"You will always be able to tell when আপনি are different; when আপনি are the one that everyone is staring at; when আপনি are the one that everyone runs in fear from অথবা stares at in disgust as আপনি pass them by; when আপনি are the runt out of the litter; when আপনি are the broken and cracked tile in a tile floor; when আপনি are the dead বৃক্ষ in the center of the lively forest; when আপনি are the odd one out from the ordinary.
It's a feeling that will creep upon আপনি without a warning. A feeling of difference. A painful feeling. A sharp blow to wake your psyche from its peaceful slumber; a blow that can crush অথবা cripple a person and their emotions. আপনি feel distant; আপনি feel as if আপনি are a মেষ হারিয়ে গেছে from its herd; আপনি feel like a ship হারিয়ে গেছে at sea. আপনি feel like আপনি are drifting further and further away from the world; আপনি feel like আপনি are drowning, and আপনি feel as though everyone would turn away rather than throw a life ring to you, অথবা even dive in to save you. আপনি feel like আপনি are the darkness hidden in the corner in a room filled with glistening lights.
For myself, I have very different thoughts. I feel like a cold-blooded animal amongst warm-bloods. I may look the same as the পরবর্তি man, but on the inside, I feel like I am burning. আপনি see the world through a glass window, just as bright and as clean as it could possibly be; pure and full of hope. All I see when I look through that window is stained, cracked glass, tainted দ্বারা my place in this world and my warring emotional insides. আপনি are looking in on the world through that pure window, watching in delight and happiness as people come to আপনি with a smile; I watch through my window as people turn their backs and walk away. I feel like I cannot see myself; I feel as though I do not see myself. Oh no, I only see a worn man with tears staining his face in the large crack that runs down the middle of the window; I do not see the world, I only see my broken spirit.
I do not feel like I am of your world. I do not feel like I have a place in your world. I only feel like I have the ugly feelings that tether me to reality; who I really am in the flesh. If I were to step into your mirror, অথবা if I were to step into your crystal-clear lake so full of life, I would merely pollute the limpid water and it would become tainted... Just like my body. Just like my species. Just like my mind. Just like my uncontrollable 'bloodlust', as আপনি call it.
Sometimes I need the danger. I need the danger just to know that my হৃদয় can beat. I feel numb sometimes; numb as in I do not feel as though my body is truly working anymore. Feeling my হৃদয় beat pulsing is one of the only things that reminds me that I am not numb and that I am still a living person and not the... monster that আপনি believe me to be; the monster that আপনি claim for me to be. Seeing my blood flow is another way that I know I am living, though my blood is just as cold and as clear as ice instead of the dark, warm crimson red that resides in a normal person. If আপনি examine me অথবা were to take me apart, will আপনি find the differences? অথবা will আপনি ignore the differences and call me person who fits in with the rest of the crowd?
I can see right through আপনি as if আপনি were an ice sculpture, so pure and clear. However, can আপনি see through me? Am I a clear ice to you, am I a blank canvas yet to be touched, অথবা am I a cracked window soiled with years of dirt and grime that prevents আপনি from seeing into me? Take your pick, choose wisely your response. It will either amuse me অথবা damage me, mind you.
I think of myself in these ways from দিন to day, especially when I am amongst the 'normal'. However, I smile, and I laugh, and I play. I know who I am and I know what I am, even if I do not feel like I do at times. I am but a speck of shadow in a room of light, waiting for my turn to have my time to shine. I am a broken, dirtied mirror placed in a tarnished স্বর্ণ frame that needs to be cleaned; I do not want to be replaced অথবা repaired, only cleaned. I simply want to be cleaned and placed upon the দেওয়াল with the other, pure mirrors, even if it costs me standing out. I just want to be able to be in the crowd without being rejected. Why will আপনি not place me with the others? Why do আপনি hide me away in a storage closet? Am I simply 'not good enough' for you? If that is what আপনি think, then let me ask আপনি this... Why do আপনি think I exist, and why do আপনি think আপনি exist? We are equals, no matter what আপনি say. We are living people who need প্রণয় and attention to feel like we fit in. If আপনি gain your acceptance, then where is mine? It matters not how long I wait, I will be accepted some day, some where, some time... and one দিন I will shine. One দিন I will be the most respected piece in the gallery; one দিন I will be amongst the famous and priceless. I am not a mistake; I am a pure diamond hidden in the ashes and soot. People may look over me, thinking that I am only coal on the outside, but on the inside, I am a diamond hidden in the rough.
