I was sitting their পরবর্তি to the ocean. Did i really want to do this? Kill myself? I sat wondering, i loved them too much, আরো than my own father. He'd destroyed my life in so many ways for once i was happy and he had to ruin it.
-----------(3 months earlier)------------------
I skipped down the stairs into the kitchen, banging on Katie and Sam's doors on the way. It was the first দিন of term, and i hadnt seen Josie, Faye and Evie in soooooo long. The six weeks had been lovely dad had taken us to Paris for 4 weeks. it was lovely exploring the city and the country. but id missed my বন্ধু too much. dad was already in the রান্নাঘর drinking his coffee and পাঠ করা the morning paper.
"Lexie, ready for your first দিন back? Josie just called ব্যক্ত to meet her at the gates." dad told me as he bit into a bit of toast.
"Im absolutly ready, minus the tests but i cant wait to see the gang!" i said.
"Well im glad to hear that. But just try and be careful around Zachary and Nathan. please for me. i know there your বন্ধু but we all know what teenage boys are like." he ব্যক্ত drowning on.
"HEY!! i am a boy আপনি know we dont all think like what আপনি think we do." sam explained.
I grabbed a brush and pulled all the knots out of my long brown hair. i quickly pulled it all up in a clip and let the rest of my hair fall down.
"hey sam, নমস্কার Katie ready for school?" i asked, itching to leave.
"no we havent eaten, so when did আপনি decide to start dressing nice?" he asked over giigles.
he is so cheeky.
"Shut up im leaving." i grabbed my keys and was out of the door. i ran to my car and jumped in. ok so he did have a point my usual was jeans and t-shirt. i'd decided i'd been playing that look for far too long so id cleaned it out and added skirts, shorts, skinny jeans, wide leg jeans,tanks, spaggheti straps, summer tops and lots of others. id decided to wear a pair of jean shorts, and a white knot top, white wedge sandals, a dark pair of shades with a hint of makeup.
i started the engine and drove to school, westbrooke high hadnt changed much. still big playing feilds, still big school, still my same friends. i parked up and grabbed my বই for todays lessons. i took some deep breaths and hoped nobody recognized my dress change. then i jumped out of the car. i walked over to the gates, seeing a few people turn heads well i knew some people would notice. as i got closer to the gates i saw Josie, Evie and Faye waiting for me.
"hey guys whats so important that we had to meet up?" i asked walking closer. Evie was as tanned as ever, and josie and faye pasty coloured still.
"they are." they ব্যক্ত in unison, pointing their fingers in the direction of a blue citreon. i turned my hair to look. their they stood a boy and a girl. they both had blonde hair, and baby blue eyes. they were obviously twins, and new students, they looked lost. they also looked like they had a secret, like they had suffered.
"i'll say.what are their names? they look lost." i examined their facial expressions.
"their the johnson twins. new kids moved up here because their mother died. fathers a real estate agent. also they just happen to be in our form class." Faye explained.
"Well im going to go ask if they need help finding our class. i dont feel like standing here just staring." then i walked towards them, they look like they came from a wealthy family. they were looking around at the other kids.
"Hey im Lexie Smith. your in my form class, do আপনি need some help finding it?" i asked politley.
they just stared at me blankly, maybe they didnt speak english.the girl spoke first.
"Hi im Penelope. This is my brother John. Would আপনি mind প্রদর্শিত হচ্ছে us around?" she asked, she was nice, shy a bit.
"Hi. i have no..." her brother cut me off. "We'll be just fine thank you." he replied rudely and dragged Penelope to the office. what had i done??
-----------(3 months earlier)------------------
I skipped down the stairs into the kitchen, banging on Katie and Sam's doors on the way. It was the first দিন of term, and i hadnt seen Josie, Faye and Evie in soooooo long. The six weeks had been lovely dad had taken us to Paris for 4 weeks. it was lovely exploring the city and the country. but id missed my বন্ধু too much. dad was already in the রান্নাঘর drinking his coffee and পাঠ করা the morning paper.
"Lexie, ready for your first দিন back? Josie just called ব্যক্ত to meet her at the gates." dad told me as he bit into a bit of toast.
"Im absolutly ready, minus the tests but i cant wait to see the gang!" i said.
"Well im glad to hear that. But just try and be careful around Zachary and Nathan. please for me. i know there your বন্ধু but we all know what teenage boys are like." he ব্যক্ত drowning on.
"HEY!! i am a boy আপনি know we dont all think like what আপনি think we do." sam explained.
I grabbed a brush and pulled all the knots out of my long brown hair. i quickly pulled it all up in a clip and let the rest of my hair fall down.
"hey sam, নমস্কার Katie ready for school?" i asked, itching to leave.
"no we havent eaten, so when did আপনি decide to start dressing nice?" he asked over giigles.
he is so cheeky.
"Shut up im leaving." i grabbed my keys and was out of the door. i ran to my car and jumped in. ok so he did have a point my usual was jeans and t-shirt. i'd decided i'd been playing that look for far too long so id cleaned it out and added skirts, shorts, skinny jeans, wide leg jeans,tanks, spaggheti straps, summer tops and lots of others. id decided to wear a pair of jean shorts, and a white knot top, white wedge sandals, a dark pair of shades with a hint of makeup.
i started the engine and drove to school, westbrooke high hadnt changed much. still big playing feilds, still big school, still my same friends. i parked up and grabbed my বই for todays lessons. i took some deep breaths and hoped nobody recognized my dress change. then i jumped out of the car. i walked over to the gates, seeing a few people turn heads well i knew some people would notice. as i got closer to the gates i saw Josie, Evie and Faye waiting for me.
