The weather was cloudy the পরবর্তি day. It was full of sadness and desperation. No word with Robert, no call from Patrick, no news from Emma. I was back to the same situation at the first time in Robert’s house, only worst. Being tortured দ্বারা guilt which was the worst feeling I’ve ever experienced. Killing my husband, betraying my friend what kind of person am I? I myself started to wonder whether I’m good অথবা bad person. I wanted to leave with Patrick আরো than anything. I couldn’t take it anymore being very much locked in the house.
The দিন was very sad. I had a feeling that a tragedy...

In the middle of the sea, I saw myself. Looked around me and saw nothing but water. Going inside, breath is being taken away from me, but I wasn’t fighting. Suddenly Robert appeared with a white horse like a knight his horse was swimming like a boat. He reached his hands shouting “Take my hand Karen” But I didn’t. I smiled then drowned into the deep sea. I woke up feeling that I have drowned for real, and that I couldn’t breathe anymore. Air hardly going into my lungs, a shout went out of my mouth. And Robert was in the room with in two seconds. I looked at him with no word. What...

That hug and this conversation was the beginning of the end in my life out of prison. Though it was very beautiful, very romantic, and seemed very right it was wrong. It turned to daily visits at nine o’clock sharp, when we were sure Robert would be picking up Ellen. We used to spend an ঘন্টা of love, me in his arms, talking about anything in this world. A week passed, I started to visit Emma আরো and attending all her parties, for nothing but to have an extra ঘন্টা with Patrick even though we couldn’t do anything but to steal a dreamy look, while no one is looking, অথবা spend five minutes...

“Karen … Karen” I heard a gentle voice. I opened my eyes to find Robert waking me up gently with his strong hands, and his beautiful big green eyes gazing at me worriedly. I have cried so much since Patrick left and I slept on the পালঙ্ক in the living room.
“What’s wrong?” He ব্যক্ত handling me a cup of water. I took it and lifted it to my lips “I heard আপনি weeping while আপনি are asleep অথবা I wouldn’t wake আপনি up”
“I did?” I ব্যক্ত calmly with my eyes fixed on the cup
“Yes, আপনি did. Are আপনি sure আপনি are ok?”
“Yes, yes I’m fine. Just felt to lonely I guess” I ব্যক্ত coolly...

After Patrick left, I had a restless night. I couldn’t sleep feeling that I’m a prisoner in those four walls in my room. I couldn’t sit quietly all night, nor slept for a brief moment. After all, Patrick’s visit was quite unexpected, and I wasn’t ready to see him that day. Also what was weird about his visit, that during all these two weeks he didn’t pay, not even a brief visit, to Robert’s house.
Wandering around my room with my pajama on, didn’t help me to sleep, nor comforted my restless mind. As I didn’t see him during these two weeks, I thought that those feelings I...

My passport seemed to be taking so long to be ready. And Emma’s cousin seemed to be taken দ্বারা the beauty and charm in Europe. I had a life that didn’t mean anything, sleep, eat, and drink. Not even working. It’s been two weeks since I’m in Robert’s house. Emma visited me whenever she could. I didn’t dare to walk two steps after the front door of the house অথবা the পরবর্তি thing I’d be seeing is me on the ground, my hands behind my head and taken to prison to spend probably the rest of my life in it.
Among everything I didn’t have the slightest feeling of guilt. I thought I was right...