You’ve been back in South Dakota for about a month, আপনি start school today. None of your বন্ধু know you’re back yet. You’ve just been hiding out in your room. The first 3 weeks were terrible, crying yourself to sleep, stomach aches, throwing up, head aches, hardly any sleep, depression and many other things. The past week you’ve trying to pull yourself together, just for school and your friends. You’ve also been keeping it a secret form your parents that আপনি are pregnant, which would explain the throwing up in the mornings. Your terrified to tell your parents that your pregnant, terrified on how to handle it when they find out, terrified to have the baby, to take care of the baby, your just a kid yourself. Also the baby will probably grow up not knowing its father. Even know Marshall ব্যক্ত he would come find you, but he probably wont just because that’s how things work in life. আপনি still miss Marshall so much, and your somewhat glad your having a baby with him, and your going to keep it because its apart of Marshall. Your in the bathroom making yourself look ‘pretty’ even know আপনি don’t really give a shit. Your Mom walks in with that stupid grin on her face, আপনি stare at her annoyed.
“You ok?” she asks. আপনি nod your head a slightly smile. “Still miss Marshall don’t you?” she asks. Hearing his name makes আপনি wanna cry. আপনি sigh and just stare at her. “Look, honey, its for the best,” she says.
“I know what you’re trying to do Mom but I don’t think me being this miserable is very healthy for me,” আপনি explain hoping she would প্রদর্শনী some sympathy for how you’re feeling.
“You’ll get over it, there’s plenty of guys out there,” she say as if that’s supposed to make আপনি feel better, even know its not going too, knowing that your having a baby with him. Just looking at that baby is going to make আপনি feel pain everyday seeing Marshall inside of him অথবা her.
“Whatever Mom, Im ready to go, so can we just drop the whole Marshall subject and go?” আপনি ask her leaving the bathroom grabbing your bag off the hallway floor.
“Yeah,” she says sort of sad but আরো like shes annoyed with you.
The whole car ride to school আপনি don’t say a word to your Mother, she don’t talk either, আপনি think that she got the idea that আপনি were annoyed with her. আপনি walk in the room and the first person আপনি see is you’re best friend, Annie, who আপনি haven’t talked to for about one year. Shes standing with her back towards you. আপনি walk up to her and tap her on the shoulder, she jumps and turns around.
“Lily!!” she yells hugging আপনি immediately, আপনি hug her back.
“Hey! How have আপনি been,” আপনি ask putting on a happy act, you’re happy to see her but the thing about Marshall is still making আপনি wanna cry….
“What are আপনি doing back here? I thought আপনি were staying in Detroit forever.” she asks.
“Naw, things got…uhh bad with Nick so we had to সরানো back here,” আপনি say.
“What he do?” she asks.
“Stupid shit,” আপনি say summing up the best আপনি can so আপনি don’t have to explain what he did to that poor hobo. Your bother went completely insane once আপনি got back to South Dakota so they put আপনি him in a psycho ward. Hes been there ever sense আপনি moved and আপনি haven’t even talked to him.
“Oh, I see,” she says. “Nice dog tag, some guy give that to আপনি অথবা something?” she asks pointing to the dog tag around your neck. আপনি nod, she lifts it up and stares at it. “Marshall Bruce Mathers III,” she reads, she drops it down. “So was that your boyfriend অথবা something?” she asks.
“Yeah, was…we broke up when we moved,” আপনি say sadly.
“Aww, did আপনি really like him?” she asks, আপনি nod. “Was he cute?” she asks. আপনি smile and nod, আপনি pull out a picture of আপনি and him, hes hugging আপনি from behind your hands resting on his, your fingers are laced, and your heads are pressed together its taken outside there’s still snow on the ground and your standing under a বৃক্ষ দ্বারা your house, your mother took that picture. “Aww he is cute,” she says staring at the picture. “You two look cute together,” she says. “You miss him?” she asks handing the picture back to you.
“Yes,” আপনি say looking at the picture, আপনি flip it over, on the back it says Marshall Mathers and Lily Jones spring of 1987. আপনি put the ছবি back into your folder and sit down পরবর্তি to Annie.
