I wished for? NO.
I stared defiantly at where they ব্যক্ত heaven should be.
I would trade everything; give up everything, for one আরো blush, one আরো smile, one আরো kiss, one আরো দিন অথবা night…
Even one আরো সেকেন্ড with her.
Yours, for all eternity.
I couldn’t sign my name.
I sighed.
I looked at the letter in my hand.
Every fiber in my being yearned to be with her, I never knew up to what extent, until now.
I balled my fist. Crumpling the letter in the process.
I wouldn’t…I couldn’t send it anyway. I promised I would stay away from her.
But then again, I’m not very good with keeping promises, especially the ones that concerned her.
The phone rang, disrupting my chaotic thoughts.
Thoughts of her.
I stared at it. Contemplating whether I should toss it outside the window, crush it with my fist অথবা hurl it to the wall.
Violence…
I laughed bitterly. Such thoughts were constant for me now. Now that I am without her.
The ringing phone persisted.
Who may this be now? Emmet? Alice? Carlisle? Esme?
A twinge inside my lifeless chest.
My family. I truly am sorry for abandoning them. I sighed.
“Yes?” I asked lifelessly on the phone.
“Edward…She’s gone. I’m sorry. Come back home. We’ll wait for you.” Rosalie ব্যক্ত in one breath.
I gripped the phone tightly.
“What are আপনি talking about?” I demanded vehemently.
“Bella jumped off a cliff, Edward. Alice saw her. She’s at Forks now.”
I dropped the call and dialed a number etched in my memory.
How many times have I imagined calling this number? Countless. But never this way. Not this way.
“He’s at the funeral.” The biting voice replied on the other line after I asked for Charlie.
I tossed the phone aside. I have no strength – to crush it, hurl it. I do not care.
Her eyes. Her lips.
Her voice. Her smile. Her laughter.
Flashed before my eyes .Haunting me.
Gone?
“Why? Haven’t I had enough?” I shouted towards heaven.
“Why? Why?” I whispered brokenly.
I fell on my knees. Like the weak man, I always knew I am, I crumpled to the floor.
My love, the very reason why I still continue to exist…Gone…Dead…
I though I knew torment and anguish very well. I thought wrong. It was nothing compared to this.
I did this to her.
I হারিয়ে গেছে her.
NO, it’s never too late, my mind rebelled.
I smiled viciously as I let sanity escape me.
Only the ache to be with her, to যোগদান her, wherever she is right now burned fiercely inside me.
“I will be with you, my love. Wait for me. I will find you.” I whispered
With this, determination runs through my veins.
I stood up.
Ran – as fast as before.
No, faster. I ran with all the strength and speed I have.
I gave in to sobs that has been trying to wrench their way out of my throat.
I ran, almost blindly for a vampire.
“Bellaaaaa.”
I now have a purpose. To end my existence. To যোগদান my beloved.
How are you?
Not the best way to start. How should I start? Should I – start? Do this? I knew the answer, of course. Nevertheless…
I miss আপনি so.
Not good either. Not enough…
আপনি have taken away with আপনি every reason for my existence.
Definitely bad. She didn’t take it away. I did. I removed myself away from the very meaning of my life – অথবা should I say, wretched, despicable, tormented existence?
Torment. Yes, How I knew it well.
Her eyes. Her lips…. As I’ve said, torment – in its purest form.
I remembered how it wasn’t like this before – when I was still with her. HER. Bella, my life, my love. MY (?) I should stop thinking of her this way. She is no longer mine. She could never be mine. She would never be mine.
Pain. Anguish. Agony.
They ripped, tore my insides.
I প্রণয় you.
Still and will always.
For all eternity.
That part, I want her to know, to believe. Could she still believe me after all I did to her?
Her eyes filled with tears – a too vivid memory.
I gasped. I choked. Regret washed over me.
I wish to see you., hear your voice., feel your warmth.
Aaah…this too much.
Away from you, it is unbearable.
Should I allow myself just a glimpse of her? Has she moved on?
NO! No, please….
Selfish…Always so selfish.
