I can began to see the side view mirrors fog up as I sit alone the car. Matt was still in the front yard, pacing back and forth, and back and forth. A part of me just wanted him to get in the car already but the other part of me just wanted to stay alone. As I began to get হারিয়ে গেছে in my thought I saw the car door open. Matt got in and didn’t bother to turn on the car. he didn’t look at me and I didn’t look at him. He finally turned on the car…slowly..but he turned it on. He sighed low enough for me not start the conversation. As he pulled out and started off on the road I just looked out the window.
“Jaz i-” he started but my phone rang. It was my mom.
I tried to rush her off the phone because I figured it was nothing important but then I heard her say “so আপনি can just with Matthew tonight.” And I felt my হৃদয় stop.
I agreed to stay with him tonight but I now had to tell him. And that was the hard part. I hung up the phone and sucked in a huge breath.
“Hey….Umm..I have to..I mean..I umm ..can i stay with আপনি tonight? My mom is gonna stay out later than she thought.”
I could barely get the words out of my mouth.
“Ohh..Yeah. You’re welcome anytime. আপনি know that.” He probably shot me a warm smile but I didb’t bother to look.
“Jaz I’m sorr-”
“No! No! No! I don’t want to here it Matt. I know I should’ve found another way from keeping আপনি from that football player. I know i screwed up okay? I don’t wanna hear আপনি try to apologize when আপনি didn’t do anything.” Those words came out আরো smoothly but definitely আরো harsh.
I didn’t notice we were pulling up into his parents drive away already. I got out first and swiftly walked towards the door. I just wanted to go the guest room and go to bed. Matt was still sitting in his car. He didn’t get off the car until I rang the doorbell. Probably didn’t want to have to explain to his dad why he was sitting in the car alone. His dad answered the door and greeted me with a surprised smile. i asked if i could stay with him in the nicest way I could and then shot up the stairs as soon as let room for me to get through the door. Matthew was barely walking through the door. He did look hurt দ্বারা what I ব্যক্ত but i wasn’t in the mood to talk to him. When I didn’t see him walk up the stairs, i knew he would be going to tell his dad what happened. Usually i would want to ez-drop but I didn’t this time. An ঘন্টা অথবা two went দ্বারা when I heard a knock on my door. I couldn’t sleep.
“Come In.”
Matthew walked in a box of পিজা and the most guilty smile a man could have.
:“Pizza?” He had a hopeful smile.
I tried to smile and I just nodded. He came and plumped on the বিছানা with me and put the পিজা box in front of us.
“Look I know আপনি are mad at me. But i want আপনি to here me out please?”
“I couldn’t really resit hearing what he had to say.
“First of all Im not mad at আপনি Matt. When have I ever been mad at you? And fine…I will hear আপনি out.”
We both took a deep breath and relaxed.
He took and deep breath and began, “Well what আপনি ব্যক্ত in the car hurt…and untrue.”-he couldn’t look at me anymore-" That kiss"-i flinched at the word-" was ….is….the best চুম্বন I have ever had. And I wouldn’t have wanted to be with anyone else but you…"
I looked up at him and gave him a smile that even I couldn’t believe I gave him. It was a flirty smile! He knew that smile and he as well was surprised. He hesitated at first দ্বারা then leaned in to give me a চুম্বন on my forehead. It was sweet, I will have to admit that but he didn’t have me yet.
“I hope আপনি know I’m not done. We’re gonna be at this for a while.” He shot me back a flirty smile now.
I smiled at him and then just like that the words came out when I didn’t mean for them to come out…It was an accident.! …“i প্রণয় you”