Please help me, I feel so bad I just need someone to read this and hopefully give me some advice, I feel like I have no one to turn to.

Ask dad why he ব্যক্ত those things might be a start along with an appologie for saying what আপনি did remind him আপনি had just had a shock and that what he ব্যক্ত originally was in your opinion uncalled for and nasty and ask if he had feelings for the cat. It may be his way of coping. See how that goes. hope it helps.

First off, I want to say that I'm sorry about your cat. I know that feeling; I've gone through it too. Maybe not the situations, but the feelings are always mutual.

Remember that your cat isn't in pain anymore, and আপনি don't have to worry about a thing. It's sad, I know, and takes a while to get used to, but soon you'll come to terms with it. Time heals all of the wounds -- it's cliche, sure, but it's true. আপনি learn it from experience, and then আপনি can confidently tell others about it. And when there's someone else that has these feelings in the future, আপনি can tell them about your experiences (if আপনি wish). When আপনি do so, you'll have the great memories of your cat and how wonderful he is now. Like I've ব্যক্ত before to others that হারিয়ে গেছে a pet: he's now watching over you. আপনি showed him how wonderful it was to be loved and to be taken care of, and now he has that opportunity to return it.

As for your father, I feel as if he could have ব্যক্ত something else. There are jokes, but there is such a thing as "overstepping boundaries". What he ব্যক্ত was unnecessary and harmful to আপনি emotionally, especially considering how আপনি হারিয়ে গেছে a family member. আপনি should have a talk with him -- অথবা with your mother in the room if আপনি feel আরো comfortable that way -- and say how আপনি feel. I have to say that, although I didn't agree with your father's words, it might be better if things were more...composed and thought out. Saying "f*** you" is a bit harsh. Before আপনি get angry about this statement, I know that he hurt your feelings. I have a dad that likes to criticize and nitpick at everything I do and say, so I know what that's like too. But saying things like that won't make it any better. There always has to be (or SHOULD be) one person in the household that is the mature one. They don't always have to acquire wisdom so quickly, because they can make due without.

I hope that this helps. If আপনি have any questions, don't hesitate to ask.

im sorry about your cat. but think possitive im sure that wherever আপনি cat is he'll want আপনি to be happy. i went thru something like that when one of my সারমেয় died because of a seagure. my উপদেশ is go find a friend and pray for your cat. also talk with your dad and sort things out. there is a god up there and he will never stop helping আপনি out. pray to him and remember that he will listen. also here's a positive thought your cat is now your angel's pet and he will help you. try to forget about those aweful memories because আপনি still have life in আপনি and life is too short to be lived with in pain and sadness. the hands of time are never on your side so tell yourself everymorning'i live and im going to live with a smile' i hope this helps. dont be afraid to message me if আপনি need any আরো advice, im here to help.