His head snapped up at her words and he looked at her with disbelief. “Are আপনি really going to tell me Blair অথবা is this another one of your games. Because if it’s a game, আপনি might as well not even bother.”
Blair looked into his face and she felt her হৃদয় beat with trepidation and excitement. A lock of hair fell over his face and she brushed it back with her fingers, her hand stayed on the side of his face. “I really want to tell you, Chuck. I’ve always wanted to, I’ve just been scared.”
He sat down on a chair in her bedroom and brought her down to sit পরবর্তি to him. “Tell me, Blair.” He insisted.
She nodded but found that the words just wouldn’t come out of her mouth. “I’m afraid that you’re going to hate me when I tell আপনি the truth, Chuck. And I don’t think I could ভালুক it if আপনি do wind up hating me. You’re the one person that I always felt that I could tell anything but this just makes me feel so uneasy.”
Chuck placed one of his hands at the back of her neck and started to rub the tension away. As soon as his hand touched her, she felt the electricity crackle between them. She looked into his eyes and she knew that he felt the same thing too.
He continued to rub her neck while he said, “I will never hate you, Blair. I need for আপনি to believe me on that. When আপনি left, I wanted to hate আপনি because of how আপনি made me feel. But I could never bring myself to do it. And when my father died, I always expected আপনি to be the one person that would always be here for me and when আপনি weren’t, I won’t deny that it didn’t hurt.”
She wiped a tear away that had dripped down her cheek. “I wanted to be there for আপনি so much, Chuck. I never wanted to leave but something made me.”
“What?” His হৃদয় positively skipped a beat while he waited for her answer.
The tears continued to cascade down her face while she looked at him. Blair could still feel the same pain that she had the দিন when she knew that she was going to have to leave. It hurt as much today as ever. “I left because I…”
Just as she was about to tell him, the door burst open and Ben was on the other side taking in the situation. Chuck still had his hand on her neck and Blair had placed her hand on his thigh. She didn’t remove her hand and looked at Ben with a look keen to annoyance. “Ben, I’m in the middle of something. What’s the problem?”
Ben stepped into the room and Chuck growled with impatience. Ben went over to her and placed a hand on her shoulder and tried to get her to সরানো away from Chuck. “Blair, this isn’t sensible.”
Blair threw his hand off of her. “Ben, this isn’t the time to interrupt. I was just in the middle of telling Chuck something.”
Chuck stayed silent while he watched the exchange between them but he noticed that Blair was pissed as anything.
“Were আপনি really just about to tell him the truth, Blair?”
“Yes.” She answered without hesitation.
Chuck stood up angrily and shoved Blair’s hand off of him. “Are আপনি really fucking telling me that your fiancée knows why আপনি left but I still don’t?”
She rushed over to him and ignored Ben. “I was just about to tell আপনি though, Chuck.”
“Blair, don’t.” Ben called from the corner of the room.
Chuck glowered at him. “Will আপনি shut the fuck up and just let her tell me? I’ve waited over four years for this দিন and I don’t want to be deprived of knowing any longer.”
Ben slowly walked over to them and grabbed Blair দ্বারা the shoulders. “Blair, think about what will happen if আপনি tell him. আপনি already know that he hates you, so why even bother telling him. It’s only going to make him hate আপনি more.”
Blair flinched but Chuck growled, “I don’t hate her. আপনি know nothing about our past, so don’t act like আপনি do.”
Ben nodded. “That’s why Blair told me that আপনি were the most notorious womanizer that Manhattan has ever seen. It was all just about sex to you, wasn’t it? Don’t spare Blair’s feelings just because she still cares about you. She deserves to know the truth, Bass.”
Chuck spoke to Ben but looked into Blair’s face. “It was about sex for all the other women that I’ve slept with but that was never how it was with Blair. From দিন one it was আরো than that, and she knows that. Don’t you?” His voice had taken on a needy tone and he needed to know that she knew that he had cared about her.
A watery smile came to her face. “I knew that, Chuck. I was the only girl that ever made an impact on your life just like আপনি were the only man to do that for me.”
“Blair.” Ben admonished.
She shook her head in irritation. “Before Ben. I’m talking about when we were teenagers. Now would আপনি please leave us alone for a while so I can tell him the truth?”
He shook his head. “Just talk to me for a মিনিট and then if আপনি want to still tell him the reason আপনি left, then I will let you.”
“Let you?” Chuck questioned. “What do আপনি think আপনি own her? No one owns a Waldorf.”
Blair grinned at his মতামত but turned back to her fiancée. “Fine, আপনি have five minutes. But I’m not going to be persuaded, I am going to tell Chuck the truth. He deserves it, Ben.”
Blair made to walk out of her bedroom but Chuck caught her wrist in his hand. “Don’t go, Blair.” He pleaded. “If আপনি do, you’re never going to tell me what happened and what made আপনি want to leave. And I need to know. It’s not a প্রশ্ন of wanting, I need to know.”
“I’ll be back in five মিনিট and I promise আপনি that I will tell আপনি the truth, Chuck. It’s past time and I have to let আপনি know.”