I tried to see the beauty আপনি always saw in the night sky but the stars refused to shine for me tonight, my love. Is it because I am without you?
All I could see is her face.
All I could hear is her voice.
All I could smell is her scent.
How I long to be with her.
She haunts me now.
I smiled wryly - the roles are now reversed.
I sighed.
I wish আপনি happiness.
However she may find it.
Without me…, in the arms of another…
Do I really wish that?
Yes, I thought fiercely. As long as she’s happy…
Hypocrite.
I fervently hope I ক্রুশ your mind once in a while.
I winced.
Idiot! Selfish Idiot!
Does she? Does she still think about me? Does she remember how much I প্রণয় her? How much I tried to be right for her? To be আরো human and less of a monster for her?
Bella, my love, please be safe.
That’s all I ask of her. নিরাপদ – without me.
Pain engulfed me once again.
Is that all I wished for? NO.
I stared defiantly at where they ব্যক্ত heaven should be.
I would trade everything; give up everything, for one আরো blush, one আরো smile, one আরো kiss, one আরো দিন অথবা night…
Even one আরো সেকেন্ড with her.
Yours, for all eternity.
I couldn’t sign my name.
I sighed.
I looked at the letter in my hand.
Every fiber in my being yearned to be with her, I never knew up to what extent, until now.
I balled my fist. Crumpling the letter in the process.
I wouldn’t…I couldn’t send it anyway. I promised I would stay away from her.
But then again, I’m not very good with keeping promises, especially the ones that concerned her.
The phone rang, disrupting my chaotic thoughts.
Thoughts of her.
I stared at it. Contemplating whether I should toss it outside the window, crush it with my fist অথবা hurl it to the wall.
Violence…
I laughed bitterly. Such thoughts were constant for me now. Now that I am without her.
The ringing phone persisted.
Who may this be now? Emmet? Alice? Carlisle? Esme?
A twinge inside my lifeless chest.
My family. I truly am sorry for abandoning them. I sighed.
“Yes?” I asked lifelessly on the phone.
“Edward…She’s gone. I’m sorry. Come back home. We’ll wait for you.” Rosalie ব্যক্ত in one breath.
I gripped the phone tightly.
“What are আপনি talking about?” I demanded vehemently.
“Bella jumped off a cliff, Edward. Alice saw her. She’s at Forks now.”
I dropped the call and dialed a number etched in my memory.
How many times have I imagined calling this number? Countless. But never this way. Not this way.
“He’s at the funeral.” The biting voice replied on the other line after I asked for Charlie.
I tossed the phone aside. I have no strength – to crush it, hurl it. I do not care.
Her eyes. Her lips.
Her voice. Her smile. Her laughter.
Flashed before my eyes .Haunting me.
Gone?
“Why? Haven’t I had enough?” I shouted towards heaven.
“Why? Why?” I whispered brokenly.
I fell on my knees. Like the weak man, I always knew I am, I crumpled to the floor.
My love, the very reason why I still continue to exist…Gone…Dead…
I though I knew torment and anguish very well. I thought wrong. It was nothing compared to this.
I did this to her.
I হারিয়ে গেছে her.
NO, it’s never too late, my mind rebelled.
I smiled viciously as I let sanity escape me.
Only the ache to be with her, to যোগদান her, wherever she is right now burned fiercely inside me.
“I will be with you, my love. Wait for me. I will find you.” I whispered
With this, determination runs through my veins.
I stood up.
Ran – as fast as before.
No, faster. I ran with all the strength and speed I have.
I gave in to sobs that has been trying to wrench their way out of my throat.
I ran, almost blindly for a vampire.
“Bellaaaaa.”
I now have a purpose. To end my existence. To যোগদান my beloved.
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I smiled at him. He looked at me and smiled his crocked smile. I got dressed fast and when I looked out the window he wasn't there. i looked to my side and there he was. Charlie must have left. "you ready?" he asked me "almost" I ব্যক্ত I ran over to my room and got my book bag. "lets go" I said. We got to the school he steel did not say happy birthday. every body was staring at us again not that I can blame them I mean average old me with an Angel. He walked me over to the door were Alice and Jasper were waiting on us. "happy Birthday" they all yelled "thanks guys" we walked in and my অ্যাঞ্জেল and I had to separate tell lunch "see আপনি then" I ব্যক্ত then Alice and I were off to class. "I have a surprise for you" she said......
