She wanted to know what else he thought about her, and refused to stop পাঠ করা no matter how painful its effect would be.
He ব্যক্ত আপনি are in med school. That made me happy since I was there too, though against my welling. I thought that আপনি are passionate and caring, that আপনি are loving and want to help everyone. I didn’t even know আপনি and I drew আপনি in my mind like an অ্যাঞ্জেল the same way আপনি looked to me. I forgot in that মিনিট all what my father told me, and all what I learned about not being fooled with appearances, though I was, all my life, very careful with choosing my friends. But this time I failed with the test, the one that I should’ve passed it. I was taken দ্বারা your charm and beauty.
All দিন long I was thinking about আপনি and your name “Sara” since that I fell in প্রণয় with your name and its four letters. But unfortunately your name and your প্রণয় brought me nothing but pain. আপনি seemed so graceful so confident, walking proudly, directing your steps into the class room. I couldn’t help it but fix my eyes on আপনি without having a সেকেন্ড choice. I wanted to step in and talk to you, but I didn’t dare too. I decided to let one of your বন্ধু arrange our meeting.
I invited her to a café, Emily. She was polite and sweet, she understood what I wanted. She ব্যক্ত drinking small sips from her black coffee.
“I know what আপনি want to say, আপনি like her” she ব্যক্ত smiling
“Well…” I ব্যক্ত shyly
“That’s ok. Don’t be shy. Most men like her. I’ve introduced her to lots of men, but she didn’t like any of them.”
“Why? Is she arrogant?” I ব্যক্ত wonderingly afraid that her answer would b yes
“No, it’s not like that, but they seemed all ….. Blah!”
“Well I’m not “blah”!”
She laughed “I don’t mean you! That’s not your problem, it’s you’re so poor, and she’s extremely wealthy.”
“I’m not that poor আপনি know” I ব্যক্ত dryly
“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean too” she replied shyly “But yet, আপনি are so not like her”
“Does she care about these things?”
“No not at all. I can prove to আপনি she’s not. আপনি know Matthew, the guy আপনি were talking to earlier this day. He was her boyfriend since high school. They were epically in love. Everyone ব্যক্ত their future is definitely together. But the romance ended last বছর in spring break.” She ব্যক্ত sorely
“What happened?”
“I don’t know. In fact no one knows. They both refused to talk about it. But apparently it was like an agreement অথবা something, because they both dealt with the issue very unexpectedly. She didn’t even cry, always laughing and having fun. And he got engaged to this girl, Rachel, a very short while after what happened.”
A moment of silence passed then I said:
“Can আপনি introduce me to her?”
“sure” She smiled brightly
He ব্যক্ত আপনি are in med school. That made me happy since I was there too, though against my welling. I thought that আপনি are passionate and caring, that আপনি are loving and want to help everyone. I didn’t even know আপনি and I drew আপনি in my mind like an অ্যাঞ্জেল the same way আপনি looked to me. I forgot in that মিনিট all what my father told me, and all what I learned about not being fooled with appearances, though I was, all my life, very careful with choosing my friends. But this time I failed with the test, the one that I should’ve passed it. I was taken দ্বারা your charm and beauty.
All দিন long I was thinking about আপনি and your name “Sara” since that I fell in প্রণয় with your name and its four letters. But unfortunately your name and your প্রণয় brought me nothing but pain. আপনি seemed so graceful so confident, walking proudly, directing your steps into the class room. I couldn’t help it but fix my eyes on আপনি without having a সেকেন্ড choice. I wanted to step in and talk to you, but I didn’t dare too. I decided to let one of your বন্ধু arrange our meeting.
I invited her to a café, Emily. She was polite and sweet, she understood what I wanted. She ব্যক্ত drinking small sips from her black coffee.
“I know what আপনি want to say, আপনি like her” she ব্যক্ত smiling
“Well…” I ব্যক্ত shyly
“That’s ok. Don’t be shy. Most men like her. I’ve introduced her to lots of men, but she didn’t like any of them.”