Tell me, what is wrong with the odd one? Do আপনি not consider the odd one a person? Even if they are আরো kind and considering that আপনি are? If আপনি are one who is stuck up, আপনি may sit upon your rich throne, thinking আপনি are high and mighty, but what will আপনি do when the 'odd' comes in and is আরো caring than আপনি are? Will আপনি immediately cease calling them a person just because আপনি think they are strange without looking at what good they have done? If so, then আপনি are আরো of a monster than I could ever be.
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For all of আপনি out there who feel like আপনি are হারিয়ে গেছে in the shadows, what are আপনি doing? Are আপনি simply staying in the shadows and letting yourself feel like আপনি are different and not of this world such as I have? অথবা do আপনি look for the light while আপনি are হারিয়ে গেছে in the darkness like I have as well? If আপনি can not find the light to make আপনি feel better, আপনি make the light. Let your family and those dear to আপনি be your fuel, and let আপনি accepting your differences and who আপনি are be the spark that lights the flame.
I ব্যক্ত I felt as though I was the cold-blood amongst the warm-bloods. I ব্যক্ত I feel as though I am staring through a broken and tainted glass. I ব্যক্ত I do not feel as though I am from your world; I ব্যক্ত I felt that I didn't fit in with the people in your own little world. I ব্যক্ত that if I were to step into your crystal lake, I would pollute the limpid water; but let me ask আপনি this, is your lake crystal in reality, অথবা is it idealized in your own mind and fake reality; would I be polluting it অথবা bringing আপনি back to reality? I also ব্যক্ত that sometimes I felt numb and I needed the danger to feel my হৃদয় beat. What do আপনি think I meant honestly দ্বারা that? Did I mean that I felt disconnected from the world and needed to feel like a person, অথবা did I mean that I want to feel the danger to make me feel alive like a person? Hm.
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All the outcasts. All the odd people. All the frowned and look down upon. I can see you, and I can hear you. আপনি are not invisible to me, just like how আপনি are not invisible to the world; আপনি may only think that not a living soul pays attention to আপনি as আপনি cry yourself to sleep. আপনি may feel stuck on the outside; thinking that আপনি are damaged and broken beyond repair. আপনি know what? আপনি are not so far that someone cannot reach you. আপনি are not so far that someone cannot মোড়ানো আপনি in their embrace and tell আপনি everything is okay. Can আপনি believe me? Can আপনি trust me when I tell আপনি that everything আপনি see about yourself is not what I see? আপনি have my attention; there's no need to hurt and pain yourself for attention. Let the prejudice অথবা judging people be the beautiful lights in the city; we shall rise above them as bright, beautiful neon signs in a night sky, and those who accept us and প্রণয় us for who we are shall rise above with us. আপনি are special, no matter what আপনি think আপনি are. If someone tells আপনি that আপনি are a cursed অথবা evil species, prove them wrong দ্বারা proving that আপনি are a beautiful diamond while they are simply a tarnished piece of gold. If someone tells আপনি that আপনি are a nerd অথবা a geek, প্রদর্শনী them that আপনি might just be the scientist who makes the cure that cures the plague. Let all of the outcasts fly with me and come to a place where we can be diverse and appreciate each other without putting each other down; even if this world exists only in our minds, we will find a way to be who we are without fears of being struck down.
