Chapter 1
The miracle
It was over I only wanted my father and I could no longer have him. Yet again he was seduced দ্বারা some girl. I never got what she met my “she was taking him away from me.” But I knew it met that I was going to be alone. Once again. That is a truth I could not handle I’ve been alone most of my life I didn’t want to be anymore. I just got my father back and no he is leaving me for some broad. I didn’t want to face the facts so I jumped of the roof of my house. The pain was excruciating but only lasted for a second. I sure thought I was dead when I open my eyes and I saw my mother’s face.
“Mommy what are আপনি doing here.” She didn’t say anything but hummed me Mythilpylaneia. I couldn’t help but feel empty inside. There was something missing and I didn’t know what it could be. “Mommy were am I?” she stopped গান গাওয়া and looked at me. “am I in heaven.”
“Every moment I see your face its heaven.” She said. I smile then things got blurry. I tried to blink the blurriness away.
“Mommy daddy and I প্রণয় আপনি ever so much there’s not a দিন that goes দ্বারা that we don’t think of আপনি we miss so much.”
“I know.” She ব্যক্ত she was so blurry I kept blinking. But she kept turning blurrier. I cried out.
“Mommy!” then there was a ceiling and a ceiling অনুরাগী damn hate ceiling fans. There were so tacky. I groan and then I hear my name. then again but a different voice then I remember Peeta Haymitch all the ones I প্রণয় then Effie and I swear I almost puked in my mouth. Then I remember my daddy I was going to shoot up and yell his name but then I see a face. It was Pash. Her words stuck in my head.
“who is the one person আপনি প্রণয় the most. Is it your father? Well that’s too bad, I’m taking him from you. Yes I am. He told me that he doesn’t want you, I’m really not lying I wish I was, he says he want আপনি gone and আপনি ruined his life. he called আপনি a mess up and a mistake he called আপনি a broken condom.” And she was right my daddy didn’t প্রণয় me then I screamed out the one person I knew who will comport me. I sit up and scream.
“Haymitch!”
“what?” he said. I point to my daddy. Then I see a blurry figure that looked like Haymitch. “what about him?”
“he doesn’t প্রণয় me.” Haymitch moved. And I see Pash sitting on his lap. I scream out in pain. Not only physical but emotional.
“What did আপনি do now?” Haymitch said.
“What I don’t know Eliza I প্রণয় you.” I cuss at him.
“I hate আপনি why is it that your intention is to hurt me!” I said
“It’s not!” He ব্যক্ত I feel arms around me but they weren’t Haymitch’s I assumed there where Peeta’s . I started to shake.
“calm down.” Peeta said.”Explain yourself.”
“I don’t need to Extrapolate he hates me.” I said.
“I never ব্যক্ত that!” he said.
“you told Pash!” I ব্যক্ত sobbing.
“Pash is a immature jealous hag from hell she is so jealous she will tell everyone on Panem আপনি fell in প্রণয় with your dad which I know is a lie Peeta knows it’s a damn lie and anyone who knows আপনি know it’s a lie. Pash you’re a …”
“you told everyone my daughter wanted a intimate relationship with me.” My daddy ব্যক্ত to Pash interrupting Haymitch. Everyone stared at her, I cussed.
“I প্রণয় my daddy I hate আপনি all.” I try to get up but I fell over.
“Leg is broken.” Someone said.
“Kill me!” I yell.
“She is a suicidal freak.” Pash said.
“Did আপনি say that?” Finnick yelled.
“no why would I.” there was a commotion in the room then Effie said.
“You told me.”
“And me!” Peeta ব্যক্ত helping me back up. I sit up my back against the bottom of the couch.
“out I want আপনি out of my house I want আপনি out of my life and my daughter’s life and go kill yourself you’re the damn freak here.” She just stared at him her eyes began to water. She spun and left. I saw someone walked over to me. I think it was my daddy.
“Go away!”
“Your seriously not believing her are you?” I just stared at him. He then walks out.
“I really hate my life it’s been this way since was born can I not be happy.”
“You can if আপনি choose to.” Haymitch ব্যক্ত I look at him.
“says drunken man.”
“I choose to be the way I am.” I look at him. “Don’t let what Pash ব্যক্ত get আপনি down it wasn’t true.”
“But what if it is. What if no one loves me and your all putting on a act.”
“Well I know I’m not.” Haymitch said.
“me too.” Peeta says.
“But my daddy he…” Haymitch interrupts me.
“ loves আপনি ok.” I sat on the পালঙ্ক and sighed.
“I really wish I would of died.” I said. Haymitch rubs my hair.
“shh no আপনি don’t just lay down and rest Miss. Everdeen ব্যক্ত it will take up to six weeks for আপনি too heel. If আপনি need anything your father will be here so don’t be all snooty and ignore him, if আপনি need him he’s here.”
“Are my trials and tribulations done yet I’m too fragile.”
“If আপনি where too fragile আপনি would of been dead দ্বারা now from other things.” Peeta ব্যক্ত smiling at me giving me a piece of bread. I blink.
“yea but… I feel empty I don’t want to live with this emptiness.” Peeta sat down পরবর্তি to me. And Haymitch fixed himself another drink.
“That emptiness আপনি feel.” He looked over at Haymitch. “it because আপনি have so much potential and আপনি have yet to releases it, once আপনি done what you’re here on this earth for, you’ll feel whole.” I look at him and blink away my tears and Haymitch sits পরবর্তি to me smelling like Whiskey like always. “do আপনি feel whole?” I ask Peeta but Haymitch answers.
“I only feel whole when your around and নিরাপদ and well and not crying.” I look over at Haymitch. Take his drink and guzzle it down I choke and cough.
“What the hell is wrong with you!” Haymitch said. “don’t drink that ever!” he got up and went into the রান্নাঘর to make another drink. Still coughing Peeta pats my back. Haymitch sits down holding the drink in the hand furthest from me. I started to calm down I say.
“What is that! Its gross how do আপনি drink that! How are আপনি not dead!”
“That’s not going to concern আপনি because আপনি are never going to drink again.” Then Finnick Comes Back in. Haymitch looks at him and stands up.
“I don’t want to see আপনি go for a downward spiral. You’re a great strong girl who is very smart and talented don’t waste it.” Then he leaves. Peeta stands up and says.
