Don't get it wrong. I still প্রণয় all the Moonwalkers and Michael. I don't want to explain everything that much. Just let আপনি know. Okay. For start I want to say "I didn't become his hater অথবা disliker. I still like and respect Michael. I still প্রণয় you, Moonwalkers" Just I felt that I have to stop. I took off all my MJ stuff in my room. I threw out a lot of it. I unjoined all his সংগঠন here in fanpop. I unsubscribed all his themed channels on youtube. I deleted all my printerest boards with his pics. Just because I didn't want to be his অনুরাগী anymore. I understood that being a অনুরাগী of dead person is not good for me. All this crying, wanting to die to meet him. Sadness. It is not for me. Slowly I হারিয়ে গেছে my interest of him. Stopped to listen to his music, watch his videos. I am planning to change my banner and প্রতীকী in my club. I started a new life - being a অনুরাগী of a lot of different things. চলচ্চিত্র - Me before you, The notebook, Fault in our stars. A lot of others. (I will post pic of my new দেওয়াল decorations so আপনি can see what I like now). I was MJ অনুরাগী a বছর and four months. It's enough for me. Sorry if someone is angry to me অথবা something else like that.