Chuck shook his head in exasperation and Blair and Ben left the room.
XOXO
As soon as Blair led Ben into another room, she rounded on him. “Why the hell did আপনি have to come and barge in on us just as I was about to tell him?”
“Blair, I just want to make sure that আপনি know what you’re doing. Because if আপনি go back in there and tell him, you’re never going to be able to erase it.”
She sighed. “I know what I’m doing, Ben. I’ve kept the truth from here for over four years; don’t আপনি think it’s time that I told him the truth?”
He nodded. “I know that he needs to know Blair, but I’m just trying to think of আপনি here. আপনি know that as soon as he finds out, he’s going to want to destroy you. He’ll never forgive আপনি for what you’ve done to him. He’ll make certain to destroy everything that আপনি know and love. Then you’ll be back at square one.”
“How do আপনি even know that?” Blair asked in astonishment. “You just met Chuck tonight, আপনি know nothing about him. He told me tonight that he could never hate me and I believe, and there’s nothing that আপনি can say that will convince me not to tell him.”
“Alright, I just want to make sure that আপনি think twice about this decision. I just don’t want to see আপনি hurt anymore দ্বারা him Blair, I hate seeing আপনি in so much pain. I know আপনি still প্রণয় him. It’s evident on your face, the way আপনি react to him, and most importantly, he can see it too. Don’t let him do this to আপনি again, Blair.”
She walked over to him and placed a hand on his face while her eyes glossed over with tears. “You’re good for me, আপনি know that? I don’t know if I still প্রণয় him, Ben. But seeing him again has brought back all these memories and not all of them were bad. I see him and I just want us to get back to that place where we’re comfortable with each other. I still care deeply for Chuck and I know that it doesn’t matter if I’m in প্রণয় with him because we both know what our relationship is. I agreed to take on the secret you’ve been keeping your whole life, just as আপনি did with me. And I’ve never regretted that, Ben.”
“Are আপনি still going to marry me, Blair?”
“Yes, I will. That’s what we agreed on when we decided that we were going to have to fake our relationship to be able to keep both of our secrets. I would never back out of that now.”
Ben breathed a sigh of relief. “Are আপনি still going to tell Chuck the truth? Don’t do it, Blair.”
“I won’t tell him right now but eventually it’s going to come out, Ben. Let me go tell him myself that I can’t do this right now and I’ll meet আপনি downstairs.”
He threaded a hand through one of hers. “Fifteen minutes?” She nodded. “I’m really happy that আপনি decided to see reason Blair because আপনি know that Chuck never loved you.”
At that moment she felt like slapping him right across the face but she ব্যক্ত nothing to him. She thought he was wrong, but she wasn’t sure about Chuck never loving her because she could still see the way he looked at her, and she knew that what they had between them would never die. But she still wasn’t convinced that he had ever loved her and that killed a part of her. She watched as Ben headed back downstairs obviously pleased with himself that he had convinced her not to tell Chuck the truth. Blair had deceived him though and she wasn’t sorry about that. She slipped her way back into her own bedroom.
XOXO
“Well?” Chuck questioned as soon as she had walked back through the door.
Blair grimaced. “Ben doesn’t want me to tell আপনি the truth because he thinks that আপনি never cared about me, and he doesn’t want me to get hurt anymore.”
He shook his head in disgust. “Of course, he doesn’t want আপনি to fucking tell me. He’s jealous and আপনি know that what he ব্যক্ত was all bullshit. I can’t believe this; আপনি did it to me again Blair. আপনি told me that আপনি would tell and now you’re just going to back out of it again? Why are আপনি such a coward?”
“I’m not a coward!”
“Yes, আপনি fucking are.” He snarled. “Was this all just a little game that the two of your concocted up to see how I would react? আপনি were never going to tell me, were you?”
“Chuck.” She breathed hard due to her extreme nervousness. “You know that I would never play a game like that with you. I was planning on telling আপনি and I still am, but it has to be tomorrow. I want আপনি to come over here tomorrow afternoon while Ben isn’t here and I will tell আপনি the truth. I promise you.”
He shoved his was past her and strode to the door. “Fuck that! I don’t believe আপনি and who the hell are আপনি kidding দ্বারা telling me that আপনি wouldn’t play games with me? You’ve been stringing me along ever since that night in the limo. And I’m fucking tired of it and I’m not going to do it anymore.”
She rushed over to him and placed a hand on his back. “Chuck.”
“What?”
“Don’t do this. I really am going to tell you.”
“Right, I know this is just another one of your petty tricks to get a rise out of me Blair. You’ve done this to me too many times.”
Blair gripped his arm hard and turned him around to face her. She saw the devastated look in his eyes. “Chuck, you’ve got to stop অভিনয় like everything was my entire fault. I know that what I did to আপনি was horrible but আপনি hurt me too many times to count. What about the দিন that I told আপনি that I loved আপনি at Bart’s funeral? Do আপনি remember what আপনি ব্যক্ত to me?”
He didn’t answer her but instead looked back at her stoically.
