Summary: Three years have passed since Humphrey ran away from Jasper after all the heartbreak, now he's a lone নেকড়ে living as if it all never happened thanks to a head injury. However he will soon realize just what he has forgotten when he gets an unknown visitor. Will he come to terms with the past that he lost, অথবা will it end up just causing him to break and feel the hurt all over again?
Fragments of a হারিয়ে গেছে Life – TheChriZ1995
I keep having these strange flashes in my dreams lately, visions that at first seem like only a normal dream but for some reason feel so familiar. I see myself living in the confines of a pack around other নেকড়ে that I do not recognize. It's making me confused, for as long as I can remember I have been a lone নেকড়ে living here in the mountains, I have never been in a pack yet why am I having these visions? When I close my eyes I see all kinds of things like other wolves, landscapes, and even experiences of traveling a long distance with a particular wolf. Yet it's all a blur of mystery that makes no sense but feels as real as my memories of what happened yesterday. I feel like I'm being haunted, as if there's a point of time in my life that I have forgotten about, but how? How could I have forgotten something when there's no physical way I could have, I don't recall getting a bad injury involving brain damages. Perhaps this is just a phase and it will all just go away allowing me to go back to living my life like normal, for now I'm at the mercy of these visions and I'll just have to try and put the pieces together.
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Humphrey's POV
Today had been going pretty well for me so far, spring was in the air and with it brought relieving warmth after a long cold winter. I sometimes wondered why I decided to live in the mountains, it was much শীতল being higher up however it's also a pretty secluded and নিরাপদ place up here. I had gone out early to do some hunting in the local area and ended up bringing down one deer meaning that I would be fed well for several days now. I dragged it back to my little গর্ত located পরবর্তি to a small pond and clearing that I've called প্রথমপাতা for many years now. I decided to get a little rest in the suns warmth but this only ended up with me just having the visions pay me another visit. I have learned to accept it and did my best to keep a visual note as to what they looked like considering it all passed দ্বারা so fast.
During this particular time I found myself sitting beside another নেকড়ে talking with them, however I couldn't hear any of the words being said. This নেকড়ে came up a lot during these dreams, their পশম color was tan with brown eyes to match but I still didn't know whether they were male অথবা female. There were times where things were friendly between us, but then there were times where we didn't get along. Maybe we were বন্ধু but then had a falling out of sorts, the defiant answer was still not clear, and it may never be. These visions have only been happening for a week অথবা so now and I'm still trying to make sense of it all. The tan নেকড়ে wasn't the only নেকড়ে I have seen frequently though, in fact there was a group of three which I found to be friendly and spent time with as well.
Of course the আরো I would see the আরো প্রশ্ন I would get about why am I seeing these things and why do they feel like their something major and not just another dream. I ended up waking back up from my nap and found the sun still shining up above, it was afternoon and I had nothing else I needed to do. I stretched my body before getting off of the warm rock I slept on, it was times like this I would think of something to do other than sit around all day. Sometimes it could get pretty lonely here in between times of meeting other wolves, I know a few others that lived in the area but we never talked much. The ones I would end up talking to would be the ones just passing through between the packs of নেকড়ে that lived on either side of the mountain peaks. In all my years of living here I have never gone to visit either of the packs, I was doing fine out here for myself ever sense I left my parents at the age of one. I wondered if I would ever see them again, they lived several miles away as lone নেকড়ে as well.
But a lot of things can change in the three years sense I left them to go try my luck out here in the wild wilderness. I learned how to look after myself দ্বারা hunting and building my strength so that I had the best chances of surviving in a fight. Fortunately I haven't found myself in a fight yet, there were times I would have to ask নেকড়ে to leave if they were near where I lived. But it never escalated to the point of physical conflict, and I was glad, I didn't see the need in fighting অথবা even killing another wolf. I was the peaceful kind of নেকড়ে rather than one that wanted to fight others as a good kind of challenge অথবা entertainment.
I decided to go out and scout around the area to make sure my scent border was still strong and that no one has intruded it, as a lone নেকড়ে I considered the area around my গর্ত to be mine and I was sure to keep it that way. It wasn't a large area considering it's just for one নেকড়ে but it was plenty large enough for me. So far things were fairly normal for a walk around the border until I caught the scent of an unknown wolf. It was pretty fresh leading me to believe that they had just passed দ্বারা here, I decided to follow it considering it was going towards the pond পরবর্তি to my den. I had memorized the scents of the other lone নেকড়ে around these peaks but this one seemed foreign. I was hoping whoever this নেকড়ে was they wouldn't be trying to steal the deer I had lying beside the গর্ত and in plain view of the pond. It didn't take long to arrive back প্রথমপাতা but I stalked my way around to make sure the নেকড়ে wouldn't hear me if they were still here. I hid behind a গুল্ম as I looked around it so see a নেকড়ে drinking out of the pond in front of me, I watched them for a bit before deciding to go and confront them. I got up and silently walked up behind them and sat down a few feet away as they continued to drink. I didn't mind if they were only here to get some water, and it wouldn't be the first নেকড়ে too but I always told them to leave and pointed them in the direction of a river about a mile away.
I cleared my throat before speaking "Hello, can I help you?" I greeted
The নেকড়ে immediately spun around to face me surprised, I could sense they were afraid as they back away a little "Oh I'm so sorry, I didn't realize that আপনি lived here" They replied with a voice indicating that she was a female.
"It's alright, your just here for water right?" I asked
"Yeah sorry, I'll just leave if আপনি don't want me here" She ব্যক্ত sounding disappointed
For some reason I felt like forgiving this wolf, it wasn't that it was because she was female but because she seemed nice and I could use a little company for the moment. "No you're fine, feel free to continue what আপনি were doing" I said
She thanked me before lowering her head to drink some আরো as I just looked around waiting for her to finish, her পশম color was a golden tan color with white underbelly. Her eyes were amber and she was fairly attractive although her পশম was a bit of a mess, but I wasn't trying to make a সরানো on her দ্বারা being kind. I've never been one to understand প্রণয় so I've never been looking for it, and I'm okay with that. I was happy with living out my life alone if it ended up coming to that. She finished before sitting down and looking at me although it wasn't a normal stare, it was as if she recognized me in some way I didn't understand. She didn't look like someone I've met before so I decided to ignore it and ask what she was doing here.
