I lie awake driving myself crazy thinking of you. I made a mistake when I let আপনি go. I drive myself crazy, wanting আপনি the way that I do.
You've still been avoiding Randy as much as possible, yet yearning for him আরো as days pass by. It's been a মাস since আপনি and Randy haven't ব্যক্ত a single word to each other.
**Randy's POV**
I'm such a mess! Look at me! Tossing and turning in my bed. It's been 5 hours since I've tried to go to sleep. **gets up and goes to the living room, watching TV** Ugh all these stupid soap operas. Isn't there anything good on? ...man...I was such a fool. How good was Jamie to me? She changed my life and...she even confessed to me...that she couldn't survive without me. She asked me to stay but look at what a jacka$$ I've bcome. For a whole month! I can't believe I put it up for so long...I feel like a little girl! God! What's wrong with me? How did I survive for this long? This is all my fault. How could I have done this to her? She needed me...she could die any মিনিট from her leukemia and I just think of it so lightly...*sigh* Why didn't I know this before? Why couldn't I think of this before? Why do I have to realize this now? That if I leave her, she and I both can't survive...I প্রণয় her so much...I can't deal with this pain anymore. I have to talk to her. I প্রণয় her.
**normal: পরবর্তি day**
The whole day, Randy has been trying to talk to আপনি but আপনি ignore him অথবা আপনি avoid him. At the end of bball practice, আপনি see him waiting for you. আপনি roll your eyes and আপনি walk right past him. Randy runs after আপনি and grabs your sports bag and carries it.
jamie: Give it back. I don't need your help anymore.
Randy: Too bad. I'm not giving it back.
Jamie: Giv it back!!
আপনি grab it from him and he gives আপনি a shocked look.
Randy: Jamie can we talk?
Jamie: There's nothing to talk about. Go away.
Randy: ...
Jamie: I ব্যক্ত go away!
Randy: Ok. I'm sorry to bother you.
Randy quickly chickens out and walks away from আপনি with his head hanging. Deep in your heart, it's killing আপনি to see him walk like that but আপনি have to be strong. Your not gonna give in just yet when it wasn't even your fault. After আপনি see him disapear from your sight *which is definatly not 20/20 vision*, আপনি start walking. Your sports bag feels heavier for some reason and আপনি kinda limp towards the front gate to get to your house. Your halfway to the gate when আপনি feel like আপনি can't do it anymore. আপনি drop your sports bag and আপনি feel tears running down your cheeks. Not only is the bag heavy, but also is your heart. আপনি feel like আপনি just threw out the প্রণয় of your dreams. Right when আপনি lift up your sports bag to সরানো on, আপনি feel your knees abandon আপনি and আপনি fall to the ground. But before আপনি hit the ground, আপনি feel hands grabbing আপনি and lifting আপনি back up to your feet, getting the heavy bag off you. আপনি look to see Randy right behind you, holding your sports bag for you. আপনি turn to face him and আপনি feel tears running down your cheeks. He smiles and he gently wipes your tears off with his fingers.
Randy: C'mon. Lets go to your house.
Randy carries your sports bag for আপনি while having his free arm on your waist, supporting you. He drives আপনি to your house and he calls Brad to drop off Angie at the house. He agrees and while waiting, Randy tucks আপনি in bed. He's sitting at the edge of your bed, looking at আপনি under the covers, sick.
Randy: আপনি look...sick.
Jamie: I have been. I ran out of medicine.
Randy: ...
Jamie: ...
Randy: I'm sorry. This is my fault. I didn't mean for this fight to go on for so long.
Jamie: Don't apolgize.
Randy: Jamie...*touches your hand* I will never let আপনি fall. I'll stand up with you, together. And I'll always be here for you. I know I've ব্যক্ত it before, but now I truly mean it. This fight has hit me like lightning. I understand how much I need আপনি now. I'll save you. I'll save আপনি Jamie. I can save you.
Jamie: *smile* Thanks Randy. Don't leave me just yet Randy.
Randy: *smile* Of course.