MARSHALLS POV>>>
The past মাস you’ve been thinking about Lily and আপনি have also tried লেখা some raps about her, but its just to damn depressing for you, আপনি cant write anything. Ronnie thinks your crazy and so does everyone else. It’s the first বছর of ninth grade. আপনি miss Lily so much your trying to get over her but its been hard, all আপনি have is pictures, আপনি keep them in a shoe box under your bed. And আপনি tell yourself everyday that someday আপনি are going to find Lily no matter what it takes, you’re going to find her…
LILY’S POV>>
Its lunch time, school has gone ok, and all your বন্ধু keeping asking আপনি why you’re back. আপনি kept telling them that আপনি would let them know during lunch time so আপনি wont have to repeat yourself 6 times. Your walking to the lunch টেবিল with one of your বন্ধু Chelsea. Everyone else is already at the table, আপনি sit down পরবর্তি to Mary and Chelsea. “So are আপনি gonna tell us why আপনি moved back here?” Chelsea pipes up after about 5 মিনিট of silence.
“Damn, it so sounds like আপনি guys are disappointed that I came back,” আপনি say.
“No, we just wanna know what Nick did that was so bad,” Chev says. আপনি sigh…
“Well he got into drugs, and shit then he killed a hobo,” আপনি say. They all stare at আপনি like your kidding. “Im serious!” আপনি sort of yell.
“He killed someone! Sweet!” Chev cheers, he likes violence. A teacher walking দ্বারা stops and stares at আপনি guys. “A movie,” Chev says quickly.
“Ahh,” he says nodding, she walks away. আপনি sigh.
“Nice one,” আপনি say and toss a piece of carrot at Chev, it hits him on the forehead and falls to his lap. He glares at you, and আপনি giggle. He shakes his head.
“Stop flirting at the table,” Kathy says.
“What the fuck!?” আপনি yell at her. “We’re not flirting for cryin out loud!” আপনি yell.
“Seems like it,” Kathy says laughing.
“I don’t like Lily like that thank you,” Chev says then takes a drink of milk.
“So…. Do আপনি like boys?” Chelsea says laughing.
“Sick no!” Chev yells and throws the carrot at Chelsea. আপনি laugh.
“You guys should stop before we get yelled at,” Annie says annoyed.
“Aww is someone upset?” Chev says staring at her.
“No,” she says with a smile then throws a Skittle at Chev. আপনি shake your head.
“Ok, I really think we should stop,” আপনি say. They all stop laughing and stare at you. “Thank you,” আপনি say.
“Hey, Annie told me আপনি had a boyfriend back in Detroit, and she ব্যক্ত আপনি showed her a picture can I see it!?” Jessie says being all jumpy and in your face about it. আপনি stare at her for a few seconds, once she realizes your being serious she stops smiling and looks at আপনি seriously. “Well?” she says after a while. আপনি reach into your bag and pull out a green folder, আপনি pull out the picture আপনি showed to Annie this morning and hand it to Jessie, she grabs it quickly.
“Don’t bend it!” আপনি scream at her.
“Ohh calm down, I wont,” Jessie says staring at the picture of আপনি and Marshall. “Whats his name?” Jessie asks, as he hands the picture to Kathy.
“Marshall,” আপনি say trying not to get sad.
“Hes hot!” Kathy says. আপনি glare at her. “Not that I would wanna তারিখ him অথবা anything,” she adds. The picture goes around the whole table, Chev looks kind of angry when hes looking at it, he hands it back to আপনি after about a second.
After school আপনি walk প্রথমপাতা with Annie, she lives a few houses from you….
“I think Chev likes you,” she says randomly. আপনি stop walking and stare at her.
“Uhh?” আপনি ask.
“Well did আপনি see how he acted around you, and how he looked mad about the picture of Marshall,” she says. “I think hes jealous,” she says.
“So?” আপনি say.
“Do আপনি like him?” she asks.
“I.. no, I just got out of a relationship that Im not over yet,” আপনি say. “ I really liked Marshall,” আপনি say. আপনি place your hand on your stomach randomly.
“Do আপনি have something আপনি have to tell me?” she asks.
“No?” আপনি say আরো as a প্রশ্ন rather than a straight answer.
