“Oni! Did আপনি already pack some shampoo, conditioner and all of that crap? আপনি know that hotel hygiene products suck!” shouted June through my bathroom door.
“June chill, Let me finish taking my waz.” I rolled my eyes. No use she couldn’t see it.
I walked out of the bathroom sat on the edge of my বিছানা looked up at June and ব্যক্ত “Don’t আপনি ever go home? I bet that Andrew misses আপনি dearly.” I smiled at her. Now it was her turn to roll her eyes.
June sat পরবর্তি to me. She put her head into her hands. I wasn't expecting that, I pat her back.
"June what's wrong?" I asked concerned while removing her hands from her head.
"It's just that, well." June was having a hard time finding the right thing to say.
"I just haven't been able to stop worrying about Ky, and Andrew is getting irritated because we haven't spent a lot of time together." She looked up at me with her eyes looking glossy. she was about to cry.
"Well we can always just go and visit her." I suggested while standing up slowly.
"You know, I wonder why I hadn't thought of that?" June looked at me with all traces of the sadness before, gone.
"Yeah! I can go grab the car keys, tell mom where we're going and আপনি can mapquest the directions to her prison." I ব্যক্ত already slowly walking away from my older sister. I got a good idea in my head. I'm gonna do it and no one can stop me.
"Yeah it'd be nice to see her. আপনি know we have spent way to much time away from our sister, I feel kinda bad now." She ব্যক্ত standing up also.
"Yeah, uh-huh, plan ready for action? I wanna make sure that I see her before my পরবর্তি birthday, when I'm 24!" I shouted to her while walking out of my bedroom door.
{10 মিনিট later}
"You got the stuff?" I asked June seriously while pointing my fingers at her like a gun.
"Woah there!" She laughed and pointed to her purse. I did a cartwheel over to her, ripped her টাকার থলি off of her arm then did a somersault back to where I was before. June looked confused. I ripped the directions out of her purse, unfolded it and started reading, then threw her bag back to her without taking my eyes off the paper.
"Let's go!" I ব্যক্ত with a stupid look on my face. June took a handful of Cheetos from the রান্নাঘর and returned my look. We were finally leaving!
So, me and June had a bit of a fight over who got to drive. But then, we both realized that I suck with directions and get myself হারিয়ে গেছে most of the time. So, the driver was obviously June.
"Well I wanted to control the radio anyway." I ব্যক্ত getting into the passenger seat. June started the engine and rolled down the windows. She gave me the directions. I looked at her surprised that she trusted me with such treasure.
"Don't screw this up." she told me with a grin. I stuck my tongue out at her and reached for the radio. I went to lots of different stations then on Z100 রিহানা was on, I tried to change it ninja fast, but June had already heard it. She slapped my hand. So, I punched her in the arm. She gave me an intimidating look. I shrunk in my আসন and put in my আইপড so I didn't have to listen to Rihanna, and June's "beautiful" গান গাওয়া voice going along with it. I looked over the directions.
"Turn on 42nd রাস্তা now!" She turned that steering wheel to the left so hard I was smashed against the window. I glared at her.
"Well আপনি wouldn't have hit the window if আপনি payed আরো attention." She ব্যক্ত teasingly. So, I just gave the directions to her. This was gonna be a long ride.
“June chill, Let me finish taking my waz.” I rolled my eyes. No use she couldn’t see it.
I walked out of the bathroom sat on the edge of my বিছানা looked up at June and ব্যক্ত “Don’t আপনি ever go home? I bet that Andrew misses আপনি dearly.” I smiled at her. Now it was her turn to roll her eyes.
June sat পরবর্তি to me. She put her head into her hands. I wasn't expecting that, I pat her back.
"June what's wrong?" I asked concerned while removing her hands from her head.
"It's just that, well." June was having a hard time finding the right thing to say.
"I just haven't been able to stop worrying about Ky, and Andrew is getting irritated because we haven't spent a lot of time together." She looked up at me with her eyes looking glossy. she was about to cry.
"Well we can always just go and visit her." I suggested while standing up slowly.
"You know, I wonder why I hadn't thought of that?" June looked at me with all traces of the sadness before, gone.
"Yeah! I can go grab the car keys, tell mom where we're going and আপনি can mapquest the directions to her prison." I ব্যক্ত already slowly walking away from my older sister. I got a good idea in my head. I'm gonna do it and no one can stop me.
"Yeah it'd be nice to see her. আপনি know we have spent way to much time away from our sister, I feel kinda bad now." She ব্যক্ত standing up also.
"Yeah, uh-huh, plan ready for action? I wanna make sure that I see her before my পরবর্তি birthday, when I'm 24!" I shouted to her while walking out of my bedroom door.
{10 মিনিট later}
"You got the stuff?" I asked June seriously while pointing my fingers at her like a gun.
"Woah there!" She laughed and pointed to her purse. I did a cartwheel over to her, ripped her টাকার থলি off of her arm then did a somersault back to where I was before. June looked confused. I ripped the directions out of her purse, unfolded it and started reading, then threw her bag back to her without taking my eyes off the paper.
"Let's go!" I ব্যক্ত with a stupid look on my face. June took a handful of Cheetos from the রান্নাঘর and returned my look. We were finally leaving!
So, me and June had a bit of a fight over who got to drive. But then, we both realized that I suck with directions and get myself হারিয়ে গেছে most of the time. So, the driver was obviously June.
