CHAPTER ONE
Ugh. I groaned internally as I woke up. My head was pounding, and broken প্রতিমূর্তি were swirling around behind my eyelids. I had no idea where I was, অথবা how I had gotten here. I refused to open my eyes and find out, অথবা give any other sign that consciousness had found its way back to me again. Not knowing exactly where and when I was was a dangerous business for me. Very dangerous.
You see, the last thing I remember before the blackness hit, is that I was running…
My legs were on fire. They burned like nothing I had ever felt before as they pumped against the forest floor. They plunged me deeper and deeper into the thick trees. It kind of reminded me of a scene form Snow White I felt like the trees were reaching out to grab me and hold me there till I was caught. Ha. With my luck they probably were. I pulled in another shallow gasping breath as I turned and ran to the left. I had to get out of here!
The sirens were steadily growing louder. I felt as if they were blasting away in my ears. The world was no longer a নিরাপদ place for people like me; it hadn’t been for a long time now. So I lived a life on the run, rather than be killed.
As I ran, out of nowhere, a sharp pain struck me in the back of the head blinding me. Then the blackness hit pulling me down….
So here I was now, lying pathetically, who knows where? The only things I could do to find out that wouldn’t প্রদর্শনী signs of life were feel and listen. The low melodic hum and cackle of flames was close by. The heat seemed closest to my right side. It felt like I was lying on cold dirt. My arms were bound to my sides with a sticky, plasticy material, most likely duct tape. My legs were strung together in the same manner.
This all seemed very odd. If the no-longer-human, heartless, drones had captured me, I wouldn’t be outside. I knew exactly where I would be if it was them who had me.
I would be strapped to an operating table. Receiving my first “upgrades”. Being turned from someone to something.
The realization that I was outside, brought on a wave of premature hope. Hope that the reason I was outside was that I had been captured দ্বারা people like me. Real people. I tried to smother that hope as quickly as I could. The fact that I was outside didn’t necessarily mean the best. It could just mean humans that the drones kept around as slaves- rather than change them into one of them and have to treat them as an equal- had captured me. After all humans had to sleep, ergo they had to make camp in the process of bringing me in to the life snatchers.
So now, I was faced with a 50/50 chance. My life possibly could have come to and end, where my হৃদয় and feelings ceased to exist, and are replaced দ্বারা something আরো efficient, machinery. On the other hand I could have been captured দ্বারা humans who thought I was the latest and greatest, most human looking addition, to the evil robot family. In which case, I was also dead. On one hand, there was death, on the other, আরো death.
Great!
I chose option C, this involved living. That was the important part. The least likely, but still, being a sunshiny রশ্মি of life and goodness, it was still my favorite! Whose wouldn’t it be? How exactly I was supposed to achieve this though was beyond me.
Suddenly a sound that had escaped me before rudely interrupted my ponderings. The sound of soft breathing landed gently against my ears. I was instantly on edge. The breathing was extremely close. Close enough that I could feel it like feathers on my face. It was a sensation that had me torn between blinding hope and the blackest of despair and fear.
A rough hand was placed on my forehead. I guessed checking for body heat, a feature usually absent in clunking metal machines. The hand of my inspector (lets call him Steve shall we?) pulled away quickly with a soft gasp that was quickly muffled with a slight cough. Obviously the warmth, “Steve’s” hand had felt was not expected. All together, a good sign knowing that any metallic-spawn-of-the-devil’s- servant would have known I was human.
I didn’t realize “Steve” was leaving my side until I heard his breath slowly distancing, his feet didn’t make any kind of sound against the dirt as he left. I decided it was time to look upon my captor(s) and surroundings. I cracked open one of my eyelids with a deliberate slowness that would put snails to shame. My searching eye first revealed to me that it was still dark অথবা at least maybe dark again. It also noted that I was still in the woods. That could be a good thing; a girl like me was not beyond hiding behind অথবা up a tree.
My seeking green orb finally rested upon “Steve” who was in fact a guy. He looked to be about my age, which was either 16 অথবা 17. I had হারিয়ে গেছে count. I quickly closed my eye as his head of shaggy black hair turned in my direction.
I heard a shuffle of clothes, and again the breathing got closer. A sharp pain jolted into my side as it was kicked দ্বারা an unforgiving boot. “Get up! আপনি worthless piece of machinery. I know আপনি aren’t broken. I saw আপনি looking around” a rough furious voice commanded. “I want some answers.”