"You new around here?" I asked while drawing circles in the soft dirt
"Yeah I'm just passing through" She answered
I nodded "I'm Humphrey" I ব্যক্ত holding out my paw to shake
"Humphrey? আপনি don't happen to come from a place called Jasper Park do you?" She asked sounding hopeful about it
"Um no I don't, I was raised a ways away with my parents but it wasn't a place called Jasper." I answered putting my paw back down
"Oh..." She ব্যক্ত holding her head down in shame
I could tell something was wrong so I decided to ask her about it "You looking for someone?"
"Yeah, it's kind of a long story" She replied looking back at me
"Well your free to tell me if আপনি like, besides I'm sure আপনি need a place to stay for the night so your welcome to stay here if আপনি wish." I said
Normally I was never this kind to strangers but I wanted to hear her out considering she's looking for a নেকড়ে named Humphrey so it struck my curiosity. Besides she didn't look hostile and she appeared to be fairly worn out and tired so I wanted to be kind in giving her a secure place to rest for the night before she would continue on her journey.
"Oh that is very kind of আপনি but I don't want to be a bother to you" She replied
"I insist, besides আপনি must be hungry and tired from traveling" I said
"Thank আপনি Humphrey, আপনি are the nicest নেকড়ে I've met out here so far." She ব্যক্ত giving a smile "I'm Kate"
I smiled as well from her compliment "Nice to meet you, come I already got some খাবার for আপনি back in my den" I ব্যক্ত before tuning and leading her the few yards to the den.
"Feel free to grab what আপনি can eat, I'll be inside" I ব্যক্ত pointing to the deer I had caught earlier that laid beside the entrance
She nodded her head and thanked me again as I retired into the dark but large open মহাকাশ that I've called my home, I sat at the back of the গর্ত and waited for her to come and যোগদান me. I was looking অগ্রবর্তী to getting to talk with someone for once after a long week and a half of just being myself. A মিনিট later she walked into the গর্ত with a chunk of the deer meat in her mouth, she sat across the way from me but was faced towards me.
"This is quite the প্রথমপাতা আপনি got here" She admired looking around the room "You’re a lone নেকড়ে right?"
"Sure am, have been for around three years now after I left my parents" I replied
"I see, aren't আপনি going to eat too?" She asked
"Nah I'm fine right now, I might later though but don't let that stop আপনি from eating." I ব্যক্ত looking at her as she took a bite
"Aright, well since we're going to be here for a while why don't we get to know each other" She suggested
"Sounds good to me, আপনি go first" I answered
"I'm Kate and I am an alpha that comes from Jasper Park, a place fairly far away from here, I like to do things adventurous but also help serve my pack." She said
"Very nice, I'm Humphrey and I have been a lone নেকড়ে for all of my life since my parents were lone নেকড়ে themselves. I like to play games to keep myself occupied on শীর্ষ of taking care of myself and this little place I call home." I ব্যক্ত summing up who I was
"So you've never been a part of a pack?" She asked
"Not at all, I have an understanding of how their structure works but I haven't been the one who wants to be in the confines of a pack around other wolves." I replied
"I understand how আপনি feel, it can get pretty hectic at times" She ব্যক্ত after she finished eating "That was good, again thank you"
I smiled hearing how thankful she was for my act of kindness "You are welcome" I said
"I don't mean to be rude but why have আপনি done this for me? I have met plenty of other lone নেকড়ে on my travels but none that allowed me to stay at their গর্ত instead of me trying to find my own place." She asked looking at me after cleaning off her muzzle
"You seem like a kind wolf, and I like to have some company every now and then, I find it interesting meeting others that come from faraway places, I sometimes learn new things." I replied
She smiled and nodded her head happy with my answer, we sat quietly for a few মিনিট as the light outside slowly began to grow dim as the sun was beginning to set. I decided to get some খাবার for myself seeing that we will most likely be sitting here and talking for the rest of the night. I still didn't know about this নেকড়ে that she was looking for which held the same name as myself so I changed the subject to it.
"So, why exactly are আপনি way out here and not back with your pack?" I asked
"It's a long story..." She ব্যক্ত making it sound like it wasn't a happy one
"I'm all ears" I ব্যক্ত looking at her but took bites of the chunk of deer I grabbed earlier
"Well it all started when I got back from alpha school..." She began
She told me about the course of events beginning with finding out that she held the responsibility of marrying a নেকড়ে of another pack in order to unite them both. This was only the start of her problems, later on she got taken away and relocated to a place called Idaho alongside an omega from her pack. She ব্যক্ত he was a good friend from her puppyhood days and that without his help she would have never made it back প্রথমপাতা on her own. I was really getting in to this story she was telling because it sounded like quite the journey for two wolves. She began to get feelings towards this নেকড়ে and along the way প্রথমপাতা and they even howled together which sounded nice দ্বারা the way she described it. However things went south once they arrived back home, she had failed to tell him about the arranged wedding simply because she thought he already knew. At the time she ব্যক্ত she was so overwhelmed and confused দ্বারা everything that she hadn't even stopped to think about her true feelings. She paid the price দ্বারা losing the নেকড়ে she truly cared about because he ran away to become a lone wolf, which explains why she's out here.
"... I was so close to sealing my fate with a নেকড়ে I didn't প্রণয় but I backed out while I still had the chance, everyone was confused but I announced that I didn't প্রণয় Garth because I loved Humphrey. It was a major shock to everyone because an alpha couldn't প্রণয় an omega but I didn't care. In fact it turned out while I was gone Garth and Lilly had fallen in প্রণয় so they ended up uniting the pack through their marriage." She ব্যক্ত as the গর্ত grew dark to the point where I could barely see her.
"Wow..." Was all I could say from hearing what she has gone through in the course of a few weeks long পূর্বে "So now you’ve been out here searching for this নেকড়ে আপনি love, even after three years?" I ব্যক্ত seeing how it would make sense
"Yes, but it has been on and off though, I would spend a few months searching around and then head back প্রথমপাতা to Jasper to rest and stay in the loop with my family." She said
"Now that is some true প্রণয় right there, I've never heard of a নেকড়ে who would spend years to find the one they care about." I said
She smiled "I প্রণয় him with all my হৃদয় and still do, but the searching in its self has been pretty fun yet saddening. I've been to all kinds of places and met many faces but as each দিন goes দ্বারা I know that eventually I will just have to give up my search. Will I ever প্রণয় another wolf? Probably not because I can only see myself with him, I just want to see him again and tell him how much I প্রণয় him. I know he loves me back because I have noticed how he has always cared and looked after me during the course of our friendship." She ব্যক্ত starting to get a little emotional talking about it.