“To answer your question.” He looked down at the ground swallowed hard and continued. “yes I do feel whole.” He smiled and left. I blinked and laid down.
“Do আপনি want anything?” my dad asked.
“Yea আপনি gone.
“Look I প্রণয় you…” I interrupted him.
“You just acting.”
“I’m just being your father.” I stare at him.
“I প্রণয় আপনি and there s nothing আপনি can do about it if আপনি don’t believe me then too bad I know I প্রণয় আপনি everyone else knows I প্রণয় আপনি and really as long as I know I’m ok with it.” Then he walks upstairs. I sat there thinking about what he said. I had a chose to make trust him and risk getting hurt and maybe being loved, অথবা hate him for possibly lying to me. Then that’s when the front door opened. I look over and see Pash. I blinked. She walked furiously to me.
“listen to me আপনি made me lose everything I loved. This is all your fault punk and you’re going to pay.” She looked up the stairs to what I assume was to make sure my Daddy couldn’t hear her. “if I can’t have Finnick neither can you, no one can.” Then it sounded like my daddy was coming down stairs so she hurried out the door but before shutting the door behind her she turned around and smirked.
Chapter 2
The girl(s)
Over the পরবর্তি six weeks I had my dad wait on my hand and foot. Well mostly leg but still. It took forever for me to be able to walk again. Katniss and Prim helped me with my therapy. Prim really nice she is one of my best friends. When I get প্রথমপাতা I go in the back and make I drink. I see Haymitch do it all the time. A little this a little that. When I was done I plug my nose and gulp it done. I squeeze my face because of the horrible taste. And take a আসন in the living room. Daddy was out with Katniss অথবা as he would say Crapness doing ‘adult stuff’ as he would say but I totally know what they’re doing. I bet Panem is under attack and there off to save it অথবা whatever. What so special about Panem anyway it sucks here. I keep drinking and I start to read the rest of Awaken. After a few hours of পাঠ করা and drinking I start to feel light headed. I try to stand up but it felt weird. Then there was a knock at the door. I wobble over there. It was Haymitch. I try to talk but I had no idea what came out of my mouth.
“Uh…ok….you want your things from my house” good I could understand him. I fall over and laugh. Haymitch Picks me up and says.
“have আপনি been drinking?” I made a little signature with my thumb and pointer finger.”
“Holly hell!” I laugh.
“Hell…. Not…Oily.” he looks at me.
“we are going to talk to your dad.” I shake my head. “yes we are আপনি can’t drink I don’t want আপনি to do this to yourself.” I blink then Katniss walks in with my dad. Haymitch stares at him. They both stare back.
“What up.” He said.
“She’s drunk.” He ব্যক্ত my daddy looks at me.
“Eliza!” I nod. “Are আপনি drunk.” I tilt my head from side to side then fall over. I hear Katniss giggle. “Crapness! Stop laughing at my daughter.” I look at her she was holding in her laugh.
“Ok Fin Paste.” She said. He helps me up and sits me on the coach at this point the room was spinning I felt nauseas. Then the পরবর্তি thing I know leaned over and threw up.
“Are আপনি kidding me! This দিন just keeps getting worse! I just got these shoes!” I hear Haymitch yelled but I just lay and down and fell asleep.
When I wake up. I have a pounding headache I sit up and run to the sink in the kitchen. Throw up in the sink. Then I head back to the coach and fall asleep. When I wake up again I hear voices.
“Are আপনি going to be ok.”
“As long she is ok I will be.” That sounded like Haymitch.
“Haymitch?” I ব্যক্ত weakly.
“yea.” I still had a headache but t calmed own. Then there was a girl who looked about the same size as me 5 ft and 11 in but 6 centimeters taller. She had long brown hair big golden brown eyes. And was wearing a bright কমলা silk dress. She had smooth mocha skin. She stood পরবর্তি to Haymitch.
“You feeling alright.” Haymitch said.
“Yea I’m ok my head hurts.” I look over to the girl.
“Hi I’m Interlanechen.” She said. I smile at her.
“Haymitch আপনি need a girlfriend still.” I pointed at her. “She should be your girlfriend.” They stare at me.
“She is my girlfriend but that’s not important what is that your drinking.”
“So she isn’t important to you?” I say to him.”
“She is she know she is…”
“Awe Haymitch is in wuv.”
“Look your too young to be drinking.”
“Where is my dad.”
“He’s with Katniss again.”
“fun.” He looked at me.”
“You do know Finnick s dating Katniss now right.”
“Um…...ok. what is he doing with her.”
“I don’t know they just think there good for each other.”
“That’s not like Katniss.”
“I think its Peeta…he might be clingy. He has been down lately.” I blink. Then look over at Interlanechen she was drinking.”
“Drunk women for a drunk man.” They both stare at me. Then I slowly get up and go into the kitchen.
“Peeta left some রুটি for you.” Then I see the basket of রুটি I go over there and eat it. They both come in.
“So are আপনি ok.” Haymitch said. I nod. Interlanechen was on her সেকেন্ড bottle.
“She drinks allot.”
“Yea, she’s fine.” I stare at them both while I ate.
“you guys were made for each other.” They both make a grunting noise.
“I’m going to see Peeta.” Once I head out they followed me they were talking about something.
Chapter 3
The accident
The walk was long to Peeta house like always. When I got to what use to be District 12. Interlanechen go to Haymitch’s house. I go to Peeta’s. I knock on the door.
“hello.” He said.
“Peeta.” I ব্যক্ত happy to see him. The headache had gone away.
“yes.” He said.”
“I want to talk to আপনি about something.” He nods and invites me in.
“You know I’m your friend right and as I can talk to you, আপনি can talk to me.” He looked at me and nodded.
“So do আপনি know why Finnick and Katniss are dating?” He shook his head. “Are আপনি ok?” He shook his head.
“She dating him because she hates me now I try to protect her but she is too independent. So she asked him so she could leave me alone it really hurts… I’ve been in প্রণয় with her since I met her.” I get up and hug him. He hugs me back.
“She’ll turn around she needs you.”
“No she doesn’t and that’s the thing she doesn’t need me অথবা Finnick so why did she go off with him.”
“Maybe they actually like each other.”
“That not likes Katniss.” I shrug.”
“Don’t bellow over it mice.”
“Did আপনি just call me mice?”
“yes.” I said. That makes him smile.
“come on lets go see Cinna bet he misses you.”
