I know I have to forget আপনি but my হৃদয় is always searching for you. I have a person here who is দ্বারা my side and I know I shouldn't be doing this. But the thought of আপনি coming back, of hugging me once more...it's a silly thought I know. Forgive me for being the girl I didn't want to be for you, but that was all I could be.

The পরবর্তি দিন at school, আপনি go to hang out with the girls at the cafeteria but আপনি don't see Lauren there.

Jessica and Tanya: নমস্কার Jamie.
Jamie: Hey. Where's Lauren?
Jessica: With the boys. Didn't আপনি hear? She got back with Randy.
Jamie: Yah...
Tanya: What happened Jamie?
Jamie: It's...it's too long to explain.
Jessica; But Jamie...
Jamie: I don't wanna talk about it.
Tanya: Did আপনি give him up? অথবা did he give আপনি up?
Jamie: ...
Jessica: Yah Tanya lets just leave her alone...

আপনি look at the boys' টেবিল and আপনি see Lauren and Randy together. আপনি see Lauren go in for a চুম্বন on Randy's lips but he moves his head and pretends he's talking with Raymond. আপনি can see Lauren's face and she's pissed. আপনি shake it off and আপনি just eat your lunch with the girls...

**Thanksgiving**

আপনি spend the Thanksgiving weekend with Shawn. আপনি give Angie to Brad and আপনি just hang out with Shawn all দিন long. At night, আপনি and Shawn watch a movie. After the movie, আপনি two walk out and আপনি guys get in his car.

Jamie: Can আপনি take me to Randy's house? I need to pick up my sister there.
Shawn: Sure...

Shawn is driving and driving...

Jamie: Where are আপনি going?
Shawn: ...

Shawn keeps driving to some other road you've never seen before.

Jamie: Shawn...where are we going?

Shawn stops the car near an abandoned house and he gets out. He motions for আপনি to get out too and আপনি do. The house gives আপনি the creeps and he grabs your hand tightly. He drags আপনি toward the house but আপনি kinda pull back, not wanting to go there. He pulls আপনি in for a hard and violent kiss. আপনি try to push him off but he's too strong. He starts pulling on your শার্ট and his hands go in your শার্ট quickly taking them off you. আপনি grab his face and আপনি মুষ্ট্যাঘাত it as had as আপনি can. It doesn't work and দ্বারা now he's all up on you. আপনি then scratch him as hard as আপনি can and he kinda backs off. আপনি grab your শার্ট and আপনি run to the road as fast as আপনি can where people can see you...you look at Shawn and আপনি see him get in his car and drive away. আপনি start crying hysterically and আপনি put on your শার্ট backwards, not realizing it. আপনি run to the road where everyone can see আপনি and আপনি run to Randy's house. আপনি knock furiously on the door, crying and crying. Brad opens the door to see আপনি all like that.

Brad: J-Jamie?
Jamie: Brad...Brad I need to talk to Randy.
Brad: He's not here right now. He's with Lauren.
Jamie: Brad...*cries again*

আপনি hug Brad first and he embraces আপনি like a brother. Brad brings আপনি in the house and takes আপনি upstairs to his room. He sits আপনি down on his chair and আপনি slowly stop crying.

Brad: What happened?
Jamie: Shawn...
Brad: ...wh-what did he do? And...your শার্ট is on backwards...
Jamie: *cries again*
Brad: Oh no...oh no no please...don't tell me...
Jamie: He tried to...he...*cries* Oh god what am I gonna do...

Brad hugs আপনি again and he embraces আপনি আরো tightly than before. He rubs your arm and he comforts you.

Brad: Jamie promise me right now আপনি and Shawn are nothing.
Jamie: What do আপনি think Brad...
Brad: *sigh* I'll take care of him. He's not ever gonna mess with আপনি ever again.
Jamie: Thanks Brad...

আপনি hear the door open and আপনি look at Brad.

Brad: I think it's Randy. C'mon.

Brad helps আপনি up and leads আপনি to the living room. আপনি see Randy and Lauren there together. Lauren is laughing while Randy has a --__-- face on. When he sees you, his face suddenly goes :D but quickly to :/ and Lauren's face goes from :D to >:[...

Brad: নমস্কার আপনি two.
Lauren: নমস্কার Brad...Jamie. Why are আপনি here?
Jamie: M-my sister.
Brad: And she needs to talk to আপনি Randy.
Randy: M-me?
Jamie: *nods*
Brad: I'll take Lauren back home.
Lauren: Aww Randy can't you-

She doesn't finish because Randy is already দ্বারা your side, seeing আপনি cry. Randy puts his hand on your back and leads আপনি to his room.

Lauren: Randy!
Randy: Oh right. Goodnight Lauren.

Randy just goes back up to his room with আপনি while Brad drops off Lauren. আপনি sit down on Randy's chair and he sits down on his bed.

Randy: Why are আপনি crying?
Jamie: ...
Randy: ....
Jamie: I...*sigh* I'm sorry Randy. For everything I've done. For all the pain I've put আপনি through, I'm really sorry...
Randy: ...
Jamie: I...I need আপনি Randy. Now আরো than ever...I need you.
Randy: ...
Jamie: I know I keep changing my mind but...but Randy...please...*cries* I need to be with you. I don't think I'll be able to live without you.
Randy: ...
Jamie: Randy...please...
Randy: But আপনি left me first Jamie...
Jamie: I-I know but...but I can learn from my mistakes...
Randy: I...I want to take আপনি back but I just can't. I can't let that happen.