Your smallest whisper... I can hear it. Let your voice be heard. Be who আপনি are, not what the world expects আপনি to be. আপনি do not think আপনি are good enough to the world to anyone in the world? Nonsense, আপনি are a bright diamond in my eyes. আপনি are a treasure, a perfect one at that. আপনি may have had a rough ride, but do not let that change who আপনি are, and who আপনি are is a unique individual. আপনি are আরো than just a face, আরো than just a name, and আরো than just the hurtful labels that the hypocrites around আপনি might give. আপনি are more, আপনি are a beauty. আপনি are a treasure, and আপনি are NOT alone.
Take it from me, a man who has faired many reactions and various treatments due to who I am. আপনি are a unique person and আপনি do not deserve to have the dirt and grime of the world thrown upon your delicate frame that holds you. Is your frame old, tarnished, polished, new, অথবা anything else? It does not matter; আপনি are as equal as the others around you.
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The Hatred and Evil was as blacken as coal. The Uncertainty was sandy and unclear. The Happiness golden. The Isolation was a lonely blue. The Sole Lie was as clear and as see-through as a white ice. The Socialness was a perky orange. The Laughter was a radiating green. The Serious brought a gloomy shade of grey. Above all, the Mixture of Good and Bad traits was a clear prism that cast all the রঙ of a beautiful রামধনু and a shadowy gloom; the one holding the prism decided which রঙ they wanted to cast. Which one are you?
In the end, are we not all a stained glass portrait? We are either made in bright, happy রঙ with a beautiful picture, অথবা we are a gloomy, dark picture with dark and depressing colors. Or, no, wait. Perhaps we are all works in progress, just waiting to bloom and reveal who were truly are inside."
~Alric Maximilian Faust
It's a feeling that will creep upon আপনি without a warning. A feeling of difference. A painful feeling. A sharp blow to wake your psyche from its peaceful slumber; a blow that can crush অথবা cripple a person and their emotions. আপনি feel distant; আপনি feel as if আপনি are a মেষ হারিয়ে গেছে from its herd; আপনি feel like a ship হারিয়ে গেছে at sea. আপনি feel like আপনি are drifting further and further away from the world; আপনি feel like আপনি are drowning, and আপনি feel as though everyone would turn away rather than throw a life ring to you, অথবা even dive in to save you. আপনি feel like আপনি are the darkness hidden in the corner in a room filled with glistening lights.
For myself, I have very different thoughts. I feel like a cold-blooded animal amongst warm-bloods. I may look the same as the পরবর্তি man, but on the inside, I feel like I am burning. আপনি see the world through a glass window, just as bright and as clean as it could possibly be; pure and full of hope. All I see when I look through that window is stained, cracked glass, tainted দ্বারা my place in this world and my warring emotional insides. আপনি are looking in on the world through that pure window, watching in delight and happiness as people come to আপনি with a smile; I watch through my window as people turn their backs and walk away. I feel like I cannot see myself; I feel as though I do not see myself. Oh no, I only see a worn man with tears staining his face in the large crack that runs down the middle of the window; I do not see the world, I only see my broken spirit.
I do not feel like I am of your world. I do not feel like I have a place in your world. I only feel like I have the ugly feelings that tether me to reality; who I really am in the flesh. If I were to step into your mirror, অথবা if I were to step into your crystal-clear lake so full of life, I would merely pollute the limpid water and it would become tainted... Just like my body. Just like my species. Just like my mind. Just like my uncontrollable 'bloodlust', as আপনি call it.
Sometimes I need the danger. I need the danger just to know that my হৃদয় can beat. I feel numb sometimes; numb as in I do not feel as though my body is truly working anymore. Feeling my হৃদয় beat pulsing is one of the only things that reminds me that I am not numb and that I am still a living person and not the... monster that আপনি believe me to be; the monster that আপনি claim for me to be. Seeing my blood flow is another way that I know I am living, though my blood is just as cold and as clear as ice instead of the dark, warm crimson red that resides in a normal person. If আপনি examine me অথবা were to take me apart, will আপনি find the differences? অথবা will আপনি ignore the differences and call me person who fits in with the rest of the crowd?