“since when.”
“I don’t know lets go.” So we take a train all the way down to the capitol then on our way to see Cinna we here this scream. I follow it then see Katniss running when she reached us she was panting.
“Eliza go home.”
“The capitol such a nice place.” I said.
“you need to go home.”
“where is my dad.”
“go প্রথমপাতা now!” I stare at her my headache was back and I felt this sinking feeling in my heart. I ran the way Katniss came and I few blocks down there was a crowd. I walk slowly to the crowd and Katniss and Peeta were yelling my name. when I make my way through the crowd. I see a sight I could never forget. Something that would scare me for the rest of my life it was my dad lying on the ground.
“Daddy!” I scream tears running down my face. But Peeta ad Katniss held me back I just yelled Daddy over and over again. I finally break from their grasp.
“Daddy.” I ব্যক্ত as I held him in my arms like he did when I was upset. “Daddy আপনি can’t go. I need you.” He groaned. I could see in his sea green eyes that he was dying.
“Eliza I প্রণয় you, আপনি are the best Daughter a man could have.”
“I don’t hate you.” I scream.
“I know.”
“Please don’t leave me.”
“I প্রণয় আপনি Eliza.” He said.
“Daddy!” I scream. The পরবর্তি thing I knew he stopped breathing. I hold him close to my face and whisper.
“tell mommy I প্রণয় her.” then Peeta takes my hand and walks me away from the scene. To Cinna house.
Chapter 4
The incident
At Cinna’s house they gave me tea. And wrapped me in a blanket. I cried out all my tears. Everyone was there. Just like when I was dying. There where there for me.
“So what happened.” Haymitch asked.
“Someone called his name and he went to go see who the পরবর্তি thing I knew he fell off a building.” I cried out a little sob. Peeta patted my back.
“Daddy.” I said. I মোড়ানো my arms around Peeta and cry into him.
“I didn’t know he was suicidal.” Someone said.
“Don’t say that around her.” Peeta ব্যক্ত I just kept crying
“Why did he want to leave me?”
“He didn’t.” Peeta said.
“Everyone hates me.” I sobbed.
“That’s not true everyone here loves you.” Peeta ব্যক্ত sniffled.
“For real’s.” I ask. He nods.
“Are আপনি going to be ok?” Haymitch asked me. I shrug.
“Define ok.”
“Not going to kill yourself.” Peeta said. I looked up from his shoulder and looked at him.
“Why shouldn’t I, I would have to deal with this god awful pain.” Peeta sighs.
“Look your precious everyone here loves আপনি no one here want আপনি to go.” I coughed and wailed. Peeta rubbed my back.
“I don’t see why someone was calling him from a roof top.” Haymitch ব্যক্ত everyone stared at him when they see Interlanchen on his lap drinking. “What she’s a girl.”
“Since when did আপনি have a significant other Haymitch.” Effie said.
“Since Tuesday specially. He ব্যক্ত sounding annoyed. I lift my head again and সরানো away from Peeta.
“what’s wrong.”
“My life.” I responded. He groaned and ব্যক্ত something. “What was that.” He shook his head.” I blink. I call him a cuss word and he shouted.
“I’m not your being that a big one too.” I stare at him he was calling me that. I’m not.
“how am I that.”
“you cry over little things and আপনি always think it was about you.” That hurt. But I knew Peeta would not hurt me like this.
“Peeta what’s wrong.” He looked at me, then stood up and said
“nothing is wrong why don’t আপনি keep crying like আপনি always do. I look at him and blink which made a tears spill. He scoffed and walked into the kitchen.. Haymitch walked over and started to Sympathize me. Scoot away from him.
“no, I don’t need closer.” He stared at me.
“alright.”’ I wiped away my tears. And stood up.
“are আপনি alright?” Interlanechen asked
“I’m just done, done with the lying, the pain and the suffering. No scratch that I don’t care f people try and hurt me, I won’t let them and I’m damn sick and tired of their sympathy. My mother never had it, she didn’t need it and I sure as hell don’t need it.”
“but sweetheart…” Haymitch began but I cut him off দ্বারা yelling a plethora of cuss words at him. Then I walk into the রান্নাঘর where Peeta was. When I enter I see Peeta sitting in a chair at the table.
“What are আপনি winning about this time.” H ব্যক্ত I knew something was wrong with Peeta.
“goddamn Peeta I know something is wrong I just don’t know what.” He just looks at me.
“I don’t like the fact that when Finnick died Katniss was the only one there.
“You assume Katniss killed my father?”
“No” he stood up and started to vacillate. “I’m saying it wont be long until stare to accuse her the crim.” I look at him and watch him pace for a long time. Then I said.
“I know she didn’t do it.”
“What how do আপনি know, আপনি weren’t there.”
“But I know Katniss she wouldn’t kill someone she knew.” There was silent’s “face Fact Peeta, if Katniss actually liked my dad there’s no way she killed him.”
“But that’s the thing they never actually got along. I stood up and swiftly walked back into Cinna’s living room.
“Katniss.”
“Yea.”
“Why where আপনি dating my dad in the first place.” Peeta stood behind me. She looked at me then Peeta then back at me.
“who told আপনি we where dating?” I point to Haymitch who took a drink. Katniss sighed.
“no, he wanted to talk to get to know me better.”
“why.” I ask
“he ব্যক্ত that Pash threaten আপনি and he knew he was going to come for him just didn’t know when. So he told me to take custody of you.” I blinked in confusetion.
“Why you?” Peeta asked.
“Said he kind of trusted me.”
“But your Crapness.”
“Please don’t call me that.” Sh said.
“But I have to now.”
“So what আপনি like her mom now.”
“I rather not look at it like that.” I shrug and go into the রান্নাঘর and make a মধুভাষী ব্যক্তি then go back into the living room. Everyone stares at me
“What?”
“your weird.” Katniss said
“What the hell did I do?”
“So you’re not upset about your dad?” Haymitch said
“It hurts.” But the only thing I can do is সরানো on.” Everyone stared at me. I yawned .
“I I want to go home.” I said.
“You can go প্রথমপাতা and pack আপনি things but আপনি have to live with me.” Katniss ব্যক্ত I sighed. I didn’t really care if I was living with Katniss অথবা not I missed my father. I never meant to be mad at him. I believed he truly loved me. I take the train back yo my house, well I should say my old house and packed my bags I was going to walk to Haymitches hous to get the rest of my stuff when Interlanechen came running up To me crying. I looked at her. She must be crazy drunk.