Oh, Crap! This would not go well. I pinched my face together then slowly, cautiously, opened my right eye to stare up at my captor. A fierce scowl distorted his features into an awful mask of pure loathing. His black eyes held the strangest tint of blue as they bored into mine. I let a sort of grimace/grin ক্রুশ my face as I opened my other eye.
“Hi, Um…about------ OWWW!” I screeched. He had kicked me again. “Would ya stop that? I’m trying to answer আপনি but you’re making it kinda hard with all the kicking and glaring. Geeze!” I huffed.
I watched as he took a step back form me and crossed his arms. His face gave nothing away but I could tell he was surprised দ্বারা how human my words sounded. If he hadn’t at least subconsciously realized I must not be a robo-brain, he wouldn’t have stepped back. He would still take a lot of convincing though.
“Thanks! Like I was about to say though Steve--” he cut me off.
“Who’s Steve?” He snarled.
“Uhh…” oops “Well uh what’s your name?” I asked.
“None of your business.” came his retort.
I let out a long sigh. This was going to take a while. “Well, then for the time being I bestow upon আপনি the name Steve. Use it well my young friend,” I ব্যক্ত holding back a chuckle. He just continued to glare unamused. Tough crowd. “Anyways… Steve, my name,” telling him this was a great leap of faith “is Del.” I snuck another peek at him and still his strange eyes told me nothing.
I shifted my gaze to the nearby fire. “I really hope আপনি know the risk I’m taking telling আপনি that.” I said. “I’m pretty convinced though that আপনি are still human,” I sucked in a deep breath ‘and I really, really need আপনি to believe the truth about me, I still am too!” The words rushed from my mouth, and I braced myself for a kick form the boot that I was surprised to find, did not come.
Ugh. I groaned internally as I woke up. My head was pounding, and broken প্রতিমূর্তি were swirling around behind my eyelids. I had no idea where I was, অথবা how I had gotten here. I refused to open my eyes and find out, অথবা give any other sign that consciousness had found its way back to me again. Not knowing exactly where and when I was was a dangerous business for me. Very dangerous.
You see, the last thing I remember before the blackness hit, is that I was running…
My legs were on fire. They burned like nothing I had ever felt before as they pumped against the forest floor. They plunged me deeper and deeper into the thick trees. It kind of reminded me of a scene form Snow White I felt like the trees were reaching out to grab me and hold me there till I was caught. Ha. With my luck they probably were. I pulled in another shallow gasping breath as I turned and ran to the left. I had to get out of here!
The sirens were steadily growing louder. I felt as if they were blasting away in my ears. The world was no longer a নিরাপদ place for people like me; it hadn’t been for a long time now. So I lived a life on the run, rather than be killed.
As I ran, out of nowhere, a sharp pain struck me in the back of the head blinding me. Then the blackness hit pulling me down….
So here I was now, lying pathetically, who knows where? The only things I could do to find out that wouldn’t প্রদর্শনী signs of life were feel and listen. The low melodic hum and cackle of flames was close by. The heat seemed closest to my right side. It felt like I was lying on cold dirt. My arms were bound to my sides with a sticky, plasticy material, most likely duct tape. My legs were strung together in the same manner.
This all seemed very odd. If the no-longer-human, heartless, drones had captured me, I wouldn’t be outside. I knew exactly where I would be if it was them who had me.
I would be strapped to an operating table. Receiving my first “upgrades”. Being turned from someone to something.
The realization that I was outside, brought on a wave of premature hope. Hope that the reason I was outside was that I had been captured দ্বারা people like me. Real people. I tried to smother that hope as quickly as I could. The fact that I was outside didn’t necessarily mean the best. It could just mean humans that the drones kept around as slaves- rather than change them into one of them and have to treat them as an equal- had captured me. After all humans had to sleep, ergo they had to make camp in the process of bringing me in to the life snatchers.
So now, I was faced with a 50/50 chance. My life possibly could have come to and end, where my হৃদয় and feelings ceased to exist, and are replaced দ্বারা something আরো efficient, machinery. On the other hand I could have been captured দ্বারা humans who thought I was the latest and greatest, most human looking addition, to the evil robot family. In which case, I was also dead. On one hand, there was death, on the other, আরো death.