"...and when I first saw আপনি earlier today I thought I had finally found him because আপনি look just like he did only আপনি look larger in body size." She said
I grew confused দ্বারা hearing this, so she is looking for a নেকড়ে named Humphrey who also looks exactly like me, this seemed too strange to be true considering the chances of there being another নেকড়ে like me in this world were very slim. But obviously there had to be because why else would she be here right now.
"Now that is strange" I ব্যক্ত looking at her
"I know, and not to mention your voice is similar which now that I think about it, it has to be you..." She ব্যক্ত suddenly looking up at me
I eyed her strangely "But I already told আপনি I have never been to অথবা heard of a place called Jasper, I've never been a part of a pack either." I said
"I don't understand... how can there be two Humphrey's on this world that speak and look exactly the same?" She ব্যক্ত getting up and walking closer to me
The moon had begun to shine meaning we could both see each other fairly well now thanks to a skylight in my গর্ত "I don't know either, but I don't see any way how I could be this wolf. I haven't even met আপনি before in my life let alone develop feelings for you." I ব্যক্ত looking back at her
She looked at me in a way that ব্যক্ত she still was not satisfied, I had no idea what was happening now, in fact I was getting a little scared thinking that this নেকড়ে was pulling some joke অথবা act on me. She walked around me slowly, continuing to look at me from head to paw, I just sat still not knowing what to do other than figure out what the hell was happening.
"Where did আপনি get that scar?" She asked stopping in front of me again to sit down.
"What scar?" I asked looking down at my sides to see what she was talking about
"The one on the back of your head, it looks like আপনি got hit দ্বারা something." She said
I then knew what she was talking about, and honestly I've had the scar for as long as I can remember and don't know how I got it.
"I don't remember, all I know is it hurt like hell after I got it" I said
"I think I know how..." She ব্যক্ত knowing something I did not
At this point I just decided to go along with whatever it is she's doing "Alright, what makes আপনি such the expert?" I said
"Well আপনি see my mother is the healer of our pack and what I've heard from her is that if a নেকড়ে lives through a serious impact to the head they can lose some of their memory." She ব্যক্ত sounding calm about it.
"So you’re saying I have হারিয়ে গেছে some of my memory?" I said
"What I'm saying is আপনি are the Humphrey I have been looking for these past three years but আপনি just don't know it because you've somehow হারিয়ে গেছে your memory in between the time আপনি left and now." She said
I began to back away slowly until I was against the দেওয়াল of my গর্ত as she continued to sit looking at me "No... No you're crazy!" I exclaimed not wanting to believe what she's telling me.
"I'm telling আপনি Humphrey, what I speak is the truth and I know for a fact দ্বারা looking at আপনি that আপনি are the নেকড়ে that I grew up with and love." She ব্যক্ত not backing down
"Okay why are আপনি truly here, did one of the nearby packs send আপনি here to mess with me, because I am going to make them regret that choice." I ব্যক্ত getting tired of hearing this
"I told আপনি why I am here, I'm not trying to hurt আপনি অথবা be mean, and in fact I'm trying to help আপনি remember what you've lost." She argued
"I haven't হারিয়ে গেছে anything, I was raised দ্বারা lone নেকড়ে and then moved away out here, that's it! So how can I remember that if I have হারিয়ে গেছে the memory of my past?" I ব্যক্ত seeing a way through this.
"I never ব্যক্ত a নেকড়ে would lose all their memory from a head injury, sometimes they do but it's rare. And a নেকড়ে that has হারিয়ে গেছে some of their memory can sometimes get some of it back over time. আপনি were not born in my pack Humphrey, in fact your lone নেকড়ে parents placed আপনি in our pack so that আপনি would stay safe. It seems that আপনি have forgotten all your memories of being in Jasper." She said
It had become obvious that she knew what she was talking about, but I still didn't believe her, not that I should anyway. I think anyone would think someone was crazy if they suddenly started telling them about things that they don't remember. I thought about just asking her to leave and spare me all of the confusion and craziness but after arguing with her I've come to realize that she was a stubborn wolf, and wouldn't back down so easily.
I just let out a frustrated sigh "So what now?" I asked thinking she still had প্রশ্ন to ask me.
"Well seeing that আপনি think I'm crazy I'm just going to leave আপনি to your thoughts and maybe... just maybe it will all suddenly click. Because I am out of options other than asking আপনি to come back to Jasper with me." She said.
"How would that help?" I asked
"Well I have a theory, if I bring আপনি প্রথমপাতা and আপনি see and meet all the নেকড়ে আপনি grew up with then আপনি might suddenly realize all that আপনি have lost." She said
My head was spinning at this point, do I trust this নেকড়ে that says I have হারিয়ে গেছে my memory and let her take me to this place she says I've come from, অথবা do I just ask her to leave in the morning? I didn't see what I had to lose দ্বারা going and a change in scenery would be nice, besides if it turned out she had been wrong about me then I can just come back home. It was at this moment that I remembered about the visions I have been having these past few days, perhaps there was a connection going on here. Here I am having these dreams that feel very real and strangely familiar and then I just met this নেকড়ে who says I have হারিয়ে গেছে my memory. What if this is true and these visions are really just the memory's I've হারিয়ে গেছে trying to work their way back into my head. Maybe I was just getting ahead of myself but it seemed to be a good possibility, all I really wanted was to get these damn visions to stop haunting me.
I decided to go along with her but as I looked back up to tell her that I would go she was gone, I looked around the গর্ত to find her curled up on the ground. I had must of been thinking long enough to the point where she decided to just get some rest and hear my answer in the morning. She must be pretty frustrated like I am right now after the argument we had. I couldn't help but realize something as I looked at her sleeping, the moon was shining down on her which made her pelt shine beautifully, but that wasn't why I was looking at her. I slowly walked over to her and it was that moment something in my mind clicked, like I have seen this very image of this নেকড়ে sleeping like this in the moonlight. I do recall of a particular dream where I wake up the নেকড়ে I saw all the time in these visions. It was in a small room dark room too but the moon was shining down on them, much like how Kate looks right now, and as I look down upon her it finally hit me...
SHE was the নেকড়ে from my visions! The fur, the eyes, everything about her matched this নেকড়ে that plagued my mind for the past week.