I smiled at him. He looked at me and smiled his crocked smile. I got dressed fast and when I looked out the window he wasn't there. i looked to my side and there he was. Charlie must have left. "you ready?" he asked me "almost" I ব্যক্ত I ran over to my room and got my book bag. "lets go" I said. We got to the school he steel did not say happy birthday. every body was staring at us again not that I can blame them I mean average old me with an Angel. He walked me over to the door were Alice and Jasper were waiting on us. "happy Birthday" they all yelled "thanks guys" we walked in and my অ্যাঞ্জেল and I had to separate tell lunch "see আপনি then" I ব্যক্ত then Alice and I were off to class. "I have a surprise for you" she said......
If আপনি have read my artical/story called Full Moon theres alot of articals caled Full Moons but make sure its দ্বারা twilightfan03 thats me i have created a spot for where i will be লেখা full moon part 3 and the rest of my saga so be sure to যোগদান it thanks for পাঠ করা and joining
With All Due And Respect,
Isabella Cristan
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then its about the cullens and vampires
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With All Due And Respect,
Isabella Cristan
p.s the spot is alsomy ব্যবহারকারী নাম twilightfan03 thanks
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then its about the cullens and vampires
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1. Death Cab For Cutie – “Meet Me On The Equinox”
2. Band Of Skulls – “Friends”
3. Thom Yorke – “Hearing Damage”
4. Lykke Li – “Possibility”
5. The Killers – “A White Demon প্রণয় Song”
6. Anya marina – “Satellite Heart”
7. মুসে – “I Belong To আপনি (New Moon)”
8. Bon Iver and St. Vincent – “Roslyn”
9. Black Rebel Motorcycle Club – “Done All Wrong”
10. Hurricane Bells – “Monsters”
11. Sea নেকড়ে – “The বেগুনী Hour”
12. OK Go – “Shooting The Moon”
13. Grizzly ভালুক – “Slow Life”
14. Editors – “No Sound But The Wind”
15. Alexandre Desplat – “New Moon (The Meadow)”
OMG! The New Moon soundtrack songs & artists have been announced! The highly-anticipated album comes out Oct.13, but here are the artists/ songs featured in it....
1. Death Cab For Cutie: Meet Me On The Equinox
2. Band Of Skulls: Friends
3. Thom Yorke: Hering Damage
4. Lykke Li: Possibility
5. The Killers: A White Demon প্রণয় Song
6. Anya Marina: Satellite Heart
7. Muse: I Belong To You
8. Bon Iver and St. Vincent: Rosyln
9. Black Rebel Motorcycle Club: Done All Wrong
10. Hurricane Bells: Monsters
11. Sea Wolf: The বেগুনী Hour
12. Ok Go: Shooting The Moon
13. Grizzly Bear: Slow Life
14. Editors: No Sound But The Wind
15. Alexandre Desplat: The Meadow
Let's hope it's as good as the first one! :)
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1. Death Cab For Cutie: Meet Me On The Equinox
2. Band Of Skulls: Friends
3. Thom Yorke: Hering Damage
4. Lykke Li: Possibility
5. The Killers: A White Demon প্রণয় Song
6. Anya Marina: Satellite Heart
7. Muse: I Belong To You
8. Bon Iver and St. Vincent: Rosyln
9. Black Rebel Motorcycle Club: Done All Wrong
10. Hurricane Bells: Monsters
11. Sea Wolf: The বেগুনী Hour
12. Ok Go: Shooting The Moon
13. Grizzly Bear: Slow Life
14. Editors: No Sound But The Wind
15. Alexandre Desplat: The Meadow
Let's hope it's as good as the first one! :)
{COMMENT SAYING IF আপনি LIKED THE FIRST ONE & মতামত TELLING ME WHICH OF THESE SONGS YOU'RE MOST EXCITED IN!}