She continued, “I put my হৃদয় on the line for আপনি that দিন and I wanted too. Your face was so grief stricken and I still remember what আপনি look like, it broke my heart. And that দিন when I told আপনি that I loved আপনি it wasn’t because I felt sorry for আপনি অথবা because of pity, it was because I was tired of playing these games between us about who would say it first. I knew that I loved আপনি and I wanted আপনি to hear it, and there was no better time than at your father’s funeral to say it. I saw the emotions come over your face and I knew that আপনি cared about me but I wasn’t sure if আপনি loved me. I wanted to hear আপনি say those three words to me and it would have made me the happiest person in the world. Instead, আপনি said, well, that’s too bad. I still can’t get that out of my head and I’ll never be able too. I know that I hurt আপনি Chuck but when আপনি ব্যক্ত that to me, I felt like a piece of me died.”
A glimmer of guilt came over his face. “Blair.” He whispered. “I wanted to tell আপনি but I couldn’t. That was the most horrible দিন of my life and it still is.”
“Why couldn’t আপনি tell me?”
He closed his eyes because she was starting to break through and he was developing feelings for her again. He knew that she was only going to fuck him over in the end and so he decided to push whatever he felt for her aside and be cruel to her. Chuck looked into her hopeful eyes and said, “I couldn’t say those words to আপনি because they weren’t true. I cared about আপনি আরো than any other woman in my life but I could never bring myself to প্রণয় you, especially after what আপনি did. I’m glad that I never loved আপনি because I would have been destroyed দ্বারা you.”
The hurt radiated out of her eyes and she gasped for breath as she looked at him. “Is that the truth?”
“It is.” He lied.
Tears continued to stream down her face and she didn’t even try to stop them. “You never loved me. It sounds so strange to say that because a part of me always thought that আপনি did. This changes nothing, Chuck. What আপনি just ব্যক্ত hurts me আরো than anything else I have ever heard in my life, but I’m not going to take back what I just ব্যক্ত because that wouldn’t be truthful. I did প্রণয় আপনি and a part of me will always continue to do so. I will never stop caring for you, Chuck. Like I said, nothing আপনি ever do অথবা say will be enough for me to hate you.” She lightly touched his face. “My feelings will never change and I am going to tell আপনি the truth tomorrow, so make sure you’re here.”
Blair walked to the door and without looking back at him, she left. He stood there a long time just staring at where she had stood. “I প্রণয় আপনি too.” He whispered to the empty room and he wished Blair was still in there, so he could tell her the truth. He had always loved her and nothing could ever change that. Even after everything she had done to him, he could never stop loving her. Tears formed in his eyes but he refused to shed them. Blair Waldorf brought out the worst in him but a part of her also brought out the best.
XOXO
“Are আপনি okay, Blair?”
Blair turned at the sound of Serena’s voice and she knew that anyone who looked at her would be able to distinguish the pain in her eyes.
“I’m fine, Serena.”
Nate stood behind Serena and he bent down and placed Patrick in Blair’s lap. Patrick immediately noticed that she was upset and planted a wet চুম্বন on Blair’s mouth. Serena laughed but all it made Blair do was cry. At seeing this, Patrick got upset and held tighter on to Blair. She tried to comfort him and rub his back but she was sobbing too hard to even do that. Nate eventually took him off of her lap and went to bring him back to his bedroom, to give Serena and Blair a মিনিট alone.
The concern showed on Serena’s face. “What’s wrong, B?”
She shook her head. “Nothing.” At one look from Serena, she admitted, “Everything. Chuck and I were talking last night and he admitted that he never loved me and it’s just hit me very hard. A part of me always thought that he loved me but I guess that was just stupid. I know that I shouldn’t feel so down about it but I just can’t seem to help myself.”
Serena was furious that her brother had ব্যক্ত that to Blair because she knew the truth. She knew that Chuck loved Blair was an intensity that could never change, but she ব্যক্ত nothing because it wasn’t her fight. Instead she asked a question. “Do আপনি still প্রণয় him, Blair?”
At the word love, Blair’s head snapped up. “Yes.” She whispered.
Serena gave her a pitying look. “Did আপনি ever get over him?”
She shook her head. “No, I really didn’t. I convinced myself for a while that I did but it was a lie. While I was in France, there wasn’t a night that passed that I didn’t think about him অথবা what we could have had. I just miss him, but at least I know that he never loved me, maybe now I can try to সরানো on.”
“What about Ben?”
“I’m still going to marry him, Serena. He knows that I still প্রণয় Chuck and our relationship is actually based on an arrangement. We both benefit from it and I don’t see any reason to stop it. If Chuck loved me too, then it would be a different story. But seeing as how that isn’t that case, Ben and I will still be getting married in two months.”
Serena shook her head at both Chuck and Blair’s stupidity. She had to tell Blair the truth about Chuck, the truth he had been hiding for so long from Blair. He wasn’t as innocent as all this as he would like everyone to believe, Serena knew the secret that he was hiding from Blair and now was the time to tell her. “Blair, I have to tell আপনি something very important.”