"That's it!" I ব্যক্ত louder than I should have which caused her to wake up
"What's it?" She asked opening her eyes to look up at me
"It's you, you're the নেকড়ে I keep seeing in my dreams!" I ব্যক্ত suddenly getting excited about it
"Dreams?" She asked sounding confused as to what I was going on about
I knew I had some explaining to do which normally would sound crazy to anyone but I think she would understand considering after all she has told me today. "For the past week অথবা so I keep having these visions that look like normal dreams yet feel so real and familiar." I ব্যক্ত sitting down in front of her.
"Most of them are with me and another নেকড়ে that looks exactly like you, eyes and all, we seem friendly and most of the time it seems that we are traveling to somewhere..." I ব্যক্ত continuing to describe to her what I have experienced and come to understand so far.
For some reason she just smiled after I finished speaking and sat up to face me better "I knew it was you" She ব্যক্ত pulling me into a hug which I didn't expect, I didn't understand why she did this but I went along with it until we broke the embrace "and I can help make those visions make sense"
"How?" I asked
"Well seeing that I am the নেকড়ে in these dreams of yours then I should know what you’re experiencing, and I already know the উত্তর because I was there with you." She replied
"Then explain why it looks like we are traveling to somewhere" I asked looking at her
I wanted উত্তর because as each মিনিট passed দ্বারা I was starting to see how her memory loss theory and my visions were linked up meaning that what she has been telling me these past few hours are really the solid truth.
"That's easy, that was during our trip to Idaho and back" She answered
It all made sense now, I have been seeing all the memories of when I lived in Jasper Park, it was why I saw a pack of নেকড়ে and it was why I always saw Kate. I can see how the story she told me earlier fits in with what I've been seeing, it was like I had just opened my eyes to a whole new world. Things were coming back to me as a door opened in my head linking me to the past.
"You forgot to say that we had help from two birds on our way back home" I ব্যক্ত with a smile after sitting quietly in my thoughts for the past several minutes
She laughed in response and smiled back "I'm glad to see আপনি remember now" She said
"Well it's all mostly a blur still but I'm sure প্রদত্ত time I will start to understand it all, with your help of course." I said
"Are আপনি saying আপনি want to go back to Jasper with me?" She asked sounding hopeful
"Yes I am" I replied
I could sense that she was jumping with স্বতস্ফূর্ত on the inside now that she has finally found me after three years apart, but that left the obvious প্রশ্ন which was why she was here. If I'm the Humphrey she's looking for, which I know I am now, then that's means we প্রণয় each other, right?
"So since I'm the Humphrey আপনি have been looking for then that means... we're in প্রণয় aren't we?" I asked not knowing how to feel right now
"I do প্রণয় আপনি Humphrey, I want to spend the rest of my life with আপনি but I guess the real প্রশ্ন is do আপনি still প্রণয় me?" She ব্যক্ত looking at me seriously.
I thought a মিনিট before answering the প্রশ্ন I'm sure she was dying for me to answer "Honestly I don't know..." I answered seeing her lower her head in shame "Obviously I loved আপনি all those years পূর্বে so I guess that means I can fall প্রণয় আপনি again right?"
"I hope so" She answered looking back up at me
I looked into her eyes and thought about everything that has changed in the past hours after we met, I had my whole perspective on my life flipped and thrown upside down and I still had প্রশ্ন to ask about it. At least now I could rest easy again knowing the answer as to why I was getting these dreams. There were many things left to understand but now I know that I have হারিয়ে গেছে my memory and it was time to work on getting it back with some help from Kate. I thought about my feelings towards her and came up with an idea to see if I would in fact fall in প্রণয় with her again.
"Tell আপনি what, when we get back to the pack we can start seeing each other and we'll see how it goes from there." I ব্যক্ত stating my idea
"You mean date?" She asked
"Yes" I answered
She giggled happily to herself before doing the unexpected, I felt her lips press against mine, feeling ফ্রোজেন on the spot from the sudden affection I let myself চুম্বন her back. It lasted for a মিনিট and I savored it all, I could feel that we shared a connection between us only I have yet to find it myself. We pulled apart and sat a moment looking into each other’s eyes before she let out a yawn.
"We better get some sleep, it’s going to be a long walk home" She ব্যক্ত laying back down where she sat earlier
"You don't want to stay here a দিন অথবা two and rest?" I asked, I didn't see a rush in heading straight to Jasper just yet.
"Oh that's fine, I just thought আপনি would be in a rush to relearn what you've lost" She replied
"Not really, I'd rather let আপনি rest seeing how আপনি have been traveling a lot lately." I answered
"You're so sweet, good night Humphrey" She ব্যক্ত smiling
"Good night Kate" I replied before lying down in my usual spot at the back of my den.
I closed my eyes and for once there was nothing, just black emptiness all around me which was a relief because maybe now I could get some nice uninterrupted sleep. I didn't know whether to be happy অথবা what at this moment, so much had been told to me today that I think I'm just going to sit back at let things play out.
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Adjusting back to the pack life had been quite the learning experience for me, I've met all kinds of নেকড়ে all over again and I even recognized some of them. There was a little welcome party for me and Kate when we returned but she made sure that Winston, her father, addressed the pack of what my condition was mentally. Her mother examined the scar I had and gave a theory that I must had been hunting a deer অথবা something and got kicked in the head. I myself have learned to never to get kicked দ্বারা a large animal because it can be quite powerful which obviously I have experienced firsthand. Each দিন I began to remember new things and if I had a প্রশ্ন I would ask Kate about it and she usually helped me out.
We had begun to তারিখ just as I promised and so far I have been enjoying it, she's an amazing নেকড়ে to be around and our new friendship has been getting stronger. I reunited with my old omega বন্ধু who also appeared in my visions and at first it was weird talking to them again. But as we visited আরো and আরো I think আপনি would say were back to the way we once were long ago. All I can say is that I have a lot on my plate right now with remembering the past but I know that one দিন things will be like what they should be. Where I can remember everything like I had never gotten the injury in the first place, where I can live a good life and possibly have a mate and family. For now I will just live each দিন one at a time trying to adjust from the life a lone নেকড়ে and back to the life of a pack wolf.
THE END
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A/N: That’s a warp to a little story idea I got from a few months ago, and this turned out to be pretty challenging thanks to having to change the plot a few times. I hope আপনি enjoyed this little story and feel free to leave a review on your thoughts about পাঠ করা it. I will not be continuing this so please don’t go asking, however I already got yet another short story planned that will be longer. Cya later!
