Esme made me নৈশভোজ and since Jake has already gone I was eating alone. It was good that no one bothered me - I had too many thoughts. Bella's প্রশ্ন pulled out some dark memories I was struggling to forget. It was a bit like Nessie's touch, I could feel something pulsing in my head. Maybe they were right about the shield? অথবা it was just another headache?
When I finnished I asked Esme if I can go sleep and she lead to the same bedroom. I lied on বিছানা for a long ঘন্টা trying to fall asleep but nothing. I sighed angrily and changed my position. I hated doing nothing. And then someone knocked on a door.
"Come in" - now I was interested. Alice's head appeared in a doorway.
"Hey, we heard আপনি turning in বিছানা like thousand times and assumed আপনি weren't sleeping, so..." she came in followed দ্বারা Rosalie and Bella. "We decided to have some fun instead!" and she showed me a huge make-up bag.
"What?!" I really hoped it was just another bad joke and she's not planning to throw pajamas party.But I was wrong again.
"C'mon, it'll be fun, I'll paint your nails, do আপনি hair, you're gonna প্রণয় it!" and she babbled what else she might do. Bella gave me sympathetic look while Rosalie didn't seem very interested.
"Wait!" I stopped her "Who in the world ব্যক্ত I'm doing this?" but before I could say আরো Alice's expression changed into such sad face that I was unable to say no.
"Fine" I murmured.
"That's great!" and she started digging into her bag
"If it makes আপনি feel better, I've been through all this" Bella tried to comfort me and I sighed.
"Which colour?" Alice lifted two bottles of nail polish: bright red and pink.
"Do আপনি have any black?" she looked surprised and I could understand it. I've always tried to look like serious and maybe even strict officer, I always chose reserved clothes and accessories, I rarely weared any make-up, but dark nails were my weakness and I decided it was time to surrender to it. She searched her bag and lifted dark বেগুনী bottle.
"How about this?"
At first it was weird and there were many uncomfortable pauses but later we all burst in laugh when Alice and Bella described their prom experience. I couldn't believe how great I felt chatting with them.
"I'm sorry for what I asked আপনি earlier" I wasn't expecting this so I fell silent for a minute.
"That's nothing" and tried to come back to পূর্ববর্তি talk about dresses but this time Rosalie became interrogator:
"Why have আপনি ব্যক্ত that thing about আপনি not being worth living?" I gave Bella an angry look.
"It's not your business" all my happiness fade away.
"Please... আপনি know you'll feel much better if you'll tell someone" it was obvious that Alice was only curious.
"You want to know why I am thinking this অথবা why I refused to be freak like you?!" I shouted and turned to Rosalie "You think that everyone gives up their lifes so easily? Their family? Loving fiance?" I guess I went too far cause Rosalie was furious.
"What do আপনি mean loving fiance?"
"You heard me. I read the প্রবন্ধ - আপনি left your family and your fiance"
"So that's what they wrote?! আপনি really want to know the truth? That bastard আপনি called loving was the one who left me dying. He's the reason I'm here unable to change, to get old, to have children..." Rosalie's face was a mix of anger and sadnesss. She could burst in tears any time. I, on the other hand, felt guilty for losing temper.
"I'm sorry, I didn't know..." no one responded "Bad guys always get away free, don't they?" - still silence. I didn't want them being like this, I had to say something, but what?
"I'm sorry, Rosalie. Maybe I should tell আপনি my story..."
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