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"Edward, what did you... do while আপনি were gone?"
"Pretty much died."
"No, did আপনি meet anyone?"
Why would Bella ask something like that?
"Well, Tanya took in another female for her clan in Denali, but that's all."
Bella's face fell. Was that what she was expecting? Another female? Hadn't I told her at one point she was the only one for me? Then it dawned on me.
"What did Victoria tell you?" I asked.
"She ব্যক্ত আপনি and Jacob were dead," she responded. But it felt like she was only telling half of the truth.
"Bella-"
"Fine. She ব্যক্ত আপনি met a beautiful new girl in Denali, and আপনি loved her."
I couldn't believe this. She actually believed this lie?! Then I realized, I had left, saying I didn't প্রণয় her anymore. But even then, how could she still believe this lie, when I'm here, declaring I loved her ever since I met her?
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Bella was crying. No, she shouldn't cry!
"Don't be mad at me," she whimpered. Oh, I must be looking angry. অথবা violent.
"Bella, I can never be angry with you. I প্রণয় you. But why would আপনি believe this lie? The female thought I was mentally challenged when I didn't respond to her looks. I never talked to her, and she never talked to me, although she was attracted," I said. Bella looked at me skeptically. "You're the only one for me."
Bella relaxed.
"You silly human," I laughed lightly.
"Speaking of human..." Bella hinted faintly, knowing I knew what she was talking about.
"No," I growled.
"Please, Edward? Carlisle ব্যক্ত আপনি would do it if my হৃদয় took a turn for the worse, he'd called Alice."
"Only if আপনি were dying."
"Please, I am dying."
"I'll never take away your soul."
"You took it when আপনি first declared আপনি loved me."
"And I should have never gotten so close to you."
"Don't. Don't say that, please."
Bella was crying. That's when I realized what she heard in that last sentence.
"No, Bella, I'll never leave you."
"What if আপনি did, when I'm an old lady?"
"I wouldn't."
"So you'll let me get old?"
"Yes, and I'll keep আপনি out of harm's way."
Bella turned away.
"I would've been dead."
"What do আপনি mean?"
"If my হৃদয় took a turn for the worse, and আপনি left me to die, refusing to change me, I'd be dead. And আপনি promised never to kill yourself, not even after I'm dead."
"Bella, how can I survive... If the only reason I still exist is dead?"
Her eyes sparkled when I described her.
"You were the light in a cave, a cave with many openings. আপনি led me into a path, but I took a different one. I was blind, lost, and I'm glad that path had a detour back towards you."
Bella sighed and buried her face in my chest.
"Where's my stuff?" she said, muffled as she refused to সরানো away. She was intoxicated দ্বারা my scent.
I held her there, feeling the warmth tingle from her breath.
"They're under your floorboards. It seemed wrong to keep them," I murmured.
She laughed. It sounded like a heavenly chorus to me, her laugh. I'd died when I left, and went to Heaven দ্বারা seeing her and embracing her again. I guess there is a chance, like Carlisle said.
"What are আপনি thinking about?" Bella asked when she looked up.
"I'm thinking I may have already gone to Heaven," I chuckled. Then I leaned in to চুম্বন her.
"Please, Edward. আপনি have hope in you. You've already taken my soul. I want to be with আপনি forever."
"Please, Bella, I've already ব্যক্ত no."
"Forever," she emphasized. I opened my mouth and shook my head. No sound came out.
"Edward..." she whispered.
"Now?"
"What?"
"You want to change now?"
"Yes..."
I laid her down on my couch. I kissed her in resign. Her হৃদয় beat faster. My lips trailed toward her throat. I kissed her for a while, savoring the taste...
Then I paused, unsure of what pain I might cause her.
"It's okay, Edward, I can handle it."
That is so Bella. I hesitated. Then I braced myself for my first bite.
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End of Chapter 11
"Edward, what did you... do while আপনি were gone?"
"Pretty much died."
"No, did আপনি meet anyone?"
Why would Bella ask something like that?
"Well, Tanya took in another female for her clan in Denali, but that's all."
Bella's face fell. Was that what she was expecting? Another female? Hadn't I told her at one point she was the only one for me? Then it dawned on me.
"What did Victoria tell you?" I asked.
"She ব্যক্ত আপনি and Jacob were dead," she responded. But it felt like she was only telling half of the truth.
"Bella-"
"Fine. She ব্যক্ত আপনি met a beautiful new girl in Denali, and আপনি loved her."
I couldn't believe this. She actually believed this lie?! Then I realized, I had left, saying I didn't প্রণয় her anymore. But even then, how could she still believe this lie, when I'm here, declaring I loved her ever since I met her?
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Okay, we are still with Edward.
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Bella was crying. No, she shouldn't cry!
"Don't be mad at me," she whimpered. Oh, I must be looking angry. অথবা violent.
"Bella, I can never be angry with you. I প্রণয় you. But why would আপনি believe this lie? The female thought I was mentally challenged when I didn't respond to her looks. I never talked to her, and she never talked to me, although she was attracted," I said. Bella looked at me skeptically. "You're the only one for me."
Bella relaxed.
"You silly human," I laughed lightly.
"Speaking of human..." Bella hinted faintly, knowing I knew what she was talking about.
"No," I growled.
"Please, Edward? Carlisle ব্যক্ত আপনি would do it if my হৃদয় took a turn for the worse, he'd called Alice."
"Only if আপনি were dying."
"Please, I am dying."
"I'll never take away your soul."
"You took it when আপনি first declared আপনি loved me."
"And I should have never gotten so close to you."
"Don't. Don't say that, please."
Bella was crying. That's when I realized what she heard in that last sentence.
"No, Bella, I'll never leave you."
"What if আপনি did, when I'm an old lady?"
"I wouldn't."
"So you'll let me get old?"
"Yes, and I'll keep আপনি out of harm's way."
Bella turned away.
"I would've been dead."
"What do আপনি mean?"
"If my হৃদয় took a turn for the worse, and আপনি left me to die, refusing to change me, I'd be dead. And আপনি promised never to kill yourself, not even after I'm dead."
"Bella, how can I survive... If the only reason I still exist is dead?"
Her eyes sparkled when I described her.
"You were the light in a cave, a cave with many openings. আপনি led me into a path, but I took a different one. I was blind, lost, and I'm glad that path had a detour back towards you."
Bella sighed and buried her face in my chest.
"Where's my stuff?" she said, muffled as she refused to সরানো away. She was intoxicated দ্বারা my scent.
I held her there, feeling the warmth tingle from her breath.
"They're under your floorboards. It seemed wrong to keep them," I murmured.
She laughed. It sounded like a heavenly chorus to me, her laugh. I'd died when I left, and went to Heaven দ্বারা seeing her and embracing her again. I guess there is a chance, like Carlisle said.
"What are আপনি thinking about?" Bella asked when she looked up.
"I'm thinking I may have already gone to Heaven," I chuckled. Then I leaned in to চুম্বন her.
"Please, Edward. আপনি have hope in you. You've already taken my soul. I want to be with আপনি forever."
"Please, Bella, I've already ব্যক্ত no."
"Forever," she emphasized. I opened my mouth and shook my head. No sound came out.
"Edward..." she whispered.
"Now?"
"What?"
"You want to change now?"
"Yes..."
I laid her down on my couch. I kissed her in resign. Her হৃদয় beat faster. My lips trailed toward her throat. I kissed her for a while, savoring the taste...
Then I paused, unsure of what pain I might cause her.
"It's okay, Edward, I can handle it."
That is so Bella. I hesitated. Then I braced myself for my first bite.