I feel abandoned.

I have a large group of amazing and loyal Besties, with whom I can share anything. But one of them (the one who left for about 8 months) all of a sudden is refusing to let me back into her life again. She's অভিনয় as though I'm just some যেভাবে খুশী person that happens to be standing there and listening to the conversation.

I'm the kind of person who will stand there and wait to be spoken to, so I never feel comfortable when I start the conversations.

She looks at me and smiles, and hugs me from time to time, but this is a far cry from the last time we ever did anything together, which was 8 months ago, the দিন before she left for Italy. That's the last time I ever felt like I meant something to her. Now I feel hollow and empty, like a part of me is missing.

For বড়দিন last year, I got her a বিভক্ত করা হৃদয় Best বন্ধু necklace, which she really seemed to appreciate. But now she doesn't even wear it anymore. I haven't taken mine off since the দিন I got them. I don't even know if she still has it anymore.

I'm lonely and confused. I never feel like talking to anybody anymore, and I feel like I need to suck it up and সরানো on, but I can't. I miss being as close as we were. I miss when she used to tell everyone else to "hold that thought", so that she could talk to me. I miss when she used to make me sit in her lap, and hug me all the time, even in the hallway for no reason.

My হৃদয় is physically hurting right now, and I don't know what to do about it at all. I feel like I don't matter to her anymore. Can someone give me উপদেশ on how to fix this issue?

I know that she may be hurting inside, that she may be upset with me, অথবা even hate me for some reason. I know that this is childish, but I just want things to go back to the way they were...