Even though আপনি try, it’s obvious that আপনি don’t suceed. The tears run down your already tear-stained cheeks as আপনি clutch the covers even tighter to your body. আপনি inwardly yelled at yourself - ashamed that you’re still crying. আপনি don’t want to be, but আপনি just can’t help it. Sniffling, আপনি bury your face into the বালিশ and this movement causes Justin’s familiar cologne to fill your nosestrils. আপনি look over at his side of the বিছানা and although আপনি know what’s waiting - your হৃদয় still sinks when আপনি notice it’s empty.

আপনি and Justin had a huge fight and when আপনি look back now, আপনি realize that it is just another stupid reason for the argument. আপনি can barely remember what started the argument and that bothers you. If there isn’t even a good reason for having such a big fight, then is it really worth losing your relationship over? No. And আপনি just can’t lose Justin. আপনি প্রণয় him. আপনি need him. Realizing this and just how important it is, আপনি peel the covers off your body and shakily stand up from the bed.

“Justin?” আপনি call out silently as আপনি reach the bottom step of the stairs. Looking around the corner, আপনি notice Justin sitting on the the পালঙ্ক with his head in his hands. If you’re honest; this is unusual for you. Normally, Justin was the one to apologize. No matter who started it, he would be the first one to say sorry. This time though; আপনি want to be the first one. আপনি want to say sorry because আপনি need to fix everything. আপনি need to be with Justin; আপনি can’t lose him.

“Justin?” The sound of your voice brings him out of his state and he slowly looks up. “C-can we talk?” আপনি croak out and silently pray that he’ll say yes. He nods and আপনি let out a sigh of your relief while walking towards him. Sitting down, আপনি begin to twiddle your thumbs. Tons of feelings rush through your body and আপনি sniffle again, wiping away a tear. This makes Justin look up and his face softens when he sees you. He opens his mouth so say something, but আপনি cut him off দ্বারা raising your hand slightly.

“Justin… I want to apologize for once.” আপনি begin and clear your throat. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry for bitching about everything and for everything I ব্যক্ত during the heat of the moment. I didn’t mean it. I just… Your lifestyle is hard for me sometimes, but I wouldn’t change it for the world. I প্রণয় আপনি and I’m so proud of you. It’s just hard sometimes. With all the rumors and the distance and everything. And… I’m just sorry.”

Before আপনি can continue অথবা do anything else, he wraps আপনি up into his arms. Rocking back and forth in his embrace, he strokes your hair softly. আপনি rest your head in the crook of his neck and concentrate on evening out your breathing. “Do আপনি know how weird it is to hear আপনি apologize first?” Justin croaks out a laugh, shaking his head. আপনি feel his tousled hair tickle your neck and আপনি smile to yourself at his attempt to lighten the mood.

“I wanted to be the first for once. I want আপনি to know that our relationship means just as much to me as to you.” আপনি smile gently, knotting your fingers in his hair.

He moans quietly at this and places a chaste চুম্বন on your collarbone. “I know that, [Y/N]. I’m sorry, too. For everything. It just frustrates me how you’re not happy with me because I’m selfish and I just can’t let আপনি go so আপনি can be happy with someone else. I can’t ভালুক the thought of আপনি with another guy.”

“But I am happy with you, Justin! That’s the thing; I don’t want to be with anyone else. I প্রণয় you. I’m happy with you, I really am.” You’re quick to argue, wanting to get your point across.

“I প্রণয় you, too, [Y/N].”