“what what’s wrong.” She hugged me and squeezed me slightly. “what is it!” I yelled she backed away.
“i…it…its…hay…ha…haymitch.” She stuttered.
“what about him calm down.” She started to take deep breaths and said.
“there was this girl. She came into the house slit Haymitch’s throat I was slit. I stayed hidden so she couldn’t find me. At first I thought it was আপনি but I knew it couldn’t be আপনি your like his daughter.”
“I ma technically yea.” She wiped আরো tears then I stopped dead in my tracks. “Haymitch is dead.” I could feel the tears burning my eyes. She nodded slowly I drop my stuff and run to Haymitches house. When we got there Warkeepers where taking out his body. Warkeepers are like the Peace keepers but they actually keep the peace. I just stood there I’m not going to cry I’m going to stay strong I can get through this All. by. Myself.
“who could of done this.” Peeta said.
“two kills in one day.” Cinna said. Then I knew who killed my dad I knew who killed Haymitch and I was going to kill her,
“Pash.” I ব্যক্ত softly.
“What.” Peeta said. Then I stormed out of the house and took a train back into the capitol
Chapter 5
The murderer
Once was in the Capitol. I stood there in the middle of it. People passing just stared at me. I walked to where found my daddy’s body at and looked up at the building which he fell from. Then I enter it. I climb all the way শীর্ষ and open the door to the roof. And there I see her standing in a tight purple dress looking over the edge she. Spun around when she saw me.
“jump. Go on jump I know you’re the one who wants to ruin my life go on jump.”
“I’m sorry I’m not a freak like you.” I blinked in shock at her.
“I’m no freak, why did আপনি kill them.”
“to torture আপনি of course আপনি ruined my life so I’m going to ruin yours.”
“go ahead and try..I’ll still be here.” She stared at me and smiled a smirk sly then said.
“when আপনি have nothing left আপনি will do two things kill yourself অথবা come and find me. And then I will kill you.”
“You’re the freak bozo.” I said. She frowned at me. Then turned around. I look up at the sky.
“Mommy daddy please help me find the strength to survive.” I ব্যক্ত a rain drop him my cheek. I walked back প্রথমপাতা with my head held high but tears mixing in with the rain.
Chapter six.
The 30 মিনিট
After the train ride I walked friskily back to Katniss’s house. Where prim was crying. I ran up to her.
“Prim what’s the matter.” Then Katniss Cinna and Peeta al ran in.
“Prim stay away room her she is dangerous.” Katniss said. She moved Prim from me to her arms.
“What’s going on.” I said
“I want আপনি out of this house I want আপনি out of Panem go just go!” Katniss yelled at me.
“What why.”
“Like আপনি have no idea.” Peeta said.
“Don’t.” I ব্যক্ত
“I didn’t want to believe the rumors but it looks like I have no choice.” Peeta continued.
“What I was only gone for 30 মিনিট to talk to Pash I know she did all of this.” There was a huge silent’s.
‘but if আপনি where talking to her that means she didn’t kill everyone.” Katniss said.
“only Haymitch and my dad re dead not everyone.” Cinna shook his head.
“No, Eliza everyone is dead.” Look at him.
“Everyone in Panem.” Katniss shook her head.
“Just every one we know.” I shake my head and go outside I just notice that everywhere has been avoided since the Russian attack. Everywhere but the capitol. Then it hit me I knew who. Then there was a hand on my shoulder and everyone from inside came out side.
“no!” Katniss screamed.
“take a step she dies.” The voice sounded familiar. There was a loud bang and then Prim fell forward. And lied down in a pool of blood.”
“Prim!” Katniss screamed.
“I’ve been trying to get this Rebellion for years. Now its time to pay we need to go back to the way things where. Then there was a bright light.
After what seemed lke an eternity I opened my eyes. ‘m alive again. This time wanted to be alive. I look around me and all I see are dead people. Everyone was dead. Until I see movement. It looked like Katniss
“thank the heaven’s your ok.” I said. There was a groan. An I look over Cinna was dusting himself off and Peeta was just sitting up.
“are আপনি guys all ok?” there where mumbles of what I assume where yeses. Peeta holds me in his arms. Then there was an announcer saying welcome to the Annual 76th hunger games! Katniss yells something I did not understand. Then the announcer said.
“this বছর there are only three tributes.” I was taken from the rest of the group into a room where I was showered down. I never wanted to be in on of theses “games” as they call it I’ve seen what it does to people. Makes them…not themselves. When they where done papering they fit me in a suit that was black but had lines of purple ohm the sleeves going up and down. I sigh and when I open my eyes. I was on a pedestal. I have to kill the ones love. I needed উত্তর now I overheard that they took away Katniss’s authority so she was no longer president. There was this count down and my হৃদয় started to pound. He had killed the ones I love. I Was told he even found Pash and killed her. When the countdown got to one then there was a gong everyone just stood there. Then Peeta grabs a gun and shoots himself I her Katniss screamed and ran over to Peeta and held him n her arms. After awhile of her screaming. She slowly and shakily picked up the gun and then bam. She was out. I didn’t watch her commit suicide like I did with Peeta but I hears a thump. I assume that was Cinna. The পরবর্তি thing I knew I was being escorted out of there দ্বারা a hovercraft. I never wanted to be this way. Bt I have উত্তর and they are that only thing I can do is সরানো on. I look around and see a clock it’s been 30 মিনিট since I found out everyone I loved was dead,
They ব্যক্ত they would die for me and they did
Mama papa forgive me
Out of sight, out of life, out of time to decide
Can I run, can I hide, for the rest of my life
Can I fly, do I stay, I could lose, I could fail
And the moment it takes, to make plans, অথবা mistakes
The sun sets, in the sky, and its shaped like your eyes
Hide the shame ,feeling like, casting shame, why me
Can I fly, do I stay, I could lose, I could fail
Either way options change, chances fail, dreams do too
30 মিনিট to make up my mind
30 মিনিট to alter my life
30 মিনিট to save our lives
30 মিনিট to finally decide
30 মিনিট whisper your name
30minutes to shoulder the blame
30 মিনিট of bliss 30 lies
30 মিনিট to finally decide
To decide
The End
The miracle
It was over I only wanted my father and I could no longer have him. Yet again he was seduced দ্বারা some girl. I never got what she met my “she was taking him away from me.” But I knew it met that I was going to be alone. Once again. That is a truth I could not handle I’ve been alone most of my life I didn’t want to be anymore. I just got my father back and no he is leaving me for some broad. I didn’t want to face the facts so I jumped of the roof of my house. The pain was excruciating but only lasted for a second. I sure thought I was dead when I open my eyes and I saw my mother’s face.