Blair waved her hand. “It will have to wait until later; I’m already late for meeting Chuck. Well, I don’t even know if he is going to প্রদর্শনী up. But if he does, I am going to tell him the truth. Nothing will stop me this time.”
Serena hugged her. “Good luck with everything, Blair.”
“Thanks, S. I am going to need it.”
XOXO
Just as she got to the front door, Blair saw that Chuck was there waiting for her. Immediately the feelings of hurt began to creep up on her. “You came.” She ব্যক্ত simply.
He quirked an eyebrow. “You sound surprised.”
She inserted her key into the door and went inside, Chuck followed her. “After last night, I didn’t think আপনি would come. It’s obvious that আপনি care nothing for me, so why do আপনি even want to know why I left?”
He started to সরানো towards her and she backed up against the wall. “I told আপনি that I need to know the truth finally. Just tell me.”
“Why?” She whispered. “Last night আপনি made your feelings toward me perfectly clear. So, what does it even matter?”
Chuck grabbed her shoulders in his hands. “What I ব্যক্ত last night was a lie. আপনি were getting to me and I just lied, so আপনি would back the hell off and I could try to convince myself that I felt nothing for you.”
“And?”
“Total shit. I can’t forget আপনি Blair and I want to so badly. Why the hell can’t I সরানো on from you?” He looked deeply into her eyes and she noticed the lust that had appeared.
“Am I supposed to actually believe this when আপনি told me last night that I never meant anything to you? And আপনি accuse me of playing games. You’re just contradicting yourself, Bass.”
A grin lit up his face at the use of her using his last name. It was a term of endearment, but his grin slowly faded. “I loved you, Blair. That’s why I’m still so তিক্ত because আপনি left me and I loved you.”
“You loved me?” The words came out in a rush and she searched his face to see if he was telling the truth. It appeared that he was.
He stroked her hair. “How could আপনি not know? I thought আপনি knew, everybody else did. How long was I বন্ধু with Nate? And then ever since the first night we made love, I couldn’t forget you. I needed you; it was even a প্রশ্ন of staying away from আপনি because I couldn’t. It was out of the question. আপনি are the only woman that I have ever slept with আরো than once, usually when I fuck somebody, that’s it. I get bored and সরানো onto the next. But with us it was never fucking, it was making love. I screwed up my fucking friendship with Nate for you. I would never do that for anyone but you. And I loved you.” Now that he had finally told her, the words came easily to his lips. He implored her with his eyes to believe him and he knew that she could tell he was telling the truth দ্বারা the desperate plea in his voice.
Tears sprang to her eyes and she moved her hand to cover his chest where his হৃদয় resided. “I loved আপনি too, Chuck. I loved আপনি so much that it consumed me and every time I saw you, I just wanted to tell you. I know what I did to আপনি was really shitty but please tell me that আপনি believe me when I ব্যক্ত that I প্রণয় you.” She didn’t even realize her slip, that she had just ব্যক্ত প্রণয় instead of loved. But Chuck certainly had.
“I believe you, Blair.” He moved his lips to hers and meant to give her a friendly peck on her mouth to signify that they were finally being honest and open with each other. As soon as his lips touched hers though, it turned into a frenzy, a need to চুম্বন her and he crushed his lips down onto hers. She responded instantly, throwing an arm around his neck while he deepened the চুম্বন and slid his tongue inside of her mouth. Her tongue met his and he groaned at the sensation. Chuck’s hands slid to her hips as he pushed her harder into the wall. She slammed her pelvis down onto his already raging erection. He broke the চুম্বন and began peppering kisses all down the side of her neck and collarbone. He felt her hand slowly creeping down his chest and he grabbed it before it could head further down south.
“Blair.” He grated. “You have to tell me the truth before this goes any further.”
Her eyes were hazy with lust but it appeared that he had broken through, when she took his hand and said, “Come with me.”
Blair held onto his hand as she led him up the stairs and she stopped him outside one of the bedrooms. “Are আপনি ready, Chuck?”
He nodded because he was incapable of talking at the moment.
She took a deep breath and willed her হৃদয় to slow down and return to normal beating.
“It’s okay, Blair. Everything will be okay.”
Her hand grasped the door handle and she opened the door and led him into the middle of the bedroom. He gasped when he saw a small child lying asleep.
“This is my daughter, Meg.” She announced.
His eyes immediately glazed over with anger and the lust he felt for Blair only moments পূর্বে disappeared. “So, while আপনি were so desperately in প্রণয় with me, আপনি were obviously fucking someone else! Weren’t you?”
She shot him a look at contempt at his language around the sleeping child. “Look at her face, Chuck.”
He complied and moved closer to the bed. The only feature of Blair’s that she had was her nose. She had very dark eyes, almost onyx, and even in sleep she had what আপনি would call a catlike smirk on her face. It suddenly hit him and he felt his knees begin to buckle. Blair’s daughter looked exactly like him. “She’s mine.” He whispered.
To Be Continued…
A/N: The secret is out! I’m sure many of আপনি had already guessed what Blair’s secret was and I hope it was worth the wait. Ben and Chuck also have secrets as আপনি will already know if আপনি have read the chapter, so those will be revealed in later chapters. What do আপনি think?