Great!
I chose option C, this involved living. That was the important part. The least likely, but still, being a sunshiny রশ্মি of life and goodness, it was still my favorite! Whose wouldn’t it be? How exactly I was supposed to achieve this though was beyond me.
Suddenly a sound that had escaped me before rudely interrupted my ponderings. The sound of soft breathing landed gently against my ears. I was instantly on edge. The breathing was extremely close. Close enough that I could feel it like feathers on my face. It was a sensation that had me torn between blinding hope and the blackest of despair and fear.
A rough hand was placed on my forehead. I guessed checking for body heat, a feature usually absent in clunking metal machines. The hand of my inspector (lets call him Steve shall we?) pulled away quickly with a soft gasp that was quickly muffled with a slight cough. Obviously the warmth, “Steve’s” hand had felt was not expected. All together, a good sign knowing that any metallic-spawn-of-the-devil’s- servant would have known I was human.
I didn’t realize “Steve” was leaving my side until I heard his breath slowly distancing, his feet didn’t make any kind of sound against the dirt as he left. I decided it was time to look upon my captor(s) and surroundings. I cracked open one of my eyelids with a deliberate slowness that would put snails to shame. My searching eye first revealed to me that it was still dark অথবা at least maybe dark again. It also noted that I was still in the woods. That could be a good thing; a girl like me was not beyond hiding behind অথবা up a tree.
My seeking green orb finally rested upon “Steve” who was in fact a guy. He looked to be about my age, which was either 16 অথবা 17. I had হারিয়ে গেছে count. I quickly closed my eye as his head of shaggy black hair turned in my direction.
I heard a shuffle of clothes, and again the breathing got closer. A sharp pain jolted into my side as it was kicked দ্বারা an unforgiving boot. “Get up! আপনি worthless piece of machinery. I know আপনি aren’t broken. I saw আপনি looking around” a rough furious voice commanded. “I want some answers.”
Oh, Crap! This would not go well. I pinched my face together then slowly, cautiously, opened my right eye to stare up at my captor. A fierce scowl distorted his features into an awful mask of pure loathing. His black eyes held the strangest tint of blue as they bored into mine. I let a sort of grimace/grin ক্রুশ my face as I opened my other eye.
“Hi, Um…about------ OWWW!” I screeched. He had kicked me again. “Would ya stop that? I’m trying to answer আপনি but you’re making it kinda hard with all the kicking and glaring. Geeze!” I huffed.
I watched as he took a step back form me and crossed his arms. His face gave nothing away but I could tell he was surprised দ্বারা how human my words sounded. If he hadn’t at least subconsciously realized I must not be a robo-brain, he wouldn’t have stepped back. He would still take a lot of convincing though.
“Thanks! Like I was about to say though Steve--” he cut me off.
“Who’s Steve?” He snarled.
“Uhh…” oops “Well uh what’s your name?” I asked.
“None of your business.” came his retort.
I let out a long sigh. This was going to take a while. “Well, then for the time being I bestow upon আপনি the name Steve. Use it well my young friend,” I ব্যক্ত holding back a chuckle. He just continued to glare unamused. Tough crowd. “Anyways… Steve, my name,” telling him this was a great leap of faith “is Del.” I snuck another peek at him and still his strange eyes told me nothing.
I shifted my gaze to the nearby fire. “I really hope আপনি know the risk I’m taking telling আপনি that.” I said. “I’m pretty convinced though that আপনি are still human,” I sucked in a deep breath ‘and I really, really need আপনি to believe the truth about me, I still am too!” The words rushed from my mouth, and I braced myself for a kick form the boot that I was surprised to find, did not come.
Pride is a belief in myself (or someone else) that within me is something no one else has just like me. Pride can be a wonderful thing. My coaches are proud of me when I execute a সরানো perfectly. I am proud of my efforts when I get the right answer to a test question. However, pride can have a negative connotation. If I am prideful of my গান গাওয়া talent অথবা of my sports accomplishments, then I am not feeling the right kind of pride. Yes, I can be pleased with my abilities; but when I let it go to my head, then I am full of pride, just like Odysseus often was. দ্বারা believing that I am the only person with that talent, I inflate my ego. I believe myself to be “the best of the best,” and this can damage my relationships with others. They would not want my company if the only things I spoke of were my own accomplishments.