“Why? Is she arrogant?” I ব্যক্ত wonderingly afraid that her answer would b yes
“No, it’s not like that, but they seemed all ….. Blah!”
“Well I’m not “blah”!”
She laughed “I don’t mean you! That’s not your problem, it’s you’re so poor, and she’s extremely wealthy.”
“I’m not that poor আপনি know” I ব্যক্ত dryly
“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean too” she replied shyly “But yet, আপনি are so not like her”
“Does she care about these things?”
“No not at all. I can prove to আপনি she’s not. আপনি know Matthew, the guy আপনি were talking to earlier this day. He was her boyfriend since high school. They were epically in love. Everyone ব্যক্ত their future is definitely together. But the romance ended last বছর in spring break.” She ব্যক্ত sorely
“What happened?”
“I don’t know. In fact no one knows. They both refused to talk about it. But apparently it was like an agreement অথবা something, because they both dealt with the issue very unexpectedly. She didn’t even cry, always laughing and having fun. And he got engaged to this girl, Rachel, a very short while after what happened.”
A moment of silence passed then I said:
“Can আপনি introduce me to her?”
“sure” She smiled brightly
Life's like a rollercoaster,
Don't waste the ride.
Live it up all the way,
because today's your last day
What would আপনি do?
Would আপনি cry a little, scream a little, think it's all pretend.
অথবা go into silence until the very end...
Would আপনি প্রণয় the ones আপনি hate the most অথবা be the person আপনি hide?
Would আপনি pretend that you're ok but really scream inside?
Would আপনি try and keep the sun from setting as your last দিন ends?
Knowing you'll never see it rise...
Tomorrow I'll be somewhere else আপনি say as আপনি close your eyes.
what can I do?
I'm self-centered, self-induldged, self-absorbed, hateful, short-tepered, implusive, in a complete state of denial, confused and lonely, yet I don't try to think.
a creature of the night
a princess of darkness
I long for light
colors
but all is midnight
and my only companions are the moon and the darkness
thought it comforts me when no one can
I wish to be out of darkness for once
to be clear, understood, unquestioned, and loved.
but who am I to ask for this?
who am I to want this?
is that what makes me human?
why?
all I want to know is why?
After changing back I saw the remains of that man. It was enough to make me sick. I just fell to my knees looking up at the sky. A girl walks up beside me and kneels down. "Don't look so down." I go to look at her and no one is there. I look back up at the sky waiting to hear that voice again. There wasn't any sound anywhere around. Out of the silence i could hear a faint breath from the night behind me. I সরানো to the right when i hear the shot.
It grazes the side of my head and i fall to the ground. I hear footsteps running towards me as my eyes slowly close.
It grazes the side of my head and i fall to the ground. I hear footsteps running towards me as my eyes slowly close.
Step, creak, step, creak! the floor boards speak to me as I slowly tremble on its hard, splintery wood. Each step feels so daring. I feel danger crawling up my dangling spine. Thump, thump, my হৃদয় tries to refuse to my wishes of moving forward. Nothing has happened so far.
I carefully make my way towards the forbidden wooden chair. Creeeeeeek! goes the আসন as I lower my self to its level and sit on it. SHHHHHHHH!
“What was that?” I whisper to my self with my eyes wide open. I slowly start to climb the fence to view the streets of emptiness and quietness. My হৃদয় starts to beat even louder. Thump, thump. I slowly turn my anxious head to look. But it was only a car passing দ্বারা my house.
I carefully make my way towards the forbidden wooden chair. Creeeeeeek! goes the আসন as I lower my self to its level and sit on it. SHHHHHHHH!
“What was that?” I whisper to my self with my eyes wide open. I slowly start to climb the fence to view the streets of emptiness and quietness. My হৃদয় starts to beat even louder. Thump, thump. I slowly turn my anxious head to look. But it was only a car passing দ্বারা my house.