Blair looked into his face and she felt her হৃদয় beat with trepidation and excitement. A lock of hair fell over his face and she brushed it back with her fingers, her hand stayed on the side of his face. “I really want to tell you, Chuck. I’ve always wanted to, I’ve just been scared.”
He sat down on a chair in her bedroom and brought her down to sit পরবর্তি to him. “Tell me, Blair.” He insisted.
She nodded but found that the words just wouldn’t come out of her mouth. “I’m afraid that you’re going to hate me when I tell আপনি the truth, Chuck. And I don’t think I could ভালুক it if আপনি do wind up hating me. You’re the one person that I always felt that I could tell anything but this just makes me feel so uneasy.”
Chuck placed one of his hands at the back of her neck and started to rub the tension away. As soon as his hand touched her, she felt the electricity crackle between them. She looked into his eyes and she knew that he felt the same thing too.
He continued to rub her neck while he said, “I will never hate you, Blair. I need for আপনি to believe me on that. When আপনি left, I wanted to hate আপনি because of how আপনি made me feel. But I could never bring myself to do it. And when my father died, I always expected আপনি to be the one person that would always be here for me and when আপনি weren’t, I won’t deny that it didn’t hurt.”
She wiped a tear away that had dripped down her cheek. “I wanted to be there for আপনি so much, Chuck. I never wanted to leave but something made me.”
“What?” His হৃদয় positively skipped a beat while he waited for her answer.
The tears continued to cascade down her face while she looked at him. Blair could still feel the same pain that she had the দিন when she knew that she was going to have to leave. It hurt as much today as ever. “I left because I…”
Just as she was about to tell him, the door burst open and Ben was on the other side taking in the situation. Chuck still had his hand on her neck and Blair had placed her hand on his thigh. She didn’t remove her hand and looked at Ben with a look keen to annoyance. “Ben, I’m in the middle of something. What’s the problem?”
Ben stepped into the room and Chuck growled with impatience. Ben went over to her and placed a hand on her shoulder and tried to get her to সরানো away from Chuck. “Blair, this isn’t sensible.”
Blair threw his hand off of her. “Ben, this isn’t the time to interrupt. I was just in the middle of telling Chuck something.”
Chuck stayed silent while he watched the exchange between them but he noticed that Blair was pissed as anything.
“Were আপনি really just about to tell him the truth, Blair?”
“Yes.” She answered without hesitation.
Chuck stood up angrily and shoved Blair’s hand off of him. “Are আপনি really fucking telling me that your fiancée knows why আপনি left but I still don’t?”
She rushed over to him and ignored Ben. “I was just about to tell আপনি though, Chuck.”
“Blair, don’t.” Ben called from the corner of the room.
Chuck glowered at him. “Will আপনি shut the fuck up and just let her tell me? I’ve waited over four years for this দিন and I don’t want to be deprived of knowing any longer.”
Ben slowly walked over to them and grabbed Blair দ্বারা the shoulders. “Blair, think about what will happen if আপনি tell him. আপনি already know that he hates you, so why even bother telling him. It’s only going to make him hate আপনি more.”
Blair flinched but Chuck growled, “I don’t hate her. আপনি know nothing about our past, so don’t act like আপনি do.”
Ben nodded. “That’s why Blair told me that আপনি were the most notorious womanizer that Manhattan has ever seen. It was all just about sex to you, wasn’t it? Don’t spare Blair’s feelings just because she still cares about you. She deserves to know the truth, Bass.”
Chuck spoke to Ben but looked into Blair’s face. “It was about sex for all the other women that I’ve slept with but that was never how it was with Blair. From দিন one it was আরো than that, and she knows that. Don’t you?” His voice had taken on a needy tone and he needed to know that she knew that he had cared about her.
A watery smile came to her face. “I knew that, Chuck. I was the only girl that ever made an impact on your life just like আপনি were the only man to do that for me.”
“Blair.” Ben admonished.
She shook her head in irritation. “Before Ben. I’m talking about when we were teenagers. Now would আপনি please leave us alone for a while so I can tell him the truth?”
He shook his head. “Just talk to me for a মিনিট and then if আপনি want to still tell him the reason আপনি left, then I will let you.”
“Let you?” Chuck questioned. “What do আপনি think আপনি own her? No one owns a Waldorf.”
Blair grinned at his মতামত but turned back to her fiancée. “Fine, আপনি have five minutes. But I’m not going to be persuaded, I am going to tell Chuck the truth. He deserves it, Ben.”
Blair made to walk out of her bedroom but Chuck caught her wrist in his hand. “Don’t go, Blair.” He pleaded. “If আপনি do, you’re never going to tell me what happened and what made আপনি want to leave. And I need to know. It’s not a প্রশ্ন of wanting, I need to know.”
“I’ll be back in five মিনিট and I promise আপনি that I will tell আপনি the truth, Chuck. It’s past time and I have to let আপনি know.”
Chuck shook his head in exasperation and Blair and Ben left the room.