Fragments of a হারিয়ে গেছে Life – TheChriZ1995
I keep having these strange flashes in my dreams lately, visions that at first seem like only a normal dream but for some reason feel so familiar. I see myself living in the confines of a pack around other নেকড়ে that I do not recognize. It's making me confused, for as long as I can remember I have been a lone নেকড়ে living here in the mountains, I have never been in a pack yet why am I having these visions? When I close my eyes I see all kinds of things like other wolves, landscapes, and even experiences of traveling a long distance with a particular wolf. Yet it's all a blur of mystery that makes no sense but feels as real as my memories of what happened yesterday. I feel like I'm being haunted, as if there's a point of time in my life that I have forgotten about, but how? How could I have forgotten something when there's no physical way I could have, I don't recall getting a bad injury involving brain damages. Perhaps this is just a phase and it will all just go away allowing me to go back to living my life like normal, for now I'm at the mercy of these visions and I'll just have to try and put the pieces together.
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Humphrey's POV
Today had been going pretty well for me so far, spring was in the air and with it brought relieving warmth after a long cold winter. I sometimes wondered why I decided to live in the mountains, it was much শীতল being higher up however it's also a pretty secluded and নিরাপদ place up here. I had gone out early to do some hunting in the local area and ended up bringing down one deer meaning that I would be fed well for several days now. I dragged it back to my little গর্ত located পরবর্তি to a small pond and clearing that I've called প্রথমপাতা for many years now. I decided to get a little rest in the suns warmth but this only ended up with me just having the visions pay me another visit. I have learned to accept it and did my best to keep a visual note as to what they looked like considering it all passed দ্বারা so fast.
During this particular time I found myself sitting beside another নেকড়ে talking with them, however I couldn't hear any of the words being said. This নেকড়ে came up a lot during these dreams, their পশম color was tan with brown eyes to match but I still didn't know whether they were male অথবা female. There were times where things were friendly between us, but then there were times where we didn't get along. Maybe we were বন্ধু but then had a falling out of sorts, the defiant answer was still not clear, and it may never be. These visions have only been happening for a week অথবা so now and I'm still trying to make sense of it all. The tan নেকড়ে wasn't the only নেকড়ে I have seen frequently though, in fact there was a group of three which I found to be friendly and spent time with as well.
Of course the আরো I would see the আরো প্রশ্ন I would get about why am I seeing these things and why do they feel like their something major and not just another dream. I ended up waking back up from my nap and found the sun still shining up above, it was afternoon and I had nothing else I needed to do. I stretched my body before getting off of the warm rock I slept on, it was times like this I would think of something to do other than sit around all day. Sometimes it could get pretty lonely here in between times of meeting other wolves, I know a few others that lived in the area but we never talked much. The ones I would end up talking to would be the ones just passing through between the packs of নেকড়ে that lived on either side of the mountain peaks. In all my years of living here I have never gone to visit either of the packs, I was doing fine out here for myself ever sense I left my parents at the age of one. I wondered if I would ever see them again, they lived several miles away as lone নেকড়ে as well.
But a lot of things can change in the three years sense I left them to go try my luck out here in the wild wilderness. I learned how to look after myself দ্বারা hunting and building my strength so that I had the best chances of surviving in a fight. Fortunately I haven't found myself in a fight yet, there were times I would have to ask নেকড়ে to leave if they were near where I lived. But it never escalated to the point of physical conflict, and I was glad, I didn't see the need in fighting অথবা even killing another wolf. I was the peaceful kind of নেকড়ে rather than one that wanted to fight others as a good kind of challenge অথবা entertainment.
I decided to go out and scout around the area to make sure my scent border was still strong and that no one has intruded it, as a lone নেকড়ে I considered the area around my গর্ত to be mine and I was sure to keep it that way. It wasn't a large area considering it's just for one নেকড়ে but it was plenty large enough for me. So far things were fairly normal for a walk around the border until I caught the scent of an unknown wolf. It was pretty fresh leading me to believe that they had just passed দ্বারা here, I decided to follow it considering it was going towards the pond পরবর্তি to my den. I had memorized the scents of the other lone নেকড়ে around these peaks but this one seemed foreign. I was hoping whoever this নেকড়ে was they wouldn't be trying to steal the deer I had lying beside the গর্ত and in plain view of the pond. It didn't take long to arrive back প্রথমপাতা but I stalked my way around to make sure the নেকড়ে wouldn't hear me if they were still here. I hid behind a গুল্ম as I looked around it so see a নেকড়ে drinking out of the pond in front of me, I watched them for a bit before deciding to go and confront them. I got up and silently walked up behind them and sat down a few feet away as they continued to drink. I didn't mind if they were only here to get some water, and it wouldn't be the first নেকড়ে too but I always told them to leave and pointed them in the direction of a river about a mile away.
I cleared my throat before speaking "Hello, can I help you?" I greeted
The নেকড়ে immediately spun around to face me surprised, I could sense they were afraid as they back away a little "Oh I'm so sorry, I didn't realize that আপনি lived here" They replied with a voice indicating that she was a female.
"It's alright, your just here for water right?" I asked
"Yeah sorry, I'll just leave if আপনি don't want me here" She ব্যক্ত sounding disappointed
For some reason I felt like forgiving this wolf, it wasn't that it was because she was female but because she seemed nice and I could use a little company for the moment. "No you're fine, feel free to continue what আপনি were doing" I said
She thanked me before lowering her head to drink some আরো as I just looked around waiting for her to finish, her পশম color was a golden tan color with white underbelly. Her eyes were amber and she was fairly attractive although her পশম was a bit of a mess, but I wasn't trying to make a সরানো on her দ্বারা being kind. I've never been one to understand প্রণয় so I've never been looking for it, and I'm okay with that. I was happy with living out my life alone if it ended up coming to that. She finished before sitting down and looking at me although it wasn't a normal stare, it was as if she recognized me in some way I didn't understand. She didn't look like someone I've met before so I decided to ignore it and ask what she was doing here.
