No sense in a real introduction so here's part six:
Once I got back to the school I was very disappointed. I didn't want to leave again. I sighed knowing the chances of me killing her if I didn't go hunting and took off. I quickly put the note in her car and then ran. When I ran this time I felt like there were bricks tied to my feet, and they were slowing me down. Making me feel like I wasn't running fast enough. But I eventually met Alice at a nearby forest. She looked at me, her eyes hesitant. She knew the pain it was for me to leave Bella, "it's for the best" she percieved my words.
We looked around the forest and then i closed my eyes and let my senses take me away. I smelled fresh blood. It was deer, six of them. They were coming close. I darted on my feet and took off to them. I was light on my feet. I could feel the wind on my face. Very soothing to me, I caught one and crushed it with my arms. Then took my teeth in it and felt the warmth of it's blood come down my throat. I remembered Bella asking to see me hunt and shuddered at her seeing me like this. No! I need to clear my mind and hunt. I pictured her scent, her warm inviting blush, her skin, soft. Her blood flowing through my neck. The pain of resistance, the pain of after I did kill her. I ground and sat on a rock. Tomorrow I would have all দিন with her. Would I resist. Alice came over and sat on the rock with me I put my hands in my face once again ashamed. I knew I had promised to be good enough for her, but I was losing, breaking my promise. Right now I wasnt good for her. I wasn't keeping my promise. I wasn't good.
Alice rested her head on my shoulder and sighed. I kept my head in my hands, again ashamed "I hate to see আপনি this way brother" she ব্যক্ত quietly,if only she knew I hated to feel this way. She took her head off my shoulder to look at me In her mind I saw her looking at me "I wish, things could be easy for you. I honestly do but I think I know how to help. I want আপনি to close your eyes, and for once let go of everything. Clear your mind" she said. I did, I tried not to think of anything but her words and oddly I was successful "now picture your life before আপনি met Bella" I did. I remembered that week before she came. I remembered how dull the school was how dark my night sky was "now picture that first দিন আপনি saw her, অথবা the fist দিন আপনি actually talked to her" Alice ব্যক্ত "when she came it was like a shooting তারকা came across my dark sky, অথবা better a meteor shower. আগুন included, but still I was blinded "now imagine what it would be like if she was gone" I pictured the dull school walls again, my dark sky night. But even if I did kill her, I did have to সরানো away. I would still remember her, still be blinded. And in pain. Pain. If she was killed I would have nothing left without her, and maybe kill myself from the product of despair. I sighed and opened my eyes and lifted my head to look at Alice "thank you" I ব্যক্ত and continued "that helps, a little, but I could already have known that. It puts things into perspective easier" I ব্যক্ত "well shall we hunt" she asked I nodded. That would help for tomorrow. Well thats why were here anyways. I got up and hugged my sister and then we hunted more.
It was about midnight when I crawled in her window. I was full with blood in my system. To much. I was very full and hopefully would be tomorrow. I felt like if I drank Bellas blood tonight it would hurt my system. Which would hopefully be that way tomorrow. Tonight was different though, Bella slept like the dead. Not moving, not dreaming. She didn't say anything tonight. She was lifeless in her form. It was nerving that I couldnt ask her either. Since she didn't know I came here. I still stayed with her though. I missed her to much since I couldn't stay with her today. Well really yesterday now.
I waited all night and didn't really know what I was anxious আরো for. Her to wake up so I can hear her voice, অথবা for her to finally সরানো in the bed, roll around and say my name. Finally when the sun came up it was a relief. I left and quickly went in my room to change. I saw Alice come in my room once I was changed "knock ,knock" she ব্যক্ত smiling "yes?" I asked "well i just wanted to say 'good luck' if that was the right sentiment, and I know আপনি won't kill her. I know আপনি wouldn't be strong enough to" she ব্যক্ত "thanks Alice I am so glad আপনি went yesterday. I am really and trully grateful, thanks for all of your support" I ব্যক্ত and looked at her. She nodded and smiled. I looked out my window I came in from and looked at her. She sighed and smiled "I guess that is my cue to leave" she ব্যক্ত and then disappeared. I snorted, if this were a play it would be a tragedy I jumped out the window and ran to her house. Charlie was already gone. I looked at her window. The girli n the was waiting for me. Would I kill her today. I looked at the window one আরো time, sighed and knocked on her door.
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