I always knew
But I refused
To believe it
Cause I hoped
That somehow
She would accept me
For who I really am
But she didn't
I'm nothing to her
She doesn't care
I think she'd rather have
That I would close my eyes
And never open them again
I know that she wanted
A girly daughter
One that loves make-up
Dresses and shoes
But I'm not like that
I don't want to be like that
So she hates me
I wish
That I was born into another family
That loved me for who I am
That sometimes would say that I look pretty
That they প্রণয় me
That they care
My family only cares about my little sister
And her stupid boyfriend
Cause she's so cool
She can do anything
Everyone loves her
And she's perfect
While I feel down all the time
And I don't look pretty
I look average
And I can't do anything better
Oh cruel world
Just let me die
I hate this life
I hate my life
Could আপনি please pull out the key
That keeps my হৃদয় going
It would give me peace
Then I could go
To a place where I'm loved
For who I am
Wouldn't that be wonderful?
It sure would be
I close my eyes
And slowly drift away
To that wonderful heaven
I tried
I really did
I held onto that rope
That single red line
That kept me from falling
Into nothingness
But আপনি broke it
My only thing
To hold onto
My নিরাপদ heaven
How could you?
I'm so হারিয়ে গেছে without my red line
I don't know what to do anymore
আপনি know how it feels?
It feels like seeing something that আপনি always wanted
And being almost able to touch it
But then it falls apart
Right before your eyes
And আপনি can never get it back again
No matter how hard আপনি try
That's how I feel right now
Broken
Alone
Missing my direction
Are আপনি happy now?
That আপনি shattered my last hope?
That আপনি made my life meaningless?
Failing grades are not awful
আপনি know what's awful?
Letting someone believe that they'll pass
And then give them a failing mark
I'm afraid
Afraid of what I'll do
To myself
I'm afraid
Cause whenever I'm alone
The feeling of ending it all
Becomes stronger and stronger
I'm afraid that those feelings
Will someday cause me to lose myself
And that I'll do something
That can't be undone
I'm afraid of that side of me
Cause I feel like it's taking me over
Closing me of from the world
Slowly eating me
Until I'm no more
Than a few pieces of dust
Help me.....
I don't know what to do
What to feel
What to say
Please
Release me
From this pain
From these feelings
Set me free
Take of those chains
That are pulling me
Into the darkness
I want to be happy
I want to smile
So will আপনি please help me?
I used to feel well
Why can't I go back?
To the time I did
Laughing happily
Without a care in the world
Not caring
What other people thought
Now I tremble
My muscles tense
I feel nauseous
I want to dissappear
I'm not smiling anymore
I just can't do it
My mouth is formed
Into a big, straight line
How did I laugh?
When did I feel ok?
I can't remember
A wall
So high that I can't see the sky
Is forming around me
Making it impossible to escape
I close my eyes
And fall into the darkness
Finally free
Of this painful life
I'm jealous of you
And I hate myself for it
The way আপনি seem to be liked দ্বারা everyone
To get everything I ever wanted
But could never have
The way আপনি seem to have a talent for everything
While I can't do anything right
The world is cruel, isn't it?
I wish I was perfect too
Although no one is perfect
I know
But to me
It seems like আপনি are
I wish I could be happy for you
I really do
But I just can't
I'm sorry
I'm awful
I know
Why does everyone despise me?
I don't understand
It hurts
And it doesn't
It's hard to explain
How I feel
I wish I could just die
But I can't
Since I'm a coward
Life
Pain
Suffering
Where is love?
There isn't any
Cruel, isn't it?
But that's just the way it is
Deal with it
The night was cold
A strong wind
was blowing
I looked out of the window
Hoping that the darkness
would somehow dissappear
How are আপনি doing?
Do আপনি still think about me?
As much as I think about you?
আপনি must have forgotten about me
I guess I wasn't that important to you
Was I?
Snowflakes
Falling on the ground
Like autumn leaves
Representing I হারিয়ে গেছে you
When I look out of the window
I hope that you
Will remember me somehow
Foolish thoughts
I shoud stop this
I wish I could
The night was cold
Wet snow drew lines on the window
The night was crying
Leaving her tears behind