XOXO
As soon as Blair led Ben into another room, she rounded on him. “Why the hell did আপনি have to come and barge in on us just as I was about to tell him?”
“Blair, I just want to make sure that আপনি know what you’re doing. Because if আপনি go back in there and tell him, you’re never going to be able to erase it.”
She sighed. “I know what I’m doing, Ben. I’ve kept the truth from here for over four years; don’t আপনি think it’s time that I told him the truth?”
He nodded. “I know that he needs to know Blair, but I’m just trying to think of আপনি here. আপনি know that as soon as he finds out, he’s going to want to destroy you. He’ll never forgive আপনি for what you’ve done to him. He’ll make certain to destroy everything that আপনি know and love. Then you’ll be back at square one.”
“How do আপনি even know that?” Blair asked in astonishment. “You just met Chuck tonight, আপনি know nothing about him. He told me tonight that he could never hate me and I believe, and there’s nothing that আপনি can say that will convince me not to tell him.”
“Alright, I just want to make sure that আপনি think twice about this decision. I just don’t want to see আপনি hurt anymore দ্বারা him Blair, I hate seeing আপনি in so much pain. I know আপনি still প্রণয় him. It’s evident on your face, the way আপনি react to him, and most importantly, he can see it too. Don’t let him do this to আপনি again, Blair.”
She walked over to him and placed a hand on his face while her eyes glossed over with tears. “You’re good for me, আপনি know that? I don’t know if I still প্রণয় him, Ben. But seeing him again has brought back all these memories and not all of them were bad. I see him and I just want us to get back to that place where we’re comfortable with each other. I still care deeply for Chuck and I know that it doesn’t matter if I’m in প্রণয় with him because we both know what our relationship is. I agreed to take on the secret you’ve been keeping your whole life, just as আপনি did with me. And I’ve never regretted that, Ben.”
“Are আপনি still going to marry me, Blair?”
“Yes, I will. That’s what we agreed on when we decided that we were going to have to fake our relationship to be able to keep both of our secrets. I would never back out of that now.”
Ben breathed a sigh of relief. “Are আপনি still going to tell Chuck the truth? Don’t do it, Blair.”
“I won’t tell him right now but eventually it’s going to come out, Ben. Let me go tell him myself that I can’t do this right now and I’ll meet আপনি downstairs.”
He threaded a hand through one of hers. “Fifteen minutes?” She nodded. “I’m really happy that আপনি decided to see reason Blair because আপনি know that Chuck never loved you.”
At that moment she felt like slapping him right across the face but she ব্যক্ত nothing to him. She thought he was wrong, but she wasn’t sure about Chuck never loving her because she could still see the way he looked at her, and she knew that what they had between them would never die. But she still wasn’t convinced that he had ever loved her and that killed a part of her. She watched as Ben headed back downstairs obviously pleased with himself that he had convinced her not to tell Chuck the truth. Blair had deceived him though and she wasn’t sorry about that. She slipped her way back into her own bedroom.
XOXO
“Well?” Chuck questioned as soon as she had walked back through the door.
Blair grimaced. “Ben doesn’t want me to tell আপনি the truth because he thinks that আপনি never cared about me, and he doesn’t want me to get hurt anymore.”
He shook his head in disgust. “Of course, he doesn’t want আপনি to fucking tell me. He’s jealous and আপনি know that what he ব্যক্ত was all bullshit. I can’t believe this; আপনি did it to me again Blair. আপনি told me that আপনি would tell and now you’re just going to back out of it again? Why are আপনি such a coward?”
“I’m not a coward!”
“Yes, আপনি fucking are.” He snarled. “Was this all just a little game that the two of your concocted up to see how I would react? আপনি were never going to tell me, were you?”
“Chuck.” She breathed hard due to her extreme nervousness. “You know that I would never play a game like that with you. I was planning on telling আপনি and I still am, but it has to be tomorrow. I want আপনি to come over here tomorrow afternoon while Ben isn’t here and I will tell আপনি the truth. I promise you.”
He shoved his was past her and strode to the door. “Fuck that! I don’t believe আপনি and who the hell are আপনি kidding দ্বারা telling me that আপনি wouldn’t play games with me? You’ve been stringing me along ever since that night in the limo. And I’m fucking tired of it and I’m not going to do it anymore.”
She rushed over to him and placed a hand on his back. “Chuck.”
“What?”
“Don’t do this. I really am going to tell you.”
“Right, I know this is just another one of your petty tricks to get a rise out of me Blair. You’ve done this to me too many times.”
Blair gripped his arm hard and turned him around to face her. She saw the devastated look in his eyes. “Chuck, you’ve got to stop অভিনয় like everything was my entire fault. I know that what I did to আপনি was horrible but আপনি hurt me too many times to count. What about the দিন that I told আপনি that I loved আপনি at Bart’s funeral? Do আপনি remember what আপনি ব্যক্ত to me?”
He didn’t answer her but instead looked back at her stoically.