“You do don’t you, আপনি have a secret,” she says with a smile. “Tell me I wont tell anybody I promise, if I do আপনি can hate me forever and আপনি don’t ever have to talk to me again,” she says, আপনি know her saying this she wont tell anybody, she never has told anybody anything before that আপনি have told her not too… but you’re still afraid to tell her… “Well…?” she asks. আপনি stop on the side walk দ্বারা a old abandoned house and stare at her….wondering if আপনি should tell her that your going to have Marshalls baby অথবা not tell her…
“You ok?” she asks. আপনি nod your head a slightly smile. “Still miss Marshall don’t you?” she asks. Hearing his name makes আপনি wanna cry. আপনি sigh and just stare at her. “Look, honey, its for the best,” she says.
“I know what you’re trying to do Mom but I don’t think me being this miserable is very healthy for me,” আপনি explain hoping she would প্রদর্শনী some sympathy for how you’re feeling.
“You’ll get over it, there’s plenty of guys out there,” she say as if that’s supposed to make আপনি feel better, even know its not going too, knowing that your having a baby with him. Just looking at that baby is going to make আপনি feel pain everyday seeing Marshall inside of him অথবা her.
“Whatever Mom, Im ready to go, so can we just drop the whole Marshall subject and go?” আপনি ask her leaving the bathroom grabbing your bag off the hallway floor.
“Yeah,” she says sort of sad but আরো like shes annoyed with you.
The whole car ride to school আপনি don’t say a word to your Mother, she don’t talk either, আপনি think that she got the idea that আপনি were annoyed with her. আপনি walk in the room and the first person আপনি see is you’re best friend, Annie, who আপনি haven’t talked to for about one year. Shes standing with her back towards you. আপনি walk up to her and tap her on the shoulder, she jumps and turns around.
“Lily!!” she yells hugging আপনি immediately, আপনি hug her back.
“Hey! How have আপনি been,” আপনি ask putting on a happy act, you’re happy to see her but the thing about Marshall is still making আপনি wanna cry….
“What are আপনি doing back here? I thought আপনি were staying in Detroit forever.” she asks.
“Naw, things got…uhh bad with Nick so we had to সরানো back here,” আপনি say.
“What he do?” she asks.
“Stupid shit,” আপনি say summing up the best আপনি can so আপনি don’t have to explain what he did to that poor hobo. Your bother went completely insane once আপনি got back to South Dakota so they put আপনি him in a psycho ward. Hes been there ever sense আপনি moved and আপনি haven’t even talked to him.
“Oh, I see,” she says. “Nice dog tag, some guy give that to আপনি অথবা something?” she asks pointing to the dog tag around your neck. আপনি nod, she lifts it up and stares at it. “Marshall Bruce Mathers III,” she reads, she drops it down. “So was that your boyfriend অথবা something?” she asks.
“Yeah, was…we broke up when we moved,” আপনি say sadly.
“Aww, did আপনি really like him?” she asks, আপনি nod. “Was he cute?” she asks. আপনি smile and nod, আপনি pull out a picture of আপনি and him, hes hugging আপনি from behind your hands resting on his, your fingers are laced, and your heads are pressed together its taken outside there’s still snow on the ground and your standing under a বৃক্ষ দ্বারা your house, your mother took that picture. “Aww he is cute,” she says staring at the picture. “You two look cute together,” she says. “You miss him?” she asks handing the picture back to you.
“Yes,” আপনি say looking at the picture, আপনি flip it over, on the back it says Marshall Mathers and Lily Jones spring of 1987. আপনি put the ছবি back into your folder and sit down পরবর্তি to Annie.
MARSHALLS POV>>>
The past মাস you’ve been thinking about Lily and আপনি have also tried লেখা some raps about her, but its just to damn depressing for you, আপনি cant write anything. Ronnie thinks your crazy and so does everyone else. It’s the first বছর of ninth grade. আপনি miss Lily so much your trying to get over her but its been hard, all আপনি have is pictures, আপনি keep them in a shoe box under your bed. And আপনি tell yourself everyday that someday আপনি are going to find Lily no matter what it takes, you’re going to find her…
LILY’S POV>>
Its lunch time, school has gone ok, and all your বন্ধু keeping asking আপনি why you’re back. আপনি kept telling them that আপনি would let them know during lunch time so আপনি wont have to repeat yourself 6 times. Your walking to the lunch টেবিল with one of your বন্ধু Chelsea. Everyone else is already at the table, আপনি sit down পরবর্তি to Mary and Chelsea. “So are আপনি gonna tell us why আপনি moved back here?” Chelsea pipes up after about 5 মিনিট of silence.
