অ্যালিস ইন ওয়ান্ডারল্যান্ড

I knew it was coming.
I’ve broken
the law
s o m a n y t i m e s.
It was inevitable.
I just wish I had
Mother,
Father,
and Violet
here to support me.
    
I can almost hear Mother’s
calm, smooth
voice, telling me It’ll be
alright.
    
I can almost feel Father's
h a n d o n m y a r m,
squeezing reassuringly.
    
I can almost smell Violet’s
homemade স্ট্রবেরি perfume
as she buries her head
into my neck.

A final good-bye.

I don’t like good-byes because

they seem too formal.
I’d rather settle for
just leaving
than facing the
people I love
and risk
bursting
out
in *t e a r s*

Anything but that.

I might die right
then
and
there.