She continued, “I put my হৃদয় on the line for আপনি that দিন and I wanted too. Your face was so grief stricken and I still remember what আপনি look like, it broke my heart. And that দিন when I told আপনি that I loved আপনি it wasn’t because I felt sorry for আপনি অথবা because of pity, it was because I was tired of playing these games between us about who would say it first. I knew that I loved আপনি and I wanted আপনি to hear it, and there was no better time than at your father’s funeral to say it. I saw the emotions come over your face and I knew that আপনি cared about me but I wasn’t sure if আপনি loved me. I wanted to hear আপনি say those three words to me and it would have made me the happiest person in the world. Instead, আপনি said, well, that’s too bad. I still can’t get that out of my head and I’ll never be able too. I know that I hurt আপনি Chuck but when আপনি ব্যক্ত that to me, I felt like a piece of me died.”
A glimmer of guilt came over his face. “Blair.” He whispered. “I wanted to tell আপনি but I couldn’t. That was the most horrible দিন of my life and it still is.”
“Why couldn’t আপনি tell me?”
He closed his eyes because she was starting to break through and he was developing feelings for her again. He knew that she was only going to fuck him over in the end and so he decided to push whatever he felt for her aside and be cruel to her. Chuck looked into her hopeful eyes and said, “I couldn’t say those words to আপনি because they weren’t true. I cared about আপনি আরো than any other woman in my life but I could never bring myself to প্রণয় you, especially after what আপনি did. I’m glad that I never loved আপনি because I would have been destroyed দ্বারা you.”
The hurt radiated out of her eyes and she gasped for breath as she looked at him. “Is that the truth?”
“It is.” He lied.
Tears continued to stream down her face and she didn’t even try to stop them. “You never loved me. It sounds so strange to say that because a part of me always thought that আপনি did. This changes nothing, Chuck. What আপনি just ব্যক্ত hurts me আরো than anything else I have ever heard in my life, but I’m not going to take back what I just ব্যক্ত because that wouldn’t be truthful. I did প্রণয় আপনি and a part of me will always continue to do so. I will never stop caring for you, Chuck. Like I said, nothing আপনি ever do অথবা say will be enough for me to hate you.” She lightly touched his face. “My feelings will never change and I am going to tell আপনি the truth tomorrow, so make sure you’re here.”
Blair walked to the door and without looking back at him, she left. He stood there a long time just staring at where she had stood. “I প্রণয় আপনি too.” He whispered to the empty room and he wished Blair was still in there, so he could tell her the truth. He had always loved her and nothing could ever change that. Even after everything she had done to him, he could never stop loving her. Tears formed in his eyes but he refused to shed them. Blair Waldorf brought out the worst in him but a part of her also brought out the best.
XOXO
“Are আপনি okay, Blair?”
Blair turned at the sound of Serena’s voice and she knew that anyone who looked at her would be able to distinguish the pain in her eyes.
“I’m fine, Serena.”
Nate stood behind Serena and he bent down and placed Patrick in Blair’s lap. Patrick immediately noticed that she was upset and planted a wet চুম্বন on Blair’s mouth. Serena laughed but all it made Blair do was cry. At seeing this, Patrick got upset and held tighter on to Blair. She tried to comfort him and rub his back but she was sobbing too hard to even do that. Nate eventually took him off of her lap and went to bring him back to his bedroom, to give Serena and Blair a মিনিট alone.
The concern showed on Serena’s face. “What’s wrong, B?”
She shook her head. “Nothing.” At one look from Serena, she admitted, “Everything. Chuck and I were talking last night and he admitted that he never loved me and it’s just hit me very hard. A part of me always thought that he loved me but I guess that was just stupid. I know that I shouldn’t feel so down about it but I just can’t seem to help myself.”
Serena was furious that her brother had ব্যক্ত that to Blair because she knew the truth. She knew that Chuck loved Blair was an intensity that could never change, but she ব্যক্ত nothing because it wasn’t her fight. Instead she asked a question. “Do আপনি still প্রণয় him, Blair?”
At the word love, Blair’s head snapped up. “Yes.” She whispered.
Serena gave her a pitying look. “Did আপনি ever get over him?”
She shook her head. “No, I really didn’t. I convinced myself for a while that I did but it was a lie. While I was in France, there wasn’t a night that passed that I didn’t think about him অথবা what we could have had. I just miss him, but at least I know that he never loved me, maybe now I can try to সরানো on.”
“What about Ben?”
“I’m still going to marry him, Serena. He knows that I still প্রণয় Chuck and our relationship is actually based on an arrangement. We both benefit from it and I don’t see any reason to stop it. If Chuck loved me too, then it would be a different story. But seeing as how that isn’t that case, Ben and I will still be getting married in two months.”
Serena shook her head at both Chuck and Blair’s stupidity. She had to tell Blair the truth about Chuck, the truth he had been hiding for so long from Blair. He wasn’t as innocent as all this as he would like everyone to believe, Serena knew the secret that he was hiding from Blair and now was the time to tell her. “Blair, I have to tell আপনি something very important.”
Blair waved her hand. “It will have to wait until later; I’m already late for meeting Chuck. Well, I don’t even know if he is going to প্রদর্শনী up. But if he does, I am going to tell him the truth. Nothing will stop me this time.”