“Damn, it so sounds like আপনি guys are disappointed that I came back,” আপনি say.
“No, we just wanna know what Nick did that was so bad,” Chev says. আপনি sigh…
“Well he got into drugs, and shit then he killed a hobo,” আপনি say. They all stare at আপনি like your kidding. “Im serious!” আপনি sort of yell.
“He killed someone! Sweet!” Chev cheers, he likes violence. A teacher walking দ্বারা stops and stares at আপনি guys. “A movie,” Chev says quickly.
“Ahh,” he says nodding, she walks away. আপনি sigh.
“Nice one,” আপনি say and toss a piece of carrot at Chev, it hits him on the forehead and falls to his lap. He glares at you, and আপনি giggle. He shakes his head.
“Stop flirting at the table,” Kathy says.
“What the fuck!?” আপনি yell at her. “We’re not flirting for cryin out loud!” আপনি yell.
“Seems like it,” Kathy says laughing.
“I don’t like Lily like that thank you,” Chev says then takes a drink of milk.
“So…. Do আপনি like boys?” Chelsea says laughing.
“Sick no!” Chev yells and throws the carrot at Chelsea. আপনি laugh.
“You guys should stop before we get yelled at,” Annie says annoyed.
“Aww is someone upset?” Chev says staring at her.
“No,” she says with a smile then throws a Skittle at Chev. আপনি shake your head.
“Ok, I really think we should stop,” আপনি say. They all stop laughing and stare at you. “Thank you,” আপনি say.
“Hey, Annie told me আপনি had a boyfriend back in Detroit, and she ব্যক্ত আপনি showed her a picture can I see it!?” Jessie says being all jumpy and in your face about it. আপনি stare at her for a few seconds, once she realizes your being serious she stops smiling and looks at আপনি seriously. “Well?” she says after a while. আপনি reach into your bag and pull out a green folder, আপনি pull out the picture আপনি showed to Annie this morning and hand it to Jessie, she grabs it quickly.
“Don’t bend it!” আপনি scream at her.
“Ohh calm down, I wont,” Jessie says staring at the picture of আপনি and Marshall. “Whats his name?” Jessie asks, as he hands the picture to Kathy.
“Marshall,” আপনি say trying not to get sad.
“Hes hot!” Kathy says. আপনি glare at her. “Not that I would wanna তারিখ him অথবা anything,” she adds. The picture goes around the whole table, Chev looks kind of angry when hes looking at it, he hands it back to আপনি after about a second.
After school আপনি walk প্রথমপাতা with Annie, she lives a few houses from you….
“I think Chev likes you,” she says randomly. আপনি stop walking and stare at her.
“Uhh?” আপনি ask.
“Well did আপনি see how he acted around you, and how he looked mad about the picture of Marshall,” she says. “I think hes jealous,” she says.
“So?” আপনি say.
“Do আপনি like him?” she asks.
“I.. no, I just got out of a relationship that Im not over yet,” আপনি say. “ I really liked Marshall,” আপনি say. আপনি place your hand on your stomach randomly.
“Do আপনি have something আপনি have to tell me?” she asks.
“No?” আপনি say আরো as a প্রশ্ন rather than a straight answer.
“You do don’t you, আপনি have a secret,” she says with a smile. “Tell me I wont tell anybody I promise, if I do আপনি can hate me forever and আপনি don’t ever have to talk to me again,” she says, আপনি know her saying this she wont tell anybody, she never has told anybody anything before that আপনি have told her not too… but you’re still afraid to tell her… “Well…?” she asks. আপনি stop on the side walk দ্বারা a old abandoned house and stare at her….wondering if আপনি should tell her that your going to have Marshalls baby অথবা not tell her…