“Mommy what are আপনি doing here.” She didn’t say anything but hummed me Mythilpylaneia. I couldn’t help but feel empty inside. There was something missing and I didn’t know what it could be. “Mommy were am I?” she stopped গান গাওয়া and looked at me. “am I in heaven.”
“Every moment I see your face its heaven.” She said. I smile then things got blurry. I tried to blink the blurriness away.
“Mommy daddy and I প্রণয় আপনি ever so much there’s not a দিন that goes দ্বারা that we don’t think of আপনি we miss so much.”
“I know.” She ব্যক্ত she was so blurry I kept blinking. But she kept turning blurrier. I cried out.
“Mommy!” then there was a ceiling and a ceiling অনুরাগী damn hate ceiling fans. There were so tacky. I groan and then I hear my name. then again but a different voice then I remember Peeta Haymitch all the ones I প্রণয় then Effie and I swear I almost puked in my mouth. Then I remember my daddy I was going to shoot up and yell his name but then I see a face. It was Pash. Her words stuck in my head.
“who is the one person আপনি প্রণয় the most. Is it your father? Well that’s too bad, I’m taking him from you. Yes I am. He told me that he doesn’t want you, I’m really not lying I wish I was, he says he want আপনি gone and আপনি ruined his life. he called আপনি a mess up and a mistake he called আপনি a broken condom.” And she was right my daddy didn’t প্রণয় me then I screamed out the one person I knew who will comport me. I sit up and scream.
“Haymitch!”
“what?” he said. I point to my daddy. Then I see a blurry figure that looked like Haymitch. “what about him?”
“he doesn’t প্রণয় me.” Haymitch moved. And I see Pash sitting on his lap. I scream out in pain. Not only physical but emotional.
“What did আপনি do now?” Haymitch said.
“What I don’t know Eliza I প্রণয় you.” I cuss at him.
“I hate আপনি why is it that your intention is to hurt me!” I said
“It’s not!” He ব্যক্ত I feel arms around me but they weren’t Haymitch’s I assumed there where Peeta’s . I started to shake.
“calm down.” Peeta said.”Explain yourself.”
“I don’t need to Extrapolate he hates me.” I said.
“I never ব্যক্ত that!” he said.
“you told Pash!” I ব্যক্ত sobbing.
“Pash is a immature jealous hag from hell she is so jealous she will tell everyone on Panem আপনি fell in প্রণয় with your dad which I know is a lie Peeta knows it’s a damn lie and anyone who knows আপনি know it’s a lie. Pash you’re a …”
“you told everyone my daughter wanted a intimate relationship with me.” My daddy ব্যক্ত to Pash interrupting Haymitch. Everyone stared at her, I cussed.
“I প্রণয় my daddy I hate আপনি all.” I try to get up but I fell over.
“Leg is broken.” Someone said.
“Kill me!” I yell.
“She is a suicidal freak.” Pash said.
“Did আপনি say that?” Finnick yelled.
“no why would I.” there was a commotion in the room then Effie said.
“You told me.”
“And me!” Peeta ব্যক্ত helping me back up. I sit up my back against the bottom of the couch.
“out I want আপনি out of my house I want আপনি out of my life and my daughter’s life and go kill yourself you’re the damn freak here.” She just stared at him her eyes began to water. She spun and left. I saw someone walked over to me. I think it was my daddy.
“Go away!”
“Your seriously not believing her are you?” I just stared at him. He then walks out.
“I really hate my life it’s been this way since was born can I not be happy.”
“You can if আপনি choose to.” Haymitch ব্যক্ত I look at him.
“says drunken man.”
“I choose to be the way I am.” I look at him. “Don’t let what Pash ব্যক্ত get আপনি down it wasn’t true.”
“But what if it is. What if no one loves me and your all putting on a act.”
“Well I know I’m not.” Haymitch said.
“me too.” Peeta says.
“But my daddy he…” Haymitch interrupts me.
“ loves আপনি ok.” I sat on the পালঙ্ক and sighed.
“I really wish I would of died.” I said. Haymitch rubs my hair.
“shh no আপনি don’t just lay down and rest Miss. Everdeen ব্যক্ত it will take up to six weeks for আপনি too heel. If আপনি need anything your father will be here so don’t be all snooty and ignore him, if আপনি need him he’s here.”
“Are my trials and tribulations done yet I’m too fragile.”
“If আপনি where too fragile আপনি would of been dead দ্বারা now from other things.” Peeta ব্যক্ত smiling at me giving me a piece of bread. I blink.
“yea but… I feel empty I don’t want to live with this emptiness.” Peeta sat down পরবর্তি to me. And Haymitch fixed himself another drink.
“That emptiness আপনি feel.” He looked over at Haymitch. “it because আপনি have so much potential and আপনি have yet to releases it, once আপনি done what you’re here on this earth for, you’ll feel whole.” I look at him and blink away my tears and Haymitch sits পরবর্তি to me smelling like Whiskey like always. “do আপনি feel whole?” I ask Peeta but Haymitch answers.
“I only feel whole when your around and নিরাপদ and well and not crying.” I look over at Haymitch. Take his drink and guzzle it down I choke and cough.
“What the hell is wrong with you!” Haymitch said. “don’t drink that ever!” he got up and went into the রান্নাঘর to make another drink. Still coughing Peeta pats my back. Haymitch sits down holding the drink in the hand furthest from me. I started to calm down I say.
“What is that! Its gross how do আপনি drink that! How are আপনি not dead!”
“That’s not going to concern আপনি because আপনি are never going to drink again.” Then Finnick Comes Back in. Haymitch looks at him and stands up.
“I don’t want to see আপনি go for a downward spiral. You’re a great strong girl who is very smart and talented don’t waste it.” Then he leaves. Peeta stands up and says.