I can see right through আপনি as if আপনি were an ice sculpture, so pure and clear. However, can আপনি see through me? Am I a clear ice to you, am I a blank canvas yet to be touched, অথবা am I a cracked window soiled with years of dirt and grime that prevents আপনি from seeing into me? Take your pick, choose wisely your response. It will either amuse me অথবা damage me, mind you.
I think of myself in these ways from দিন to day, especially when I am amongst the 'normal'. However, I smile, and I laugh, and I play. I know who I am and I know what I am, even if I do not feel like I do at times. I am but a speck of shadow in a room of light, waiting for my turn to have my time to shine. I am a broken, dirtied mirror placed in a tarnished স্বর্ণ frame that needs to be cleaned; I do not want to be replaced অথবা repaired, only cleaned. I simply want to be cleaned and placed upon the দেওয়াল with the other, pure mirrors, even if it costs me standing out. I just want to be able to be in the crowd without being rejected. Why will আপনি not place me with the others? Why do আপনি hide me away in a storage closet? Am I simply 'not good enough' for you? If that is what আপনি think, then let me ask আপনি this... Why do আপনি think I exist, and why do আপনি think আপনি exist? We are equals, no matter what আপনি say. We are living people who need প্রণয় and attention to feel like we fit in. If আপনি gain your acceptance, then where is mine? It matters not how long I wait, I will be accepted some day, some where, some time... and one দিন I will shine. One দিন I will be the most respected piece in the gallery; one দিন I will be amongst the famous and priceless. I am not a mistake; I am a pure diamond hidden in the ashes and soot. People may look over me, thinking that I am only coal on the outside, but on the inside, I am a diamond hidden in the rough.
Tell me, what is wrong with the odd one? Do আপনি not consider the odd one a person? Even if they are আরো kind and considering that আপনি are? If আপনি are one who is stuck up, আপনি may sit upon your rich throne, thinking আপনি are high and mighty, but what will আপনি do when the 'odd' comes in and is আরো caring than আপনি are? Will আপনি immediately cease calling them a person just because আপনি think they are strange without looking at what good they have done? If so, then আপনি are আরো of a monster than I could ever be.
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For all of আপনি out there who feel like আপনি are হারিয়ে গেছে in the shadows, what are আপনি doing? Are আপনি simply staying in the shadows and letting yourself feel like আপনি are different and not of this world such as I have? অথবা do আপনি look for the light while আপনি are হারিয়ে গেছে in the darkness like I have as well? If আপনি can not find the light to make আপনি feel better, আপনি make the light. Let your family and those dear to আপনি be your fuel, and let আপনি accepting your differences and who আপনি are be the spark that lights the flame.
I ব্যক্ত I felt as though I was the cold-blood amongst the warm-bloods. I ব্যক্ত I feel as though I am staring through a broken and tainted glass. I ব্যক্ত I do not feel as though I am from your world; I ব্যক্ত I felt that I didn't fit in with the people in your own little world. I ব্যক্ত that if I were to step into your crystal lake, I would pollute the limpid water; but let me ask আপনি this, is your lake crystal in reality, অথবা is it idealized in your own mind and fake reality; would I be polluting it অথবা bringing আপনি back to reality? I also ব্যক্ত that sometimes I felt numb and I needed the danger to feel my হৃদয় beat. What do আপনি think I meant honestly দ্বারা that? Did I mean that I felt disconnected from the world and needed to feel like a person, অথবা did I mean that I want to feel the danger to make me feel alive like a person? Hm.
