okay guys, this is really short. im sorry, i've just had no time this week. please tell me what আপনি think anyway :)
“If there was only some way to make আপনি see that I can’t leave you.” I whispered. “Time, I suppose, will be the way to convince you.”
The corner of her mouth pulled up slightly. The idea must have pleased her. “Okay.” She ব্যক্ত agreeably.
I was glad to see her happier again but the pain was still flowing through me at full force.
A questioning look came into her eyes before she asked “So—since you’re staying. Can I have my stuff back?” she spoke in a falsely light tone.
Her attempt at a distraction was so transparent that I laughed, but the pain was still there.
“Your things were never gone,” I explained. “I knew it was wrong, since I promised আপনি peace without reminders. It was stupid and childish, but I wanted to leave something of myself with you. The CD, the pictures, the tickets—they’re all under your floorboards.”
“Really?” surprise and happiness filled her face, a smile lighting her eyes.
I nodded, slightly cheered that she was so happy from finding out this trivial fact.
“I think,” she began slowly. “I’m not sure, but I wonder... I think maybe I knew it the whole time.”
Curiosity flickered and I tried to push the pain away. Bella was upset that I was in pain, but she shouldn’t be upset, I had already caused her far too much pain.
“What did আপনি know?” I asked, trying to distract myself.
“Some part of me, my subconscious maybe, never stopped believing that আপনি still cared whether I lived অথবা died. That’s probably why I was hearing the voices.” She stated, while I immediately began questioning her sanity.
I remembered back to when she first found out what I was, how she was curious and not the least bit frightened. I had been unsure of her sanity then too. At least there were options. Carlisle knew the best psychologists, and I could visit her whenever I was allowed.
“Voices?” I asked in a flat tone.
“Well, just one voice. Yours. It’s a long story.” She seemed wary. I wondered if that had anything to do with the expression on my face. it was my fault this time, that she wasn’t experiencing normal things. Well, as normal as could be in the current circumstances.
“I’ve got time.” I said, trying to keep my voice as even as possible.
“It’s pretty pathetic.” She said, an odd look of relief in her eyes. What was she relived about?
I waited, knowing she would tell me.
She looked thoughtful for a সেকেন্ড before starting.
“Do আপনি remember what Alice ব্যক্ত about extreme sports?”
I spoke the words without inflection অথবা emphasis. “You jumped off a cliff for fun.”
“Er, right.” She looked nervously at me. “And before that, with the motorcycle—”
“Motorcycle?” I cut in, trying to retain my calm.
“I guess I didn’t tell Alice about that bit.” she bit her lip, a sign of tension.
“No.” I answered, unable to form a complete sentence.
“Well, about that...See, I found that...when I was doing something dangerous অথবা stupid...I could remember আপনি আরো clearly.” She said, looking like she was confessing to murder. “I could remember how your voice sounded when আপনি were angry. I could hear it, like আপনি were right there পরবর্তি to me. Mostly I tried not to think about you, but this didn’t hurt so much—it was like আপনি were protecting me again. Like আপনি didn’t want me to be hurt. And, well, I wonder if the reason I could hear আপনি so clearly was because, underneath it all, I always knew that আপনি hadn’t stopped loving me.”
I was so appalled, my words came out sounding strangled. “You...were...risking your life...to hear—”
“Shh,” she interrupted me. “Hold on a second. I think I’m having an epiphany here.”
Her face looked thoughtful, and I struggled to remain quiet. I was not used to being so patient, it had been so long and I was out of practice. I was about to say something, unable to hold my tongue any longer, when a look of happiness and understanding washed across Bella’s face.
“Oh!” she exclaimed quietly.
“Bella?” I needed to know, now.
“Oh. Okay. I see.” She said, completely ignoring me and driving me insane at the same time.
“Your epiphany?” I asked, my voice sounding strained.
“You প্রণয় me.” she stated simply.
I smiled. “Truly, I do.”
She smiled such a smile that it brightened her whole face. I took her warm face into my hands and kissed her until her হৃদয় was beating at double time.
I leant my forehead against hers, both of us breathing harder than usual.
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