"hey guys whats so important that we had to meet up?" i asked walking closer. Evie was as tanned as ever, and josie and faye pasty coloured still.
"they are." they ব্যক্ত in unison, pointing their fingers in the direction of a blue citreon. i turned my hair to look. their they stood a boy and a girl. they both had blonde hair, and baby blue eyes. they were obviously twins, and new students, they looked lost. they also looked like they had a secret, like they had suffered.
"i'll say.what are their names? they look lost." i examined their facial expressions.
"their the johnson twins. new kids moved up here because their mother died. fathers a real estate agent. also they just happen to be in our form class." Faye explained.
"Well im going to go ask if they need help finding our class. i dont feel like standing here just staring." then i walked towards them, they look like they came from a wealthy family. they were looking around at the other kids.
"Hey im Lexie Smith. your in my form class, do আপনি need some help finding it?" i asked politley.
they just stared at me blankly, maybe they didnt speak english.the girl spoke first.
"Hi im Penelope. This is my brother John. Would আপনি mind প্রদর্শিত হচ্ছে us around?" she asked, she was nice, shy a bit.
"Hi. i have no..." her brother cut me off. "We'll be just fine thank you." he replied rudely and dragged Penelope to the office. what had i done??
your mistakes don't define you, now. they don't tell আপনি who you're not, অথবা who আপনি can never be. what's it take to get আপনি to say you'll try? you've got to live this life like it's the only one you've got. what would আপনি say, what would আপনি do, if this was your last day? so, আপনি found out today that life's not the same. not quite as good as yesterday.
and, yes, i know it hurts & i know your pain, but u never gave up this easily befor. such a beautiful thing to just throw away. i think আপনি need to know that, of all the রঙ that আপনি shine, this is surely not your best, it's really not your style. আপনি should think about what আপনি do, befor আপনি do it, over and over again. i know আপনি feel alone, that know one can figure আপনি out, but আপনি sould know that we just প্রণয় to see আপনি smile.i know আপনি feel like you're lost, feel like you've drifted way to far away, but we can help আপনি come back.
and, yes, i know it hurts & i know your pain, but u never gave up this easily befor. such a beautiful thing to just throw away. i think আপনি need to know that, of all the রঙ that আপনি shine, this is surely not your best, it's really not your style. আপনি should think about what আপনি do, befor আপনি do it, over and over again. i know আপনি feel alone, that know one can figure আপনি out, but আপনি sould know that we just প্রণয় to see আপনি smile.i know আপনি feel like you're lost, feel like you've drifted way to far away, but we can help আপনি come back.
I wrote this yesterday when me and my boyfriend had a big fight and it's a fight that may go on for a long time. I know I am young to write something like this but, I guess it helps. Plus If আপনি don't like it just tell me, ok?
The Power of Words
আপনি and I had this big long fight,
It felt like the storm during the night.
It was verry sad and cold,
My বন্ধু had to like আপনি a lot
and আপনি felt like I forgot,
forgot about you.
But I had a prodject due.
আপনি think you're mr. I'm so cool
but আপনি used to act like a ghool.
Not to the people আপনি love,
to the sensetive people like a dove.
How we spoke with eachother,
made আপনি feel much better.
But the fight we had,
আপনি ব্যক্ত was nothing but it was bad.
See ya pal we're ova,
take the cell আপনি gave me and do me a fava.
Just don't ever,
Never...
Talk to me again!
The Power of Words
আপনি and I had this big long fight,
It felt like the storm during the night.
It was verry sad and cold,
My বন্ধু had to like আপনি a lot
and আপনি felt like I forgot,
forgot about you.
But I had a prodject due.
আপনি think you're mr. I'm so cool
but আপনি used to act like a ghool.
Not to the people আপনি love,
to the sensetive people like a dove.
How we spoke with eachother,
made আপনি feel much better.
But the fight we had,
আপনি ব্যক্ত was nothing but it was bad.
See ya pal we're ova,
take the cell আপনি gave me and do me a fava.
Just don't ever,
Never...
Talk to me again!
Example of the Maiden
The Man With No Eyes Collection (1): The Actor
Sundown, sunrise.
Big smile!
(Tired eyes.)
I vanish into thin air.
An actor never fails.
(Lies.)
To give the world a rousing show
(While begging to be recognized.)
To shine as brightly as the sun
Upon the সিংহাসন that we’ve devised.
A patchwork-quilt protagonist
A villain from the shadow realm
The work of the illusionist
When I, the actor, take the helm.
“Hey, wouldn’t it be cool to see…”
The whisper marks my story’s birth.
The audience will gather ‘round.
(The jury to decide my worth.)
"The Man With No Eyes" is a series of poems, all of which are unfolding from one character's point of view. They are meant to represent an ongoing journey. So if আপনি liked this one, stay tuned for more. :)
Sundown, sunrise.
Big smile!
(Tired eyes.)
I vanish into thin air.
An actor never fails.
(Lies.)
To give the world a rousing show
(While begging to be recognized.)
To shine as brightly as the sun
Upon the সিংহাসন that we’ve devised.
A patchwork-quilt protagonist
A villain from the shadow realm
The work of the illusionist
When I, the actor, take the helm.
“Hey, wouldn’t it be cool to see…”
The whisper marks my story’s birth.
The audience will gather ‘round.
(The jury to decide my worth.)
"The Man With No Eyes" is a series of poems, all of which are unfolding from one character's point of view. They are meant to represent an ongoing journey. So if আপনি liked this one, stay tuned for more. :)
