Meltdown.

আপনি are having a meltdown and your face is failing to hide it. Your lips are part, your eyes widen all because of this guy standing before you. In all his Captain American (your nickname for him) Glory with his, what আপনি just notice, large hands griping your umbrella. আপনি glanced over your locker hoping, praying, that Narnia was just a leap away. Quickly আপনি made a mental note to make a bonfire out of your Father’s ফ্যান্টাসি books.

“Vash?” He called out, grabbing your attention once more. You… You… What do আপনি do with this giant, then again standing at 5’3” anyone is a giant compared to you, which not only play but also hang with the same crowd that beats the living hell out of you? “I wanted to—“

Saved দ্বারা the bell, without warning আপনি slam your locker shut with the needed materials dangling from your arms and beeline to your 1st period. The hallways suddenly became a highway: mouths honking, heavy flow with exits with each turn and scurrying feet to make their destination. Nothing is new and everything is simple. Until over all the buzz of gibberish, আপনি heard him.

Loud and clear and over the herd,” Vash let’s meet up after school, দ্বারা the lunch yard!”

Don’t turn around, don’t turn around but most of all, do not turn around! Damn it, আপনি turn your head. আপনি just don’t listen do you? Despite all your claims from the night before about how আপনি are not going to have any, any relations with Captain America. আপনি blew it, আপনি acknowledge him and now he is going to take advantage of the approval আপনি gave for turning around and acknowledging him. Yeah, slap your forehead as আপনি enter 1st period: Computer Applications.

An easy class to have in the morning, nothing too complicated for your drooping mind. আপনি sat idly in front of the blaring screen, occasionally swooshing your chair causing your hanging feet to swing. Mr. Paulson was explaining a little too thrilling voice for the absent minded teenagers on how,” today, we will be learning how to make Menus in Microsoft Word!” Just like that, the excruciating 58-minute period started and each keystroke was slowly killing off some minutes. আপনি mind was elsewhere and আপনি realize that when Mr. Paulson stalked over and told you,” Vash, আপনি been typing the same sentence for the last 5 minutes.”

“I am?” Yes আপনি are. Staring at the sentence that was repeated about a dozen times.

“How about going to sleep early?” He joked, lightly patting your back before taking his leave to help another nameless student in your book.

Superman fingertips gently trace over the large chest of his fellow hero, his friend. He desperately searched for the slightest heartbeat, hoping he was wrong.

আপনি brought your palm over your face in distress; this was not the time and most of all, not the place to work on your homoerotic fanfiction. Button smashing the Backspace key, আপনি started to wonder if anybody in your classroom actually read fanfics. Deciding to survey of your classmates, আপনি became conscious of a fact. আপনি don’t know a single name.

“Did আপনি need something, Vash?”

“Oh! No, no, no. Not at all, I was just…” আপনি quit mid sentence and went straight back to the screen.

There wasn’t a chance in sight for আপনি to get back to work. Sighing আপনি saved whatever আপনি had done, a শিরোনাম in Broadway font, and went straight to the web. Trying to get your mind off of your stupidity, however just as the Wikipedia page loaded up your pocket vibrated. আপনি felt your blood run cold while আপনি fumble to take out your phone. A riddled neighbor was watching your pathetic display of being sly; she shook her head acknowledging your fail attempt. You, on the other hand, paid little attention to her peek.

Finally releasing your phone from the clutches of plaid, আপনি হাঁস behind the tower station beside your monitor and took a look. It was a message from one of your chums, Olivier অথবা what আপনি saved her as: “Robin.”

“hey, hey, my little sources told me that আপনি were talking to a certain blondy name Colt;)”

Great, the last person আপনি wanted to know knows. Ducking আপনি hear lower and deeper into the glaring screen, আপনি quirky text back,” robin where did আপনি hear that from???”