“To answer your question.” He looked down at the ground swallowed hard and continued. “yes I do feel whole.” He smiled and left. I blinked and laid down.
“Do আপনি want anything?” my dad asked.
“Yea আপনি gone.
“Look I প্রণয় you…” I interrupted him.
“You just acting.”
“I’m just being your father.” I stare at him.
“I প্রণয় আপনি and there s nothing আপনি can do about it if আপনি don’t believe me then too bad I know I প্রণয় আপনি everyone else knows I প্রণয় আপনি and really as long as I know I’m ok with it.” Then he walks upstairs. I sat there thinking about what he said. I had a chose to make trust him and risk getting hurt and maybe being loved, অথবা hate him for possibly lying to me. Then that’s when the front door opened. I look over and see Pash. I blinked. She walked furiously to me.
“listen to me আপনি made me lose everything I loved. This is all your fault punk and you’re going to pay.” She looked up the stairs to what I assume was to make sure my Daddy couldn’t hear her. “if I can’t have Finnick neither can you, no one can.” Then it sounded like my daddy was coming down stairs so she hurried out the door but before shutting the door behind her she turned around and smirked.
Chapter 2
The girl(s)
Over the পরবর্তি six weeks I had my dad wait on my hand and foot. Well mostly leg but still. It took forever for me to be able to walk again. Katniss and Prim helped me with my therapy. Prim really nice she is one of my best friends. When I get প্রথমপাতা I go in the back and make I drink. I see Haymitch do it all the time. A little this a little that. When I was done I plug my nose and gulp it done. I squeeze my face because of the horrible taste. And take a আসন in the living room. Daddy was out with Katniss অথবা as he would say Crapness doing ‘adult stuff’ as he would say but I totally know what they’re doing. I bet Panem is under attack and there off to save it অথবা whatever. What so special about Panem anyway it sucks here. I keep drinking and I start to read the rest of Awaken. After a few hours of পাঠ করা and drinking I start to feel light headed. I try to stand up but it felt weird. Then there was a knock at the door. I wobble over there. It was Haymitch. I try to talk but I had no idea what came out of my mouth.
“Uh…ok….you want your things from my house” good I could understand him. I fall over and laugh. Haymitch Picks me up and says.
“have আপনি been drinking?” I made a little signature with my thumb and pointer finger.”
“Holly hell!” I laugh.
“Hell…. Not…Oily.” he looks at me.
“we are going to talk to your dad.” I shake my head. “yes we are আপনি can’t drink I don’t want আপনি to do this to yourself.” I blink then Katniss walks in with my dad. Haymitch stares at him. They both stare back.
“What up.” He said.
“She’s drunk.” He ব্যক্ত my daddy looks at me.
“Eliza!” I nod. “Are আপনি drunk.” I tilt my head from side to side then fall over. I hear Katniss giggle. “Crapness! Stop laughing at my daughter.” I look at her she was holding in her laugh.
“Ok Fin Paste.” She said. He helps me up and sits me on the coach at this point the room was spinning I felt nauseas. Then the পরবর্তি thing I know leaned over and threw up.
“Are আপনি kidding me! This দিন just keeps getting worse! I just got these shoes!” I hear Haymitch yelled but I just lay and down and fell asleep.
When I wake up. I have a pounding headache I sit up and run to the sink in the kitchen. Throw up in the sink. Then I head back to the coach and fall asleep. When I wake up again I hear voices.
“Are আপনি going to be ok.”
“As long she is ok I will be.” That sounded like Haymitch.
“Haymitch?” I ব্যক্ত weakly.
“yea.” I still had a headache but t calmed own. Then there was a girl who looked about the same size as me 5 ft and 11 in but 6 centimeters taller. She had long brown hair big golden brown eyes. And was wearing a bright কমলা silk dress. She had smooth mocha skin. She stood পরবর্তি to Haymitch.
“You feeling alright.” Haymitch said.
“Yea I’m ok my head hurts.” I look over to the girl.
“Hi I’m Interlanechen.” She said. I smile at her.
“Haymitch আপনি need a girlfriend still.” I pointed at her. “She should be your girlfriend.” They stare at me.
“She is my girlfriend but that’s not important what is that your drinking.”
“So she isn’t important to you?” I say to him.”
“She is she know she is…”
“Awe Haymitch is in wuv.”
“Look your too young to be drinking.”
“Where is my dad.”
“He’s with Katniss again.”
“fun.” He looked at me.”
“You do know Finnick s dating Katniss now right.”
“Um…...ok. what is he doing with her.”
“I don’t know they just think there good for each other.”
“That’s not like Katniss.”
“I think its Peeta…he might be clingy. He has been down lately.” I blink. Then look over at Interlanechen she was drinking.”
“Drunk women for a drunk man.” They both stare at me. Then I slowly get up and go into the kitchen.
“Peeta left some রুটি for you.” Then I see the basket of রুটি I go over there and eat it. They both come in.
“So are আপনি ok.” Haymitch said. I nod. Interlanechen was on her সেকেন্ড bottle.
“She drinks allot.”
“Yea, she’s fine.” I stare at them both while I ate.
“you guys were made for each other.” They both make a grunting noise.
“I’m going to see Peeta.” Once I head out they followed me they were talking about something.
Chapter 3
The accident
The walk was long to Peeta house like always. When I got to what use to be District 12. Interlanechen go to Haymitch’s house. I go to Peeta’s. I knock on the door.
“hello.” He said.
“Peeta.” I ব্যক্ত happy to see him. The headache had gone away.
“yes.” He said.”
“I want to talk to আপনি about something.” He nods and invites me in.
“You know I’m your friend right and as I can talk to you, আপনি can talk to me.” He looked at me and nodded.
“So do আপনি know why Finnick and Katniss are dating?” He shook his head. “Are আপনি ok?” He shook his head.
“She dating him because she hates me now I try to protect her but she is too independent. So she asked him so she could leave me alone it really hurts… I’ve been in প্রণয় with her since I met her.” I get up and hug him. He hugs me back.
“She’ll turn around she needs you.”
“No she doesn’t and that’s the thing she doesn’t need me অথবা Finnick so why did she go off with him.”
“Maybe they actually like each other.”
“That not likes Katniss.” I shrug.”
“Don’t bellow over it mice.”
“Did আপনি just call me mice?”
“yes.” I said. That makes him smile.
“come on lets go see Cinna bet he misses you.”