"Well I wanted to control the radio anyway." I ব্যক্ত getting into the passenger seat. June started the engine and rolled down the windows. She gave me the directions. I looked at her surprised that she trusted me with such treasure.
"Don't screw this up." she told me with a grin. I stuck my tongue out at her and reached for the radio. I went to lots of different stations then on Z100 রিহানা was on, I tried to change it ninja fast, but June had already heard it. She slapped my hand. So, I punched her in the arm. She gave me an intimidating look. I shrunk in my আসন and put in my আইপড so I didn't have to listen to Rihanna, and June's "beautiful" গান গাওয়া voice going along with it. I looked over the directions.
"Turn on 42nd রাস্তা now!" She turned that steering wheel to the left so hard I was smashed against the window. I glared at her.
"Well আপনি wouldn't have hit the window if আপনি payed আরো attention." She ব্যক্ত teasingly. So, I just gave the directions to her. This was gonna be a long ride.
I needed more, more! I threw the book across the dimly lit, wooden attic. The book hit a stack of old newspapers. I tore open yet another book. Nothing would give me my answers.
Why did I feel the need to care for Lucy? Why could I not get Alexander out of my head?
There were pages, and pages of the thought process, but nothing to explain what I felt! Why could no one manage to capture these feelings, and explain them?
A knock on the door interrupted me. “What?” I snapped.
“It is past midnight, Damien. Come to bed,” ব্যক্ত Grey through the door.
“I’ll come when I want to. Now, go away!” Could she not understand I was confused, and angry? She possessed such naivety.
“Fine!” Grey yelled. I heard her storm down the steps. Then I heard her bedroom door slam. I let out a puff of air.
Then I threw another book against the wall. I kicked the whole stack of books, and watched as they toppled over. I threw myself onto the floor, and began crying.
Why did I feel the need to care for Lucy? Why could I not get Alexander out of my head?
There were pages, and pages of the thought process, but nothing to explain what I felt! Why could no one manage to capture these feelings, and explain them?
A knock on the door interrupted me. “What?” I snapped.
“It is past midnight, Damien. Come to bed,” ব্যক্ত Grey through the door.
“I’ll come when I want to. Now, go away!” Could she not understand I was confused, and angry? She possessed such naivety.
“Fine!” Grey yelled. I heard her storm down the steps. Then I heard her bedroom door slam. I let out a puff of air.
Then I threw another book against the wall. I kicked the whole stack of books, and watched as they toppled over. I threw myself onto the floor, and began crying.
upset
and so many thoughts
circling around
your head,
আপনি try to make
this right,
to find the best way
so আপনি could feel better,
so আপনি could be free.
Pain will never
go away,
it always stays
to remember you
that life is not a dream,
life is unpredictable.
Endless questions,
so many "Why",
but the answer
we will
never find!
The strength within
will not let us crack,
life is unpredictable,
who's to say?
Today you're happy,
and yet
despair waits
stealthily
to engulf you.
But,
আপনি need to be prepared.
Not only bad things
happen to bad people.
Unfortunately,
so many pure,
honored hearts
have been broken for
so many times,
in so many pieces,
and yet
they live,
they live with
their agony,
they live with
their groan,
but they live,
tho their eyes are
always sad,
their hearts are
still softly.
Therefore
they know...
Therefore
they are...
The brightest star
that shines
in the dark,
that spark of hope
for all of us
who deserve better.
When আপনি look at the night sky, what do আপনি see?
In my eyes,
I see the moon as a peaceful spirit,
watching over me.
When আপনি stop and listen to the wind, what do আপনি hear?
In my eyes,
The wind sings to me and tells tales.
When আপনি feel the sun on your back, what do আপনি think?
In my eyes,
The sun reaches out and gives me a warm smile.
When আপনি hear a flowing stream, how does it sound?
In my eyes,
The stream is floating in my হৃদয় and soul, drifting on and on.
When আপনি look at me, what do আপনি see?
In my eyes,
I see an average girl who is silently struggling inside.
But that's all in my eyes.
In my eyes,
I see the moon as a peaceful spirit,
watching over me.
When আপনি stop and listen to the wind, what do আপনি hear?
In my eyes,
The wind sings to me and tells tales.
When আপনি feel the sun on your back, what do আপনি think?
In my eyes,
The sun reaches out and gives me a warm smile.
When আপনি hear a flowing stream, how does it sound?
In my eyes,
The stream is floating in my হৃদয় and soul, drifting on and on.
When আপনি look at me, what do আপনি see?
In my eyes,
I see an average girl who is silently struggling inside.
But that's all in my eyes.
Its too dark
Too dark to see what is going on
Tripping over the couch
Slamming into the wall
stepping on the remote
It was too dark
The undone dishes
The scattered roses
The broken picture
My broken heart
It was too dark
Believing it would change
That he would change
A Waste
A waste of my time
My Effort
The “No Messages” left on my phone
It was too dark
It was too dark to see what had happened
Too dark to try to fix things
Its just too dark
Someone turn on the light
That light bulb in my head of what Ive done wrong
Its too dark
Too dark to see what is going on
Tripping over the couch
Slamming into the wall
stepping on the remote
It was too dark
The undone dishes
The scattered roses
The broken picture
My broken heart
It was too dark
Believing it would change
That he would change
A Waste
A waste of my time
My Effort
The “No Messages” left on my phone
It was too dark
It was too dark to see what had happened
Too dark to try to fix things
Its just too dark
Someone turn on the light
That light bulb in my head of what Ive done wrong
Its too dark