That same day- at প্রথমপাতা Eric's perspective
If I was causing stress for her I might as well just left when I could. I cared for her. I even took care of her when she took ill in the future.
I remember it so well. I was walking into my house when my dad stopped me "Son, your mother is sick. Can আপনি take care of her while I go to work?" he asked
I didn't have to answer I went straight into the bedroom. I saw her lying on the bed. She was pale white and her hair was all frizzy. I sat kneeled against the বিছানা "Mother what's wrong?" I asked
She smiled weakly "Oh Eric. It's the horrible choice I made in high school. It arrived finally," she said
I frowned "What are talking about?" I asked holding her hand
She looked straight ahead "Not now honey. Mommy needs to sleep," she ব্যক্ত closing her eyes. She never did wake up. I never got to say that I lov-
"Eric are আপনি coming in?" Tom asked interrupting my thoughts
I nodded and walked into the house and sat down on the পালঙ্ক Tom was sitting on. He turned on the TV.
I was very curious and wanted to know about Tom and Athen's childhood "So did আপনি guys ever আপনি know hang out when আপনি were little?" I asked
He frowned "Oh sure all the time! She even taught me how to get girls. Listen dude I'm pretty sure that siblings don't hang out with each other অথবা play together when they were little," he said
My face flushed "Oh. Are আপনি sure?" I asked
He shrugged "I don't ask Athena. I don't remember that crap. She does. She remembers everything," he said
I nodded. That was true. She never forgot anthing. She even reminded me when it was my girlfriend's birthday and our anniversary.
"Why are আপনি asking this stuff man? Did আপনি ever do that with your siblings?" Tom asked
I looked অগ্রবর্তী "Uh no. I am an only child," I ব্যক্ত lying
He nodded "Uh huh sure. Whatever আপনি say man," he said
The phone rang before I had the chance to say "I'm not lying!" Tom got up and answered it.
"Hello? Who is this? Oh why hello my dear. What? Oh fine. ATHENA! It's for you!" he yelled
We hear a faint "I got it!" from upstairs and Tom hung up the phone. I asked Tom who it was and he ব্যক্ত it was Emily. We then heard a loud pitching scream and the sound of feet coming down the stairs "Really? They did? Awesome! Why? Oh wait it doesn't matter. What's that? He's at the mall? Oh my god I have to be there!" we heard Athena shrieking
Athena appeared and the bottom of the stairs phoneless and she quickly got her coat. Before she left she looked at us "If I am not প্রথমপাতা before mom gets here. Tell her I'm at the mall. Okay Tom?" she asked quickly
Tom hardly looked and mumbled "Fine,"
She glanced at me "You will make sure he does okay?" she asked
I nodded and she smiled "Thanks bye!" she ব্যক্ত disappearing out of the door. We heard a car start and go.
Tom rolled his head to look at me "Dude আপনি are letting her take advantage of you," he said
I frowned and denied it but he kept going "Oh yes she is. She knows আপনি like her so she is taking advantage of that and making আপনি do stuff for her," he said
I stood up "Dude it's just a favor. Let it go. Where's your bathroom?" I asked
He had gone back to watching football "It's uh down the hall. Look and walk straight ahead until আপনি hit a door. That's it," he said
I went down to the bathroom and did my thing. When I was finished I walked in the hallway and found her room. I smiled and pulled out Delor. I entered her room and started going over everything to see if there was anything that made her really sick in the future
Finally I got to the last drawer and I had হারিয়ে গেছে track of time. I opened it up and faced her drawer of undergarments. I guess I kind of froze there in shock and someone might take that the wrong way.
"Eric what are আপনি doing?" Athena asked from the doorway
I gasped and dropped Delor. He landed on the clothes with a tiny thump. I looked at Athena. She didn't look mad. She almost looked curious and a bit amused "I uh uh uh it was uh" I then bolted out of the room rushing past her and ran out of the house.
As I ran down the রাস্তা I hear Tom calling after me "How are আপনি going to get home?" he yelled
I panted "The bus!" I screamed
"Eric আপনি forgot your device thing!" I hear Athena shout
I didn't say anything. I just kept running living my dignity and their house behind.
If I was causing stress for her I might as well just left when I could. I cared for her. I even took care of her when she took ill in the future.
I remember it so well. I was walking into my house when my dad stopped me "Son, your mother is sick. Can আপনি take care of her while I go to work?" he asked
I didn't have to answer I went straight into the bedroom. I saw her lying on the bed. She was pale white and her hair was all frizzy. I sat kneeled against the বিছানা "Mother what's wrong?" I asked
She smiled weakly "Oh Eric. It's the horrible choice I made in high school. It arrived finally," she said
I frowned "What are talking about?" I asked holding her hand
She looked straight ahead "Not now honey. Mommy needs to sleep," she ব্যক্ত closing her eyes. She never did wake up. I never got to say that I lov-
"Eric are আপনি coming in?" Tom asked interrupting my thoughts
I nodded and walked into the house and sat down on the পালঙ্ক Tom was sitting on. He turned on the TV.