Jamie: Stay until Brad leaves.
Randy: Ok. I promise...
You've still been avoiding Randy as much as possible, yet yearning for him আরো as days pass by. It's been a মাস since আপনি and Randy haven't ব্যক্ত a single word to each other.
**Randy's POV**
I'm such a mess! Look at me! Tossing and turning in my bed. It's been 5 hours since I've tried to go to sleep. **gets up and goes to the living room, watching TV** Ugh all these stupid soap operas. Isn't there anything good on? ...man...I was such a fool. How good was Jamie to me? She changed my life and...she even confessed to me...that she couldn't survive without me. She asked me to stay but look at what a jacka$$ I've bcome. For a whole month! I can't believe I put it up for so long...I feel like a little girl! God! What's wrong with me? How did I survive for this long? This is all my fault. How could I have done this to her? She needed me...she could die any মিনিট from her leukemia and I just think of it so lightly...*sigh* Why didn't I know this before? Why couldn't I think of this before? Why do I have to realize this now? That if I leave her, she and I both can't survive...I প্রণয় her so much...I can't deal with this pain anymore. I have to talk to her. I প্রণয় her.
**normal: পরবর্তি day**
The whole day, Randy has been trying to talk to আপনি but আপনি ignore him অথবা আপনি avoid him. At the end of bball practice, আপনি see him waiting for you. আপনি roll your eyes and আপনি walk right past him. Randy runs after আপনি and grabs your sports bag and carries it.
jamie: Give it back. I don't need your help anymore.
Randy: Too bad. I'm not giving it back.
Jamie: Giv it back!!
আপনি grab it from him and he gives আপনি a shocked look.
Randy: Jamie can we talk?
Jamie: There's nothing to talk about. Go away.
Randy: ...
Jamie: I ব্যক্ত go away!
Randy: Ok. I'm sorry to bother you.
Randy quickly chickens out and walks away from আপনি with his head hanging. Deep in your heart, it's killing আপনি to see him walk like that but আপনি have to be strong. Your not gonna give in just yet when it wasn't even your fault. After আপনি see him disapear from your sight *which is definatly not 20/20 vision*, আপনি start walking. Your sports bag feels heavier for some reason and আপনি kinda limp towards the front gate to get to your house. Your halfway to the gate when আপনি feel like আপনি can't do it anymore. আপনি drop your sports bag and আপনি feel tears running down your cheeks. Not only is the bag heavy, but also is your heart. আপনি feel like আপনি just threw out the প্রণয় of your dreams. Right when আপনি lift up your sports bag to সরানো on, আপনি feel your knees abandon আপনি and আপনি fall to the ground. But before আপনি hit the ground, আপনি feel hands grabbing আপনি and lifting আপনি back up to your feet, getting the heavy bag off you. আপনি look to see Randy right behind you, holding your sports bag for you. আপনি turn to face him and আপনি feel tears running down your cheeks. He smiles and he gently wipes your tears off with his fingers.
Randy: C'mon. Lets go to your house.
Randy carries your sports bag for আপনি while having his free arm on your waist, supporting you. He drives আপনি to your house and he calls Brad to drop off Angie at the house. He agrees and while waiting, Randy tucks আপনি in bed. He's sitting at the edge of your bed, looking at আপনি under the covers, sick.
Randy: আপনি look...sick.
Jamie: I have been. I ran out of medicine.
Randy: ...
Jamie: ...
Randy: I'm sorry. This is my fault. I didn't mean for this fight to go on for so long.
Jamie: Don't apolgize.
Randy: Jamie...*touches your hand* I will never let আপনি fall. I'll stand up with you, together. And I'll always be here for you. I know I've ব্যক্ত it before, but now I truly mean it. This fight has hit me like lightning. I understand how much I need আপনি now. I'll save you. I'll save আপনি Jamie. I can save you.
Jamie: *smile* Thanks Randy. Don't leave me just yet Randy.
Randy: *smile* Of course.
Jamie: Stay until Brad leaves.
Randy: Ok. I promise...
