Dear Self

What if আপনি don’t wake up tomorrow?
What if this is your last দিন on this earth?
What if that two মিনিট conversation আপনি had with your mother two hours ago, was the last time আপনি ever spoke to her?
What if আপনি never ever would hear him laugh, see his smile অথবা talk to him ever again?
What if আপনি later this night take your last breath?
What then?
Would আপনি be proud of the life আপনি have lived?
Will আপনি regret something that আপনি did অথবা did not say?
Would আপনি be proud of how people would remember you?
Would আপনি regret not taking আরো chances, অথবা not telling him what আপনি really feel for him?


I see a world of darkness and my hands are shaking..
My legs are numb..
My eyes heavy..
My হৃদয় racing..
Blacking out..
Will pills in my hands..
Hoping that they'll end the pain and I'll sleep forever..
Maybe this will be my last goodbye..
My final breath..