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Edward had seen how much I’ve been hurting over the past while over Charlie’s shooting. He could see every emotion flow through me, from confusion, to anger. He could also see how hard I was trying to conceal those very emotions, to keep them hidden from Nessie. I never want to make her worry.
Earlier today Nessie showed Edward and I her thoughts. When she touched us we saw her, Charlie, Jacob, Edward and myself gathered in Charlie’s living room. Charlie looked healthy, and happy. We were all laughing and having a good time. It was a simple thought, but it brought a smile to my face. To see Charlie back to his normal self, to see us all together like that. It felt good. Edward was very grateful for the thought too. When I hurt, he hurts. I wish it wasn’t like that. I wish he didn’t feel my pain, but that is all part of giving yourself to another person. I gave all of me to him. He gave all of himself to me.
I couldn’t believe my eyes when I saw Edward walk into the room with my old rocking chair. The one that used to sit in the corner of my bedroom at Charlies house. It looked different. He had the chair refinished, and the words “From Mother To Daughter” carved into the back panel. It looked as if he used a machine to carve the words, but he had completely done the whole thing himself. The লেখা was so perfect. So smooth. So… beautiful.
Edward didn’t take his eyes off me when he ব্যক্ত “From one angel, to another. I made this for you, Nessie”. My expression must have been animated, because Edward flashed that crooked grin at me and raised one eyebrow, leaving him with a curious expression on his face. I let him into my mind to প্রদর্শনী him how much this meant to me. He spoke again, in a voice that seemingly gets আরো musical with every word. “This chair brings back great memories of the nights I used to have to watch আপনি in your sleep, Bella, to get close to you. Though I am quite fine standing, I enjoyed sitting in this chair because it had your scent on it. I thought it would look great in Nessies room, and maybe if Jacob can fit, he can sit in there and watch her, like I used to watch you.”
Nessie was already rocking in the chair, smiling and twisting her head back to examine the carved words on the back. This meant আরো to me than I could express. And, most importantly, it would hopefully distract Nessie from my roller coaster emotions.
I gave Edward three soft, slow kisses on his chin, then thanked him one আরো time before heading over to the hospital to visit with Charlie for the last time before he gets released.
Carlisle ব্যক্ত Charlie’s infection is all cleared up, and his wounds are healing nicely. He has color back in his face, too. His arm is still a little bit numb from the bullet that hit him in the shoulder, but Carlisle ব্যক্ত with time, the numbness would fade and he would regain full strength in that arm.
I will be picking Charlie up in the afternoon. I spent last night watching him sleep, and fighting the scorching hot knives that were stabbing my throat, অথবা so it seemed. The scents that flow through the hospital are tortuous, but being দ্বারা Charlie’s side has been the most important thing to me. Besides, I always felt safe, knowing I had Carlisle there to help me when temptation became too much.
I have to run now. Edward and I are going to go decorate Charlie’s house with a “Welcome Home” banner, balloons, cake and a new flat screen t.v we purchased for him. He will be resting up on the পালঙ্ক quite a bit, and his old flat screen wasn’t very big, plus it was becoming outdated. We want him to feel like he is part of the baseball game when it’s on. I think he’s going to be happy.
Will write again soon.
-Bella
