my life is hell. my parents can't stand to look at me anymore ever since i told them im gay. Then beat my brutally. every time i get beatin, i pass out. i went to my uncle's on night and he had বন্ধু over. this was a বছর ago. i got up to get a drink of water and, unfortunatley they were all drunk. they gang raped me and i told my parents about it. they thought that i enjoyed it and it was my fault. the first time iwas raped i was 5. my dad throws me around like a rag doll and my bf abuses me in multiple ways. i just recently broke up with him and he threatened to kidnap, beat, rape, and kill me. my best friend tried to force himself on me and now im left with only my grandparents. they won't be around forever and i'll be left all alone. im miserable, cold, and hurt. no one believes me when i tell them that i've been abused sexually and other multiple ways. im numb inside and out. thats why i bring my pocket ছুরি every where i go...i need somebody out there who knows how i feel...