I was very curious and wanted to know about Tom and Athen's childhood "So did আপনি guys ever আপনি know hang out when আপনি were little?" I asked
He frowned "Oh sure all the time! She even taught me how to get girls. Listen dude I'm pretty sure that siblings don't hang out with each other অথবা play together when they were little," he said
My face flushed "Oh. Are আপনি sure?" I asked
He shrugged "I don't ask Athena. I don't remember that crap. She does. She remembers everything," he said
I nodded. That was true. She never forgot anthing. She even reminded me when it was my girlfriend's birthday and our anniversary.
"Why are আপনি asking this stuff man? Did আপনি ever do that with your siblings?" Tom asked
I looked অগ্রবর্তী "Uh no. I am an only child," I ব্যক্ত lying
He nodded "Uh huh sure. Whatever আপনি say man," he said
The phone rang before I had the chance to say "I'm not lying!" Tom got up and answered it.
"Hello? Who is this? Oh why hello my dear. What? Oh fine. ATHENA! It's for you!" he yelled
We hear a faint "I got it!" from upstairs and Tom hung up the phone. I asked Tom who it was and he ব্যক্ত it was Emily. We then heard a loud pitching scream and the sound of feet coming down the stairs "Really? They did? Awesome! Why? Oh wait it doesn't matter. What's that? He's at the mall? Oh my god I have to be there!" we heard Athena shrieking
Athena appeared and the bottom of the stairs phoneless and she quickly got her coat. Before she left she looked at us "If I am not প্রথমপাতা before mom gets here. Tell her I'm at the mall. Okay Tom?" she asked quickly
Tom hardly looked and mumbled "Fine,"
She glanced at me "You will make sure he does okay?" she asked
I nodded and she smiled "Thanks bye!" she ব্যক্ত disappearing out of the door. We heard a car start and go.
Tom rolled his head to look at me "Dude আপনি are letting her take advantage of you," he said
I frowned and denied it but he kept going "Oh yes she is. She knows আপনি like her so she is taking advantage of that and making আপনি do stuff for her," he said
I stood up "Dude it's just a favor. Let it go. Where's your bathroom?" I asked
He had gone back to watching football "It's uh down the hall. Look and walk straight ahead until আপনি hit a door. That's it," he said
I went down to the bathroom and did my thing. When I was finished I walked in the hallway and found her room. I smiled and pulled out Delor. I entered her room and started going over everything to see if there was anything that made her really sick in the future
Finally I got to the last drawer and I had হারিয়ে গেছে track of time. I opened it up and faced her drawer of undergarments. I guess I kind of froze there in shock and someone might take that the wrong way.
"Eric what are আপনি doing?" Athena asked from the doorway
I gasped and dropped Delor. He landed on the clothes with a tiny thump. I looked at Athena. She didn't look mad. She almost looked curious and a bit amused "I uh uh uh it was uh" I then bolted out of the room rushing past her and ran out of the house.
As I ran down the রাস্তা I hear Tom calling after me "How are আপনি going to get home?" he yelled
I panted "The bus!" I screamed
"Eric আপনি forgot your device thing!" I hear Athena shout
I didn't say anything. I just kept running living my dignity and their house behind.
OK so i was walking down the street...all alone...in the rain...not happy but not sad ether...when suddenly I ran into a একপ্রকার ফুলের গাছ tree!I don't know how I didn't see it...or why it was in the middle of the road-but it was there and when I looked at it I saw it was the biggest একপ্রকার ফুলের গাছ I had ever seen;it was absolutely GINORMOUS!it to be at least as tall as a skyscraper. I couldn't even see the top.Now what is the easiest way to get past a tree? Go around it of course! but when i looked there was a wall!Two walls!on ether side of the বৃক্ষ that prevented me from passing(again,how didn't I see this before?)It was not an ordinary
দেওয়াল ether,and must have taken allot of work to build because it was as tall,or taller than the tree!so I was stuck with a একপ্রকার ফুলের গাছ and two walls
what was I to do?turn back?I had come too far!so knowing this,what do আপনি think I did?What would আপনি have done?
দেওয়াল ether,and must have taken allot of work to build because it was as tall,or taller than the tree!so I was stuck with a একপ্রকার ফুলের গাছ and two walls
what was I to do?turn back?I had come too far!so knowing this,what do আপনি think I did?What would আপনি have done?
I look at the old photographs. It kills me to see him smile. I've only heard about him. I hear he would have loved me. I hear he was nice. I hear that he was a good dad. I hear he was an okay husband. I hear that he would have made a good grandfather. It's not fair. It kills me when my dad talks about him. My dad ব্যক্ত one of his last words to him were "Dont miss me when I'm gone." Those words run through my head. দিন and night and keep me up thinking of him. Why did he have to go? I pray he's okay and fine in heaven. I pretend he's still here. If only he were ... I miss him....
I guess he's just....
Hard to Let Go
Dedicated to my grandfather I miss আপনি ... even if I never met আপনি =,[
পরবর্তি journal entry coming up in few please
R&R
Thanks!!
I guess he's just....
Hard to Let Go
Dedicated to my grandfather I miss আপনি ... even if I never met আপনি =,[
পরবর্তি journal entry coming up in few please
R&R
Thanks!!