As he stepped off the plane he was shocked to find Wilson waiting for him there at the gate. He stood there for a moment looking at his friend. He noticed a cast on Wilson’s wrist. Dominica had told him that Wilson had gotten hurt that day. It had been several months so he wondered just how bad Wilson had gotten hurt. They maintained eye contact and held it as House made his way slowly toward Wilson.
Wilson was prepared for the usual sarcacism from House, but he was met with a completely different man.
“How did আপনি know I was flying প্রথমপাতা today?”
"Dominica called me."
"You can't tell women anything."
House waited for Wilson to break the silence but he was not forthcoming with conversation.
“How is the wrist” House asked him?
It’s in a cast House. How do আপনি think it is?
“I am sorry Wilson.” I wasn’t thinking ………..
“No আপনি were thinking! আপনি were thinking about the same thing আপনি always think about!”
“You were thinking of yourself!” আপনি are your highest priority!
“You’re right”, but I am trying to make some changes.
“I know House I have heard this speech before.” Why are আপনি here? Why did আপনি come back?
Apparently so আপনি could meet me at the airport and yell at me.
“Don’t worry, the only thing I wanted to do was come and face আপনি and tell আপনি what a bastard আপনি really are! It has nothing to do with your real father not claiming আপনি either! "I want nothing to do with আপনি House!”
They started to walk away but House stopped. He had come to face his wrongs and to amke peace.
Wilson! Wilson! Please wait! I am sorry. I know that doesn’t fix it but I am sorry. I have had time to deal with who I am and what I have done. I know I hav ebeen a jerk.
Wilson began to walk away.
Wilson!!.... আপনি are family. The only one I have left.
“Then আপনি don’t have any family House because I am done with you.”
Wilson please!
There is one thing House, “Cuddy left a letter and told me if I ever saw আপনি again to give it to you.” He pulled the letter from his কোট and handed it to House.
Wilson I ……………………….
Wilson heard him but he kept walking.
“I am done with you.” Those words beat against his soul like a hammer. He had heard them before in the same tone with the same frustration and aggravation. He had heard them from “her.”
With an envelope in hand that held a letter from her he headed প্রথমপাতা and he had asked Dominica to give him the night alone. When he walked into the apartment he thought all the memories would be there waiting on him. They were but the ones that flooded his mind now were of her and them. He sat down and pulled the letter from his কোট and he slowly opened it wondering maybe if she had lined it with anthrax.
He began to read:
House,
আপনি really are a self centered son of a ………… I can’t believe that আপনি would have done this. Did আপনি ever think about Rachel? She could have been in that dining room House. How could আপনি have done this? I knew আপনি were capable of hurting me but I never thought আপনি would do anything like this. I never thought আপনি would do anything that would endanger Rachel অথবা me physically. I see I gave আপনি too much credit.
আপনি said,” give me another chance.”
“I can do better”, আপনি said.
"I care about আপনি and I care about Rachel."
Do আপনি remember any of that?
আপনি do anything to avoid pain and আপনি pour your pain out on anyone stupid enough to care anything about you. For years I lied for you, I broke every rule that I put into play at that hospital because I believed in you. I gave আপনি everything আপনি son of a ...I hate আপনি for this House.
He put the letter down for a moment and tried to find a way to take a breath. "She hated him." He deserved it but she had loved him in a way noone ever had.
He went to the closet and pulled out a টেনিস shoe that held the last friend he had in it. He pulled the bottle from the shoe and popped the cap. He would always be able to count on vicodin.
Then her words rang in his ear:
“You do anything to avoid pain.” Those words he remembered so well. She had been right all along. Everything he had done in their relationship had been to avoid anything that would have caused him to lose her. Every decision, no matter how bad was to avoid pain. He stared at the pills for a moment and he realized that Cuddy had been the most beautiful thing in his life and he had done all the damage he wanted to do their memories. He went to the sink and poured the vicodin out. He began pouring all the alcohol out too.
"As he went back to the টেবিল he picked the letter back up."
A few spaces down he saw the words:
“I also প্রণয় you.” আপনি were the দিন I fell in প্রণয় House. আপনি were the most exasperating man I had ever met. আপনি always thought আপনি were right and most of the time আপনি were. I remember all those years of your crazy antics and anyone else would have run away screaming but I just kept getting closer and closer to you.
I knew আপনি though. I knew who আপনি were on the inside. I knew আপনি had been hurt and I also knew how warm and loving আপনি were capable of being.
আপনি were right when আপনি ব্যক্ত I gave আপনি everything আপনি wanted because one night আপনি gave me everything I wanted.
আপনি were my first and ultimately আপনি were my last because nobody ever came close to প্রদর্শিত হচ্ছে me the প্রণয় and affection that আপনি did. Noone ever loved me the way আপনি did. আপনি were so tender and so passionate.
I remember how your hands felt sliding down my waist and lifting my ব্লাউজ over my head and the way আপনি looked at me sent waves of passion through me. আপনি looked at me as if I were the most beautiful woman আপনি had ever saw.
He paused for a moment", as he thought to himself, "you have always been the most beautiful woman I have ever known."
He comtinued reading.
I remember what your lips felt like as they claimed mine and when your body was pressed against mine. I remember the way আপনি looked at me when আপনি had taken every piece of clothes from me. I remember the groans that escaped your lips when আপনি were inside me.
Because I remember those things I will always প্রণয় you. আপনি did make me better. But I didn’t make আপনি better. I became your problem. আপনি kept me at arms length distance with pills, alcohol, and lies. Anything to avoid what আপনি thought would end in ultimate disaster.
The দিন of my surgery আপনি sent people in, hacked my schedule, paid for my test results. But আপনি refused to go through it with me. Instead of doing eveything আপনি could do to figure out what to do আপনি hid and panicked because oyu were afraid of pain.
আপনি thought আপনি had to be miserable to be a good doctor and I would have gladly listened to আপনি about any case. I wanted to be a part of your life and share your life but the only thing আপনি shared with me of yourself was sex. I wanted "you." I loved "you."
House, "you are the most incredible man I have ever known", but I am not what আপনি need.
I am still so mad at আপনি and so hurt that আপনি could put my life and Rachel’s in jeopardy. For that I could never trust আপনি again. I can never do that to Rachel.
I am leaving to get a new start. I will drop all the charges. But all debts are paid in full and we are done. Everything I have done to hurt আপনি অথবা cause আপনি pain is now "paid in full."We could have had it all but আপনি couldn’t take a chance and ultimately I can’t take any আরো chances on you.
Cuddy
As he held the letter tears began to pour from his eyes like rain. No vicodin, no alcohol, no pain numbing methods would be used. This time he would allow himself to feel the pain.