Off it went. Still, আপনি kept your eyes locked onto the screen waiting for the পরবর্তি message from your crazed friend. At the same time, আপনি were experiencing a small হৃদয় attack, an attack that your fanboy হৃদয় knows all too well but damn it; this is not the good kind!

The phone slipped from your palms and landed straight onto the keyboard, to your luck, Olivier texted back. Just as the first vibrating resonated, আপনি snatch the out-dated phone and quickly snapped your heard above the tower to see if anybody notice.

“a little birdy told me~”

“was it wg?!?!” দ্বারা W.G. আপনি mean Wonder Girl, অথবা what she is better known as Kairi.

“yup, she told me he was talking to আপনি দ্বারা your locker. Are আপনি guys an item now;) didn’t know আপনি had a blonde fetish, how are we going to break it rusty?”

“NO আপনি ravaging butt!”

Just when আপনি were about to send the message, s cough twitched your ear. Pulling up from the screen আপনি saw it was Mr. Paulson with a stern look of disapproval.

“Vash.”

“Sorry, Mr. Paulson.” আপনি apologize as আপনি handed over your flip.

“Come after school to retrieve it.”

“Okay.”

When he left, আপনি solemnly placed your head onto the ডেস্ক and just wish over and over again to die there…. In reality on a (filthy) computer ডেস্ক in a room filled with people আপনি don’t even know but in fantasy, আপনি were in the arms of your hero… Superma—Colt?!

Jumping up from your seat, আপনি took another glance around the room. Good, no one notice your stupidity. Shaking your head in disgust, আপনি return back to your work. Up until the ঘণ্টা rang.

After slipping out of 1st period, the rest of the evening was dreadful, almost painstaking irritating. Somehow the drone evolved to monotone, the chattering became idiotic no matter who’s in the conversation, even the once soothing AC filled Chem. lab felt like a jab straight to your bones.

When the afternoon came rolling around with the sound of grade B products being thrown away, আপনি were head deep into your locker searching for textbook while Russ was standing beside আপনি rambling on about how his contacts were killing him.

“….. So I might switch back to my glasses.” He leaned against the locker right পরবর্তি to yours. “It’s not my first choice but it’s my only choice.”

“Isn’t still ফুটবল season?”

“Shit!” Russ slapped his forehead. “That reminds me…”

“Huh?” আপনি began to withdraw from cavern, your lip biting onto the sleeve of Russ’ jacket.

“I forgot, fuck!”

Russ still had আপনি in the dark. আপনি watch him, wide eye, reach for his bag and slung the straps over his shoulders.

“Soccer meeting right now, I’ll see আপনি later?”

আপনি carefully shut your locker shut, your fingers barely peeking out the long sleeve.

“IRL?”

“Maybe, if anything I’ll let আপনি know.”

“ ‘Kay.” আপনি peep.

Russ just smiled, one of those smiles that get আপনি all warm inside. আপনি smile back and before আপনি know it, he yanks আপনি অগ্রবর্তী and wrapped his arms around you. After getting over the initial stinging, it felt nice. The warmth of the ভালুক hug making আপনি feel all cozy, as if আপনি were sitting in front of the fireplace পাঠ করা some,” Action Comics.”

“You know where to find me if anything.”

Like that Russ was gone, mixing with the overpopulating crowd. It was hard to spot him since he wasn’t wearing his signature green lettermen. Reasoning being that you, yes you, are wearing it. Seeing there’s no point of staring into the abyss, আপনি turn around to the other direction. However in mid step আপনি were caught off guard দ্বারা a new pair of hands. Your back slammed against the locker, already people began to turn their cheeks and shuffle away. Your glasses slide down the bridge of your nose, your vision becoming blurred yet আপনি could still make out the blue irises staring, glaring at you. Under his smoldering glare, আপনি shuddered from his smolder.

“Vash, who was that?” His farm boy accent prompt, an accent আপনি were teased for never having. “Huh?”

“Russell.” আপনি whimper while আপনি avert your glance elsewhere.