"You new around here?" I asked while drawing circles in the soft dirt
"Yeah I'm just passing through" She answered
I nodded "I'm Humphrey" I ব্যক্ত holding out my paw to shake
"Humphrey? আপনি don't happen to come from a place called Jasper Park do you?" She asked sounding hopeful about it
"Um no I don't, I was raised a ways away with my parents but it wasn't a place called Jasper." I answered putting my paw back down
"Oh..." She ব্যক্ত holding her head down in shame
I could tell something was wrong so I decided to ask her about it "You looking for someone?"
"Yeah, it's kind of a long story" She replied looking back at me
"Well your free to tell me if আপনি like, besides I'm sure আপনি need a place to stay for the night so your welcome to stay here if আপনি wish." I said
Normally I was never this kind to strangers but I wanted to hear her out considering she's looking for a নেকড়ে named Humphrey so it struck my curiosity. Besides she didn't look hostile and she appeared to be fairly worn out and tired so I wanted to be kind in giving her a secure place to rest for the night before she would continue on her journey.
"Oh that is very kind of আপনি but I don't want to be a bother to you" She replied
"I insist, besides আপনি must be hungry and tired from traveling" I said
"Thank আপনি Humphrey, আপনি are the nicest নেকড়ে I've met out here so far." She ব্যক্ত giving a smile "I'm Kate"
I smiled as well from her compliment "Nice to meet you, come I already got some খাবার for আপনি back in my den" I ব্যক্ত before tuning and leading her the few yards to the den.
"Feel free to grab what আপনি can eat, I'll be inside" I ব্যক্ত pointing to the deer I had caught earlier that laid beside the entrance
She nodded her head and thanked me again as I retired into the dark but large open মহাকাশ that I've called my home, I sat at the back of the গর্ত and waited for her to come and যোগদান me. I was looking অগ্রবর্তী to getting to talk with someone for once after a long week and a half of just being myself. A মিনিট later she walked into the গর্ত with a chunk of the deer meat in her mouth, she sat across the way from me but was faced towards me.
"This is quite the প্রথমপাতা আপনি got here" She admired looking around the room "You’re a lone নেকড়ে right?"
"Sure am, have been for around three years now after I left my parents" I replied
"I see, aren't আপনি going to eat too?" She asked
"Nah I'm fine right now, I might later though but don't let that stop আপনি from eating." I ব্যক্ত looking at her as she took a bite
"Aright, well since we're going to be here for a while why don't we get to know each other" She suggested
"Sounds good to me, আপনি go first" I answered
"I'm Kate and I am an alpha that comes from Jasper Park, a place fairly far away from here, I like to do things adventurous but also help serve my pack." She said
"Very nice, I'm Humphrey and I have been a lone নেকড়ে for all of my life since my parents were lone নেকড়ে themselves. I like to play games to keep myself occupied on শীর্ষ of taking care of myself and this little place I call home." I ব্যক্ত summing up who I was
"So you've never been a part of a pack?" She asked
"Not at all, I have an understanding of how their structure works but I haven't been the one who wants to be in the confines of a pack around other wolves." I replied
"I understand how আপনি feel, it can get pretty hectic at times" She ব্যক্ত after she finished eating "That was good, again thank you"
I smiled hearing how thankful she was for my act of kindness "You are welcome" I said
"I don't mean to be rude but why have আপনি done this for me? I have met plenty of other lone নেকড়ে on my travels but none that allowed me to stay at their গর্ত instead of me trying to find my own place." She asked looking at me after cleaning off her muzzle
"You seem like a kind wolf, and I like to have some company every now and then, I find it interesting meeting others that come from faraway places, I sometimes learn new things." I replied
She smiled and nodded her head happy with my answer, we sat quietly for a few মিনিট as the light outside slowly began to grow dim as the sun was beginning to set. I decided to get some খাবার for myself seeing that we will most likely be sitting here and talking for the rest of the night. I still didn't know about this নেকড়ে that she was looking for which held the same name as myself so I changed the subject to it.
"So, why exactly are আপনি way out here and not back with your pack?" I asked
"It's a long story..." She ব্যক্ত making it sound like it wasn't a happy one
"I'm all ears" I ব্যক্ত looking at her but took bites of the chunk of deer I grabbed earlier
"Well it all started when I got back from alpha school..." She began
She told me about the course of events beginning with finding out that she held the responsibility of marrying a নেকড়ে of another pack in order to unite them both. This was only the start of her problems, later on she got taken away and relocated to a place called Idaho alongside an omega from her pack. She ব্যক্ত he was a good friend from her puppyhood days and that without his help she would have never made it back প্রথমপাতা on her own. I was really getting in to this story she was telling because it sounded like quite the journey for two wolves. She began to get feelings towards this নেকড়ে and along the way প্রথমপাতা and they even howled together which sounded nice দ্বারা the way she described it. However things went south once they arrived back home, she had failed to tell him about the arranged wedding simply because she thought he already knew. At the time she ব্যক্ত she was so overwhelmed and confused দ্বারা everything that she hadn't even stopped to think about her true feelings. She paid the price দ্বারা losing the নেকড়ে she truly cared about because he ran away to become a lone wolf, which explains why she's out here.
"... I was so close to sealing my fate with a নেকড়ে I didn't প্রণয় but I backed out while I still had the chance, everyone was confused but I announced that I didn't প্রণয় Garth because I loved Humphrey. It was a major shock to everyone because an alpha couldn't প্রণয় an omega but I didn't care. In fact it turned out while I was gone Garth and Lilly had fallen in প্রণয় so they ended up uniting the pack through their marriage." She ব্যক্ত as the গর্ত grew dark to the point where I could barely see her.
"Wow..." Was all I could say from hearing what she has gone through in the course of a few weeks long পূর্বে "So now you’ve been out here searching for this নেকড়ে আপনি love, even after three years?" I ব্যক্ত seeing how it would make sense
"Yes, but it has been on and off though, I would spend a few months searching around and then head back প্রথমপাতা to Jasper to rest and stay in the loop with my family." She said
"Now that is some true প্রণয় right there, I've never heard of a নেকড়ে who would spend years to find the one they care about." I said
She smiled "I প্রণয় him with all my হৃদয় and still do, but the searching in its self has been pretty fun yet saddening. I've been to all kinds of places and met many faces but as each দিন goes দ্বারা I know that eventually I will just have to give up my search. Will I ever প্রণয় another wolf? Probably not because I can only see myself with him, I just want to see him again and tell him how much I প্রণয় him. I know he loves me back because I have noticed how he has always cared and looked after me during the course of our friendship." She ব্যক্ত starting to get a little emotional talking about it.