“since when.”
“I don’t know lets go.” So we take a train all the way down to the capitol then on our way to see Cinna we here this scream. I follow it then see Katniss running when she reached us she was panting.
“Eliza go home.”
“The capitol such a nice place.” I said.
“you need to go home.”
“where is my dad.”
“go প্রথমপাতা now!” I stare at her my headache was back and I felt this sinking feeling in my heart. I ran the way Katniss came and I few blocks down there was a crowd. I walk slowly to the crowd and Katniss and Peeta were yelling my name. when I make my way through the crowd. I see a sight I could never forget. Something that would scare me for the rest of my life it was my dad lying on the ground.
“Daddy!” I scream tears running down my face. But Peeta ad Katniss held me back I just yelled Daddy over and over again. I finally break from their grasp.
“Daddy.” I ব্যক্ত as I held him in my arms like he did when I was upset. “Daddy আপনি can’t go. I need you.” He groaned. I could see in his sea green eyes that he was dying.
“Eliza I প্রণয় you, আপনি are the best Daughter a man could have.”
“I don’t hate you.” I scream.
“I know.”
“Please don’t leave me.”
“I প্রণয় আপনি Eliza.” He said.
“Daddy!” I scream. The পরবর্তি thing I knew he stopped breathing. I hold him close to my face and whisper.
“tell mommy I প্রণয় her.” then Peeta takes my hand and walks me away from the scene. To Cinna house.
Chapter 4
The incident
At Cinna’s house they gave me tea. And wrapped me in a blanket. I cried out all my tears. Everyone was there. Just like when I was dying. There where there for me.
“So what happened.” Haymitch asked.
“Someone called his name and he went to go see who the পরবর্তি thing I knew he fell off a building.” I cried out a little sob. Peeta patted my back.
“Daddy.” I said. I মোড়ানো my arms around Peeta and cry into him.
“I didn’t know he was suicidal.” Someone said.
“Don’t say that around her.” Peeta ব্যক্ত I just kept crying
“Why did he want to leave me?”
“He didn’t.” Peeta said.
“Everyone hates me.” I sobbed.
“That’s not true everyone here loves you.” Peeta ব্যক্ত sniffled.
“For real’s.” I ask. He nods.
“Are আপনি going to be ok?” Haymitch asked me. I shrug.
“Define ok.”
“Not going to kill yourself.” Peeta said. I looked up from his shoulder and looked at him.
“Why shouldn’t I, I would have to deal with this god awful pain.” Peeta sighs.
“Look your precious everyone here loves আপনি no one here want আপনি to go.” I coughed and wailed. Peeta rubbed my back.
“I don’t see why someone was calling him from a roof top.” Haymitch ব্যক্ত everyone stared at him when they see Interlanchen on his lap drinking. “What she’s a girl.”
“Since when did আপনি have a significant other Haymitch.” Effie said.
“Since Tuesday specially. He ব্যক্ত sounding annoyed. I lift my head again and সরানো away from Peeta.
“what’s wrong.”
“My life.” I responded. He groaned and ব্যক্ত something. “What was that.” He shook his head.” I blink. I call him a cuss word and he shouted.
“I’m not your being that a big one too.” I stare at him he was calling me that. I’m not.
“how am I that.”
“you cry over little things and আপনি always think it was about you.” That hurt. But I knew Peeta would not hurt me like this.
“Peeta what’s wrong.” He looked at me, then stood up and said
“nothing is wrong why don’t আপনি keep crying like আপনি always do. I look at him and blink which made a tears spill. He scoffed and walked into the kitchen.. Haymitch walked over and started to Sympathize me. Scoot away from him.
“no, I don’t need closer.” He stared at me.
“alright.”’ I wiped away my tears. And stood up.
“are আপনি alright?” Interlanechen asked
“I’m just done, done with the lying, the pain and the suffering. No scratch that I don’t care f people try and hurt me, I won’t let them and I’m damn sick and tired of their sympathy. My mother never had it, she didn’t need it and I sure as hell don’t need it.”
“but sweetheart…” Haymitch began but I cut him off দ্বারা yelling a plethora of cuss words at him. Then I walk into the রান্নাঘর where Peeta was. When I enter I see Peeta sitting in a chair at the table.
“What are আপনি winning about this time.” H ব্যক্ত I knew something was wrong with Peeta.
“goddamn Peeta I know something is wrong I just don’t know what.” He just looks at me.
“I don’t like the fact that when Finnick died Katniss was the only one there.
“You assume Katniss killed my father?”
“No” he stood up and started to vacillate. “I’m saying it wont be long until stare to accuse her the crim.” I look at him and watch him pace for a long time. Then I said.
“I know she didn’t do it.”
“What how do আপনি know, আপনি weren’t there.”
“But I know Katniss she wouldn’t kill someone she knew.” There was silent’s “face Fact Peeta, if Katniss actually liked my dad there’s no way she killed him.”
“But that’s the thing they never actually got along. I stood up and swiftly walked back into Cinna’s living room.
“Katniss.”
“Yea.”
“Why where আপনি dating my dad in the first place.” Peeta stood behind me. She looked at me then Peeta then back at me.
“who told আপনি we where dating?” I point to Haymitch who took a drink. Katniss sighed.
“no, he wanted to talk to get to know me better.”
“why.” I ask
“he ব্যক্ত that Pash threaten আপনি and he knew he was going to come for him just didn’t know when. So he told me to take custody of you.” I blinked in confusetion.
“Why you?” Peeta asked.
“Said he kind of trusted me.”
“But your Crapness.”
“Please don’t call me that.” Sh said.
“But I have to now.”
“So what আপনি like her mom now.”
“I rather not look at it like that.” I shrug and go into the রান্নাঘর and make a মধুভাষী ব্যক্তি then go back into the living room. Everyone stares at me
“What?”
“your weird.” Katniss said
“What the hell did I do?”
“So you’re not upset about your dad?” Haymitch said
“It hurts.” But the only thing I can do is সরানো on.” Everyone stared at me. I yawned .
“I I want to go home.” I said.
“You can go প্রথমপাতা and pack আপনি things but আপনি have to live with me.” Katniss ব্যক্ত I sighed. I didn’t really care if I was living with Katniss অথবা not I missed my father. I never meant to be mad at him. I believed he truly loved me. I take the train back yo my house, well I should say my old house and packed my bags I was going to walk to Haymitches hous to get the rest of my stuff when Interlanechen came running up To me crying. I looked at her. She must be crazy drunk.