Meghan ran to the bus stop, where she saw Pompika. Thankfully Pompika looked at her politely and ব্যক্ত “You know I saw Reg but ya know, how she’s jus’ across the street, she seems a lil’ mad!” Meghan thought for a সেকেন্ড and thought ‘why lose Pompika?’ and said, “Geez I don’t know?” Now she wished she had told the truth, instead of lying. “Oh I wish ya did.” Pompika said. “Tsk-Tsk, bad grammar Pompi” ব্যক্ত Meghan. “Sorry, fine I wish আপনি did. There ya… আপনি go” “Hhhmmm, nice save.” Meghan said. “Hey look, Reg’s a comin’” ব্যক্ত Pompika. “Great that’s good… wait REG!!!” ব্যক্ত Meghan. “What?” ব্যক্ত Pompika. "nothing."
i am looking for the star, our star, but this time i am alone, আপনি aren't standing on the port পরবর্তি to me..
i feel i am হারিয়ে গেছে now, i can't find this star. আপনি remeber what did i descoverd that night? i found only one তারকা in the whole Portsaid's sky..
আপনি didn't belive that one তারকা is exist.. আপনি said: which star? the sky is felling of the stars!
i thought আপনি was kidding, i was very sure that there's one star.. yeah, sure as the blind is sure that there's nothing around him!
now i see what আপনি were talking about, i loved you, so i couldn't see anyone else but you..
আপনি was my heart's only love..
it was Portsaid's only star..
but আপনি .. আপনি didn't point to the same star, আপনি saw all the stars but mine..
now i am alone, seeing many stars, can't find my star, am i blind? অথবা ..was i blind?
twinkle, twinkle, my littel star..
Portsaid's only star, which one is you?
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*Portsaid is an Egyptian port.
i feel i am হারিয়ে গেছে now, i can't find this star. আপনি remeber what did i descoverd that night? i found only one তারকা in the whole Portsaid's sky..
আপনি didn't belive that one তারকা is exist.. আপনি said: which star? the sky is felling of the stars!
i thought আপনি was kidding, i was very sure that there's one star.. yeah, sure as the blind is sure that there's nothing around him!
now i see what আপনি were talking about, i loved you, so i couldn't see anyone else but you..
আপনি was my heart's only love..
it was Portsaid's only star..
but আপনি .. আপনি didn't point to the same star, আপনি saw all the stars but mine..
now i am alone, seeing many stars, can't find my star, am i blind? অথবা ..was i blind?
twinkle, twinkle, my littel star..
Portsaid's only star, which one is you?
_________________________________________________
*Portsaid is an Egyptian port.
আপনি hurt me,
Both externally,
And internally,
আপনি twist a pin into my heart,
And gather my flowing blood onto a cart.
আপনি think আপনি can hurt me,
Just because আপনি gave me money,
আপনি think আপনি can make my life like hell,
Just because I am the one who made আপনি fell.
I wish আপনি have never প্রদত্ত birth to me,
I wish I can expose what আপনি are for all to see.
I hate you,
And I hate আপনি to the heart's core,
I want আপনি to hear my vengeful call.
I respect আপনি because I must,
Yet আপনি blame me for not giving আপনি my trust.
How can I love, অথবা trust, a person like you?
Who makes me feel I'm feebler than cotton wool?
I am forever imprisoned to আপনি দ্বারা blood,
For as long as I live,
The relation between us cannot be cut,
But soon I will take my leave,
Hoping that forever আপনি will grieve
Both externally,
And internally,
আপনি twist a pin into my heart,
And gather my flowing blood onto a cart.
আপনি think আপনি can hurt me,
Just because আপনি gave me money,
আপনি think আপনি can make my life like hell,
Just because I am the one who made আপনি fell.
I wish আপনি have never প্রদত্ত birth to me,
I wish I can expose what আপনি are for all to see.
I hate you,
And I hate আপনি to the heart's core,
I want আপনি to hear my vengeful call.
I respect আপনি because I must,
Yet আপনি blame me for not giving আপনি my trust.
How can I love, অথবা trust, a person like you?
Who makes me feel I'm feebler than cotton wool?
I am forever imprisoned to আপনি দ্বারা blood,
For as long as I live,
The relation between us cannot be cut,
But soon I will take my leave,
Hoping that forever আপনি will grieve