"...and when I first saw আপনি earlier today I thought I had finally found him because আপনি look just like he did only আপনি look larger in body size." She said
I grew confused দ্বারা hearing this, so she is looking for a নেকড়ে named Humphrey who also looks exactly like me, this seemed too strange to be true considering the chances of there being another নেকড়ে like me in this world were very slim. But obviously there had to be because why else would she be here right now.
"Now that is strange" I ব্যক্ত looking at her
"I know, and not to mention your voice is similar which now that I think about it, it has to be you..." She ব্যক্ত suddenly looking up at me
I eyed her strangely "But I already told আপনি I have never been to অথবা heard of a place called Jasper, I've never been a part of a pack either." I said
"I don't understand... how can there be two Humphrey's on this world that speak and look exactly the same?" She ব্যক্ত getting up and walking closer to me
The moon had begun to shine meaning we could both see each other fairly well now thanks to a skylight in my গর্ত "I don't know either, but I don't see any way how I could be this wolf. I haven't even met আপনি before in my life let alone develop feelings for you." I ব্যক্ত looking back at her
She looked at me in a way that ব্যক্ত she still was not satisfied, I had no idea what was happening now, in fact I was getting a little scared thinking that this নেকড়ে was pulling some joke অথবা act on me. She walked around me slowly, continuing to look at me from head to paw, I just sat still not knowing what to do other than figure out what the hell was happening.
"Where did আপনি get that scar?" She asked stopping in front of me again to sit down.
"What scar?" I asked looking down at my sides to see what she was talking about
"The one on the back of your head, it looks like আপনি got hit দ্বারা something." She said
I then knew what she was talking about, and honestly I've had the scar for as long as I can remember and don't know how I got it.
"I don't remember, all I know is it hurt like hell after I got it" I said
"I think I know how..." She ব্যক্ত knowing something I did not
At this point I just decided to go along with whatever it is she's doing "Alright, what makes আপনি such the expert?" I said
"Well আপনি see my mother is the healer of our pack and what I've heard from her is that if a নেকড়ে lives through a serious impact to the head they can lose some of their memory." She ব্যক্ত sounding calm about it.
"So you’re saying I have হারিয়ে গেছে some of my memory?" I said
"What I'm saying is আপনি are the Humphrey I have been looking for these past three years but আপনি just don't know it because you've somehow হারিয়ে গেছে your memory in between the time আপনি left and now." She said
I began to back away slowly until I was against the দেওয়াল of my গর্ত as she continued to sit looking at me "No... No you're crazy!" I exclaimed not wanting to believe what she's telling me.
"I'm telling আপনি Humphrey, what I speak is the truth and I know for a fact দ্বারা looking at আপনি that আপনি are the নেকড়ে that I grew up with and love." She ব্যক্ত not backing down
"Okay why are আপনি truly here, did one of the nearby packs send আপনি here to mess with me, because I am going to make them regret that choice." I ব্যক্ত getting tired of hearing this
"I told আপনি why I am here, I'm not trying to hurt আপনি অথবা be mean, and in fact I'm trying to help আপনি remember what you've lost." She argued
"I haven't হারিয়ে গেছে anything, I was raised দ্বারা lone নেকড়ে and then moved away out here, that's it! So how can I remember that if I have হারিয়ে গেছে the memory of my past?" I ব্যক্ত seeing a way through this.
"I never ব্যক্ত a নেকড়ে would lose all their memory from a head injury, sometimes they do but it's rare. And a নেকড়ে that has হারিয়ে গেছে some of their memory can sometimes get some of it back over time. আপনি were not born in my pack Humphrey, in fact your lone নেকড়ে parents placed আপনি in our pack so that আপনি would stay safe. It seems that আপনি have forgotten all your memories of being in Jasper." She said
It had become obvious that she knew what she was talking about, but I still didn't believe her, not that I should anyway. I think anyone would think someone was crazy if they suddenly started telling them about things that they don't remember. I thought about just asking her to leave and spare me all of the confusion and craziness but after arguing with her I've come to realize that she was a stubborn wolf, and wouldn't back down so easily.
I just let out a frustrated sigh "So what now?" I asked thinking she still had প্রশ্ন to ask me.
"Well seeing that আপনি think I'm crazy I'm just going to leave আপনি to your thoughts and maybe... just maybe it will all suddenly click. Because I am out of options other than asking আপনি to come back to Jasper with me." She said.
"How would that help?" I asked
"Well I have a theory, if I bring আপনি প্রথমপাতা and আপনি see and meet all the নেকড়ে আপনি grew up with then আপনি might suddenly realize all that আপনি have lost." She said
My head was spinning at this point, do I trust this নেকড়ে that says I have হারিয়ে গেছে my memory and let her take me to this place she says I've come from, অথবা do I just ask her to leave in the morning? I didn't see what I had to lose দ্বারা going and a change in scenery would be nice, besides if it turned out she had been wrong about me then I can just come back home. It was at this moment that I remembered about the visions I have been having these past few days, perhaps there was a connection going on here. Here I am having these dreams that feel very real and strangely familiar and then I just met this নেকড়ে who says I have হারিয়ে গেছে my memory. What if this is true and these visions are really just the memory's I've হারিয়ে গেছে trying to work their way back into my head. Maybe I was just getting ahead of myself but it seemed to be a good possibility, all I really wanted was to get these damn visions to stop haunting me.
I decided to go along with her but as I looked back up to tell her that I would go she was gone, I looked around the গর্ত to find her curled up on the ground. I had must of been thinking long enough to the point where she decided to just get some rest and hear my answer in the morning. She must be pretty frustrated like I am right now after the argument we had. I couldn't help but realize something as I looked at her sleeping, the moon was shining down on her which made her pelt shine beautifully, but that wasn't why I was looking at her. I slowly walked over to her and it was that moment something in my mind clicked, like I have seen this very image of this নেকড়ে sleeping like this in the moonlight. I do recall of a particular dream where I wake up the নেকড়ে I saw all the time in these visions. It was in a small room dark room too but the moon was shining down on them, much like how Kate looks right now, and as I look down upon her it finally hit me...
SHE was the নেকড়ে from my visions! The fur, the eyes, everything about her matched this নেকড়ে that plagued my mind for the past week.