Serena hugged her. “Good luck with everything, Blair.”
“Thanks, S. I am going to need it.”
XOXO
Just as she got to the front door, Blair saw that Chuck was there waiting for her. Immediately the feelings of hurt began to creep up on her. “You came.” She ব্যক্ত simply.
He quirked an eyebrow. “You sound surprised.”
She inserted her key into the door and went inside, Chuck followed her. “After last night, I didn’t think আপনি would come. It’s obvious that আপনি care nothing for me, so why do আপনি even want to know why I left?”
He started to সরানো towards her and she backed up against the wall. “I told আপনি that I need to know the truth finally. Just tell me.”
“Why?” She whispered. “Last night আপনি made your feelings toward me perfectly clear. So, what does it even matter?”
Chuck grabbed her shoulders in his hands. “What I ব্যক্ত last night was a lie. আপনি were getting to me and I just lied, so আপনি would back the hell off and I could try to convince myself that I felt nothing for you.”
“And?”
“Total shit. I can’t forget আপনি Blair and I want to so badly. Why the hell can’t I সরানো on from you?” He looked deeply into her eyes and she noticed the lust that had appeared.
“Am I supposed to actually believe this when আপনি told me last night that I never meant anything to you? And আপনি accuse me of playing games. You’re just contradicting yourself, Bass.”
A grin lit up his face at the use of her using his last name. It was a term of endearment, but his grin slowly faded. “I loved you, Blair. That’s why I’m still so তিক্ত because আপনি left me and I loved you.”
“You loved me?” The words came out in a rush and she searched his face to see if he was telling the truth. It appeared that he was.
He stroked her hair. “How could আপনি not know? I thought আপনি knew, everybody else did. How long was I বন্ধু with Nate? And then ever since the first night we made love, I couldn’t forget you. I needed you; it was even a প্রশ্ন of staying away from আপনি because I couldn’t. It was out of the question. আপনি are the only woman that I have ever slept with আরো than once, usually when I fuck somebody, that’s it. I get bored and সরানো onto the next. But with us it was never fucking, it was making love. I screwed up my fucking friendship with Nate for you. I would never do that for anyone but you. And I loved you.” Now that he had finally told her, the words came easily to his lips. He implored her with his eyes to believe him and he knew that she could tell he was telling the truth দ্বারা the desperate plea in his voice.
Tears sprang to her eyes and she moved her hand to cover his chest where his হৃদয় resided. “I loved আপনি too, Chuck. I loved আপনি so much that it consumed me and every time I saw you, I just wanted to tell you. I know what I did to আপনি was really shitty but please tell me that আপনি believe me when I ব্যক্ত that I প্রণয় you.” She didn’t even realize her slip, that she had just ব্যক্ত প্রণয় instead of loved. But Chuck certainly had.
“I believe you, Blair.” He moved his lips to hers and meant to give her a friendly peck on her mouth to signify that they were finally being honest and open with each other. As soon as his lips touched hers though, it turned into a frenzy, a need to চুম্বন her and he crushed his lips down onto hers. She responded instantly, throwing an arm around his neck while he deepened the চুম্বন and slid his tongue inside of her mouth. Her tongue met his and he groaned at the sensation. Chuck’s hands slid to her hips as he pushed her harder into the wall. She slammed her pelvis down onto his already raging erection. He broke the চুম্বন and began peppering kisses all down the side of her neck and collarbone. He felt her hand slowly creeping down his chest and he grabbed it before it could head further down south.
“Blair.” He grated. “You have to tell me the truth before this goes any further.”
Her eyes were hazy with lust but it appeared that he had broken through, when she took his hand and said, “Come with me.”
Blair held onto his hand as she led him up the stairs and she stopped him outside one of the bedrooms. “Are আপনি ready, Chuck?”
He nodded because he was incapable of talking at the moment.
She took a deep breath and willed her হৃদয় to slow down and return to normal beating.
“It’s okay, Blair. Everything will be okay.”
Her hand grasped the door handle and she opened the door and led him into the middle of the bedroom. He gasped when he saw a small child lying asleep.
“This is my daughter, Meg.” She announced.
His eyes immediately glazed over with anger and the lust he felt for Blair only moments পূর্বে disappeared. “So, while আপনি were so desperately in প্রণয় with me, আপনি were obviously fucking someone else! Weren’t you?”
She shot him a look at contempt at his language around the sleeping child. “Look at her face, Chuck.”
He complied and moved closer to the bed. The only feature of Blair’s that she had was her nose. She had very dark eyes, almost onyx, and even in sleep she had what আপনি would call a catlike smirk on her face. It suddenly hit him and he felt his knees begin to buckle. Blair’s daughter looked exactly like him. “She’s mine.” He whispered.
To Be Continued…
A/N: The secret is out! I’m sure many of আপনি had already guessed what Blair’s secret was and I hope it was worth the wait. Ben and Chuck also have secrets as আপনি will already know if আপনি have read the chapter, so those will be revealed in later chapters. What do আপনি think?