The pressure against your shoulders started to become overbearing, আপনি hoped they wouldn’t pop out of place. আপনি kicked your feet down only swiping air; quickly আপনি brought your gaze back to him. It was Colt. His face contorted with anger and আপনি don’t know why.

“You’re… You’re hurting me.” আপনি admit while আপনি hands ringed his wrist.

Suddenly, আপনি dropped. Your body slammed against the floor as অশ্বশাবক banged his heels away, ignoring your puzzlement with ease. Nonetheless, আপনি picked yourself up brushing off the dirt from plaid pants. আপনি took another glance towards Colt, who was making way for the wet yard. আপনি notice that অশ্বশাবক was walking rather… fast. Maybe he was in hurry that’s why he didn’t slap আপনি around, who knows? All আপনি know is, if অশ্বশাবক does finish whatever task at hand আপনি need to make out of school fast.

অশ্বশাবক was no Ivan, that much আপনি know already. Ivan has strength of an average football player whereas অশ্বশাবক is beyond those years. আপনি squeezed your shoulders in remembrance, his warmth still lingers. Maybe আপনি were just imagining it: the inhuman pressure. Colt’s thumbing sat snuggly over your petite shoulders, his thick fingers digging into your shoulders. Anybody could do that, but… That look he gave you. The sensation rattling throughout your body like a heat wave, causing sparks to fly. আপনি shuddered at the thought. What were you, a masochistic?

আপনি pondered upon these thoughts as আপনি slip under the whole underneath the fence. Ditching school is a no big deal for you, in fact আপনি rather be প্রথমপাতা all দিন experimenting on your latest findings অথবা chatting with your chums over the Internet. However, Russ speaks otherwise.

The relationship between আপনি and Russ is complicated at best; the only clearance আপনি ever gain was that আপনি consider him as a bro. Still, আপনি couldn’t help but to think he wants to be আরো than that, the way he treats you, hugs you, touches you. It’s different from Olivier for sure. Naturally আপনি weren’t the only one receiving these vibes, a lot of girls treat আপনি like সেকেন্ড class if not completely shun you. Unlike you, Russ is a জনপ্রিয় guy: Charismatic, athletic, adventurous and handsome. You, on the other hand, are nothing like that. আপনি doubt that you’ll ever become like that: you’re social awkward, আপনি consider sports as witchcraft, আপনি prefer your comfort zone and buckteeth, and glasses are not bringing in the men.

Sighing, আপনি keep walking on the lonesome street. Russ is a cool guy and no doubt আপনি প্রণয় him like a bro. He was the first person আপনি came out the closet to, all he ব্যক্ত was,” is that suppose to change anything?” and gave আপনি this confuse look. আপনি didn’t get it until afterwards but he wasn’t confused at all, in fact he was enlightened. আপনি smile at the thought whereas আপনি bawl you’re eyes out at the time because আপনি thought he was making fun of you.

Homosexuality is a hard thing to live with, especially in a small community here in Kansas. আপনি have yet to come out the closet but what’s the point where there’s already a rumor going around. আপনি look at your sleeve-covered hands: this জ্যাকেট was the উৎস of the problems.

It all star—

Honks of the horn blare and disrupt your flow, আপনি turn to your left and hello came the semi truck. আপনি froze, body becoming tense. আপনি stare like a deer caught in the headlights oh dear is this right?

Reflexively আপনি brought your hands over your face in a lame attempt of defense. আপনি ready for impact, ready for the tears of your father and mother to drop. আপনি were ready for the worst. Yet, nothing came except the scraps of the snarling metal. আপনি drop your hands just like your jaw dropped.

The semi was put to the stop but not দ্বারা the brakes it was supplied with. Human, a being with his red cape slumping over his bare shoulder, stopped it দ্বারা the sapphire boots he stomp in. He glances from behind his tussle blonde hair already আপনি quiver underneath his gaze.

“Who are you?" Your mind taking over your vocals.