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All the outcasts. All the odd people. All the frowned and look down upon. I can see you, and I can hear you. আপনি are not invisible to me, just like how আপনি are not invisible to the world; আপনি may only think that not a living soul pays attention to আপনি as আপনি cry yourself to sleep. আপনি may feel stuck on the outside; thinking that আপনি are damaged and broken beyond repair. আপনি know what? আপনি are not so far that someone cannot reach you. আপনি are not so far that someone cannot মোড়ানো আপনি in their embrace and tell আপনি everything is okay. Can আপনি believe me? Can আপনি trust me when I tell আপনি that everything আপনি see about yourself is not what I see? আপনি have my attention; there's no need to hurt and pain yourself for attention. Let the prejudice অথবা judging people be the beautiful lights in the city; we shall rise above them as bright, beautiful neon signs in a night sky, and those who accept us and প্রণয় us for who we are shall rise above with us. আপনি are special, no matter what আপনি think আপনি are. If someone tells আপনি that আপনি are a cursed অথবা evil species, prove them wrong দ্বারা proving that আপনি are a beautiful diamond while they are simply a tarnished piece of gold. If someone tells আপনি that আপনি are a nerd অথবা a geek, প্রদর্শনী them that আপনি might just be the scientist who makes the cure that cures the plague. Let all of the outcasts fly with me and come to a place where we can be diverse and appreciate each other without putting each other down; even if this world exists only in our minds, we will find a way to be who we are without fears of being struck down.
Your smallest whisper... I can hear it. Let your voice be heard. Be who আপনি are, not what the world expects আপনি to be. আপনি do not think আপনি are good enough to the world to anyone in the world? Nonsense, আপনি are a bright diamond in my eyes. আপনি are a treasure, a perfect one at that. আপনি may have had a rough ride, but do not let that change who আপনি are, and who আপনি are is a unique individual. আপনি are আরো than just a face, আরো than just a name, and আরো than just the hurtful labels that the hypocrites around আপনি might give. আপনি are more, আপনি are a beauty. আপনি are a treasure, and আপনি are NOT alone.
Take it from me, a man who has faired many reactions and various treatments due to who I am. আপনি are a unique person and আপনি do not deserve to have the dirt and grime of the world thrown upon your delicate frame that holds you. Is your frame old, tarnished, polished, new, অথবা anything else? It does not matter; আপনি are as equal as the others around you.
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The Hatred and Evil was as blacken as coal. The Uncertainty was sandy and unclear. The Happiness golden. The Isolation was a lonely blue. The Sole Lie was as clear and as see-through as a white ice. The Socialness was a perky orange. The Laughter was a radiating green. The Serious brought a gloomy shade of grey. Above all, the Mixture of Good and Bad traits was a clear prism that cast all the রঙ of a beautiful রামধনু and a shadowy gloom; the one holding the prism decided which রঙ they wanted to cast. Which one are you?
In the end, are we not all a stained glass portrait? We are either made in bright, happy রঙ with a beautiful picture, অথবা we are a gloomy, dark picture with dark and depressing colors. Or, no, wait. Perhaps we are all works in progress, just waiting to bloom and reveal who were truly are inside."
~Alric Maximilian Faust
NAME: কমলা the Hedgehog
GENDER: Male
POWERS: He can control fire, he can control ice, he can control electricity, he can control earth, he has super-speed, he can fly, he is super-strong and he is invincible
GIRLFRIENDS: Every girl in the series
LOOKS: An কমলা hedgehog with black eyes
BACKSTORY: His hometown was destroyed দ্বারা Eggman so now he wants revenge on him
SUPER FORM: His super form is darker কমলা and he still has black eyes and ALL THE POWERS IN THE WORLD!!!OMG!!
HYPER FORM: His hyper form is exactly like his Super Form except he is neon orange
DARKSPINE FORM: His super form with white stripes and no pupils
DARK FORM: The same as his Darkspine form
WEREHOG FORM: He is exactly like Sonics’ except orange
GENDER: Male
POWERS: He can control fire, he can control ice, he can control electricity, he can control earth, he has super-speed, he can fly, he is super-strong and he is invincible
GIRLFRIENDS: Every girl in the series
LOOKS: An কমলা hedgehog with black eyes
BACKSTORY: His hometown was destroyed দ্বারা Eggman so now he wants revenge on him
SUPER FORM: His super form is darker কমলা and he still has black eyes and ALL THE POWERS IN THE WORLD!!!OMG!!
HYPER FORM: His hyper form is exactly like his Super Form except he is neon orange
DARKSPINE FORM: His super form with white stripes and no pupils
DARK FORM: The same as his Darkspine form
WEREHOG FORM: He is exactly like Sonics’ except orange