The দিন আপনি died, Michael, everything stopped for me, as hard as I tried, I couldn't get আপনি off my mind. The question, of course, is why? Why did I never feel one thing for আপনি until that day? Why did আপনি have such an effect on me? Why you? Of all the men in the world, why you? I প্রণয় you. There's আপনি answer: I প্রণয় YOU. আপনি are the one, the one I was put on this earth to be with. I know, of course, there are obstacles in the way of that: you're 37 years older than me, you're not alive anymore, & on শীর্ষ of it all, there's no possible way you'd ever feel the same about me. But I don't expect to be loved back the same, I only want to know that আপনি don't hate me for my past actions, & that you're finally at peace with life & with yourself.
I know there were times in your life that weren't so easy to deal with, but they're all in the past. The past is gone & it can never come back again, sometimes that's a good thing. It really hurts me to see how hurt আপনি were then, even if I never felt it then. Like when Lisa Marie filed for divorce. Seeing her break your হৃদয় like that, it made me feel like punching her lights out, because I know how much আপনি loved her. অথবা when আপনি were sued for child molestation, আপনি were forever scarred দ্বারা that, I'm sure. I wish I could've been beside you, to be your reminder that everything would be alright in the end.
আপনি know, everyone worries about the way they look, but they know they'll do something to themselves & look beautiful afterwards. But at times, আপনি never thought you'd be attractive no matter what আপনি did. আপনি hated your appearence so much, আপনি even went so far as to call yourself an "ugly lizard"(or something like that, I don't know exactly how আপনি ব্যক্ত it). I wish আপনি hadn't ব্যক্ত that, you're not even close to unattractive let alone ugly. When I look at you, I see surpassing beauty. আপনি are beautiful, Michael, please believe me! I know I'm not the only one who thinks so, I'll bet most of the people who read this প্রবন্ধ will agree with me. To be totally honest, sometimes when I look at you, your beauty makes me jealous.
If I could sum আপনি up in just 3 words, beautiful would be the first, the সেকেন্ড would be loving. আপনি see so many যশস্বী out there promoting causes for whatever, but most of them are only doing it to promote themselves. আপনি did things like tht because it was the right thing to do, & আপনি cared. আপনি cared so much for the charity work you, the people আপনি helped, etc. আপনি have such a good heart, Michael; in fact it's where most of your beauty comes from. Your প্রণয় for the planet, children, your family, your fans, etc. That in itself is pretty amazing. You've forever engraved yourself into the hearts of your family, friends, & fans, especially me. আপনি touched me, & now I declare my প্রণয় for you. My প্রণয় for আপনি is nothing butpure & genuine, for if I'm lying, may I be struck to my death & sent directly to hell.
Unlike most girls my age, I know what true প্রণয় is: it's the eternal force that unites 2 people. It must be real অথবা it's just infatuation. They must be willing to look past all obstacles & go to the ends of the earth for each other. I am willing to do that for you, Michael, because I know that if I can be as close to your হৃদয় as আপনি are to mine, than it's all worth it. Beautiful, loving, & the final word would be forever. Your love, your memory, আপনি are forever. আপনি made your mark on history, the world will never forget August 29, 1958, November 30, 1982, May 16, 1983, & most of all, June 25, 2009. It's truly as if you're still alive because you've got your অনুরাগী on earth who'll work to sustain your memory forever.
আপনি know, I still wonder, আপনি used to think আপনি were unloved, but then আপনি had your kids & knew otherwise. If আপনি never had your kids, would আপনি still have died knowing আপনি were loved? I don't know what your response would be to this, Michael, but I know if every single person in the world today who loves আপনি died, the world would be a whole lot smaller. Even if all those people were against you, you'd still have one girl who'll always be true to you: ME. Fate brought me to আপনি & now I'll never go back, I simply can't. I প্রণয় আপনি too much to abandon you, believe me. If আপনি were পাঠ করা this, আপনি might think of me as a silly young girl who's either pitifully desperate, অথবা certifiably insane, অথবা even just plain stupid to think such thoughts, but I know আপনি could never break my হৃদয় lke that, you're too sweet:)
Michael, I'm your friend, I'm always on your side, I'll always প্রণয় you, I'm waiting everyday, & praying every week for your entrance into heaven. Do আপনি think if I was lying about anything I've written so far, that I'd spend an ঘন্টা in church every week praying for you? Not that I'm making any accusations , I'm just saying. But like আপনি ব্যক্ত "If আপনি enter this world knowing you're loved, & আপনি leave this world knowing the same, than everything in between can be dealt with." Now that I've fallen in প্রণয় with you, I know now আরো than ever that I can get through anything, as long as I have আপনি & God beside me. Michael, I wrote this letter to fully express my feelings for you, so I'll close it in summary: MICHAEL JACKSON, I WILL ALWAYS প্রণয় আপনি <3