"That's it!" I ব্যক্ত louder than I should have which caused her to wake up
"What's it?" She asked opening her eyes to look up at me
"It's you, you're the নেকড়ে I keep seeing in my dreams!" I ব্যক্ত suddenly getting excited about it
"Dreams?" She asked sounding confused as to what I was going on about
I knew I had some explaining to do which normally would sound crazy to anyone but I think she would understand considering after all she has told me today. "For the past week অথবা so I keep having these visions that look like normal dreams yet feel so real and familiar." I ব্যক্ত sitting down in front of her.
"Most of them are with me and another নেকড়ে that looks exactly like you, eyes and all, we seem friendly and most of the time it seems that we are traveling to somewhere..." I ব্যক্ত continuing to describe to her what I have experienced and come to understand so far.
For some reason she just smiled after I finished speaking and sat up to face me better "I knew it was you" She ব্যক্ত pulling me into a hug which I didn't expect, I didn't understand why she did this but I went along with it until we broke the embrace "and I can help make those visions make sense"
"How?" I asked
"Well seeing that I am the নেকড়ে in these dreams of yours then I should know what you’re experiencing, and I already know the উত্তর because I was there with you." She replied
"Then explain why it looks like we are traveling to somewhere" I asked looking at her
I wanted উত্তর because as each মিনিট passed দ্বারা I was starting to see how her memory loss theory and my visions were linked up meaning that what she has been telling me these past few hours are really the solid truth.
"That's easy, that was during our trip to Idaho and back" She answered
It all made sense now, I have been seeing all the memories of when I lived in Jasper Park, it was why I saw a pack of নেকড়ে and it was why I always saw Kate. I can see how the story she told me earlier fits in with what I've been seeing, it was like I had just opened my eyes to a whole new world. Things were coming back to me as a door opened in my head linking me to the past.
"You forgot to say that we had help from two birds on our way back home" I ব্যক্ত with a smile after sitting quietly in my thoughts for the past several minutes
She laughed in response and smiled back "I'm glad to see আপনি remember now" She said
"Well it's all mostly a blur still but I'm sure প্রদত্ত time I will start to understand it all, with your help of course." I said
"Are আপনি saying আপনি want to go back to Jasper with me?" She asked sounding hopeful
"Yes I am" I replied
I could sense that she was jumping with স্বতস্ফূর্ত on the inside now that she has finally found me after three years apart, but that left the obvious প্রশ্ন which was why she was here. If I'm the Humphrey she's looking for, which I know I am now, then that's means we প্রণয় each other, right?
"So since I'm the Humphrey আপনি have been looking for then that means... we're in প্রণয় aren't we?" I asked not knowing how to feel right now
"I do প্রণয় আপনি Humphrey, I want to spend the rest of my life with আপনি but I guess the real প্রশ্ন is do আপনি still প্রণয় me?" She ব্যক্ত looking at me seriously.
I thought a মিনিট before answering the প্রশ্ন I'm sure she was dying for me to answer "Honestly I don't know..." I answered seeing her lower her head in shame "Obviously I loved আপনি all those years পূর্বে so I guess that means I can fall প্রণয় আপনি again right?"
"I hope so" She answered looking back up at me
I looked into her eyes and thought about everything that has changed in the past hours after we met, I had my whole perspective on my life flipped and thrown upside down and I still had প্রশ্ন to ask about it. At least now I could rest easy again knowing the answer as to why I was getting these dreams. There were many things left to understand but now I know that I have হারিয়ে গেছে my memory and it was time to work on getting it back with some help from Kate. I thought about my feelings towards her and came up with an idea to see if I would in fact fall in প্রণয় with her again.
"Tell আপনি what, when we get back to the pack we can start seeing each other and we'll see how it goes from there." I ব্যক্ত stating my idea
"You mean date?" She asked
"Yes" I answered
She giggled happily to herself before doing the unexpected, I felt her lips press against mine, feeling ফ্রোজেন on the spot from the sudden affection I let myself চুম্বন her back. It lasted for a মিনিট and I savored it all, I could feel that we shared a connection between us only I have yet to find it myself. We pulled apart and sat a moment looking into each other’s eyes before she let out a yawn.
"We better get some sleep, it’s going to be a long walk home" She ব্যক্ত laying back down where she sat earlier
"You don't want to stay here a দিন অথবা two and rest?" I asked, I didn't see a rush in heading straight to Jasper just yet.
"Oh that's fine, I just thought আপনি would be in a rush to relearn what you've lost" She replied
"Not really, I'd rather let আপনি rest seeing how আপনি have been traveling a lot lately." I answered
"You're so sweet, good night Humphrey" She ব্যক্ত smiling
"Good night Kate" I replied before lying down in my usual spot at the back of my den.
I closed my eyes and for once there was nothing, just black emptiness all around me which was a relief because maybe now I could get some nice uninterrupted sleep. I didn't know whether to be happy অথবা what at this moment, so much had been told to me today that I think I'm just going to sit back at let things play out.
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Adjusting back to the pack life had been quite the learning experience for me, I've met all kinds of নেকড়ে all over again and I even recognized some of them. There was a little welcome party for me and Kate when we returned but she made sure that Winston, her father, addressed the pack of what my condition was mentally. Her mother examined the scar I had and gave a theory that I must had been hunting a deer অথবা something and got kicked in the head. I myself have learned to never to get kicked দ্বারা a large animal because it can be quite powerful which obviously I have experienced firsthand. Each দিন I began to remember new things and if I had a প্রশ্ন I would ask Kate about it and she usually helped me out.
We had begun to তারিখ just as I promised and so far I have been enjoying it, she's an amazing নেকড়ে to be around and our new friendship has been getting stronger. I reunited with my old omega বন্ধু who also appeared in my visions and at first it was weird talking to them again. But as we visited আরো and আরো I think আপনি would say were back to the way we once were long ago. All I can say is that I have a lot on my plate right now with remembering the past but I know that one দিন things will be like what they should be. Where I can remember everything like I had never gotten the injury in the first place, where I can live a good life and possibly have a mate and family. For now I will just live each দিন one at a time trying to adjust from the life a lone নেকড়ে and back to the life of a pack wolf.
THE END
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A/N: That’s a warp to a little story idea I got from a few months ago, and this turned out to be pretty challenging thanks to having to change the plot a few times. I hope আপনি enjoyed this little story and feel free to leave a review on your thoughts about পাঠ করা it. I will not be continuing this so please don’t go asking, however I already got yet another short story planned that will be longer. Cya later!
