Please....I NEED advice...

Hello I will tell আপনি about myself I have been suffering with depression for about 4 years. I has gotten worse (get help ASAP has soon has আপনি start getting symptoms of it) It started out with a few personal stuff I wont get into but then the bullying came (I felt hopeless an terrible) Then a few family issues started occurring along with আরো too personal shit to talk about and all my বন্ধু moved .Then escalated into self-consciousness (I think im fat and ugly and stupid an worthless) . Now just in the past two months it moved on to self-harm . I cut and I want to stop but at the same time I just cant please I need some উপদেশ anyone?