“what what’s wrong.” She hugged me and squeezed me slightly. “what is it!” I yelled she backed away.
“i…it…its…hay…ha…haymitch.” She stuttered.
“what about him calm down.” She started to take deep breaths and said.
“there was this girl. She came into the house slit Haymitch’s throat I was slit. I stayed hidden so she couldn’t find me. At first I thought it was আপনি but I knew it couldn’t be আপনি your like his daughter.”
“I ma technically yea.” She wiped আরো tears then I stopped dead in my tracks. “Haymitch is dead.” I could feel the tears burning my eyes. She nodded slowly I drop my stuff and run to Haymitches house. When we got there Warkeepers where taking out his body. Warkeepers are like the Peace keepers but they actually keep the peace. I just stood there I’m not going to cry I’m going to stay strong I can get through this All. by. Myself.
“who could of done this.” Peeta said.
“two kills in one day.” Cinna said. Then I knew who killed my dad I knew who killed Haymitch and I was going to kill her,
“Pash.” I ব্যক্ত softly.
“What.” Peeta said. Then I stormed out of the house and took a train back into the capitol
Chapter 5
The murderer
Once was in the Capitol. I stood there in the middle of it. People passing just stared at me. I walked to where found my daddy’s body at and looked up at the building which he fell from. Then I enter it. I climb all the way শীর্ষ and open the door to the roof. And there I see her standing in a tight purple dress looking over the edge she. Spun around when she saw me.
“jump. Go on jump I know you’re the one who wants to ruin my life go on jump.”
“I’m sorry I’m not a freak like you.” I blinked in shock at her.
“I’m no freak, why did আপনি kill them.”
“to torture আপনি of course আপনি ruined my life so I’m going to ruin yours.”
“go ahead and try..I’ll still be here.” She stared at me and smiled a smirk sly then said.
“when আপনি have nothing left আপনি will do two things kill yourself অথবা come and find me. And then I will kill you.”
“You’re the freak bozo.” I said. She frowned at me. Then turned around. I look up at the sky.
“Mommy daddy please help me find the strength to survive.” I ব্যক্ত a rain drop him my cheek. I walked back প্রথমপাতা with my head held high but tears mixing in with the rain.
Chapter six.
The 30 মিনিট
After the train ride I walked friskily back to Katniss’s house. Where prim was crying. I ran up to her.
“Prim what’s the matter.” Then Katniss Cinna and Peeta al ran in.
“Prim stay away room her she is dangerous.” Katniss said. She moved Prim from me to her arms.
“What’s going on.” I said
“I want আপনি out of this house I want আপনি out of Panem go just go!” Katniss yelled at me.
“What why.”
“Like আপনি have no idea.” Peeta said.
“Don’t.” I ব্যক্ত
“I didn’t want to believe the rumors but it looks like I have no choice.” Peeta continued.
“What I was only gone for 30 মিনিট to talk to Pash I know she did all of this.” There was a huge silent’s.
‘but if আপনি where talking to her that means she didn’t kill everyone.” Katniss said.
“only Haymitch and my dad re dead not everyone.” Cinna shook his head.
“No, Eliza everyone is dead.” Look at him.
“Everyone in Panem.” Katniss shook her head.
“Just every one we know.” I shake my head and go outside I just notice that everywhere has been avoided since the Russian attack. Everywhere but the capitol. Then it hit me I knew who. Then there was a hand on my shoulder and everyone from inside came out side.
“no!” Katniss screamed.
“take a step she dies.” The voice sounded familiar. There was a loud bang and then Prim fell forward. And lied down in a pool of blood.”
“Prim!” Katniss screamed.
“I’ve been trying to get this Rebellion for years. Now its time to pay we need to go back to the way things where. Then there was a bright light.
After what seemed lke an eternity I opened my eyes. ‘m alive again. This time wanted to be alive. I look around me and all I see are dead people. Everyone was dead. Until I see movement. It looked like Katniss
“thank the heaven’s your ok.” I said. There was a groan. An I look over Cinna was dusting himself off and Peeta was just sitting up.
“are আপনি guys all ok?” there where mumbles of what I assume where yeses. Peeta holds me in his arms. Then there was an announcer saying welcome to the Annual 76th hunger games! Katniss yells something I did not understand. Then the announcer said.
“this বছর there are only three tributes.” I was taken from the rest of the group into a room where I was showered down. I never wanted to be in on of theses “games” as they call it I’ve seen what it does to people. Makes them…not themselves. When they where done papering they fit me in a suit that was black but had lines of purple ohm the sleeves going up and down. I sigh and when I open my eyes. I was on a pedestal. I have to kill the ones love. I needed উত্তর now I overheard that they took away Katniss’s authority so she was no longer president. There was this count down and my হৃদয় started to pound. He had killed the ones I love. I Was told he even found Pash and killed her. When the countdown got to one then there was a gong everyone just stood there. Then Peeta grabs a gun and shoots himself I her Katniss screamed and ran over to Peeta and held him n her arms. After awhile of her screaming. She slowly and shakily picked up the gun and then bam. She was out. I didn’t watch her commit suicide like I did with Peeta but I hears a thump. I assume that was Cinna. The পরবর্তি thing I knew I was being escorted out of there দ্বারা a hovercraft. I never wanted to be this way. Bt I have উত্তর and they are that only thing I can do is সরানো on. I look around and see a clock it’s been 30 মিনিট since I found out everyone I loved was dead,
They ব্যক্ত they would die for me and they did
Mama papa forgive me
Out of sight, out of life, out of time to decide
Can I run, can I hide, for the rest of my life
Can I fly, do I stay, I could lose, I could fail
And the moment it takes, to make plans, অথবা mistakes
The sun sets, in the sky, and its shaped like your eyes
Hide the shame ,feeling like, casting shame, why me
Can I fly, do I stay, I could lose, I could fail
Either way options change, chances fail, dreams do too
30 মিনিট to make up my mind
30 মিনিট to alter my life
30 মিনিট to save our lives
30 মিনিট to finally decide
30 মিনিট whisper your name
30minutes to shoulder the blame
30 মিনিট of bliss 30 lies
30 মিনিট to finally decide
To decide
The End
